Guys please don't apologise nor hesitate to ask what you don't understand... Because I am trying to create some suspense in the story... I am probably not giving out too much information at a go... I sort of want it to trickle down slowly... Through memories and situations. I understand the characters and their emotional state in my mind and it could be that I am not reflecting it in my writing. Please ask away and I will reply and give you answers to what I am thinking towards the characters and the plot.
I apologise for not having clarity in the previous chapters.
Chapter 4
Ragav smiles as he watches his three favourite women Molly coddle Pakhi, each crying away as they wipe the others tears. Shaking his head at the irony, he silently walks into the Kitchener have a drink of water.
Turning around he sees Kalpi by the entrance, watching him... Silently asking him if he okay. Smiling into her worried eyes, he says, "I am fine." She asks worriedly, "you won't leave her just because..." Leaving the sentence unfinished. He shakes his head, surprised that he felt no anger over her question. Relief pouring in, she says, "I am glad. For I could never admire someone who cannot stay true to their commitments." Smiling he says teasingly, "maybe it is because I know you will stop admiring me," winks and leaves.
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Pakhi nervously waits for Ragav, pacing across the bedroom. Hearing the door shut, she turns towards the entrance. Seeing ragav, she blurts out her fears, "have you stopped loving me? Are you going to leave me?" Frowning, Ragav steps into the room, stops in front of Pakhi, asking, "would you leave me if I were the one with the medical disadvantage?" "No. Never," Pakhi replies, continues, "I want us to consider surrogacy." Ragav nods and says, "why not. Let us look into it."
Watching him take his wallet and keys from the dresser, Pakhi asks, "where are you going?" Ragav answers as he heads out, "office. I have a conference call to attend to in half an hour." he stops at the entrance, turns, looks at her softly and says, "don't wait up."
Ragav drives towards the office, guilt eating him, still reeling from the impact of seeing the vulnerability in Pakhi's eyes when she asked him if he still loved her... If he would leave her.
He parks the car at the office, cursing himself for his neglect... For losing himself in a fantasy. His heart and mind battling it out.
Heart: you love Kalpi.
Mind: you are married. Your love should be reserved for your wife.
Heart: one does not choose who to love. It just happens.
Mind: have you done anything to fall back in love with your wife.
Heart: no
Mind: does Kalpi love you? Does she want to marry you?
Heart: she loves me because Kamla maa loves me.
Mind: why waste your time on dreams that will not realise?
Heart: I love her
Mind: yes you do. But it is too late.
Slamming his hand on the steering wheels, Ragav says angrily, "very late. Damn! God why did I have to fall in love with her after my marriage!"
Staring bleakly ahead, Ragav asks himself, "what would Kalpi want you to do?" He replies, "she would want me to keep Pakhi happy. She would be alarmed if she ever found out that I love her and not Pakhi. She will never accept it. I will lose her friendship." He panics, thinking, "I can never lose her."
Edited by angelpureness - 10 years ago