Sakshi's POV (Here she is just talking to herself or arguments and counter arguments are going in her mind)
She ran from the conference room as fast as she can and ran to the terrace of the ETF quarters.
I cannot believe I have done this. What the hell Sakshi. What is wrong with you? Why could not you keep your mouth shut? But how could I just stand there and see two of my colleagues fight like that. So what Sakshi, its not like first time you were seeing them like that. You saw the same confrontation between Sameer and Arjun the other day too. I still cannot believe Sameer thinks that Arjun's anger is responsible for Roshiniji's death. He does not believe that there is any Sikander but that is not his fault either. Nobody knows about Sikander. But I could not see Arjun getting accused like this. The other day too he broke down completely. That man is deeply hurt and on top of it blaming him for his most beloved's death is insane. But Miss Sakshi that was Sameer and Arjun's problem. Why you had to interfere in the middle. Why why??? ETF is like family to me. How could I see something like this happening? I never wanted to tell them my past story and my motive of joining ETF. I don't want anybody's sympathy and the way I have behaved in the conference hall is going to arise so many questions and ETF being ETF will definitely investigate you now…What have you done idiot? You are such an emotional fool Sakshi
I don't know I could not see Arjun in pain like that. So that means what Ayesha said other day is right. Am I fallen for Arjun. No this cannot be true. I have no time for love and also that man outrights hates me. There are no two opinions about that. He thinks I am joke and not even worthy of even part of ETF. How can I love that man? I did not want to sympathize with him or show him any pity because that is not going to reduce the pain he is going through but yes I do wanted to share his pain. Only because I know how difficult is to bear this pain alone. The "dard" that I am going through is something he is dealing with it too. I know how much you need that one person in front of whom you can cry your heart out. You need that one person to tell you everything will become alright. You need that one person to explain that this is not the end. You can rise again and can still fight for it. I know I don't have any right to explain Arjun all these things. Who am I to him? I am not even someone who he calls a colleague let alone be a friend. But I could not stop myself from doing all this and also today could not stop myself from intervening. I don't know what Rishta I have with you Arjun but you have slowly becoming the flame and forcing me to become the moth who knows going near you (helping you) will be one day death for me but I just cannot stop doing it. Why Arjun why?
mujhko ye jindagi lagti hai ajnabi
chaw bhi dhup bhi har naye pal hai nayi
chaw bhi dhup bhi har naye pal hai nayi
mujhko ye jindagi lagti hai ajnabi
chaw bhi dhup bhi har naye pal hai nayi
chaw bhi dhup bhi har naye pal hai nayi
In the conference hall
Everybody was shell shocked after hearing all this. They were standing like statues and trying to figure what exactly Sakshi just said. Ayesha was the one to come out of the shock.
She spoke and that brought everybody out of statue mode.
Ayesha- I cannot believe it is Sakshi that just spoke all this. I mean we know this girl from 3 months and after today I think I just don't know her at all. She is always cracking jokes in the middle of investigations and her behavior is so childish. She walks in the goons den like she is walking in the garden and that too unarmed. Arjun Sir saved her so many times. She does not think what she is talking or doing sometimes. I do agree she is superb investigative reporter and give vital clues to the cases but this side of other is hard to believe. I feel like I totally met a new person.
Shree- Sahi keh rahi hai Ayesha. Apni Sakshi toh aisi nahin thi.
With this everybody just went back to their cabins and they need some time and space to think over what had just happened
Arjun's POV (in Arjun's cabin)
"Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad."
? Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
He sat on his chair trying to ignore what had just happened but it was hard to do that. He did not respond in front of others but each and every bit of Sakshi's confession and information about Sikander had arisen so many questions. What must have happened with her? Kuch toh chut raha hai Arjun. How you cannot see the faade behind that happy face and dumb talks. Yeh toh hona hi tha. Sameer thinks yeh mera gussa aur pagalpan hai and Chotu and Shree thinks I am khadoos and Akdau boss but she comes "Miss Publicist Sakshi Anand" and tells me that she sees "dard" in my eyes. I hated her gut from that very moment. Who is she to judge me and see through me? After that she had been constantly bugging me and damn irritating me latest example being faking an injury. She is not even fit for ETF. The way she dresses like some college girl wearing hundreds of bangles and saying stupid things in middle of investigations.
Come on Arjun you cannot say that. She is intelligent reporter. There is no doubt about it. You might have not acknowledge it but she is definitely providing some vial clues to the investigations and you have to agree the way she reports those cases is just beyond awesome. She not only reports the cases and at the end of each article she makes people aware by telling them safety measures that can be learnt which can help them.
But this side of her that I saw today is something else. There was so much pain yet a level of confidence that reflected in her eyes when she was explaining Sameer. She knew her facts very well. I think I may had ignored at that time, but I have seen this side when I sacked her from ETF and her confidence to come back in 24 hrs and her words " tum meri zindagi ka ruk nahin badal sakte ACP Arjun Rawte" reflected the same side that I saw in her today.
So had I judged him wrong? Am I being too rude to her? She seems like a mystery to me now. I have to get to bottom of this. But how and who am I to interfere in her personal life but ????
On the Terrace
It had been 2 hrs since Sakshi had been sitting here. It was dark too and she was mentally drained too after all those discussions with herself. She just decided to go home. She just needed to pick her stuff from conference hall and she prayed no one should be there.
Sakshi- It's time to put back the happy face. Its not like I fake it. I am just trying to follow my mom's words. She still remembers her conversation with her mother.
Past
Sakshi- Mom how can you just smile when you yourself is sad. How is even possible.
Sakshi's Mom- Beta that's the real person who can smile through even sorrows and can spread happiness.
Sakshi- But how Mom
Sakshi's Mom- Beta its easy to give anger and sorrows to the world but joh inshan kushiyaan beker sake, uski ki zindagi sartak hai beta.
Sakshi- Oh mom its all philosophy. I don't think you can even apply it to real word
Sakshi's Mom- Beta I know you might think its all philosophy but trust me one day you will realize it and you will be very satisfied and content after following this one day.
Sakshi- I don't think mom I will ever be able to do it.
Sakshi's Mom- U will and I am very sure of that.
Present
She was just trying to follow her mom's advice and trying to spread some happiness. I don't know mom whether I am content or not but I realize it now.
"I always had this idea that you should never give up a happy middle in the hopes of a happy ending, because there is no such thing as a happy ending. Do you know what I mean? There is so much to lose"
She wiped her tears from her face and went to conference hall to get her stuff. Luckily no one saw her coming from terrace and going to conference hall.
In the conference hall
Aise na dekho
Aise na dekho
Jaise pehle kabhi dekha hi nahi
Jaise pehle kabhi dekha hi nahi
Aise na dekho
Aise na dekho
Mujhe kuch bhi nahin chaahiye tum se
Na dilaasa, na bharosa
Na wah wah, na humdardi
Na sapna, na sahulat
Aise na dekho
Aise na dekho
Sakshi picked her stuff and was about to leave when she saw Arjun standing at the entrance in his usual pose.
She could clearly see lot of questions in his eyes and that look was changed.
Arjun- Sakshi tum teek ho nah?
Sakshi (shocked) but managed to say haan.
Arjun walked and stood at the window of conference hall where his back was facing to Sakshi
Sakshi-umm I am leaving and if anybody asks could you please tell them
Arjun- Hmmm
Arjun- Sakshi suno
Sakshi- bolo Arjun
Arjun- woh mein…kuch nahin…good night….
Sakshi – hmmm
Sakshi's Diary (You know we have seen her writing her thoughts on computer often)
The day had finally ended and this day had managed to change a lot. On one side it had cleared many confusions but on the other side it had arisen many other questions. Will tomorrow will be affected by all this or will it be easy to start tomorrow with the new chapter. For this we have to wait for this night to get over.
"There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in."
? Leonard Cohen, Selected Poems, 1956-1968
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Rati
Mangal Lakshmi
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