Chapter 48
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Chapter 48: Nafrat Paas Aane Na De...
Using a Hindi title first time for this one but it was just suitable. Tell me if you guys don't like it I'll stick to English Titles... Love you all for the amazing comments for the last one...
Yes this is what I mean by 'Can You Forget The Past...' One of them can't come out of the past alone. Either they have to come out of it together or stay trapped in it. Right now Arnav is trapped, so let's see if Khushi manages to bring him out of it...
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Khushi opened her eyes as the morning rays lit up the room. She had a strange heavy feeling in her heart and remembered what had happened last night. She looked around and realised that Arnav was not in bed. She got up and checked the bathroom and poolside but he wasn't anywhere. She saw that his laptop wasn't there so guessed that may be he was with Akash discussing something work related. She freshened up and got ready. But when she came down she saw that Akash was at the dining table and Payal was serving him breakfast.
"Good morning Jijaji." She greeted him.
"Good morning Khushi." Akash smiled at her.
"Jijaji where is Arnav?" She asked.
"Bhai? He already left for work. Didn't he tell you?" Akash asked confused.
"Already left for work?" Khushi asked surprised. "When I woke up he wasn't in the room. I thought he must be with you for some work."
"No, he was not with me." Akash replied.
"Was there some important meeting that he left so early? He didn't say anything last night." Khushi asked.
"Not that I know of. He left in a hurry actually." He said.
Khushi was suspicious that Arnav had left early because of what she had done last night. But I didn't push the matter, did I? When I realised that he was not comfortable I just backed off. Then why...? She wondered.
As she started for work she tried to call him but he didn't answer her calls. Now that was something really unexpected. He never did that. She was getting worried when she got a message from him.
Arnav: In a meeting. Can't talk.
Khushi sighed. When she reached to the studio she messaged him that she had reached to work. But there was no reply.
She called him at lunch time like every day to check if he had eaten and had his medicines but he didn't answer even then. She messaged him.
Khushi: Had lunch? Medicines?
No reply.
At four o clock she called him again but same result. She messaged again.
Khushi: Missing you. Why won't you call back?
No reply again. Getting worried she called Akash just to check if he was actually there at AR.
"Yes Khushi. Bhai is here." Akash replied.
"Oh, is there some special meeting going on?" She asked curiously.
"Meeting? No, in fact, work is a bit slow today." He replied. "Is there a problem?"
"Uh... no it's just that he didn't answer my call so I thought... anyways that's okay." She hesitated.
"Do you want me to pass on the phone to him? I'm right next to his cabin." Akash offered.
"No, no. It's nothing urgent." She said quickly as she didn't want Akash to feel that there was any problem. "He'll come to pick me up after work anyways so I'll talk to him then."
5:00 PM
Khushi: I'll finish work by 7:30. I'll wait for you.
No response.
5:30 PM
Khushi: I'm waiting for your reply Arnav. You are coming, right?
No answer.
6:00 PM
Khushi: Arnav... what's wrong? Please reply. You are scaring me.
6:30 PM
Khushi: Arnav are you mad at me for last night? I just wanted that we move ahead with our relationship. I didn't mean to hurt you.
6:40 PM
Khushi: I don't think what I did was wrong but still, I'm sorry.
6:50 PM
Khushi: Arnav I understand your point of view. I promise I won't push this matter any further.
7:00 PM
Khushi: Arnav please, please reply. Please don't do this to me.
7:10 PM
Khushi: I'm sorry. I'm really, really sorry. Please talk to me.
At 7:15 PM she got a call from the driver that Arnav had sent him to pick her up.
7:20 PM
Khushi: ARNAV... You are not coming?
Nothing, no reply at all. For the past two hours Khushi hadn't been able to work even for a moment. She was constantly trying to call Arnav in between messages but Arnav had not answered even once. She had started crying desperately and could hardly think anything. She started pacing around in her cabin. Finally she stopped crying and decided to send one last message.
7:25 PM
Khushi: Arnav I don't know what is wrong but this silence of yours is killing me. I can't take it any more. If you don't call me in the next five minutes, I will harm myself and I mean it.
She pressed the send button on the phone and waited as she sat straight on the couch.
Exactly a minute later her phone rang and Arnav's name flashed on the screen. She heaved sigh of relief and answered it but before she could even say 'Hello' there was a loud roar from the other end.
"DON'T YOU DARE... DON'T YOU DARE DO ANYTHING TO YOURSELF... I'M COMING THERE IN 20 MINUTES."
The call ended as fast as it started. Khushi sank back on the couch and closed her eyes, waiting. Finally... Finally he called... He is coming... He does care...
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Khushi's cabin door slammed open. She opened her eyes with a start and looked around. And there he was... her husband... her Arnav... right there in front of her eyes... she just sat staring at him hardly noticing that his entire form was trembling with rage... she didn't care that his eyes were spitting fire... all she knew that she was finally seeing him...
Arnav stormed towards her, grabbed her arms and pulled her up to stand.
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN BY THAT MESSAGE? HOW DARE YOU EVEN THINK OF SOMETHING LIKE THAT? DON'T YOU EVER SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT AGAIN." He yelled at her and pulled her closer lowering his voice. "Just listen to me. You are MINE only MINE. You have NO right to harm yourself. Don't even dare to think about it ever again. I won't allow it. Khushi... how could you... Do you know what I have been going through ever since I read that message? Do you know so many horrible thoughts have been going through my mind for the past 20 minutes? I have been going crazy here. How could you do that to me?"
She was still staring at him, her eyes filled with tears.
"Why are you just looking at my face now? Answer me Dammit!" He spoke through gritted teeth.
"21 hours Arnav... it's been 21 hours since I last saw you... do YOU know how much I missed you? I woke up in the morning and you weren't in my arms... do YOU know how lonely I felt? So many messages... so many calls... not a single reply... Do YOU know what I have been going through all day? Do YOU know how many horrible thoughts have been going through MY brain all day? Do YOU know how crazy I was going trying to understand why you are not talking to me or responding in any way even though there was hardly any work to do at AR? How could YOU do that to ME Arnav?"
Tears were now flowing freely from her eyes now and she was still standing just because he was holding her firmly or else her legs would have given up long ago. Arnav just heard every word uttered by her in stunned silence. For the first time he was sensing a strange madness in Khushi's love, something similar to what he felt for her. He hugged her as tightly as possible.
"I... I'm sorry Khushi. I'm really very sorry." He said as she completely broke down on his chest sobbing uncontrollably.
She didn't say anything after that, just held on to him as if her life depended on it.
After a while when she had somewhat calmed down, Arnav spoke. "Khushi I... after last night... I realised that you wanted to... but we can't Khushi. Every time you kiss me, I can't help but remember that evening when I treated you like a monster. And the pain you had to go through after that... that haunted look in your eyes... I hate myself so much for that Khushi that I can't even think about coming close to you ever. I can never let anything like that happen again."
"So you decided to stay away from me?" She interrupted him suddenly looking at him. "You thought that you ignoring my calls and messages will solve the problem? Arnav I love you and I have accepted you as my husband in all ways. And that is why I don't feel anything wrong in taking the next step in our relationship. For me it is purely our love for each other and nothing else. But I understand that you still need time. I have let go of the past and I can wait for as long as you want to come out of it and change your mind too. But that doesn't mean that you cut yourself off me. Tell me Arnav, how long has it taken for us to overcome all the hurdles and reach at this stage in our relationship? Don't ruin it all for us. Staying away from each other is not going to solve any problems. In fact it will only make it harder for us to survive through this... at least for me it will be very difficult... I don't know about you."
"You think I can stay away from you?" He asked shocked.
"This is not the first time you have tried to distance yourself from me. Is it so easy for you Arnav?" He asked him sadly.
"I... I just want you to be happy." He said in a small voice.
She pushed him a little and freed herself from his arms. "Happy? You think I'll be happy without you? How many times have I said that I love you Arnav? Don't you trust me? Don't you realise that my happiness lies with you? You don't want to move ahead with a physical relationship right? So couldn't you just tell that to me? How can you just decide to ignore me completely? Why do you keep trying to be away from me? Do you even love me anymore?"
"Khushi..." He pulled her close again. "Of course I love you. How can you even say that?"
"Then promise me Arnav that you will never again think about separating yourself from me." She pleaded. "Whatever difficulties that are coming in front of us due to the past, we'll face them together. But if you leave me, I'll completely break down."
"I promise you Khushi. I won't do anything like this again." He said hugging her again.
Khushi let out a long breath as she hugged him back. Past one month she had gotten so attached to Arnav that not finding him next to her in the morning or not seeing him at all or not talking to him had been extremely disturbing for her and now that he was with her, she felt relieved.
Arnav on the other hand had not realised that Khushi loved him so much. He had been so lost in her presence in his life that he had never thought about it much and had assumed that it would be best to stay away from her so that he didn't hurt her again.
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Over the next few days Khushi started to observe Arnav's behaviour towards her, something that she had been overlooking for the past one month.
She was quite surprised actually. She had almost gotten used to Arnav's over possessive nature and the way he always kept enforcing his right on her. So she was extremely shocked by this changed behaviour.
Khushi realised that ever since she had stupidly commented about being forced to be married to him, Arnav had been a little distant from her. That passionate way that he had always looked at her had been dimmed somehow and had been replaced by pain.
Even though he had never tried to get intimate with her after marriage, he had never hesitated from touching her or hugging her. However these days he never voluntarily came close to her. Yes he responded when SHE touched him. He hugged her back when she hugged him or when she held his hand he squeezed it gently. But all that was from her end. There was no initiative from his end. Khushi realised how deeply Arnav was damaged from within due to that one incident.
She had stopped showing any signs of intimacy with him. She didn't kiss him anymore or avoided any gesture that might make him feel uneasy. She realised that first she wanted her Arnav back, the one who was over the top possessive for her. She wanted to see that uncontrolled passion back into his eyes that was always there when he looked at her.
She knew it was still there buried deep inside him. She had seen a small glimpse of it the day she had messaged him that she would harm herself and he had gone crazy telling her that she didn't have that right as she belonged to him. She wanted that Arnav back first and everything else would fall in place when the right time came.
She smiled to herself remembering that there was a time when she was actually scared of his possessiveness and now the scene had changed so much that she herself craved for it.
Every day she thought non stop about how she could get her husband back to his usual self but couldn't come to any conclusion.
One afternoon Khushi was working in her cabin when she received a mail from Rohan. She read it and smiled as an idea stuck her.
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