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CHAPTER 3
Kushi shifted uncomfortably sensing a grip on her left arm. She could hear faint murmurs around her. She was trying to concentrate on the sound when the grip on her arm got tightened and she flinched in pain. She slowly opened her eyes and then blinked rapidly to accommodate to the light.
"Low blood pressure." She heard an unfamiliar voice and in a moment the grip on her left arm got loosened. She noticed a middle aged man standing next to Arnav. She immediately tried to get up; spontaneously her hands flew up and held her head as it started to spin.
"But to worry as it was just below normal. This is may be due to weakness. Some tablets combined with good rest will be more than enough." Arnav nodded to the doctor. "I will take that." He said to doctor, getting hold of doctors brief case.
"Careful bitiya." Kushi heard a concerned voice as she tried to get up again. Anjali helped her to sit. "Thanks di." Kushi managed to say and then smiled when she heard nani's voice again. "Are you fine, bitiya?" Kushi nodded despite of her growing dizziness.
Anjali caressed her head lovingly. "Nothing to worry, kushiji. Doctor said you are very weak and..." Anjali stopped as Kushi bolted upright. "What did he say?" Kushi asked in panic. "kushiji, relax. What happened?" Anjali placed her arm on her shoulders comforting her. But that was of no use as Kushi's eyes got moistened; her body became rigid in confusion. Her hands got hold of her tummy as she again fell unconscious.
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"Yes, Mr. Raizada, you are right. I think she is expecting." Arnav nodded as doctor continued. "Anyway i can confirm it only after taking certain test. In addition to that she has BP and is very anaemic. You please bring her to the hospital tomorrow." Arnav continued to nod, lost completely in his own thoughts.
"And who is the girl? Is she your relation? Anjali seems to be so concerned about her." Arnav's eyes got widened and he stared at the doctor vacantly. What will he tell him? How will he explain him about bond he shared with Kushi? Will he understand it? Will anyone in the world would be able to understand it? He doubted it. No one can ever understand what had happened between them expect them.
'Relation?' the word echoed in his mind. Do they share any kind of relationship? No, except she is going to became mother of his child. That's truth and Arnav felt that it's high time for him to accept it. And he is not afraid to accept it. He replied in determined tone. "It's my child."
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"di." Arnav called as he entered guest room. Anjali turned from bed and gave him a worried smile. "She again fell unconscious." She informed him for which he nodded and then looked the fragile body lying on the bed. "I talked with doctor. She is going to be okay." He assured his sister. Anjali gave her signature smile before adding "I don't know why? But I feel like I knew her for years. Like she is closely related to me." Arnav eyes narrowed but he stopped himself from frowning keeping his face cold.
"maa, I feel very sleepy." They both turned to prem who was standing near the door. Before Anjali could answer her son, Arnav asked her to leave. "But chotey, kushiji..." Arnav interrupted her saying "i will take care of her. Don't worry." When Anjali hesitated, he added "di, you know prem won't sleep without you. I will take care of Kushi. I will stay here. You go, di."
After Anjali left with prem, Arnav sat on the chair next to the bed all while looking at her. She looked peaceful and it filled his heart with contentment. His eyes got disoriented as doctor's words reverberated in his mind. He knew that this will be the question which is going to be asked by the world. How they are going to answer the world?
He knew he didn't have much option except one. But he can't do that. He simply can't do that to Lavanya. Then there will be no meaning to what he was doing since he was 17. His mind travelled back 10 years to the day when he saw Lavanya for first time. It was fourth day of his college. She was in his class. He wondered how he had not noticed her in first three days.
And then rest was history. She was his first crush; his first love. She was beautiful, practical, lovely, caring. She had everything he wanted to be in his girl. So there was no shock when he actually fell for her. 10 years of love. He had never doubted his love towards Lavanya in these 10 years; not even when Lavanya rejected him saying it's just infatuation. He strongly believed it was love and she was his girl.
But this girl, lying in front of him, who he met six months before, made him to doubt his own love for Lavanya. And he hated Kushi for this. He hated her from the minute he saw her. A smile crept on his face thinking about the encounter he had with Kushi in night club, which was their first meeting.
Kushi was equally beautiful but totally impractical. She lived in the world of fantasy. She was wanted to have fun in each and everything she did. Guilt weighed him down when he thought how she has changed; to say accurately how he had changed her. He crushed her world. He destroyed her in every possible way.
Her eyes filled with love were now filled with loathing. Her sound, which was always filled with giggles and laughter, was nowhere to be seen.
Please don't tell me that you don't know to smile.
If you are the last men left on the world, then also I won't marry you. You know why?
Because you are such an idiot.
Please put your business in off mode when you are with me.
I can never hate you, Arnav.
You are mine, only mine.
I love you.
"I wish I could love you in the way you loved me." He whispered caressing her soft hair.
"In the way you deserved to be loved; i wish i could to love you." He said gulping the lump in his throat. His eyes already dampened with unshed tears.
She is angel who understood him. She didn't see him with the mask he was wearing. instead She saw him from heart. She even made him to shed his mask which her father and others compelled him to wear seven years back. She made him feel he was Arnav and not cold Arnav Singh Raizada. He made him smile; laugh and more importantly she made him feel he was alive. And also she was the one who made him feel low, cheap. He hated her for it.
He knew she is an angel. Every man on the earth would crave for girl like her. He got her without difficulty. But he couldn't hold on to her because he can't have two angels at same time. Having more than what you need is kind of curse. He had two angels at his hand and had no option except to leave one.
His thoughts went back to the night where he had to choose between Lavanya and Kushi. But decision was not difficult for him; because he didn't love Kushi. He loved the way Kushi loved him but he never loved her. He knew she deserved more and thinking she might get better he left her.
He never thought he will be again in this situation where he had to choose between Lavanya and Kushi. He laughed sarcastically thinking that. But who is he kidding? Who is he to choose between them? Actually they must decide to have him or not. They both are good and he knew that he doesn't deserve both.
Yes, he doesn't deserve either Lavanya or Kushi. He is two-timer who played with two girl's life and also his own life. Even though he did it unconsciously, he messed up everything. What a complete mess his life has turned into, because of his one stupid act. It had given rise to another life.
He rolled his eyes to her flat tummy. Suddenly a chill run down his spine. He is going to become father. It is true. He is going to have his own boy or girl soon. He smiled thinking how it will be to hold the baby in his hand. How it will feel when the child calls him papa.
Suddenly fear enveloped his mind. Will Kushi ever allow him to touch their child? Will she allow the child to call him papa? If she didn't, she had every right to do it and he deserved it. His heart shrunk at that thought. She had already made him clear that all she wants is just his name and she will leave him afterwards.
What if she never allows him to see the child? He became restless and felt pain. Will she harm the child to take revenge on him? No, she won't. She chose to keep the child instead of aborting it. Abortion. Again his heart constricted with the thought. He knew she had kept the child not for any good reasons. Then also He was thankful to Kushi that she didn't abort the child. If she had done that, then he couldn't have forgiven himself for pushing her into that situation.
It was his mistake, after all. He won't allow his child to carry the burden of it. If marriage is the thing she wanted, then he will do it. Who knows that may be the last thing he could do for his child.
But what about her motive to destroy his family? He cannot take Kushi that easily knowing what she is capable of. He calculated certain things. This is going to hurt many people. This is going to hurt him more. But he had no option. He punched some buttons on his phone.
"Lavanya, listen to me." After a while, He cut the call with a smile on his face.
"So honey, it's just you and me." He said looking at sleeping Kushi. He knew that she won't back off even after getting what she wanted. She is not an easy opponent and it will be really interesting to play against her and he is going to love this. He knew he must be one step ahead to defeat her. He leaned forward and left a peck on her forehead saying "let's get married first." He winked before giving his signature smirk.
confused? i told you this is just filler...the real concept of this ff,what kushi wants and arnav wants, will get cleared in next chapter...flashback will come be in parts from fifth chapter...thanks for reading...pleas leave ur comments...negative feed back are most welcomed... deeps_922012-08-31 12:49:11
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