Chapter 58

UNSPOKEN LOVE

CHAPTER 53

[NOCOPY]

[MEMBERSONLY]

"Slow it down Arnavji..." Khushi said holding his arm as he sped through the roads. His mind was so occupied with the thoughts which he just wants to brush away. he look at her soft hand over his arm and he pressed the brakes abruptly making her lean forwards. He unbuckled his seatbelt and reached on her side, she was already very scared and now his actions were making her almost faint with nervousness.

He opened her gate and reached for her seatbelt to unbuckle it.

A-Arnavji...what are you doing?" she asked but he was not listening to her at all. She was sure he would leave her here in the middle of the road to come back home alone. He took her hand and made her hop out of the car.

"How can you do this Khushi?" he asked with his voice rosed to octaves.

"W-What are you t-talking about Arnaji?" she asked and moved forward towards her making her back hit the car.

"Khushi you exactly know what I am talking about." He said with his teeth gritted tight.

"I-I seriously don't..."

"How can you think of another marriage when our contract is not over yet." He screamed at her making her flinch at sound.

"I-I..."

"Do you want to re-marry Khuhsi?" he asked her with soft voice and she looked away no wanting to answer his question right now.

"Answer me dammit." He yelled making her flinch again. he grabbed her chin and made her look at him. she blinked her eyes rapidly to blink away the tears welling up in them.

"Tell me Khushi?" this time his question came more out like a plead. He so desperately wanted to hear her answer but she wasn't even looking at him.

"Will you marry some other guy once this is over between us?" he asked his voice getting softer. Her heart was screaming and crying hearing those questions. She doesn't want to think what will happen after these 3 months. Divorce, remarriage, family all these things were something she doesn't even want to think about at this moment but one thing she was sure about. She let one man broke her heart but she would give the same opportunity to another man to enjoy her pain. She doesn't want to be the sufferer again. she fell in love with a person who would never love her, even though she know he'll leave her after 3 months but one thing she was well aware of, that even after these months. She just can't stop herself from loving him.

"Yes..." she lied in a very low voice which came out like whispers. She didn't want him to realize how deeply he had his impact on her life. she wanted him to know that she can live without him too and move on.

Her one yes' just sank his heart down. this wasn't the reply he wanted to he hear. It felt as if someone had just kicked him in his guts hard taking away all the air from his lungs. He moved closer if that was even possible. He dropped his head down and their forehead met. He was so close to her that his breath was fanning on her cheeks making her heart thump louder in her chest.

"Will you feel the same around him too?" he whispered in her ear and tried hard to look away but the grip of his hands on her waist and head on her forehead was restricting her movements. Never in his life he thought that Arnav Singh Raizada would feel so vulnerable around a girl but this girl was different. She made him change the rules he made.

"A-Arnavji..." She whispered and the air from her mouth touched his lips.

"Please say it Khushi." He begged wanting to hear the truth which he knows from long. He knows that she loves him but at that time he never cared about it but now when he wanted to hear those words from her she is just slipping away like sand from his hand.

When she didn't say anything his desperation bubbled in him and he inched closer to catch her lips. He wanted to it from long but he always kept himself refrained. He was holding himself back but if he would stop himself now then he might lose her forever. He closed his eyes to grab as much as he could make out of this moment. His lips touched hers but the moment this happened he was pushed back making him tumble slightly.

"Please Arnavji...let's not do the same mistake which would regret later." She said in a rush looking away from him unable to look straight at him.

Is this what it felt to be rejected? It felt as if his heart was broken into million pieces at that same instant but his own words repeated in his mind.

It was a mistake Khushi...!!!

Was this is how she felt when he declared their first kiss as a mistake, but whom was he trying to fool? T prove his heart wrong he uttered those words but his own words sliced his heart into pieces. her one no' tonight would have changed everything in between them. he had made up his mind that he needs to give things a closure and if she would have said no' that would have been a big yes' for their relation and he would have openly confessed his love for her but it seems she has already made up his mind. She wants to move on but will he ever be able to see this happening.

"You are right." He said in a mock and went ahead to sit on his driver's seat. He didn't wanted to show her how much hurt her few words just made her but how could he complain? These were the same words which he told her.Khuhsi uncomfortably sat on her side and buckled the seatbelt and the journer of 20minutes seemed to be of 2 hours in that silence.

As they reached home he waited for her to leave the car but she didn't move an inch.

"Khushi get out of the car." he said in irritation not even looking at her.

"After you." she replied.

"Khuhsi I have to go somewhere." He said with a huff.

"Then I'll come with you." she argues back making him the little amount of patience which was left in him.

"Khushi I have..."

"You can go wherever you want I am not stopping you Arnavji but please first at something and the way you have been driving I will never let you go alone." She interrupted him saying everything I one breathe and he stared at her deep in her eyes.

"Why are you doing this?" he asked, his voice softening almost immediately hearing the words of concern from her mouth.

"I am your responsibility for these 3 months and you keep reminding me that but you are also mine...I don't want to see anything happening to you last time." She said feebly feeling flustered. For the first time he regretted his choice and her words made his heart clench. He smiled at her concern hoping this could last forever in his life. seeing her looing everywhere but not at him he thought how much is going to miss her smiles, rambles, nervousness around him but for the second time in the night he don't want to ruin the moment. He don't know what the future holds for them but he wants to make out the most of this moments.

"Let's go and have our dinner...you must be hungry too." He said and drove to somewhere where they could find even in the late hours of the night. they ended up eating a small place with a burger and a cold drink but she looked content with it.

They reached back home and everyone was asleep. They made their way upstairs where Khushi first gave her Coco the ice cream cones she had been holding the entire way back home just for her little friend. Happy with his surprise meal, Coco ate everything in a go and they both retired to bed. son she fell asleep but Arnav couldn't sleep tonight. Soon this side of the bed will be vacant again. he loked at her sleeping figure and instantly grabbed her hand.

He can't...!!!

He can't let her go...

He pressed her hand tighter and she frowned slightly in her sleepy state but for a better and comfortable position ended up getting closer to him. the urge to feel her closer grew in him and he encircled his arm around her waist and scooted her closer to his body. She is such a heavy sleeper that she didn't even protested a bit. Feeling the warmth and the touch he needed he quickly fell asleep.

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A faint noise of the phone ringing reached his ears and although he didn't wanted to wake up but it kept ringing.

"Ummm..." Khushi huffed in her sleep and he woke to receive the call on her phone.

"Hello..." his voice was hoarse from the deep slumber he was in.

"Hello Arnavji.." he heard the sobs of Payal on the other end.

"Payal...what happened?" he asked getting alerted.

"Please bring Khushi to the hospital...P-Papa..." she cried.

"What happened to Uncle?" his voice came out louder making Khushi open her eyes.

"He-He wants to s-see her..." she cried and the call got disconnected.

"Arnavji what happened?" Khushi asked Arnav in her sleepy state. He don't know what to say and how to break this news to her.

"Khushi...get up...we need to go." He said getting up from the end.

"It's late Arnavji.." she protested.

"Khushi...we don't have time...just get up Uncle wants to see you." he said grabbing the keys of his car and the name of her father snapped her eyes open.

"What happened to Papa?" she asked in a rush getting up from the bed.

"I don't know Khushi..." he said and they immediately rushed towards the destination. The journey wasn't easy for Khushi as she kept crying and he kept consoling as nothing would have happened to him but he don't know why he felt it was lie. As soon as they reached Khshi searched her Ma andhugged her tight.

"Where is Papa...?" she asked Garima who was having a hard time controlling her cries.

"He wants to see you...Go.." she pointed towards the ICU and Khushi rushed in and all her word came shattering down as she saw her father lying in the middle of the room looking very pale. Several tubes were connected to him and it looked as if he had lost plenty of weight. She walked closer and saw all his hair was gone and she controlled the sob coming out of her throat but she failed. her sob woke him up and he gingerly looked at her daughter and gave her a feeble smile which made Khsuhi broke up and ran in his direction and hugged him tight.

"What happened to you...Y-you...why are you here?" she asked.

"I don't have much time Khushi." He said in a feeble voice only for her to hear.

"Please don't say like that." She begged and that moment Arnav entered the room slowly closing the door behind him. His eyes met Shashi's and for a moment he felt that he didn't belong to this place interrupting their time but with his eyes he stopped Arnav from going out.

"Khushi...I am sorry...you wanted to study but I pushed you to marry...but you were my responsibility...I promised your father..."

"You are my father." She protested interrupting him and he smiled.

"I know...but when I came to know about this cancer I just wanted you to give you to the person whom you really belong to." Arnav stepped forward and stood behind Khsuhi. He himself was a but startled seeing Shashi's condition but he didn't say anything.

"I just want to see you happy Khushi...I am sorry if i..."

"Papa please..." she cried craning her neck up.

"Arnavji please tell him not to say like his." she begged him and he held her by shoulders.

"Khushi...are you happy?" he asked and she froze. She don't want to lie to her father but she cant tell him truth. She can't hurt him in this condition. She cried and hide her face back in his chest but Arnav held her back.

"Khushi I need you answer so I can die with peace." He said and this was enough for her. she cant stay here any longer. She stood up and ran out of the room. she was stuck in a situation where she doesn't know what to do.

"I'll bring her back." Arnav told him and followed her out. She was crying and ran out all the way out.

"Khsuhi please stop." She fell down on her knees in the parking area unable to compose herself.

"Khushi..."he sat beside her and hugged her tight letting her cry. He felt sorry for landing her in this situation but he wasn't aware of this.

"He'll be okay Khsuhi..." he knew he was lying but he didn't know what else to say. He was rubbing her back to calm her down but she wasn't stopping.

"He wants to see me happy." She cried.

"He wants to know the truth Arnavji..." she cried and he felt helpless for her. he want to undo the things but it's a bit too late.

"Khushi...control yourself." He said and she cried harder trying to hide herself in him.

"I have to lie again Arnavji..."she cried and her every word made him 10times more guiltier.

"Khushi..please...stop crying..." he told her embracing her.

"Please help me Arnavji...please..." she begged looking at him with teary eyes and his heart sank looking at her in that way.

"Khushi..."

"Please...for once act like normal happy couple...act like we love each other...please...I don't want him to sense anything wrong...he'll be disturbed please Arnavji. I don't want make him upset...he is...he is dying..." she cried and requested.

He don't know how to react on this. he himself made this condition and now it felt so foreign to hear it from her. act? How can he act when he already love her? he thought but is this the same she felt he said this to her. his thoughts were interrupted when she jerked him.

"Please Arnavji..i won't ask anything ever again..." she begged and he simply nodded to stop her from begging. He can't see her like this...so broken. He helped her stand and together they walked in where he will enact his real emotion for her.

To be continued

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