Pal bhar thahar jaao
Dil ye sambhal jaaye
Kaise tumhe roka karun
He was leaving...again. She saw a sullen pushkar carrying his bag out. Kamini aunty and vandy bhabi were chirping and talking animatedly probably preparing for their act. She wished she could be as happy as they were, wished it did not hurt wished wished it did not feel like her heart was being wrenched from her chest like he was going to take it with him, wished he would stop, wished she could stop him.
Meri taraf aata har gham phisal jaaye
Aankhon mein tum ko bharun
Another tear slipped. She never really cried not the strong sumo not when mamiji constantly reminded her of being a burden not when she couldn't go to us not even when her family accused her of being a liar she hurt but she never cried, only he,he made her cry. It astounded her how these drops of salt and water slipped so easily for him like he owned them, the way he owned her heart.
Bin bole baatein tumse karun
Agar tum saath ho..
Don't go shravan please don't leave me again she thought as a tall figure emerged from the mansion door; there he was hugging aunty and vandy bhabhi who were now crying like they cared, like they wanted him to stay; like they loved him; the way she did. There were so many things she wanted to say; there were so many words that were left unsaid. "I know you are angry I know that you hurt , I know that these past years you have been through hell because I have been through it too. I know it and I am sorry, I am sorry for what I did and I am sorry for what I didn't do. I am sorry that your mother left; sorry for humiliating you, sorry for not being there; sorry for not telling you how I feel how I felt all these years; sorry for watching you leave from the shadows. I am sorry for not saying sorry because I thought you knew, I thought you would know, you would know my pain my anger my emptiness; you would know all this and you will come to me and together we would heal each other." She thought this and much more as she saw him get in the car and drive away taking with him her heart; her happiness; her friend; her love; her shravan.
