Okay, hello guys ... this one is a bit serious and different from the previous ones .... i hope you all like it .... it oscillates a bit ... I hope you all understand it .....
Engulfed In Darkness For LifeWe were high school sweethearts but then she decided that we should separate because our relationship didn't have a future .... with all the means I tried to convince her but it all went in vain .... she was adamant about her decision ... it was not that she didn't love me, actually she loved me more than I loved her but she wanted to call it off .... I still remember that fateful night .... from passed few days, she was ignoring my phone calls and was not talking to me, so I decided to call her ... it was 12:00 AM and I knew she would be awake ......
Mayank - Nupur, kya hua hai?
Nupur (cracking voice) - Kuch bhi to nahi ....
Mayank - Phir tum mujhe phone kyun nahi karti, mera phone kyun nahi uthaati ....
Nupur (stammering) - Mujhe .... muj.he tum.s.se baat karni hai ....
Mayank (concerned) - Kaho na ....
Nupur - Mayank, humein ye relationship ... todh dena chaahiye ....
The world crashed when she said that ....
Mayank - Kya? Par kyun?
Nupur - Kyunki iska koi future nahi hai .... hum kabhi saath nahi reh paayenge .... kabhi nahi, ek dusre se door rehne mein hi humaari bhalaai hai .... please Mayank, please ......
This was the first time, she spoke so much ... I tried to convince her, for the first time, we were not letting the other speak but she was very determined .... an hour passed but she was firm about it and unfortunately I had to obey her decision and hence we never met or called each other .... whenever I went weak, I would call her but she would never pick my phone or reply to my messages .... I couldn't understand what was happening, I was young, she was 16 and I, 17 .... I hated her for doing this to our relationship but I couldn't remove her from my heart .... she was special, very special .......
Nupur looked like a damsel in distress, her innocent eyes never shined or sparkled but were empty and deep .... I bet, anyone could drown in her eyes .... she had really long hair, I had never seen a girl with such long hair which added to her sweet personality .... she was a very quiet girl and would just smile, I had never seen her laugh ..... her smile never reached her eyes .... she was beautiful yet was pale .... she reminded me of characters of Gothic stories ... she was a mystery ... never mingled with anyone, always lived in her loneliness .... I admired her, loved her and she did it too ... even more than that .... in my voice, she found hers ... I felt she was really an introvert but I couldn't understand her then and I still can't understand her .....
I tried to move on and fairly I succeeded, I scored really well in my boards and I was very good in the university as well and Nupur, topped the board exams and was also the university topper .... she was perfect ... it's just that she was not expressive or was very much into her bubble to notice life around her but me .... I wish I could understand her then ..... I wish I could see it .... I wish ....
Today, 7 years after that fateful night, I came to her place, to find some evidences; something that could help me understand my love ..... and then I found a diary with pale off-white pages, dust over them but yet very attractive and I decided to read it right away ......
I could see her beautiful writing, it was like pearls ... the blue ink told her feelings, this was the first time I noticed that what actually she was ......
She had penned down each and every feeling of hers in that diary and then I realised how lonely she actually was, captivated, bounded, isolated .... how she craved for love ... why she could never express what she felt ... why she was like that .....
Her father was a drunkard, never paid attention towards the family and one day just disappeared to never come back to them ... her mother was young and didn't want to live a life of captivation and searched for love but forgot that she had a daughter who wanted affection, protection but received only rebuff .... Nupur didn't have a choice but to accept the isolation ... she started loving the darkness because she couldn't see the light anywhere .... she lost all hopes of getting loved by her mother ..... she was deprived of it, completely .....
She dreamnt that she was walking through a thick forest, following someone, who hates her and then a trap falls on her and she is captivated ... once she dreamnt that she was surrounded by fire and no one came to save her ... such terrible dreams always woke her at nights with sweat but there was no one who would make her sleep again ... I knew she didn't sleep often but now I knew why, why she didn't want to sleep - she was scared of those terrible dreams of hers ... I wish she would have told me about it, but she didn't utter a single word, ever ....
But I couldn't understand why she deprived me of loving her, why she wanted to go away from me ... I could have rescued her and showered my love on her for the rest of our lives ... these questions rang in my mind but soon I got the answer ..... she knew that her life was nothing but a ruin and she didn't want my life to be ruined ... she wanted a better life for me and thought that if she goes away from my life, my life would blossom and not wither like hers .... I wish I could know what was in her mind, this wouldn't have happened ... why did she love me so much ... why she had to leave, why I didn't I realise it then, something was troubling her .... so many questions but not a single answer ....
Their house got on fire and her mother died in the shock, Nupur was left with her uncle who was the worst human being possible ... he harassed my love ... deprived her of everything ... didn't let her be in peace ... the only ray of light in her life; he snatched away that as well ... she was not secure with him ... she was just pushed in darkness ... I wish I was there when it all happened .... I could have saved her .... she couldn't do anything for herself .... couldn't utter a word or raise her voice against anything .... I wish I didn't try to run away from her .... the last sentence in her diary was what she craved for, all her life which she couldn't get from anyone - not even me ....
Peace, satisfaction, joys, smiles, colours, light, freedom, hopes and love was what I wanted and dreamnt of getting one day, not anymore ... no more ... no more ...... 7 years had passed, just yesterday I returned from New York when I got that news, the world beneath me slipped away, my breath just stopped and I couldn't believe what I heard ..... the only love of my life, whom I tried to hate from past 7 years but failed miserably was completely ruined .... my Nupur, was in a Mental Asylum .... for past 5 years .... I couldn't believe it .... how was it possible .... I decided to find the reason behind her insanity and complete madness .....
I went to her ruined bungalow which looked like some haunted place and there I found her diary .... my friend Samrat told me that she was last seen here and then was taken to the Asylum .... he told me that her uncle died due to heart failure ... how could he die due to this when he didn't have a heart at all ... I wanted to punish him for what he did to her but I couldn't .....
Samrat was taking me to that place, he too was going to see her for the first time in these 7 years ... as we drove their I realised that it was not just her uncle but her father, her mother were too behind her destruction ... the poor soul just wanted the basic things a human being wanted but she didn't get it, nothing, zilch ..... tears rolled down my eyes .... Samrat didn't want to accompany me ... alone, I went inside and inquired about her ... they took me to a dark room ....
Nurse - For the first time, someone has come to see her .... visiting time is for 2 hours then you may leave ....
I built up the courage to face her .... she sat in the extreme corner of the room, isolated .... not a single ray of light touched her, darkness surrounded her ... her hair, still beautiful covered her face ... I slowly moved towards her and kept my hand on her arm ... she saw me, our eyes met ... hers were still empty, mine were moist ... she blankly stared at me as tears rolled down my eyes .... she didn't recognize me, I couldn't see her like that and rushed out .... the doctor told me that she suffered terminal madness ... my already broken heart, broke once again ....
I just wished that she died as soon as possible ... it's terrible to wish this for your love ... but I wanted her to break free from her captivation called life .... she had had enough ... I just wanted her to walk towards the light and rest in peace ... Unlike my other wishes, this one came true ... 2 months later she died or I should say, she freed herself .... finally the light embraced her .... I cremated her and let her soul rest in peace .... Nupur wherever you are, I just want to say that I love you and I am happy for you ....
A Painful Life Ended And She Went Away Towards A New Journey ..... I Wish She Didn't Have To Suffer So Much .... I Wish I Could Love Her, I Wish I Could Bring Her The Peace She Wanted ... But I Am Happy That She Got What She Deserved .... My Love Would Finally Be Happy .....
Edited by sonam961986 - 15 years ago
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