Chapter 74

Maan swam for sometime and then went to his study. When he finally retired to his room he saw geet still sitting on the steps of the patio that opened into the terrace. He left a sigh and then walked out. Geet sat their hugging her sweeto bandar looking at the thundering sky which was pouring heavily.

Small droplets splashed over her foot as she sat trying to relieve herself of the anxiety burning within her.

He slowly walked towards her and sat on the floor near her. she realised that he was very sad.

Both were sitting quietly engrossed in their own thoughts. Geet trailed her fingers thru the fur of her sweetu making patterns.

It was raining very heavily just like tonite' we had our college fest in the evening. I was in its planning committee so by the time I came out most of the crowd had gone even the college folks had left except few. When I drove out of the campus of the auditorium where the function was held, I saw someone waiting under a tree. I slowed a bit and she rushed to my car.

She was one of my classmate. I knew she studied in my class.. I wasnt very close to all the classmates' I had a very limited group of friends and wasn't so open to them as u all r.. I was reserved types.

Aahh.. I actually my friends have left and I cant find an auto.

She was still in her dress in which the girls had performed.. some skirt and white blouse.

Yeah.

Mein..

Sameera.. right.

Haan aur tum maan maan..khurana

Yeah.

Can I use ur phone. I have to cal my friends.

Sure.

she tried to call but cudnt reach anyone. She was apologetic all the time for keeping me waiting and she was getting wet in the rain which made me feel awkward. She was not wet but drenched. She thanked me after giving back the phone. I wud have left but seeing her plight trying to cover herself with her arms and struggling made me stop. I offered her lift and she conceded if I dropped her to the nearest bus stop from where she wud get the next bus.

But I wud ruin ur car. Im drenched and this dress..

Ok no big deal come in.

Few awkward moments passed as we drove and we shared our formal intro sort of.

I offered her my jacket kept on the back seat as we reached the bus stop and stopped at certain distance. The stop had few boys and I asked her to wait in the car till the bus comes. She had to go to her hostel.

We were not so visible from the stop and it was raining very heavily by now.

She took my jacket and did the most unexpectable. I didn't expect this coming. I gave her the jacket to cover up not flaunt but what happened next took me for a ride. She tried to cover with the jacket and removed her shirt. It was slipping off.. and' I kind off.. got glimpses I shudnt have' had I expected her to do this or had she mentioned she wished to remove her shirt and wear the jacket I wud have turned away but she did it without telling me and' I was foolish enuf'. To look at her.. I was too young and stupid for that' my grads days'

He combed his hair in a frenzy' geet waited in anticipation of what happened next. She knew sam is capable of this but what was behind this her naivness or shrudness'..

#no no woman can flaunt her body to someone.. it sounds so cheap.. may be she was an idiot.. graduation mein itni samajh to aa jati hai' I got married at this age'..#

She wore my jacket but her wet fingers slipped over the zip she wasn't able to close it. She looked at me and then overlapped the flaps one over the other. I tried to look towards the bus stop.

The bus is there. I must leave. thanks.

Yeah. I sucked in my breath, sense of relief. She was playing with my nerves.

She ran to the bus, talked something to the conductor but she didn't climb the bus which left after the stop was empty.

I had still not moved from the place. I started the engine and then she came near again. She talked over my window bending down exposing much of herself to me as she held the jacket loosely.

Thanks. My bus comes after 15min or so.. this was not going to my route.. she seemed a little nervous.

Shud I drop u? means waiting here at this hour.. the time gap between buses is more at night.

If its not much trouble to u. coz the place doesn't seem good to me.

Its ok coz u will again get drenched again.

She sat back and smiled at the shirt she had left behind hanging on the seat rest. She had used some perfume which came from the shirt and filled the whole car. The air inside was getting heavy.

U must be thinking how chipku I am.. forcing u to give me a lift.. she covered.

She talked for sometime as she gave me the directions.

Maan was quiet.. looking at the rain.. his expressions changed as if he cud see what he talked. After sometime he said in a terse tone.

We kissed''. Actually we ended up on the car's back seat'. we did everything I shudnt have done' I was the biggest fool''.who committed the biggest mistake of my life'.. only thing I know and can assure myself was I didn't force myself on her' it was mutual'.rather initiated by her' I dnt deny my participation' my brain had stopped.. I did something I had never done during all my college days''one night and phew'

Geet was dumbstruck'she had expected this but when he blurtted out in one go it took time for her to swallow the facts. She had heard and known that its common now a days.. her many classmates have physical relations'.she had even accepted that maan and sam had something but when truth is spoken its hard to accept.

She left without a word'.

I came back home..cudnt sleep'' first thing in morning I reached college and waited for her.. she hadnt told me the exact address of her hostel so I cudnt reach there.. moreover I didn't want to go there and make it awkward for her' I cudnt ask her friends as it wud make them suspicious.

I waited for her every day untill she came after a week. I wanted to plead sorry.. to tell her' I dnt know what.. if I was feeling so sad and low how must have she felt.. cheated by someone she believed in.. she took lift from' I was not such a low stooper''. It was very tough for me as each day passed and she didn't come.. may be she went back..

I looked at her and she moved to a solace corner in the end of the corridor signalling me to follow.

I thought u left''. U werent coming to college' so.. r u fine?

I had fever. Now im fine.

May be the rain. I got worried.

R u same maan singh khurana whom people say r snob and arrogant due to his dad's money.

Huh'

U r so different. Actually more than the cough and cold I got I was worried that u must be ringing and gossiping stories about me in the class' I know boys dnt gossip but they boast.. im nothing to ur gf list may be but many boys tried to go out with me and I had refused.. so they wud think I was washed away in the drain by u' so I didn't come out of fear of humiliation and gossip' but when none of my friends mentioned anything in so much time I just talked to many classmate they were all normal.. so ,'. I turned up'

I wudnt have ruined a girl's reputation just for boasting what I did''' its nothing to boast.. I mean ur good no but I cant tell anyone what im doing.

Ur so nice.. sorry I thought otherwise of u..

I thouhgt u went back or wont come to college.

Look it wasn't all ur fault.. I got weak.. mine too.. aahh.. shall we leave the topic.

Yeah lets go for next lecture.

She was a simple girl.. as she seemed to me initially. past was almost forgotten. We became friends and she was with me all time in college. I treated her as my friend but she started telling everyone in college that she was my girlfriend. I didn't want to fight over such issues with her and didn't do so.

Slowly her problems became mine' I was there to solve all sorts of fight that happened due to her stupidities of smiling and flirting with boys' I thought she was an idiot not to understand she gave wrong meaning and signal to boys by the way she behaved. But I protected her the best.

Due to some such fight I dnt know what she was expelled from the hostel. She called me late night stating her condition being stranded on road and no where to go. she had come late from some friend's B'day party and warden didn't let her in.. what I didn't know was she had been warned many times and was a regular late comer, half the time drunk. She boldly told others that we r really close, hence no one dared to come and tell me all these things.

I took her to dad's office guest house that night, Placed her there but cudnt let her stay there for long without reaching dad's ears'. I finally found an apartment for her and rented it for her.. she refused that she didn't have that much money and I offered to pay for her.

Then began the time when I started paying for her bills.. dresses.. outings.. we did together' our shopping.. movie'phone and all so I paid without question.. as I did for all my friends when we dined out or went for movie' but slowly I dnt know how she wud just send me the bill even if she went alone to shop. It was fine for me I didn't mind.

I didn't go out for nights.. daadi was strict and I didn't like the crowd too.. sometimes I wud accompany her to clubs where I had access to which others didn't have and sometimes to disc etc for her happiness. This was all the night outs she was having according to my knowledge. but that was my knowledge. I believed in her naivness and ignorance''.. I thought of her to be carefree types.. and I was there to protect her so'''.

I slowly lost all my friends as she took away all my time.

During exam time I had to teach her make her finish her assignments. Doing mine early so that she wud copy it for herself. That's when I started going to her apartment.. till then I never went there.

For me she was a good frind, for her I dnt know or cant tell'

I always wanted her to keep a roomie with her as it wud be more secure and safe. But she said se cant find a good one.. and I cudnt find girl roomies for her.

After the exams she planned a party with all friends at her place that day she was very happy. And she shouted I love u.. infront of everyone. It was a surprise for me but I saw everyone expected this and was easy. I accepted.

Few more visits and she insisted on coming closer' I was a little hesitant but she kind of wanted the relation to progress. And was confident as it wudnt be the first time.

Then there was no question of roomies. I still wanted one but she refused on name of privacy.

Then on I thought of her as my GF' and a future together. I cared for her which she called possesiveness of mine. But I kinda took care of everything related to her.. may be I was a little possesive, taking decisions. Going into details' maybe I didnt know how to love' I held on to her as my most precious belonging. I treated her as a part of me.

# u werent wrong that's what is love all about'' u were loving her unconditionally#

This was final year of our grads. We were very close by then as I thought.. I knew everything about her but I didnt.

Dad had some project in london and wanted me to go with him. we had initially planned a vacation for the two of us. I cudnt deny dad as he wanted me to make use of my vacation and learn something in business. Till now I used to go to office sometime, do small projects and learn things first hand from staff.

Sameera was very upset with our plan being ruined as it was a 45day trip. Dad clubbed it with a small family vacation with ma and daadi in italy.

Intially she insisted on going with me but I cudnt do that with dad alongwith me' neither cud I tell dad about her nor did I want to lie to him. I denied. The first time I told her no.

She was very angry for a week and didnt talk to me or attend my calls. Then just a day before I left she called me in morning and asked me to come home. We patched up.

The next day I visited her again before leaving and she made me promise loads of gifts.

I left for london. We were in contact more or less except when she visited her family for few days. I had asked her to go to them for full vacation as she wud be bored alone but she insisted on staying in delhi. I called her everyday but most days she left her phone home or was asleep and didn't receive the calls. So I was least informed of her ware abouts.

I returned back after my long vacation to find her extra happy. she didn't show any excitement as such for my coming back but more excited for a new offer she had got. She had an modelling assignment in her hand and she wanted to do it. The first thing we did after my comeback was fight over this issue. I didn't want her to model' I was adamant on this and I denied her decision completely.

She refused to accept my decision. I insisted that it was unacceptable to me. I left on no compromise ground.

I didn't talk to her for another 10 days. We met again and she tried to patch up but I was adamant of her not doing the assignment. I wanted her to commit to this. We fought for another week.

I found the confirmation contract on her table duely signed by her.

me persuading her not to confirm for the project and here she was confirming for it. then finally she blasted the biggest news to me.

It was the dead voice' she had never heard so much of pain in his voice ever.

# he loved her too much. She must have broke up with him''..#

She was 2 months pregnant.

Silence prevailed neither of them moved or spoke. Geet got goose bumps. She shivered with the thought. She looked at him.. his eyes had welled up. He was anguished. He looked the other way to stop his tears from falling.

I was shocked but I dnt know what had taken over me I was still fighting over the modelling. She threw the pregnancy report on my face. I said I will take care of this in future first she must deny this assignment.

I didn't mean it literally geet. he looked straight into her eyes. He was saying the truth. His eyes spoke volumes and much more than his words did.

I left from there when she didn't accept. Without a word about her pregnancy. All I knew was she cannot think of a career in modelling with the baby coming.

I was very sad. I went into remorse. I didn't go to college didn't meet people' stayed all day in my room. This continued for few days. I was shocked that this was the first time I was asking her to do something and she denied it point blank. She was eager for this stupid flaunt business with my baby coming.

Ma sensed something has gone wrong.. I was never so sad.

She came to me and told me. if u have committed urself to someone then u have all the responsibilities of the relation. Even if the other partner goes astray at times u have to be responsible and behave sensibly. In a relation if something goes wrong both have equal responsibility of it. I dnt want my son to be someone who shrieks from it. Remember if u do some mistake and hurt someone God will punish u for it.

I realised that there was something more impt than the assignment' it was our baby. I cudnt hurt her at this stage when she is pregnant with my baby.

I called to meet her. she asked me to meet in the evening as she had some prior commitments. I complied but didn't had the patience to wait for that long. I went to her apartment. She wasn't there so I used my spare keys to enter the house.

She was always messy. And that's what she had done to the rooms in my absence. I cleaned up the whole bedroom to surprise her' ordered food' and made things ready for a patch up as soon as she came. I thought I will explain her sensibly about baby and modelling not going together.

While I cleaned her table I again saw her modelling contract. I just wanted to remove it from my eye sight so opened the drawer to keep it in there. I saw some medical prescriptions and bills there. I took it out expecting it to be something related to the baby. It was some usg report stating 9weeks 3 days baby.

# oh he remembers even the exact date'. What a moment for him#

I read all the papers. Sameera kapoor had aborted the baby. 9 weeks 3 days baby' a day before she told me she is pregnant. She did it even before telling me that she is pregnant.

A drop escaped the corner of his eyes. Geet felt sad she wanted to touch him.. she raised her hand but then was hesitant.

I was broken seeing how cud she without consulting me. I sat there I dnt know for how much time. I was broken out of my reverie by sameera's laughter. She was there with one of her friends.

So when do u leave?

In a week and after this I will be having lines of contract. Raghaav told me next one is bigger than this. The other two I did last month were also thru his contacts.

How do u get such men swing to ur finger tips.. pehle Maan Singh Khurana then ye raghav. Maan ko to larkiya paatane mein haar gayi aur tune itne aaram se..

Yeah.. it was easy and Maan was easy..actually cake walk..thora compromise karo and they r hot too''. not bad to sleep with. So it wasn't much of a compromise but fun'

Does maan know of ur assignments and is he fine with it?

Huh'who cares'.. waise bhi I was initially friendly with him as I thought he will have high contacts which will give me exposure to his society. Going to high profile parties with him will give me contacts for my career but use to parties hi pasand nahi... uufff kitna change karne ki koshish ki par vo to vo hai' use is baat ki chinta rahti thi k meine dress thik pahani hai ki nahi koi mujhe check out na kare..

Common but he was so caring'

Caring.. huh possesive tha'.. vo to shadi karna chahta hai.. aaj aega milne

To tum usse shadi kyu nahi karti aakhir u people r together for so long?

To kya hua? I have been with Raghav too.. he is also really good in bed.

I had had enuf I just walked out of the premise. From that day on I didn't see her again. He bend his head backward she cud see him sinking into the dark dungeons of sorrow.

He gasped and breathed in as if he was panting. He buried his face in his hands. She touched his shoulder.

I m not worth it geet. im not worth anything.

I was very sad and went to chandigarh. Stayed there for few days. I wasn't able to face ma.

Ma called me many times but I didn't talk to her. then told her everything. ma and dad decided to visit me. on their way to chandigarh they had a car accident. I'''I lost them.

He cried. Geet hugged him sideways.

I still remember ma told me if I commit a mistake I will be punished for it. Agar mein modelling ki zid na karta to vo mujh se baby ki baat karti. I wudnt have lost it and due to my mistake I lost my ma' God punished me he took my ma away. It all happened bcoz of me'

I was lost but daadi brought me back. She needed me and I had to take care of the whole empire.. dev and daadi in absence of dad. I got involved in all these but lost all in process.

He softly rested his head on the pillar beside him. geet held him. she cud feel his turmoil.

The clouds thundered as if they echoed with his inner turmoil.

I was never prepared for a relationship then on' I was a failure. if I was good enuf she wud never wud have dated any other man. She seeked someone else as I was not capable to fulfil her. had I been good enuf she wudnt have gone away with someone else.

His voice was so low'painful

Geet I have nothing to offer to woman so I denied marriage'I can never be a nice life partner'.daadi just got me into it. I can never'..

But I think u r worth so much'..

Geet I have nothing' I cant even be a good father. I can never be a that ' no woman wud like this' she wont accept a man like me'

U mean a lot to me' she assured him.

I have nothing to offer'and then u will want babies which I'.

I wont ask for babies' promise. She touched his face'..

Geet' he was buried in his own remorse.

She rested her head on his shoulder pondering over what he told her.

i know im late and this was a much awaited update but sorry...