Chapter 20

It had to be you

Drowsiness and weakness tried to capture his body, his mind but gasping for air he tried to stable his composure, he didn't know how he reached at his apartment but when he had taken a step inside the room his head spun, his legs left his weight and his knees dropped on the floor, he gasped resting back his head slowly on the wall to save it from collapsing with the it.He breathed for several times to keep himself stable, "where are you Khushi?where should I find you?"

He inhaled oxygen and closed his eyes letting the new flood of tears to flow, "I never cared for anything except my dreams'I never loved anyone as no one loved me'I never respected any relation in my life as I thought everything can buy with the money.But----"

He paused and sucked in a sharp breath as the knot of pain appeared in his throat and then he let out the long breath calming his nerves.

"But few years ago before you entered in my life and have changed everything'yes you changed Arnav Singh Raizada,a Casanova,a heartless,selfish,cruel." He laughed out hysterically.

"and I want to admit Khushi I Love you'I Love you more than I ever think I could love someone.come back to me---your Arnav is nothing without you'you've right to give me punish but not like this'don't do this to me'come back"He yelled in helplessness but his voice touched the walls and again returned and fell into his own ear, she wasn't there to listen his words she had been gone.

"Come back"He yelled once again, but this time his tone was low and helpless, Tears of anguish welled in his eyes. As one slipped down his cheek, he brushed it away carelessly. He sucked in a long breath and then wiping off his face with the back of his palm, he stretched out his leg and stood up with abruptly.

"I'll bring back you in my life'I'll"

He swore in his breath.

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Another day ended up with little peace and more restlessness, it had been now three day she had joined the office, though she was trying hard to keep herself engross in work and gave less time to his thoughts but there was nothing in her control. She was helpless against her heart and it had hurt her deeply to think she loved that person whom she could never get.

Khushi raised her and about to press the door bell when the door flung open and Diya regarded her with the welcoming smile.

"Welcome back home, how was your day?"

Taking a bag from her hand Diya helped her to made her sit and asked concernedly, Khushi had taken several breaths before looking up wiping off the sweat from her temple, "it was good" The tip of her tongue flicked out to moisten her dry lips, her tone was low and weak reflected her condition and Diya knelt beside her, "you aren't looking fine. Why don't to go for check up"

"I'm fine"Khushi lifted a finger and wiped away a tear that traced slowly down her cheek, then murmured weakly.

A long sigh escaped her and Diya spoke again "its about him, you're missing him,if you can't live without him why don't you go back to him, you're bearing his child and you should make him realize his mistake". Diya took Khushi's hand in hers and gave it a squeeze but Khushi pulled her hand standing up restlessly."I don't want to be burden on him'I don't want him to think I can't rise up my child if he wouldn't accept him'I want him to come to me to claim this child as his"

"Then you'll have to wait, don't stress yourself Khushi be patient and-----"Diya kept her hand on Khushi's shoulder and Khushi whirled to face her, "I can't live like this. Its hurts me what if I would have to live without Arnav"She brokenly, how much it was painful for her to forget that person whom she loved.

Khushi exhaled long before lifting up her chin to meet her gaze, "Diya I'm going to leave this city'I want to go far away from his memories'I've not courage to bear his separation, the air of this city, the rain everything reminds me of him"

Her last few words choked due to her unshed tears but she kept herself compose to spill them out speaking in a firm tone.

"What?"

Diya couldn't react in other way except to let out a shout regarding her with a shocking look, gasping air to come out from this shock she stepped nearer to Khushi and held her by shoulders.

"Do you know what are you saying?Do you want to spent your life with 'a Single mother' tag? How could you even think like this?"

"I've been decided"Khushi said without elaborating and Diya taken aback at her firm decision.

"But Khushi---"

She tried to protest but Khushi took her hands in hers and stared directly at her, "Diya,I know I'm lucky to have a friend like you who care, who thinks so much about me but---but there is some decision that I'll have to take for me, for my child. If I live here I won't ever move on in my life Though, I know I can't forget him'Never .He lives in my heart but I've to live for my child, if he loves me he would've been came back to me but he didn't."

"but he doesn't know where you're how could he come back to you?Khushi please reconsider your decision"Diya sounded broken at her sudden unexpected decision.Khushi let out the sigh of hurt and then letting a lone tear to wet her cheek she spoke looking back at her

"I had left a note for him he would had been read that, I had written your address on that note"

Khushi blinked back the fresh tears and breathed to stable her composure, "I'm going away from him for forever as he isn't mine"She clenched her teeth tightly and then clamped her lips to break down in front of Diya.

"so you've been made decision" Diya made a sound of hurt deep in her throat and Khushi gave her a pleading look, "please Diya try to understand me"

Diya breathed silently and removed the tears with her palm, "if it's your decision then I won't stop you but don't forget I'm with you and I'm always there for you"

Diya squeezed her hand and then pulled her for hug,Khushi closed her eyes letting the tears to wet her face.

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Arnav took another healthy slug of whiskey and gulped down through his throat though it gave him momentary peace but didn't lessen his pain, the whole day he had searched for her like a mad person, every street, every colony, every possible place where he could think he might found her but fate wasn't with him.

"Where should I find her?"Arnav exploded, moving his hands in his hairs; he clutched them tightly for a moment and inhaled deep breath. "She hadn't left any clue, any sign for me where she has gone. She never did that before, whenever she went somewhere she left a note for me so I wouldn't get upset" He drew his face in his hands cried out helplessly, his mind ran furiously and then it skipped a beat as suddenly a thought came to his mind," A note"

"She might have left the note for me" He lifted his face as a flicker of hope raised in his heart, he flung herself from the chair and crossed to the desk, pulling out drawer after drawer until he found what he was hoping to find.

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Precap

When he finally reached at the doorstep, he paused, sucked in a steadying breath, lifting his hand to rap the door, Starved for the sight of her, his eyes lifted impatiently as the door flung open.

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"where is Khushi?tell her Arnav has come to bring her with him"