Punch in the gutt - Page 2

Main tumhara brings such a deep sense of sadness that I cannot even put it into words. It hit me like a cyclone while watching the film and I haven't been able to stop listening to it. The loss seems so so so personal. The lyrics..the music...the context of this song. All so eerily similar to what has happened in real life. It feels like such a crushing hit in the gut that at times in the day I have to stop doing what I am doing just to collect myself and continue with my day. Even when I am not listening to the song, its haunting tune is always at the back of my mind...like a constant reminder of what has happened. Watching his beautifully smiling face last night has just made me question life and its unfairness all the more.

Originally posted by: asmaanixx

Out of everything from the movie, it was this song that affected me the most. The lyrics, and the tune itself is so haunting, but the value that Kizzie had given it compounded the sadness.

It really does exemplify incompleteness; being burdened by the knowledge that loved ones will be left with an overwhelming sadness once you pass forever.

We're all left in a limbo of sorts. As it is, there is no one sure way of dealing with death, and depending on our connection with Sushant, our way of handling his passing varies as well.

In a highly weird way, it has made us question ourselves, the values we hold in life, the connections we claim to cherish, and much more.

Family members, close friends and his die hard fans are undoubtedly be hurt the most. But even the most casual viewer, or member of society has been affected by his death in some shape or form. Whether it's shock, disbelief, immense sadness, or fondness - he managed to reach out, and evoke some sort of emotion in all.

I'm not going to shame people into saying they should have valued him more, or should have gone to see his every film. I don't know what people's situation is like, and at the end of the day, it's entirely their prerogative as to whom they wish to see on the big screen, if they choose to go to the theaters at all. I also don't know what difference one more fan would have made. He already had so many who showered their love on him on a daily basis, would one more have made that much of a difference? I don't know.

I guess all I want to say is that your connection with Sushant, was yours alone. Whether it was a deeply personal one, or a casual one, it's all valid. You shouldn't be shamed into feeling like you didn't do enough for him. That's a mental burden that no fan should have to undertake. It's probably harsh to hear this, but ultimately Sushant was responsible for his own mental health. By that same token, you are responsible for your own. If you feel like you need help, then seek it. Please reach out and take ownership of your own health.

If you want to remember and honor Sushant, then be curious of every aspect of life. Look away from your phone screens, and gaze up at the stars. Crack open a book, and ruminate over what some of the greatest philosophers have talked about. Dedicate yourself into doing one good deed a day, not because you want to show off, but because it's simply the right thing to do.

Like Manny had told Kizzie, yeh raja tab tak jeeta rahega, jab tak rani rahegi. In other words, Sushant will continue to exist, as long as we keep him alive in our minds, hearts, and actions.

Sushant ab humara raha. ❤️

This is the most beautiful thing I have read today. Thank you for this post.

Sushant indeed ab humara raha ❤️

This song 😭 .

His smiling face throughout the first half and then it was indeed a Punch in the gutt and heart.

I wasn’t into his BW career relatively but was in awe of his ability to master different skills. Used to stalk his ig to see what new skill he was learning . I was impressed with his goals or bucket list because I have a physicist/engineer at home.

I remember telling my husband ,seeing him play guitar and with friends in one of his ig videos , that I was so happy to see him laughing. I had earlier felt he was alone for some reason. It’s surreal to think that the thought had to occurred to me then. I casually let it go thinking i was being unreasonable. But now that I have watched his interviews , I can see he felt out of place . Called himself boring constantly but now people only talk about how interesting and intelligent he was . He had such a robust thirst for learning.

I just wish I was as much invested in his movies as I was into his ig or dance. He was amazing at everything he tried and I think he tried a lot of things. Very rare to see someone good at everything. Most people will resonate with him at some level because he was multi faceted. He was able to hold conversations with astrophysicists to any BW actors. Rarely do we see such person.

BW somehow doesn’t seem the same to me anymore. There is no charm. It lost one of the most brightest stars.

Like his friend says In the movie “Mujhe yeh duniya dekhni nahin hain jis main Manny na ho” . BW seems the same to me.

He did so much for so many people and states. He deserved better.

I don’t know how his family is coping. I must be so hard. He was a mannat.

Trying to live with guilt of not being able to do anything or more must haunt them like it haunts us.

🦋💫

My only regret is not following him on social media accounts. I used to post my comments about him on youtube

I agree. When the news of his demise reached me, I was shocked. But thought I'll recover in 15 mins or so.

Dost, aaj tak seene mein jwalamukhi dhadhak rahi hai. 😒

This pain is also birthing a strong dislike towards not only the powers-that-be but also the sick system in place.

In a way it is both a sweet send off and a memory for us. When I first heard Main Tumhara it was exactly what you said: a punch in the gut. How could anyone know that this is what emptiness feels like?

But I watched the song on YouTube. Someone had posted it from the film and I realized that the song isn't about emptiness. It's about memories. Think about it. The song starts off with tum na huwe mere toh kya main tumhara raha. Even if we didn't consider him as our own, Sushant is ours. Then every dialogue after that is pointing out that if we are ying, he is yang.

The song still hurts and haunts, but now I think about it in the positive. I smile because that's what Sushant would have wanted. People in the review thread spoke about how Manny wanted to attend his own funeral to hear what people would say about him. That's who Sushant was. He just wanted happy memories. He just wanted people to smile. He just wanted to make things better.

This song. Take it as a celebration. A celebration of his dreams. A celebration of him. A final celebration that will stay with us forever. Seri?

Sushant always had such a strong capability of hitting you right in the gut. I first found out about him in Kai Po Che and he drew me so much into his character that I couldn't sleep all night after watching his dying scene.

After that I always avoided watching the last bit of any movie where he dies. His character in Kedernath was just like him in real life ~ passionate, humble, naive and hardworking. I left before the movie ended, I knew it would be too painful.

We always talked about his social media and how he was never into these dumb PR games and posted such educational stuff.

It sucks that it took Sushant losing his life to open our eyes to the dark and pathetic reality of bollywood.

Originally posted by: asmaanixx

If you want to remember and honor Sushant, then be curious of every aspect of life. Look away from your phone screens, and gaze up at the stars. Crack open a book, and ruminate over what some of the greatest philosophers have talked about. Dedicate yourself into doing one good deed a day, not because you want to show off, but because it's simply the right thing to do.

Like Manny had told Kizzie, yeh raja tab tak jeeta rahega, jab tak rani rahegi. In other words, Sushant will continue to exist, as long as we keep him alive in our minds, hearts, and actions.

Sushant ab humara raha. ❤️

Very well said!!

Originally posted by: Terenaina

In my opinion sushant was the wrong person to go out like this because he was a rising star. He chosen people who didn't care about him. I know there were rivals that didn't like him but that's the beauty of life, getting back up is the victory. He was an outsider as well and I like seeing someone like him who came from nothing make it big.

There was an interview where he said he wanted to make a biopic of himself and he wanted to be the lead, that would've been a good film so we can see his journey.

when sushant debuted I was so happy that I finally have a favorite from the young actors. I didn't like two overhype overrated actors so I was happy when sushant, ayushmann, kartik and others debuted. But sushant was the best actor from young generation. I officially have no favorites from young generation now but will still watch a good film by word of mouth just not going to be a fan.

I dont know if it is the way he is gone has affected me or my guilt of being somewhere responsible of not giving him the validation or acceptance as an audience that he was looking for. He was so driven and so hungry of learning the things that it was really very difficult for even depression to make him quit and i am saying this as an experienced person of this field . If he has indeed taken his life and if at all he was depressed with everything that was happening against him, my heart breaks to realise how much of pain and hopelessness it must have taken him to end it all. To kill all his dreams and thirst and to let go of every single thing he was striving for.

I dont even want it to happen to my worst enemies.

Most painful death of a celebrity or a person whom i have never met ever for me.its been days since he left us but there isn't a single moment where I'm not thinking abt him and his acting from preet to manny💔im still crying whenever i see his posts his interviews his movies everything abt him.he's like stuck on my mind like there is a raabta with him maybe bcoz i got to know him since the beginning of his career and followed him closely.rest in utmost peace my precious my dearest sush 🤗