As I stand out in the crowded balcony resting my spine by the wooden pillars that support the framing of the 2 storey of old brothel I can feel the freezing cold blow of air kissing pass my body barely well dressed just wrapped up in a short blouse revealing my cleavage and a saree draped in an untidy manner tied below my navel exposing my milky white skin which makes the wolves around howl and the hunger seen in their eyes'. No one is less compared to anyone here.
"Moniya Moniya" I hear the bai calling out my name. I turn my back around to see her stomping her feet and coming towards me.
Bai : Moniya ye kya naya natak laga rakha hai huh tujhe yaha A one ladki kaha jatah hai iska matlab ye nahi kit u apne app ko Kareena Kapoor samjh ne lage'
(giggling of the girls around me can be heard) maine tujhse kya kaha thaa ki who bade saab ko acche se entertain karna par tune'.. kyu mana kiya uske sath jane ke liye??
I stand there keeping quiet listening to all her blabbering and tired she walks off
Bai: akhri baar keh rahi hoon Moniya sudhar jaa warna mujhe acche se atah haii tujh jesi ko line mai lana
*sigh* as she goes off I again turn around to see the crowded brothel market. The hookers and the clients bargaining on their price, others trying to seduce the customers and what not'.. I go back to my memories of my hometown Shimla where I was brought up where I spent 18 yrs of my childhood but alas 6 mths ago the person who raised me my so called Uncle (verbal relationship) sold me off for just 20,000 but I don't blame him nor do I blame anyone for this as I believe this was my fate and nothing could and can change. Trust me I didn't drop a single tear after entering into this filthy little world I just accepted it and thought it to be my home I got few friends like Soni, Chikki'' well I didn't expect my life to be like a princess so as no expectations no shattering of dreams no tears no despair and no regret or complains in life this was the prime motto I made for my life.
As I was lost in my own thoughts Chikki comes and nudges me I raise my eyebrows as asking her "what" she points her eye down to show a black Land Rover parked below the brothel.
Chikki: Loh agya tera deewana (giggles along with Soni)
Moniya : tum log bhi naa'..
Well the fact was a black Land Rover always used to wait down the brothel every night since these 2 mths lately and what Miss Soni and Chikki believed was that the person sitting in the car is supposed to be my lover or so but actually we never knew who was in the car as it had full drawn black shade window pane but we just could assume it for a guy. But whoever he was never came down the car or drew the shades of the car down so we didn't even have a slightest bit of hint of who he was or how did he look.
2 days later'..
We saw the same car parked below now I really had this urge to find out who he was but we were forbidden to take a step out of this brothel until the customer desired or paid high for it but I figured out my way out of it as I knew the Bai's left hand Akash who supplied the girls to her had hots for me so I took his help to go down and actually stand next to his car but to my surprise still the person in the car didn't get out or had courtesy to actually show his face. I stayed there for like 10 mins or so but still he wasn't making a move but suddenly the Bai saw me down she came down screaming my name "Moniya Moniya"
Bai: Moniya tujhe path hai naa ki yaha neeche ana mana hai bina meri izzat toh kaise aii tuh yaha'' chall (she was literally dragging me and even slapped me once or twice)
At that very moment like a filmy movie a tall dark handsome guy gets out of the car from the back and stands in front of Bai and me strong headed, confident. I saw that he was a well built man really handsome not the kind of guy who comes to a place like this.
Guy: inhe chod dijiyee'.(looking at me)
Bai: kuyn?? Tu lejayega isse?
Guyy: haan'.
Bai: thekk haii upar ake baat karna
Guy: nahi hum yahi thekk hai'. Hume inhe yaha se lekar jana hai'
Bai: (looking at him from top to bottom) aree wah dekhne mai toh acche gar se lagte hoo' sheriff bhi lagte toh'.. kuyn dil agya iss paar'' (she starts laughing) theek haii 2,00,000 lungi
I looked at Bai in shock. I knew very well what she was doing no one would spend that amount in a hooker if he was not wise enough that is.
Guy: 15,00,000 deta hun apko iss yaha se humesha ke liye lekar jane ke liye'
I and rest of the others open the mouth in utter shock I actually self pinched myself to check if this was the reality but yes it was he was actually offering it I looked at Akash whos face was red with rage and jealousy.
Bai : theek hai ka lake lekar jana issee pure paisa k sath'
We were about to turn when
Guy: rukiyee paise mere pass haii abhi iss waqt (then his driver comes out with a big brief case a very expensive one it looked and handed it to Bai)
Bai: jaa Moniyaa tuu azad haii' (she pushed me towards the guy)
But I, I was still I nutter shock that this was actually happening I walked along the guy till his car and as he opened the doors for me I looked back to see my friends Chiki and Soni who were happly waving at me I too waved at them and I felt some hot liquid near my eye and as I waved them bye and I sat in the car and waved them bye till my eyes could reach them.
After sometime as we were speeding away from the brothel area I knew what was coming next so I waited I just checked to my right side to see if he was getting ready but I was shocked to see him looking out of the window. I was a bit anxious that he just brought me here for nothing for the first time I felt bad that a person was not interested in me but he rather found it amusing to look at the passing roads vehicles trees people and what not. I stayed in my seat annoyed and after sometime I slept in the car seat'..
I was woken up by the buzzing horns of the vehicles I slowly got up yawning and I felt my drooling all over my hands I was about to wipe it in my saree just then he offered me his handkerchief to wipe it off well I felt kind of embarrassed and wiped it off.
Guy: Hi mera naam Udaybeer hai aur tumhara?
Me: Moniya
UV: toh Moniya tumhe bhook lagi haii? Samne dhaba haii
Me: (I could feel my stomach making some noise) umm''woh'.
He took that as an yes and ordered his driver to bring in some food. We were quietly having the naaan and tandoori and the food was really good I was getting bored so I decided to begin the conversation.
Me: toh who tum hi hona jo humesha humari kothi ke necche gadi lagta haii'..
He just noded nothing more.
Me: kuyn? Mujhse pyaar hogaya hai kya??
Udaybeer: mai shadi shuda hoon aur mere doo bache haii
He looked at me for a while after giving his answer and again turned another side again facing the window and now I found it really strange. A person who dosent love me , who has a family and nor does he wants to sleep with me what did he actually want.
Me: dekho tum agar mujhsee koi aisa waisa kaam karana chateh ho toh'.
UV: come'on Moniya tum khud ye keh rahi hoo jo pehele se hi''.
He stopped there but I got what did he mean to say and that pinched me only a bit. I decided not to have any more conversation as I had a strong feeling he was not interested in me or my talks.
As I looked out of the window pane I saw that the dawn was soon approaching I saw few faint rays of sun encroaching the sky and the chirping of the birds. Well it had certainly been a long night. I see that we are somewhere down the highway but I had no idea where we were heading to nor did I bother to ask. After a mile or a two across the car stopped at a big gate I tried looking over the gate but all in vain. As the large gates opened I saw a beautiful house with a big garden with all sorts of colorful flowers and a small fountain in the middle the car stopped at the doorway of the house I looked at UV and he signaled me to get out. I got out and stretched a bit as I had been in the stiff position for a long time my body had started aching but looking at the beautiful heaven on earth I didn't care the rest.
He walked in the house and I followed the house was lavishly decorated with all modern sorts of furniture's and modern technologies like a big flat screen tv stereo and all. He walked up the stairs and I followed him like a lost puppy. He led me into one of the rooms t seemed like a bedroom a really huge one those I only saw in TVs, the ones which used to be owned by filthy rich people I gazed my eyes across the rooms and the wondering eyes caught hold of one of the photograph hugely framed and placed right in front of the bed. I was dumb founded in the picture Udaybeer was in a wedding sherwani looking really handsome like a prince and the girl sitting next to him his wife really beautiful dressed in red lehenga beautifully embroidered and the beautiful girl was none other than me in the photograph. I was literally in shock I didn't know how to react I was completely blank I looked at him for answers.
Me: keh kya?? Kaise?? Yeh toh bilkul'.
UV: tumhari tarah dikhti hainaa'. Yeh meri biwi Manyata Singh haii duniya ki sabse khoobsoorat ladki jise hum bahot pyar karte thee par 1 saal pehle inki ek car accident mai moot hogayii'. (I could see the pain in his eyes when he was saying this) aur 2 mahine pehle hum jab apki galiyo se guzar rahe thee toh humari nazar appe padi hum sochkar kitna kush huyee ki app Manyata haii jo lot kar humare pass ayii haii'.. par jab humne dekha ki app ek'' (he didn't take the word out) hum eek pal ke liye sahi laga ki'. Par ye sab toh filmo mai hotah haii real life mai nahii'.. hum us din se haar raat pake yaha ateh thee ye jaane ke liye ki app Manyata hai ya koi aur aur dheere dheere hume patah clane laga ki app humari Manyata nahi hai balki koi aur hai'.
Me: (still trying to process what he said) toh apne hume yaha''
UV: humne yaha app ko iss liye leh aye kuynki bhale hi appp humari Manyata nahoo par apki shkal unse milti julti haii aur yaha tak ki apki kuch bate unki yaad dilate haii'. Hum apko yaha iss liye laye Moniya taki app ek acchi aur nayi zindagi shuru kar sake'. Uss nark se kahi behetar'. Apko age ke liye bahot shub kama nayee'..
He was about to leave when he came closer to me I could feel his breath across my face and a strong masculine perfume smell from his body and I was lost in the smell he slowly brushed his lips across mine very gently I took in readily I kissed him back with all passion and slightly the wind was blowing in the room creating a perfect romantic scene like in the Hindi movies and after a point he stopped and let my lips go free''.
UV: apna khayal rakhiye gaa Moniyaa''
He got out of the room and I heard his footsteps down the stairs and then after a few minutes I heard the car start and making its way out of the gates I hurriedly looked out of the balcony and saw the car drive off the house and again I felt thick liquid running down the cheeks'.
Me: Thank You Udaybeer''.
Present (10 yrs later) :
As I stand in the balcony again the fresh breeze blows across and touches my well covered body I can now breath fresh air, the air which reminds me of my freedom, the freedom I never hoped for nor asked but just given to me by the angel sent by God by the name of "Udaybeer"'.. today whenever I get time out of my busy schedule of "women counseling" I stand here in the balcony remembering the past events which is still fresh and vivid in my mind'. I can't thank him enough for granting me this new life'..
As I stand out in the crowded balcony resting my spine by the wooden pillars that support the framing of the 2 storey of old brothel I can feel the freezing cold blow of air kissing pass my body barely well dressed just wrapped up in a short blouse revealing my cleavage and a saree draped in an untidy manner tied below my navel exposing my milky white skin which makes the wolves around howl and the hunger seen in their eyes'. No one is less compared to anyone here.
"Moniya Moniya" I hear the bai calling out my name. I turn my back around to see her stomping her feet and coming towards me.
Bai : Moniya ye kya naya natak laga rakha hai huh tujhe yaha A one ladki kaha jatah hai iska matlab ye nahi kit u apne app ko Kareena Kapoor samjh ne lage'
(giggling of the girls around me can be heard) maine tujhse kya kaha thaa ki who bade saab ko acche se entertain karna par tune'.. kyu mana kiya uske sath jane ke liye??
I stand there keeping quiet listening to all her blabbering and tired she walks off
Bai: akhri baar keh rahi hoon Moniya sudhar jaa warna mujhe acche se atah haii tujh jesi ko line mai lana
*sigh* as she goes off I again turn around to see the crowded brothel market. The hookers and the clients bargaining on their price, others trying to seduce the customers and what not'.. I go back to my memories of my hometown Shimla where I was brought up where I spent 18 yrs of my childhood but alas 6 mths ago the person who raised me my so called Uncle (verbal relationship) sold me off for just 20,000 but I don't blame him nor do I blame anyone for this as I believe this was my fate and nothing could and can change. Trust me I didn't drop a single tear after entering into this filthy little world I just accepted it and thought it to be my home I got few friends like Soni, Chikki'' well I didn't expect my life to be like a princess so as no expectations no shattering of dreams no tears no despair and no regret or complains in life this was the prime motto I made for my life.
As I was lost in my own thoughts Chikki comes and nudges me I raise my eyebrows as asking her "what" she points her eye down to show a black Land Rover parked below the brothel.
Chikki: Loh agya tera deewana (giggles along with Soni)
Moniya : tum log bhi naa'..
Well the fact was a black Land Rover always used to wait down the brothel every night since these 2 mths lately and what Miss Soni and Chikki believed was that the person sitting in the car is supposed to be my lover or so but actually we never knew who was in the car as it had full drawn black shade window pane but we just could assume it for a guy. But whoever he was never came down the car or drew the shades of the car down so we didn't even have a slightest bit of hint of who he was or how did he look.
2 days later'..
We saw the same car parked below now I really had this urge to find out who he was but we were forbidden to take a step out of this brothel until the customer desired or paid high for it but I figured out my way out of it as I knew the Bai's left hand Akash who supplied the girls to her had hots for me so I took his help to go down and actually stand next to his car but to my surprise still the person in the car didn't get out or had courtesy to actually show his face. I stayed there for like 10 mins or so but still he wasn't making a move but suddenly the Bai saw me down she came down screaming my name "Moniya Moniya"
Bai: Moniya tujhe path hai naa ki yaha neeche ana mana hai bina meri izzat toh kaise aii tuh yaha'' chall (she was literally dragging me and even slapped me once or twice)
At that very moment like a filmy movie a tall dark handsome guy gets out of the car from the back and stands in front of Bai and me strong headed, confident. I saw that he was a well built man really handsome not the kind of guy who comes to a place like this.
Guy: inhe chod dijiyee'.(looking at me)
Bai: kuyn?? Tu lejayega isse?
Guyy: haan'.
Bai: thekk haii upar ake baat karna
Guy: nahi hum yahi thekk hai'. Hume inhe yaha se lekar jana hai'
Bai: (looking at him from top to bottom) aree wah dekhne mai toh acche gar se lagte hoo' sheriff bhi lagte toh'.. kuyn dil agya iss paar'' (she starts laughing) theek haii 2,00,000 lungi
I looked at Bai in shock. I knew very well what she was doing no one would spend that amount in a hooker if he was not wise enough that is.
Guy: 15,00,000 deta hun apko iss yaha se humesha ke liye lekar jane ke liye'
I and rest of the others open the mouth in utter shock I actually self pinched myself to check if this was the reality but yes it was he was actually offering it I looked at Akash whos face was red with rage and jealousy.
Bai : theek hai ka lake lekar jana issee pure paisa k sath'
We were about to turn when
Guy: rukiyee paise mere pass haii abhi iss waqt (then his driver comes out with a big brief case a very expensive one it looked and handed it to Bai)
Bai: jaa Moniyaa tuu azad haii' (she pushed me towards the guy)
But I, I was still I nutter shock that this was actually happening I walked along the guy till his car and as he opened the doors for me I looked back to see my friends Chiki and Soni who were happly waving at me I too waved at them and I felt some hot liquid near my eye and as I waved them bye and I sat in the car and waved them bye till my eyes could reach them.
After sometime as we were speeding away from the brothel area I knew what was coming next so I waited I just checked to my right side to see if he was getting ready but I was shocked to see him looking out of the window. I was a bit anxious that he just brought me here for nothing for the first time I felt bad that a person was not interested in me but he rather found it amusing to look at the passing roads vehicles trees people and what not. I stayed in my seat annoyed and after sometime I slept in the car seat'..
I was woken up by the buzzing horns of the vehicles I slowly got up yawning and I felt my drooling all over my hands I was about to wipe it in my saree just then he offered me his handkerchief to wipe it off well I felt kind of embarrassed and wiped it off.
Guy: Hi mera naam Udaybeer hai aur tumhara?
Me: Moniya
UV: toh Moniya tumhe bhook lagi haii? Samne dhaba haii
Me: (I could feel my stomach making some noise) umm''woh'.
He took that as an yes and ordered his driver to bring in some food. We were quietly having the naaan and tandoori and the food was really good I was getting bored so I decided to begin the conversation.
Me: toh who tum hi hona jo humesha humari kothi ke necche gadi lagta haii'..
He just noded nothing more.
Me: kuyn? Mujhse pyaar hogaya hai kya??
Udaybeer: mai shadi shuda hoon aur mere doo bache haii
He looked at me for a while after giving his answer and again turned another side again facing the window and now I found it really strange. A person who dosent love me , who has a family and nor does he wants to sleep with me what did he actually want.
Me: dekho tum agar mujhsee koi aisa waisa kaam karana chateh ho toh'.
UV: come'on Moniya tum khud ye keh rahi hoo jo pehele se hi''.
He stopped there but I got what did he mean to say and that pinched me only a bit. I decided not to have any more conversation as I had a strong feeling he was not interested in me or my talks.
As I looked out of the window pane I saw that the dawn was soon approaching I saw few faint rays of sun encroaching the sky and the chirping of the birds. Well it had certainly been a long night. I see that we are somewhere down the highway but I had no idea where we were heading to nor did I bother to ask. After a mile or a two across the car stopped at a big gate I tried looking over the gate but all in vain. As the large gates opened I saw a beautiful house with a big garden with all sorts of colorful flowers and a small fountain in the middle the car stopped at the doorway of the house I looked at UV and he signaled me to get out. I got out and stretched a bit as I had been in the stiff position for a long time my body had started aching but looking at the beautiful heaven on earth I didn't care the rest.
He walked in the house and I followed the house was lavishly decorated with all modern sorts of furniture's and modern technologies like a big flat screen tv stereo and all. He walked up the stairs and I followed him like a lost puppy. He led me into one of the rooms t seemed like a bedroom a really huge one those I only saw in TVs, the ones which used to be owned by filthy rich people I gazed my eyes across the rooms and the wondering eyes caught hold of one of the photograph hugely framed and placed right in front of the bed. I was dumb founded in the picture Udaybeer was in a wedding sherwani looking really handsome like a prince and the girl sitting next to him his wife really beautiful dressed in red lehenga beautifully embroidered and the beautiful girl was none other than me in the photograph. I was literally in shock I didn't know how to react I was completely blank I looked at him for answers.
Me: keh kya?? Kaise?? Yeh toh bilkul'.
UV: tumhari tarah dikhti hainaa'. Yeh meri biwi Manyata Singh haii duniya ki sabse khoobsoorat ladki jise hum bahot pyar karte thee par 1 saal pehle inki ek car accident mai moot hogayii'. (I could see the pain in his eyes when he was saying this) aur 2 mahine pehle hum jab apki galiyo se guzar rahe thee toh humari nazar appe padi hum sochkar kitna kush huyee ki app Manyata haii jo lot kar humare pass ayii haii'.. par jab humne dekha ki app ek'' (he didn't take the word out) hum eek pal ke liye sahi laga ki'. Par ye sab toh filmo mai hotah haii real life mai nahii'.. hum us din se haar raat pake yaha ateh thee ye jaane ke liye ki app Manyata hai ya koi aur aur dheere dheere hume patah clane laga ki app humari Manyata nahi hai balki koi aur hai'.
Me: (still trying to process what he said) toh apne hume yaha''
UV: humne yaha app ko iss liye leh aye kuynki bhale hi appp humari Manyata nahoo par apki shkal unse milti julti haii aur yaha tak ki apki kuch bate unki yaad dilate haii'. Hum apko yaha iss liye laye Moniya taki app ek acchi aur nayi zindagi shuru kar sake'. Uss nark se kahi behetar'. Apko age ke liye bahot shub kama nayee'..
He was about to leave when he came closer to me I could feel his breath across my face and a strong masculine perfume smell from his body and I was lost in the smell he slowly brushed his lips across mine very gently I took in readily I kissed him back with all passion and slightly the wind was blowing in the room creating a perfect romantic scene like in the Hindi movies and after a point he stopped and let my lips go free''.
UV: apna khayal rakhiye gaa Moniyaa''
He got out of the room and I heard his footsteps down the stairs and then after a few minutes I heard the car start and making its way out of the gates I hurriedly looked out of the balcony and saw the car drive off the house and again I felt thick liquid running down the cheeks'.
Me: Thank You Udaybeer''.
Present (10 yrs later) :
As I stand in the balcony again the fresh breeze blows across and touches my well covered body I can now breath fresh air, the air which reminds me of my freedom, the freedom I never hoped for nor asked but just given to me by the angel sent by God by the name of "Udaybeer"'.. today whenever I get time out of my busy schedule of "women counseling" I stand here in the balcony remembering the past events which is still fresh and vivid in my mind'. I can't thank him enough for granting me this new life'..
