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So to Begin With, I Was listening to this Song "The Reason" By Hoobastank. And guess what, I imagined Sharon here as well 😛
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZADpco6Zn9I - Here's a link to the song and I would appreciate it if yu would listen to it while reading this.
I am trying to give an analysis on how much I have understood, the complex, Sharon Raiprakash. Mind you this ain't about Sneha or Vrushika, its only about Sharon, relating it to the song as much as I can.
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
There's many things I wish I didn't do
Yes, Sharon-The Diva isn't perfect. Her character at the very start was shown to have, maybe a lilttle bit of Grey shades. Not a Negative character as such. So we had Sharon, known as the BEST dancer in St. Louis. What I liked about her from the very start was the fact that they never made her character unrealistic. She was never shown as the one who had no flaws. infact it was these flaws that made me, as the viewer. connect to her immediately. It showed me realise that Nobody's perfect.
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
For me, her character is impulsive. Certainly it has changed over time and I will get back to that later, but if you remember, from the very beginning she was the one who reacted to any situation super quick. Be it having another great female dance(Kria) stand up against her, having a Dance team being formed against, she has never failed to hide what she feels.
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
Her Reason? No Brownie Points for guessing. So, here I bring in her Dil. Swayam. Sharon, she slapped him, and when she felt something for him, she kept remembering that slap over and over again, trying to remind herself that he meant nothing to her. Then happened the RDX party, where the liquor did it's magic. We got to see the softer side of Sharon. A girl, who let her self say and do things she wouldn't have ever imagined she would do. She complimented a weakling, which was like a big NO! in her rule book. How i absolutely adored the way she told Swayam not to tell anyone that she liked his Dance. it may be a very small matter for anyone but it was a huge one for her. Like many a times, we do the same. Issues that aren't that big are given way too much importance. Or perhaps she knew how much that compliment mattered to Swayam.
The story saw her developing gradual feelings for Swayam. But it highlighted her insecurities the best. She was after all a Dazzler and at no cost could she like a Weakling. But it is said that the heart always wins over the mind. And The Sharon Raipraksh fell for Swayam.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear
Hurt- A Feeling that would be best understood by Swayam, we feel. But hey, Sharon too was hurt. Sharon fell in love with her secret admirer. What hurt her was not that Swayam was the admirer, but what hurt her more was the fact that he, like the rest of them considered her to be materialistic. She always felt that Swayam used to feel differently about her. Sure he did, but she couldn't get that! She was Hurt then. Next was during the Computer Lab and Canteen scene. For the first time =, we had Swayam say something to her. And that too publicly. Her Ego was shattered. But what hurt her more probably was the fact that she couldn't be the Sixth dancer for Swayam's team. She was hurt by the fact that though Swayam's world revolved around her, he never thought about considering her as the sixth dancer. And she was hurt.
She was also hurt when Swayam ignored her and she would try her best to get his attention, nut in her opinion she failed miserably, which really wasn't the case. And when a person who gives you attention always, stops it all of a sudden, your heart does feel a tug. And she was hurt that Swayam showed like he didn't care if she and Shivam were together. She was hurt that Shivam broke her trust. And she was more hurt, when at such a time, she needed his Best Friend, but it was Swayam who came to her instead.
Also, when she did the whole gimmick during the GS Elections, hurt Rey. But I remember her saying this line to Rey " Main ek achhi best friend nahi hun" And she told him that she felt that she was egoistic. And very subtly we had her showing us her insecure side. The one we always knew was the confident Sharon.
She was hurt when her Trial Relationship with Swayam didn't work out, because although she liked him, they both weren't on the same page. But the phase brought about a change in her. She was a lot calmer than before. I loved how she promised him to never slap or insult him. The classroom scene where Swayam was busy concentrating on the lecture while she wanted his attention took my heart. So, it does affect a person when any form of relationship fails. But this made her realise one thing. That she was in Love with him.
And just when she was ready to accept her feelings, she found out that she couldn't dance anymore. Dance- her first love, her true passion, its hard to imagine Sharon without Dance. And when she came to know of her health problem, she was hurt. Because Dance bound her to her Dil & Dosti. Dosti because she had her Gang which danced, and Dil because she had promised her love that she, infact they, would Dance forever. How then could she not Dance! It broke her, but she came out Stronger then ever. She pushed Swayam away, but his uncondional Love drew her towards him. And he read her like a crystal and told her that she was trying too hard to push him away. She was hurt this time for doing this to him, but was selfless and is ready to sacrifice her love. No matter how much it hurt her.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
and the reason is You [x3]
In all this what we saw is that Sharon has changed tremendously. The same Sharon who used to only order her friends infact opened up to Simmi. And how heart wrenching was the scene. Though i would love to see her more with Rey, but I can wait. Also, when Sharon hugged Aashi I was in awe. WHo would have imagined Sharon hug anyone like that? And after knowing the fact that Aashi likes Swayam? probably it had something to do with Swayam complimenting Aashi and Sharon could easily see how happy she was and gave her a friendly hug.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
and the reason is You [x3]
In all this what we saw is that Sharon has changed tremendously. The same Sharon who used to only order her friends infact opened up to Simmi. And how heart wrenching was the scene. Though i would love to see her more with Rey, but I can wait. Also, when Sharon hugged Aashi I was in awe. WHo would have imagined Sharon hug anyone like that? And after knowing the fact that Aashi likes Swayam? probably it had something to do with Swayam complimenting Aashi and Sharon could easily see how happy she was and gave her a friendly hug.
Sharon The Diva is back, they say, but for me that Diva was always there. Only her nature has changed.
I won't be talking on the later para of the song coz its the same and I may put you off too sleep or I already have. 😆
And not to forget, she has changed and has finally come to accept the fact that she loves Swayam. The best day in the history of D3 will be when she finally confesses her love to him.
Till, then I will just wait, coz I am highly patient and optimistic.
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I have talked way too much to tell you why I love talking about Sharon so much. 😆 There's always a Next time, isn't there?😉
And if you are still awake at the end of this, please feel free to tell me how you felt about this post.
This is most of what I have understood of Sharon- The Diva.
Signing off as of now,
Payal. 😃
