Chapter 3

Armaan looked at her trembling hands put the pen down as the lawyer declared their union officially. A lone tear escaped her eye; he noticed it as it made its way down her cheek. He felt a sudden urge to wipe it off, he put forward his hand to place it on hers only to be interrupted.

 

"Congratulations my dears" Shanshank wished them candily, pulling them both in a joint hug Armaan looked over at Riddhima not lifting her gaze.

 

"Both my children I am proud of u today, u have finally completed my dream" Shanshank added "errm and Padma's dream too" he hastily muttered as he looked over at Riddhima.

 

"Well now since this big issue has been resolved why don't we go on and announce this to the world ,Armaan beta I will be announcing my will too today" Shanshank added glancing meaningfully at Armaan.

 

"Today infact just now we have a small get together at lunch at our mansion, to announce the newly weds and ofcorse my will today"

 

"Don't worry its just us, family only not a big party as u had requested darling Riddhima but as we haven't had an exactly grand wedding we will arrange for a party too in the next two days…as I need to introduce my son-in-law to everyone in circuit. Anyways that's another issue, Armaan beta see u at lunch. Riddhima beta shall we make a move…."

 

Armaan looked at Shanshank shocked. Here he was just married and instead of asking them to come together Shanshank was already ordering and controlling them especially Riddhima. No my dear official sasurji not anymore as u have got me into the soup I will taste it too.

 

"Errm Uncle" Armaan called Shanshank as he took hold of Riddhima's hand leading her to their car.

 

"I was wondering if u could go along and I could bring Riddhima with me since we are ….errm……"

 

Riddhima looked at him surprised, Shanshank was astounded.

 

"Ahh beta I know you are very eager but beta Riddhima will be there with you at the end of the day and so let this loving father spend some last moments with his daughter." Shanshank smiled sternly.

 

"Of course uncle but u see since we were married rather too hastily I would like a few moments alone with my wife before we announce now." Armaan replied back with a smile. Loving father my foot thought Armaan, I bet u haven't even looked at the poor girl properly in these years. But why am so insistent Armaan wondered himself, the fact was he himself didn't know what him made him at that spur ask Shanshank to allow Riddhima to come with him. Well now since he had opened his mouth there was no point backing out and the fact was he really wanted to her to come along with him he confessed.

 

"Alright let her come along with you. But be there in time for lunch" Shanshank added smiling wickedly

 

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He looked at her still gazing down deeply lost in thought as she sat beside him in his Mercedes . Her face looked so very forlorn that he didn't know why but he too seemed to feeling unhappy. He wanted her to smile and see that smile go up to her eyes as had in the ball. Wondering yet again as too how her face from the ball seemed to zoomed into his imagination he shook his head and started the engine. As the car roared to life he saw her jerk up from her thoughts. But in a moment again she resumed her gazing down session. As he steered the car along the road he decided the break the silence.

 

"Riddhima are u alright?"

 

Looking up she glanced at him and nodded still not uttering a word. Irritated by her lack of response Armaan urged further.

 

"Riddhima is the scene below your seat so interesting that you have been constantly gazing down past 15 minutes or is it that you are afraid that you will not be able to control your feelings if you dare look up at me, you know as I am very very hot and handsome. " Armaan looked at her cheekily.

 

Riddhima looked over at him surprised. The last thing she expected was a joke. Smiling at his cheesy line she finally looked over at him. What he said was partly right…she was afraid to look at him, avoiding his gaze as she didn't know what she would find there. She barely knew him or rather she was trying to force herself with that as being his junior past over a month she had observed him very carefully and the fact was she knew him rather well know. But still she felt she shouldn't assume or expect anything. Her life had taught her enough lessons to place her trust in him. She had loved her mother the most but she was the first one to leave her and go, next her sister, Anjali had showered her with love too but it was always rationed. Riddhima knew Anjali loved her more than nything else on this earth but somehow the sisters had never been able to develop that special bond which Riddhima would have wanted to share. Maybe it was because they were always apart. Anjal had been sent away to boarding school since childhood and then came her turn to go away……both the sisters grew up separately as they were in different years. Then Riddhima was sent away  to complete her graduation, though Anjali was there too she was in her final year and by the time Riddhima completed her graduation Anjali had got married. So Riddhima pondered how lonely she had been all her life. Her father was hardly ever there , he never ever spoke to her unless it was necessary. Riddhima found her eyes moist as she looked at her state. She couldn't even trust anyone now with her feelings, shyness had become an integral part of her nature and she didn't know whom she could just pour these feelings too. She needed somebody to confide in too. Someone who would shower her only with love without any conditions….

 

"Hello where are u lost my fair lady?"

 

Hearing his voice echoing her thoughts she looked over at him…..

 

"Phew thank god you at least looked up otherwise I thought I would have to cover my face to make you look up. See darling I know I am good looking but that doesn't mean you don't look up. Try to control yourself"

 

Laughing out a little she found her tension easing out a little.

 

Seeing her laugh out he felt a bit calm. He had been wondering what to say to make her feel comfortable. He knew she was worried but he didn't want her to uncomfortable. Shocked a bit at himself that he had been thinking so much about her and her comfort he shook his head. What was happening to him? Trying to reason out he thought well now she is my wife I have to atleast take care of her, I cannot treat her in the same way my dear sasurji did…though she hardly makes any difference to me we cant spend the rest of our life together in silence. Satisfied at the justification of his act he continued further.

 

"Riddhima please do not be so worried as I will not eat you up. I know we were married a bit too hastily and I know its natural for you to be so nervous but trust me u don't need to be so scared. They way you have been sitting for past 20 minutes u are making me look like a lion who will pounce upon a mouse."

 

Riddhima looked at him with surprise as he said all this in one breath. He seem to be different from what she had experienced. He spoke more warmly. The same warmth she noticed him speak to Rahul and Muskan .

 

"No its nothing like that ….its just that I was wondering how will Anjali and ……and …..your family react and I have been wondering about a few things…..like….." Riddhima finally mustered some courage to speak.

 

Seeing him thinking over what she said…..she suddenly spoke up…

 

"Armaan can I make a request?"

 

"Sure u don't need to be so formal" Armaan added trying to make her feel at ease…

 

"Can we please stop by that temple…just for a few minutes if you don't mind"

 

"Sure as you say"

 

Looking at her close her eyes praying silently he gazed at her intently, innocence so notable but there was something which mared the natural beauty on her face…..he couldn't place his finger on it….an immense sadness seemed to fill up her face……

 

Opening her eyes to find him gaze at her she looked away nervously…

 

"Errm you dont want seek blessings Armaan?"

 

"I don't believe in any divine power as such Riddhima…..I believe only in my self "

 

She saw his face harden as he said that, stopping herself to argue more she silently followed him back to the car.

 

"Hmm so you are worried as to how everyone will react?"

 

Armaan prodded gently trying to built up some conversation….

 

Seeing her go tense he continued….

 

"See it was your fater who made us get married so hastily and I agree they should have been informed but he forbade us to do so right so whatever way they react it will be justified…."

 

Seeing her nod he added more gently.

 

"And however they react you don't need to worry as I am by your side…" Taking hold of her hand he squeezed it only to feel an a warm tingle going inside him….

 

Warmed by his gesture she smiled back at him……things weren't going to be so difficult as she had anticipated……

 

 

"Can I ask u something Armaan?"

 

'hmm I know you have a lot of questions going through your mind but since we are already reaching your place I think we can carry on this discussion later….."

 

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He looked at move closer to him as the door opened….she was a nervous wreck…

 

Smiling at her reassuringly he took a step forward a bit scared himself at the thought of facing Rahul..

 

"Hey Ridzi..how come u came over with Armaan? Had some duty in hospital? Armaan I must say u r troubling y sister a lot…by the way do u guys have any idea why Dad has called us over..i was quite surprised that he called us both for lunch…..his unwanted daughter and son-in-law andu know Rahul has been called too…I am sure father is up to something.."

 

Riddhima clutched Armaan's hand tightly as they walked in hearing Anjali ranting all this at a super jet speed…..looking at Rahul approaching them Armaan quickly left her hand and moved forward…

 

"Hey Armaan u know why uncle has called us here? I mean imagine Muskaan has been invited too……"

"Bhai actually ….that…I mean……Riddhima ……."

 

'Welcome everyone"

 

They looked over at Shanshank standing on the staircase….

 

"Ahh so everyone here? My Anjali beta and Rahul u too"

 

Rahul and Anjali looked at each other in disbelief .Was it Shnshank who was there addressing them….

 

"No need to look so shocked my dears" Shanshank added sarcastically…."I have called u all to make a very important announcement….before I tell this to the world I want you all to know about it….."

 

"I have finally formed my will…and as per that I have finally narrowed down on my heirs…..u will be pleased to know Anjali and Rahul that it Riddhima my angelic daughter ……yes Riddhima Gupta or rather I should now say Riddhima Mallik  as she will jointly be sharing it with her husband my son Armaan….."

 

Silence succeeded this announcement as Atul and Muskaan looked at Rahul and Anjali who stood there numb and thunderstruck….

 

"Yes u heard it right…..Riddhima just tied a knot with Armaan and she has also been declared as my legal heir…." Added Shanshank enjoying the effects his news had created….

 

Coming out of his daze Rahul went forward…."Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Mallik……" Armaan could see a fury form in his eyes….he felt guilty to see something which he had never been a witness too form in his brothers eyes……

 

Before he could react Rahul turned his back and left the place quickly not even looking behind once…..not even glancing back at Muskaan….

 

Armaan looked terribly squashed….this was not what he had expected….he knew his brother would be angry but instead of shouting at him he just left, this coldness hurts Armaan thought…

 

Looking at this scenario Shanshank smiled as he continued

 

"Armaan beta its ok,he was bound to get a shock, don't worry he will come around…..now shall we proceed for lunch….Anjali beta shall we?"

 

Shanshank looked over at Anjali who still stood there in a state of shock….not uttering a single word.

 

Riddhima looked at Armaan miserably…..this was much worse then she had thought. As the lunch proceeded Anjali kept absolutely quite….not even a word to Riddhima…..Atul and Muskaan did not dare utter a word…..Muskaan wanted to go behind Rahul but Atul had signaled her to wait…

 

As it neared an end Anjali abruptly left the place without a word or even giving Riddhima a chance to speak….Atul and Muskaan followed her suit.......

 

"aah well that was a very mild explosion compared to what I had expected….Anyways Armaan don't pay too much attention Rahul will cum around and now shall we proceed to do some more important stuff,we still need a few documents signed…….."

 

Armaan looked at Shansank disgusted;this man needs to be sent to an asylum he gritted…..i really hope Bhai isn't to annoyed with me, how in the world am I going to explain him everything…

 

Riddhima looked over to see Armaan almost in tears,it was the first time she saw him so worked up as if he was really disturbed with what had happened………

 

The rest of the day flew like wind as they spent it signing one document after another…..as night approached……

 

"Beta why don't you stay back here…….as it is you must be tired today and plus Rahul wasn't looking too kindly"

 

Armaan answered back firmly…."Thank you uncle but u have already done a lot today and now I guess I should be making a move…..dont worry about Riddhima, she will be fine…."

 

"Ohh beta it was nothing, but still if u want to leave who am I to stop you, but I would suggest you leave Ridz here till the atmosphere calms down……"

 

"No uncle as I had told u Riddhima will come with me…she is married to me right so she has to sooner or later come with me so why not today itself……right Riddhima?"

 

Without arguing further Armaan  grabbed hold of her hand and guided her towards the door……Riddhima didn't know what was good……to stay back or go..but where was opinion asked for? She had just been tossed like a ball from one court to another…..

 

They drove back in silence ……meekily standing beside him ,feeling him take hold of her hand….he rang the bell to find Muskaan opening the door…

Seeing him hold her hand she lightly interlocked her fingers with his….he didn't seem to notice it as she felt his body tense up as Muskaan opened the door…….

 

Smiling lightly at the nervous couple in front of her Muskaan moved forward ........"Bhai-Bhabhi just wait here for a minute"

 

Confused and surprised at her gesture both waited at the threshold , releasing  his hand still in her Armaan abruptly removed his hand away,not looking at her. Riddhima looked at him a little surprised, before she could think any further Muskaan returned with a plate in her hand, containing a diya. Armaan looked at her shocked…..

 

"Muski bhabhi wat r u doing?"

 

"Armaan a newly wedded bride has to be welcomed in the house right? I am just carrying out the rituals…..though I am not officially a part of your family I will be very soon…….and being the to-be wife of your elder brother I have to carry out the ritual…….after all Riddhima will soon be like my younger sister…….." Muskaan moved the plate with diya in front of them as per tradition while saying this……..

 

Moistened by her words Riddhima smiled warmly at Muskaan only to be greeted back with a same loving smile. As they entered Riddhima looked over at Armaan even more nervous than ever, only to find him looking here and there, searching ,she knew for whom………

 

"Muskaan where is bhai?" asked Armaan in a soft tone

 

"Armaan I know very well how keen u are to meet him, see whatever happened today came as a shock to him, he will take some time to come around right? Give him some space, don't worry he will get back, I can assure u from my side"

 

"Bhabhi of course I trust u….u r my sole hope. Please I want to see Rahul now" Armaan looked at her pleadingly……

Muskaan looked at him helplessly. She knew the deep strong bond between the two brothers. Whatever Armaan may do……Rahul can never stay away from him for long she thought. Composing herself she patted gently on his shoulder and said…….

 

"Armaan ……..Rahul will see u in the morning, let be as he is right now please…….dont worry I am telling u everything will be alright"

 

Armaan nodded listening to her. This had to happen he thought. Sighing he thought………wish Rahul would understand it is ultimately for my dream, our dream Bhai, we are finally getting there, the dream we both wanted to achieve, after father went astray all we wanted was to fight off that sitgma of being the sons of an unsuccessful man…..who ruined his life and  almost destroyed his own children…..No Bhai he will ward off this social stigma, tell the world what the Maillkis are capable off…….at that moment the tornedo of driving amibition gripped Armaan so hard that he closed his eyes gripping his fist only to open them to find Muskaan looking at him……….

 

"Armaan why don't u guys call it off for today? Both of you have had a very long day, take Riddhima up" Muskaan added looking at Riddhima smilingly.

 

Giving a faint smile Armaan silently moved forward to the staircase hinting Riddhima to follow him up. As Riddhima moved up ……..

 

"Armaan one second please"

 

Armaan looked over surprised at Muskaan,  climbind down again he saw her approaching him.

 

"Armaan she's a delicate soul, treat her well please." Armaan gazed at Muskaan surprised. Giving a reassuring nod he went up to find Riddhima waiting on the last step nervously. Taking the lead he opened the door to his room…….

 

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Riddhima walked in feeling her body tighten up with nervousness. She had never felt so scared and nervous all her life. What a life she thought. All her life she was lonely with an over-bearing father and a sister who always seemed so distant and today she had been tossed away in an entire new environment with all new people and worst married to a man who barely knew her. It was true she did have a unconscious trust in him, knowing he will not cross any limits but still her one month encounter with his aggression, anger and coldness made her sweat. Hearing him snap his fingers on her face she came out from her thoughts……

 

"Riddhima this is my room. I mean OUR room" He corrected himself biting his tongue.

 

"Its very manish as you can see, I mean you will have to make your space in here" He added politely not knowing what to tell her. It seemed a very awkward situation to him. He never had felt the need to think of ways to talk to women, it came naturally to him, but with her it seemed different.

 

"Why don't u freshen up while I'll try to sort things out a bit" He finally added not knowing what to talk more.

 

Riddhima moved to the washroom quietly. As the cold water ran down her face she tried to calm down her feelings, you don't need to be scared she tried convincing herself, he cannot be a totally foul guy she thought, no she reasoned she shouldn't  be so scared and try talking to him. Feeling a little more confident she came out to find him moving things here and there in the cupboard. She moved about the room towards the bed and picking up one of the pillows and took them to the couch by the window.

 

"You don't need to do that" Turning around she found him standing behind her. Looking at him surprised….

 

"Actually Armaan we errm…..i mean ……" Trying to find words to explain herself she struggled to continue…….

 

"I very well understand what you mean Riddhima, you don't need to offer any explanations. I just meant that you can sleep on the bed while I will sleep here."

 

"No no Armaan please don't embarrass me, as it is its been so awkward for both of us, please don't worsen the situation for me. " Riddhima fumbled glad to have finally found her tongue.

 

' Well I agree you are feeling very awkward but lets  say just plain courtesy on my behalf you will sleep on the bed. I would have arranged for a separate room all together but considering the haste I found it difficult. You don't need to worry I mean ………trust" Armaan left his sentence lingering half way not knowing how to continue .

 

Feeling it the best not to argue any further Riddhima made her way to the bed. Sitting down she felt her mind filled up with a thousand questions she was dying to ask him. Not knowing from where to start she sighed quietly looking up. Finally unable to control herself she decided to ask him directly. She had to know the answers she felt. Afterall it was the question of her life.

 

"Armaan can I ask you something? If you don't mind?"

Looking at him not interrupting her thread cautiously.

 

"Were you forced to marry me?" she asked quietly.

 

Arman looked at her pale face. He knew this was to come ultimately. After all she had been married on an entirely falsely constructed base. Standing up he went over to her and sat beside her. Looking up into her eyes to find nothing but questioning innocence he calmly answered…….

 

"No I was not forced, I had given my consent" As he paused Riddhima  found herself probing further.

 

"Then why did you marry me? At such  a short notice and of all the girls me?"

 

"I will be frank Riddhima. See you agreed because it was your mother's last wish right? Well your father told me about it. Had it been anyone else I would have refused. But I am indebted to your father. We both are indebted Rahul and me. So I agreed to his wish. And since he wanted the will issue to be sorted immediately I even agreed to marry in such a haste. Riddhima we both have given our consent to this relationship due to our own valid reasons. I know it will be a long way for us to actually commit ourselves into this marriage. Legally we are but otherwise I dont know when we both will actually believe in this marriage perhaps in some time or perhaps never." He added with a slight pause.

 

' Whatever happens in due course let it…….but right now we should just live as we have been, give each other space, from my side you have all the freedom to live as you want, as long you don't get in my way" Armaan spoke a little aggressively.

 

Riddhima looked at him hearing the sudden change of tone. Speaking softly…….." I will never get in your way "

 

Hearing her Armaan immediately felt a bit guilty for letting his aggression go over him.

 

"So was it just debt that drove you to marry me?" Riddhima asked a bit scared.

 

'Well yes….we are indebted to your father. If he asked me to get married to you I cannot refuse. I hope this clears up all your doubts. I don't intend to force you in any way and I expect you to be the same. So now just relax and go to sleep as I will not eat you up." He added smiling at her.

 

"One last question please…..in what manner are you indeted?"

Looking at his hardened expression Riddhima kicked herself for asking this, but she had to know this she thought.

 

"Your father has been taking care of our father past  7 years…..in sanjeevni itself………as he has been in coma. Got an attack after he crashed into a car while high on alcohol"

 

Riddhima felt the earth beneath her move. The fact that his father was in coma moved her.

 

"I am sorry "She muttered

 

"No you don't need to be. As I am not even sorry for myself."

 

Sighed Armaan has he moved towards the couch. Lying down he closed his eyes to find a solution to this new set of equations. He was shocked with himself. Unknowingly he had been so very polite to her. He had stopped himself from giving her the very main reason for their marriage. It was true he was paying off a debt but that alone couldn't have driven him to marry her. Women was the last thing he wanted in his life. But he just couldn't get himself tell her the truth, the real truth, this was just a preview he thought. But why? He couldn't understand why couldn't he tell her. Maybe deep down he knew shewould be completely shattered, if she came to know he had married her for Sanjeevni and the gain control he knew her heart would fail her. His recent being with her had made him release how tender she was. Each of their patients adored her from the old people to the children. But why was he thinking about her so much? Moving his fingers through his hair in frustration , he couldn't just understand what was happening. He remembered their dance from the ball. The way er eyes had bored into his. Then as she had lightly lowered her gaze. Never had he lost himself in any women at his very first meet. Much as he denied it deep down he knew how he was just mesmerized by her, making him forget everything else. Enough Armaan. He gritted. You better get some sleep, you have to answer Rahul tomorrow morning. Enough of Riddhima now. He had been nice to her because she was his trump card. He had got her with him back because he didn't want sasurji to control him along with her. Were they to stay there then sasurji would have butt in every second matter which I cannot stand argued Armaan. With a few more rebelling thoughts he turned over.

 

Turning over he saw her back facing him. Unknowingly a smile formed on his lips to see her there. Softly he whispered " Good nite Mrs Riddhima Armaan Mallik"

 

Riddhima felt her pillow wet with the stream of tears that had been falling from quite some time now. I don't know where my life is goingshe thought. All her life she had just been used and played with. What evil have I done that life played such a joke on her. Her only dream was atleast she would find a soul mate with whom she could happily share her life with Who would shower her with only love and nothing else. But this dream also was shattered. She turned over to look at him asleep on the couch. She had been attracted to him ever since he first touched her hand in that ball. But her recent encounters had given rise to new thoughts. It was his aggression, his anger she feared. She recollected how in those two days that papa had given her , she had fought so much with herself. Much as she wanted to complete her mother's last wish she couldn't get herself to accept him as her husband so soon. It was true she was really attracted to him but from inside she hardly knew what he was like. He had an impish charm about him and extremely captivating looks. Had he been charming like he was in the ball she wouldn't have thought so much but the way he had behaved with her when she was only trying to help was nagging her .Maybe because he has suffered personally she reasoned. As she recollected how he had told her about his father. Ultimately she knew whatever be her decision her father would have his way. So eventually she landed saying yes after much hesitation. Whatever it was he hadn't forced her at all into anything and infact answered her and also been with her. She was greatful to him for all this. Maybe if nothing then atleast she had an understanding guy who will never boss on her she thought. Consoling herself to make the best of what she had Riddhima finally drifted off to sleep.

 

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As the sun rays peeped in through the curtains Armaan opened his eyes only to be confused to find himself on the couch. As he got up the entire previous days event came flooding back. Looking at her still asleep he walked over to the bed. Seeing her eyes closed he stared at her face. She looked so innocent and sweet. Sitting at the edge of the bed he unknowingly placed his hand on her face and gently tucked her hair behind. Then he released she was sleeping rather funnily with her hand under head. Smiling he turned her slowly removing her hand and softly placing it beside her.  

 

She opened her eyes feeling the movement suddenly to see him starring at her. She lowered her gaze and looked away consciously. Releasing what he was doing he stood up abruptly.

 

"Sorry Riddhima to wake you wake you. Actually I saw your hand tucked underneath you rather awkwardly so like………." Muttered Armaan embarrassed to be caught red handed and cursing himself to give such a silly excuse.

 

"No no please don't say sorry. I should begetting up now" She said hastily getting up.

 

"Take your time I'll just freshen up"

 

Saying so Armaan closed the washroom door. As he splashed the cool water on his face he remembered the scene that happened just a few minutes ago. What is wrong with me he thought. This is too much he thought. From past three days she has been all over your mind. You cant let her do this to you. Yes I will ignore her he thought. I will be rude to her. Glancing up in the mirror as he saw his reflection laugh at him and say. No Armaan try as hard as you want but you cannot ignore her. Nor can you hurt her. Moving his head vigorously he put her thoughts outside his mind and    suddenly thought how will he face Rahul. Gosh Armaan dude he is gonna fry you for sure Armaan muttered.

 

As he came out of the bath he saw her arranging clothes in the closet. As he moved towards her wiping his hair he saw a pair of his.

clothes lying on the bed. Feeling him behind her she turned around to see him looking at her. Breaking the glance she spoke nervously

 

"Actually I was just arranging my clothes so thought of removing yours, but if you don't like it I'll ……..I'll …………I'll get you something else."

 

Picking up the black shirt with red collar he smiled.

 

"No this is perfect thank you "

 

Saying so he gently placed his hand on her arm.

 

"You get ready and come down."

 

Squeezing it slightly he went out smiling.

 

 Riddhima stood there rooted. Touching her arm she smiled.

 

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Armaan saw him on the breakfast table sitting quietly. As Muskaan laid out the plates the door bell rang. Opening the door Armaan surprisingly  said……. 

 

"Anjali-Atul you guys here? So early?"

"I have invited them here Armaan" Armaan turned back to see Rahul getting up from the table to face him.     

 

Armaan looked over at Anjali entering through the door with a stony expression with Atul following her with an impassive look.

 

"Am glad u came at such a short invite Anjie" muttered Rahul getting up.

 

"I had to come Rahul, as I think we both need some explanations here of whats going here with our siblings who seem to be have become all grown up, that they don't even feel the need to inform us about their marriage! Right Armaan?"

 

Anjali looked over at Armaan sarcastically as he drove his fingers through his hair nervously.

 

"Anjali I came…….umm….explain if you give me a chance?"

 

"That's what we are waiting for bro, an explanation from you at whats going on? I am sure u have a lot more to say then poor Riddhima in this as I know who has a major share in this deal" Rahul smirked looking at Armaan.

 

"That has to my dad Rahul, it seems the marriage took place in his presence, and he obviously didn't feel the need to invite the bride's sister and his own daughter for it not to mention the groom's family." Anjali spoke with loath.

 

"Listen here I will tell you what happened, please don't be so sarcastic to us. Riddhima and me both wanted to tell you both but Shanshank uncle didn't allow us. So we had no choice but to keep quite. I didn't mean to hurt u both" Armaan looked down.

 

"Agreed you were told to shutup but you still haven't clarified why the hell you suddenly got married to Ridz. How come in one nite you decide to get married. I am sure you rnt so desperately in love with her?" Rahul stepped forward waiting for an explanation.

 

"Well bro, uncle wanted Ridz to get married to me to complete Padma Aunt's last wish and when he proposed I couldn't say no as we are indebted to him. " Hearing this Rahul's expression softened.

 

"And Bhai he had to sort out his legal will probems immediately . That would only happen if we got married fast. So this haste. I am sorry bhai I didn't mean to hurt anyone, but I couldn't possibly refuse and ……."

 

"Ohh legal problems huh? So typical of father. So you actually expect us to believe that to complete the wish of a wife he never loved he got you both married?" Anjali spoke up harshly

 

"Anjali relax, maybe he actually did, why will Armaan lie?" Atul put a comforting arm around her shoulders.

 

"Alrite Armaan I buy what ur saying, u agreed becoz ur indebted but what made my sister marry a complete stranger?"

 

"Why don't ask your sister why she married me Anjali, I think shes the best to answer your question. Shes upstairs getting ready" Armaan retorted.

 

"I will surely" Anjali marched upstairs.

 

As Rahul saw her going up he looked over at Armaan standing with his head down.

 

"Armaan what was this explanation you just gave, do u really think I will believe this? You really feel so indebted for your father whom you have ever spoken kindly off after that incident that you got married? No armaan theres a lot more to this. Tell me the truth. "

 

Armaan looked into Rahul piercing eyes and thought. OMG Bhai u never miss a lie do u ? But if you come to know the truth you will kill me for sure, for that hospital I got married. No Bhai I cant tell this to you..

 

"Errm Bhai this is the truth. Why r u not believing me? See whatever dad did to us is something I will never forget but I really do love him rite afterall he was my father. " Armaan said this earnestly. It is partly true he hought.

 

"Alrite Armaan time will tell, I hope you haven't put something at stake or betrayed me and a lot of people ."

 

"No Bhai I can never betray you" Muttered Armaan not meeting his eyes.

 

Rahul noticed this but chose to keep quite.

 

"One more thing Armaan, Riddhima is now our responsibility. For whatever reasons you got her in your life please treat her well. She is a very tender hearted soul. Don't you dare hurt her with any of your actions or forget Anjali I will be the first one you will have to answer."

 

"You don't have to worry about her, she will never have any problems."

 

Saying so Armaan gently hugged Rahul. As he parted he thought. Hope you never face the truth Bhai. This is all for us, our ambition

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Anjali opened the door to find Riddhima sitting on the dressing table adjusting her saree. Moving forward to help her Riddhima looked up startled to see her in the room.

 

'Di??"

 

"Riddhima how are you?" I have been so worried about you, do u hav any idea? You cud have just told me once , I wudnt have objected"

 

Looking at Anjali, Riddhima found her eyes swelling up with tears.

 

"I am sorry Di, I didn't mean to hurt you, I just wanted too…………"

 

Leaning forward Riddhima hugged Anjie crying slightly.

 

"Shhh Armaan told me about what dad told you and got you married, but tell me Ridz was this reason enough for you totake such a huge step without even giving it a thought?"

 

"I did think Di" As she remembered the two days she was given to think.

 

"And Di it was Mamas's last wish. How cud I just leave it like this?"

 

"ridz be practical. Agreed mom wud have had this wish to get u married to this family but looking at current circumstances she wud have never forced you to give up urself to a guy u never know. I mean you hardly know him. You got married I  still cant believe.'

 

"Di it wasn't only this" She muttered hesitantly. "Dad wanted it too"

 

"So ridz u mean tomorrow Dad will ask u to jump in the sea you will jump?"

 

Riddhima sighed. Anjali was always like this. She took things practically and did exactly as she felt was right and there was nothing wrong in this. But I am not like her Riddhima thought. Call it my fault or anything but I just cud not say no to father. It was the first time he asked me and then mumma……..

 

"no Ridz I know you always been so emotional and giving in. I don't say that u know u r like a fool to be so emotional but still I know u can stand up for urself when needed but still I don't find these reasons sufficient to marry him."

 

"Di I don't always give in na, but I don't know when it came to mama-papa I just……."

 

"And even you would have refused Dad would have made sure u got married if he had decided from the start."

Anjali spat out angrily.

 

"No Di pls don't say that"

 

"No Ridz both know this is a fact anyways I will always wish you to be happy. This family is not bad I can assure you. You wont face any problems but Armaan….."

 

"armaan hasn't given me any trouble at all. He is really being very sweet Di believe me." Ridz argued.

 

Well I hope he continues being one Ridz…..if you ever face problems pls don't hesitate to ask me. Ok lets just drop this and go down. Everyone is waiting."

 

Riddhima followed her out glad that this was sorted.

 

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Riddhima looked over at the files in her hands nervously. She had been going through them past an hour sitting here with sweaty hands.

 

"Calm urself down Ridz u can do this" She muttered to herself trying to keep calm.

 

But she cudnt help being nervous. It was only in mid morning that she came to sanjeevni after getting things sorted with Anjali . Both Rahul and Anjali had been so supportive much as they hadn't liked this. In all the family union she had completely forgotten that she was now going to handle the administrative department too. Though  Papa wud be still the one who ran this thing she had to put her share. And papa had called her to come early as today was the first meeting with the trustees. They were gonna present some future plans and changes. Papa had asked her to study all prospective and make a report.

 

She looked at her report for the nth time in last time 10 minutes. She as nervous but at the same time she was kind of excited with all this. It was her first chance ever to make her papa proud. Not that earlier she hadn't. All her life she had tried to make him proud. So that atleast once he would pat her back and say he was indeed proud of her. She smiled as she thought it was her first chance given by papa himself. She had made sure the repot was proper and she would present it well too she thought determinedly.

 

As she made her way to the conference she smiled as Anjie and Rahul wished her luck. Muskaan hugged her too. Riddhima smiled to have these loved ones beside her. As she entered she saw Armaan already sitting with Shanshank. Armaan smiled at her while Shanshank merely nodded.

 

As everyone walked in, after the initial proceedings Shanshank  stood up talking about the future and current status. Ridhima knew she would be called any minute. As the report topic was brought up Riddhima waited expectantly.

 

"and now Armaan my son here will present the report" Shanshank announced pompously.

 

For a minute Riddhima looked terribly squashed as she saw him taking the report and going ahead. Then thinking afterall its him she thought. I do it or him does it matter? Its for the good of this institute and he is after all my……….I have prepared it so what? She tried comforting herself. He will surely give you credit she thought. It was fair enough.

 

As the presentation ended , she congratualated him and the rest. She looked over at him talking to everyone. There was no mention of her any where. Riddhima felt as if she had been given a tight slap on her face. She made her out as she felt terribly suffocated. She made her way to the cabin. Drinking water she sat down disgusted with herself for expecting so much again.

 

Seeing him enter the cabin she stood up. Looking at her surprised with her reaction he said " Hey Riddhima congratulate me , it was all so successful. I cant believe my first presentation and such a success………"

 

"well Congrats Dr Armaan I hope u r very happy. It was your first success. Am very happy for you. " saying this in one breath she started walking out.

 

Not able to digest her cold behavior. He caught hold of her hand.

 

"what's the problem? Aren't you happy with my success."

 

'you are asking me this? Well let me clarify. My success…….well am really very happy for Your success Armaan.So what if I was the one who went through each file. So what if I prepared the whole thing. Trust me I would have gladly allowed you to present everything had I just been told once you will do it. And you were given the chance too didn't affect me Armaan as that time I took as Our success. I thought It was our presentation. But I was mistaken. You took it all upon urself. I would have been the happiest person on this earth had you just acknowledged me. Not in front of all atleast credited it as ours Armaan as till now I thought it like that. "

 

Saying so she walked out feeling her eyes moistening up. Leaving a dumb folded Armaan behind.

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As he sat on the couch in the living room, he closed his eyes. Those same lines had been playing in his mind.

 

 

"I would have been the happiest person on this earth had you just acknowledged me. Not in front of all atleast credited it as ours Armaan as till now I thought it like that. "

 

Why did this affect him so much? Wasn't this deal about his ambitions from the beginning? Then even she wasn't happy with what happened he shud be celebrating and not moaning about this. He sighed. He cudnt but ignore this guilt. Her words had been playing in his mind since afternoon and much as he tried ignoring it , he knew it was futile. Deep down he knew he had wronged her. Entire day he had tried talking but all she answered him was in monosyllables.  Deciding to get over this he looked at the time. It was way past midnight and she was still not home. He knew she had extra duty tonite, but it would be over soon.

 

As he thought about his small idea for the first time he found himself smiling. Not this time for himself but at the thought of making something right for somebody.

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 Stuffing her labcoat in the locker she walked out tired. It had been a tiring day. The night was cool and the slow breeze felt pleasant after such a long and not to mention depressing day. Deciding not to think about the morning events for the night she looked about.

 

Pinching herself she blinked to see him standing in front of her leaning over the car smiling broadly. He opened the door of the car and looked over at her expectantly.

She blinked her eyes looking at him in disbelief. Was it really him??

 

"Helloo?? I know I am deadly handsome but you don't need to stare at me like this in the middle of the night in the middle of the road."

 

Snapping back to reality hearing his cheesy line she spoke up.

 

"Armaan? You here? What are you doing here?"

 

Looking around as if in search of a lost puppy, " Well you see I have come to pick up a certain Dr Riddhima, so if you know how long she will take to come then I will be obliged. You see I am tired standing here keeping the car door open for her."

 

Chuckling slightly at his comments she moved forward. As she touched the door their hands brushed. Feeling an electrifying sensation go through her , she pulled back her hand. Armaan did not miss the sensation their short contact had generated. Smiling slightly as he sat next to her in the driving seat he looked at her. Riddhima was pointedly looking everywhere except at him. The entire day's awkwardness between them and the cold war had finally reached its peak Armaan thought. And now its time to call peace he thought. He didn't even bother to wonder what in the world was making him think on these unspoken lines before. Right now he just wanted to do what he felt was correct according to him. And all he wanted to do was to get rid of the guilt weighing on his heart. It was for the first time he felt so guilty but the thought that he will put it right now eased his torrent of thoughts.

 

As he drove the car out of the main gates he decided to start.

 

"Riddhima I am really sorry for whatever happened. Believe me I never wanted to hurt you on purpose. I just wanted…….." Armaan tried fishing out words to prove his point.

 

Seeing her still looking away he tried yet again.

 

"Look baby I really am regretting this. Why should I on purpose steal your credit? I am really sorry ok."

 

Riddhima looked at him astounded at his outburst. Armaan Mallik apologizing? Had she heard him right? Looking at him with a dazed look she merely nodded still wondering. Not satisfied with her response he stopped the car with a screeching halt, bringing her out of her wonderland.

 

"Ok listen, I said I am sorry, how many times should I repeat this? Cant you just let this go???" She looked at him a little scared as he shouted stopping the car in the middle of the road at the dead of the night.

 

 "But what have I done to be the cause of your frustration so much?"

 

 

Her voice ringing in his ears he calmed down. Looking at her guiltily he didn't know what to do. He was in a nice mess he thought. Neither could he gauge his emotions nor could he understand why was he taking so much trouble to make her feel good and most importantly why was he guilty of having hurt her? Sighing in frustration he decided to just go with the flow and to listen to to what his mind told to do right now. And right now he wanted nothing more than to have her forgive him. Probing once again in a gentler tone he continued.

 

"Honey please forgive me alright. I really didn't mean to be such a jerk. Its just that……….."

 

Taken aback yet again by his sudden change of tone Riddhima looked into his eyes.

 

"Its ok Armaan you really don't need to be sorry. I guess I over reacted a bit. It was just that I wasn't expecting even you to just ignore me all the way long and that's what you exactly did so I got carried away I think…….."

 

"No you were right Riddhima. It was needed to get me back to my senses.  Surprised by himself that he was saying all this Armaan still continued.

 

"Its just that at that time……." Pausing there he didn't know how to tell her. But he just wanted her to understand him right now. Why in the world do I want her to understand me?? Cursing himself for being unable to solve his dilemma he looked at her. Only to find her gaze on him waiting for him to continue. As he stared back at her she lowered her gaze and shifted her weight a little. On an instinct he took her hand and held her hand in his.

 

Ignoring her surprise he continued.

 

"U see Ridz I am a bit over ambitious. As I told u father has been he coma past years and……" Stopping again he wondered how to spill it .

 

Feeling him uncomfortable Riddhima squeezed his hand and held it tighter.

Comforted by her grip he took a deep breath and continued.

 

"Well I never told you he was an alcoholic. Mum left him and us , so I guess he never really got out of it.They say she married him just for status. There were times when he would sink in complete depressions and drink so much that he could hardly walk. To imagine once a famous surgeon, one of the finest in the country addicted to alcohol is a shame itself. I always wanted to outgrow this stigma of being labeled as the son of an alcoholic, a failure. So I guess I am just over driven by ambitions. I landed up hurting you in the event too. I guess I am just too insensitive." He sighed closing his eyes.

 

Riddhima looked at him completely stunned. Never had she imagined he had suffered as much. We are both so very dejected with the way things have gone in our lives she thought. Resolving to give a very other fair chance she spoke.

 

"No Armaan the fact you explained urself speaks volumes. I have indeed just put it behind me. Infact no one has ever gone out of the way to just ask for my forgiveness. "

 

Smiling at her answer he felt really happy. It was a different feeling he had never felt it before. But it was definitely nice he thought.

 

"Alright so shall we just put this behind us with a promise that I never be such a jerk again. I am truly a jerk in the real sense for having brought tears in the eyes of such a beautiful lady"

 

Giggling and blushing lightly at his flirteous approach she tried taking away her hand from his hold.

 

'Ok ok I forgive you now can you please let go of my hand?" I think you just promised not to be a jerk and…….."

 

"Shhh" armaan tightened his grip on her hand. Seeing her go stiff at his movement he smiled. With one swift movement he placed her hand on the gear under his and started the car. Not letting go of her hand even for a second as he swung the gear forward he grinned at her.

 

"Am not letting go off this hand ever, not atleast right now as I am taking my wife on our very first date together."

 

Laughing at the surprise on her face , he drove ahead still clutching her hand.

 

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He looked at her in astonishment as she placed her cup on the car.

 

"Really Riddhima you must be the first girl I ever came across doing such a thing!! All the women I have been out so far drool over chocolate and you?? "

 

"Hmm I don't understand why you are over reacting Armaan. I just love it this way. And who are to comment on my taste when look at yourself? Seriously Almond flavour is for oldies I feel. And you simply relish it. Eekksssssss. I am sure all you ex-girlfriends must be beyong 50"

 

"Who on the earth told you almond flavor is for oldies?? " Armaan asked her annoyed. "Ok fine almond for oldies but I am sure you wont find a unique piece like you! And just because you didn't find a suitable bachelor of your age for yourself till now doesn't mean you poke fingers at me. Let me tell you women of your age simply drool over me" He chuckled looked at vigoursly shaking her cup as the foam came up.

 

"Unique piece???" She looked up at him indignantly. "Are you poking fun at me?" She fingered with a glint in her eyes.

 

Putting down her finger he laughed at her expressions and spoke further.

 

"No no honey where am I poking fun? I am just trying to make out where will I find a unique piece like who mixes chocolate, vanilla with coke and then drinks it up" Laughing yet again looking at her, he stopped on receiving a hit on his shoulder.

 

"Ouch what was that for?"

 

'First of all Armaan Mallik, its not something so funny that you are laughing your head off. Its called float and many love it. So I am not the first one out here. And if I love mixing chocolate and vanilla ice cream with coke whats you problem? Atleast its better than your boring almond delight. And what women of my age drool over you?" Ridz mimicked him. "See your self in the mirror you are nothing short of a chimp" Happy to get her own back Ridz drained the last bit of her drink.

 

"Oh really a chimp? " Armaan looked at her intently. Moving forward he lent closer and brushing his thumb on her upper lip to wipe off the remains of the foam he whispered in her ears.

 

"Then people will be looking at you more Ridz than me, as a breath taking lady as yourself married a chimp like me."

 

Conscious of his touch on her Ridz lowered her gaze and shyly went away to sit down blushing at his compliments. As he sat down he looked at her to find her smiling slightly. Warmed by the way things had shaped he simled deeply as his dimples set in. Never had he enjoyed any date as this one he thought.

 

As they neared their home in complete silence he stole a glance at her to find her fast asleep. As he parked the car and got out he called out to her. Seeing in deep in sleep he picked her up . Has her head rolled and rested on his soulder he just couldn't help stare at her. No women he ever met had made him so much at ease. He could just be himself with her he thought.

 

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Placing her gently on the bed as he rolled over the blanket over her he took out his phone. Switching it on he looked over at the number of missed calls. Seeing the name of the caller he rushed outside the room. Why would Rahul call him so many times he thought? When he left Rahul wasn't there but Armaan had assumed it was his night duty. Calling up slightly scared he held the phone.

 

"Hello Bhai wats the matter you………….."

 

"Armaan come immediately, dad is sinking"

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