Edit- updated the title as I feel it’s more to do with perspective than an OS
Anupama was sitting on her couch and trying hard not to overthink…. But thoughts….. they are like river….keeps flowing in its own pace and direction….. flashes of today’s kept on coming in and out…some sweet…. some bitter…..
Day started off beautifully, it felt like home after so many days…though it wasn’t mine….still there was so much warmth and peace in Anuj’s house that screamed it was mine…..it was so blissful to see him sleeping calmly while I did my morning aarthi…. That heart to heart with Baapuji was so enlightening which helped me propel more towards expressing my feelings to Anuj….that tongue slip moment of “Nahi jaoongi” is still giving me butterflies…. How I wish he had sensed it….Hamesha toh kehte hai…”mujhe pata hai Anupama….mujhe sab pata hai”
The smile on Anu’s face became a frown at the displeasure of him not noticing her change….. then became serious when another heavy dark clouds of thoughts barged in her mind….
I heard him say ” I love you more Mukku…. Tum jaanti ho na mera gussa, narazagi sab mere pyaar se haar jaata hai” ….. that moment I felt strange pangs in my heart…. A tiny feeling of losing him crept in….. I trust him completely…. He has always been there for me….He would never lie to me… I trust him completely…. I kept repeating myself to make sure that my fear doesn’t overpower my dreams….my dream to be with him….to be his…
A slight chuckle came out of Anu’s mouth at the thought of what transpired next……The child-like behavior in him amuses her to the core….
How happy he becomes at mention of chocolate and food made by me….how he makes faces at khichadi….and today he was running around the lounge area like a 5 year old to escape from kada… who could believe such a child exists inside The Business tycoon -Anuj Kapadiya…. He make me fall over in love with him with such antics…..living a life with him will be a dream filled with fun, happiness……and most importantly love….. his eyes were filled with love and the intensity in it screamed passion the moment our eyes met while I had accidentally slipped and our hands clapped with one another…. His gaze fueled my urge to express him my feelings….. while trying to gather composure, I heard him call “Anu…..mujhe tum se kuch baat karni hai”
I sat next to him on the couch and noticed the tension on face….. there was deep urge to ask what bothered him and with all haq, I called out
Anuj…
Ding!
The doorbell rang….again of all the times, interruptions has to come when ever we sit down for a talk…..
Anu’s face was straight as these thoughts were running through her mind.
It was Mr. Shah…. He had come to invite for a party…. He was excited about it….
But Anuj, he declined politely to Vanraj…. He said he had to meet someone important and if time permits, he would definitely join Mr.Shah’s party.
Though I didn’t like it that Anuj wasn’t going to be in the party, I was more annoyed at the fact that he had to rest and he was ready to roam around….
The anger had puffed up Anu’s cheek but then it dissolved quickly when next train of thoughts came in….. tonight unlike any day…. Thoughts were endless….one after other barged in inducing varied range of emotions in Anu.
“Anu…. Tum chinta mat karo….I will take care of myself… jaane se pehle dawaai kha loonga….time se… aur mein drive bhi nahi karoonga ….GK hai na mere saath… woh khayal rakhenge mera….magar mere yeh meeting bahut zaroori hai…I can’t skip it….aur tum bhi Mr.Shah ki party attend karlo……”
Anuj assured me after Mr. Shah…..Rest of the afternoon was mundane with some work and a visit to house to grab some party wear…..
A deep pink hue spread across Anu’s face and lips were smiling broadly as the thought of party wear came through…..
It wasn’t the first time that I had dressed up for a party….. but today the looks he gave me after seeing me in black saree was giving butterflies in my stomach…..I felt giddy all over with shyness…. his intense stare raced my heart…. That for a moment I thought he would hear my heartbeats….. I might have melted into a puddle if he stared at me even for a moment more also….. to escape his intense gaze I rushed out of the house…..
Slowly, discomfort started creeping Anu’s face as the flashes of party came in…..
I was happy to see all my family and we were having some fun……in some minutes, the party was full on with dance and music……Mr. Shah was surrounded with girls and dancing with them in a nonchalant manner inspite the presence of his parents, wife and even more kids…. He seemed so engrossed while all of us were embarrassed to core…. To top it, I missed Anuj badly…… the last party I had attended was the Reunion party where I met him for the first time….. there he was kneeling down and holding out my sandal which had accidentally slipped off my feet…..though I never showed, I was all enamored with his charm and chivalry….. never had I thought this handsome stranger would become an integral part of me….I can’t even imagine a life without him now….. how ignorant of me to tell him that I don’t need saathi in my life at the end of that party…..how I wish he was here and I could tell him how much his saath matters to me now…….
By now, Anu’s face was all joyous with a peaceful smile playing on Anu’s lips. Flashes weren’t going to stop any time soon…….
Breaking my reverie at party, Mr.Shah announced his new business with a vivacious girl named Malvika…as the formal announcement were going….suddenly Malvika ran out from the stage towards the door….. went ahead and hugged a man dressed in white coat…..he too hugged her tightly exclaiming “my Mukku ….my Mukku”……. As if the physique was isn’t familiar, the voice was more familiar…..it was his ….Anuj’s……..
A lone tear appeared at the corner of Anu’s face….. and huge disappointment coupled with fear, shock and anxiety had spread across as these scenes flashed before her eyes…..
He had said…. It was just me….. no one else….. inspite many women in his life…..he couldn’t move on from me……but now…….how can he? He doesn’t have anyone apart from GK…..how is this girl sooo close to him……and seeing him so emotionally attached to some else were sending pangs of anxiety and fear through my heart……will I be at loss again? Will my heart be broken again? No……he isn’t such a man…..I trust him……but why didn’t he tell me…… all questions were arising in my mind, I thought it burst any moment…. But as if a speed breaker hit my train of thoughts….she announced to all in the party….
“Meet Mr. Anuj Kapadiya…..my big brother…. my role model…. “
A sigh of relief escaped from my mouth….. she was his sister……sister?…..he hasn’t mentioned even once about her……
As if sensing my questions, Anuj came upto me and said “Anu….am sorry….I was about to say but…..” I replied, “Koi baat nahi” sensing his tension and guilt of hiding such a thing from me. Holding my hands he began again, “Anu…..”
Before he could say anything, Malvika came and pulled him into the crowd…. And I was standing alone in the crowd…..perplexed and shocked at the turn of events. Throughout the night, his face portrayed mixed feelings……as much as he had happiness to be with his sister, his face displayed guilt and even a tinge of fear of me being angry at him…….
As the party came down, I planned on returning to my house as I thought to give Anuj and his sister much needed space…..
Samar dropped me at my house…..yes it’s just house…..doesn’t feel like home anymore…..home is where he is….. I felt as if I left a piece of me there…..
As I locked the door of my house, I crashed on to my couch trying to gather my thoughts…..
“Why didn’t he ever mention about his sister? Why? Why didn’t he want to share it with me?” These questions were ringing in my ears boisterously……
With the next round of thoughts, more disappointment spread across Anu’s face…..
I…. I….. have never ever asked him….I have never asked him whether he was fine….he might have his reasons but…….never have I urged to share his feelings and thoughts with me…..he was always there for me…..Now it’s my turn to be with him…..
With renewed faith in her love and strange peace spread across Anu’s face, Anu picked up her phone and send the voice note to Anuj……
“Anuj, aap teekh hai? Aap pareshaan mat hoiye….main aap se naaraaz nahi hoon…..aur aap se kuch nahi poochoongi…..aap jab batana chahe tab keejie….mein intazaar karoongi….aur ek aur baat…..main hamesha aap ka saath doongi….mujhe poora vishvaas hai aap par….”
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With all the encouragement that you all gave me, here am with my second OS. Hope I did justice….. Also I have written this before episode plays out….so events may have been different….
Enjoy Reading
But when you include her voicenote in the end to Anuj, it truly felt like another thing Anu (old or new version) would do - patiently listen without judgment. 
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