Chapter 4

Part 4 

Raavi opened her eyes to see herself wrapped over him. She smiled moving her hands to his silky hair. She pulled herself a bit away to have a look at his handsome face. She kept staring at him trying to understand her feelings for him. 

“Shiva jaise muje apne paas khich rha hai. Mai hamesha uske saath rehna chahti hoon. Physically hi nai par emotionally bhi uska saath chahne lagi hoon. Rishita shayad sahi hi keh rahi hai. Shiva meri kismat hai, mera comfort zone hai, mai… sirf usske saath issliye nai aage badhna chahti kyunki vo mera pati hai balki issliye kyunki mai usse pasand karne lagi hoon.” She thought to herself smiling.

She wanted to kiss him right now. He was so close to her. It would be wrong to kiss him without his consent she huffed. She pressed her lips gently on his forehead, then his nose. She smiled seeing him smile in his sleep. She looked at him and pressed her lips on the corner of his lips. Her lips lingering on the corner of his lips more than required. She opened her eyes to see him staring back at her. Suddenly conscious, she pulled back. He pulled her closer from her waist resulting in slight brushing of their lips against each other.  

Shiva finally back to senses, tried to get up but Raavi’s grip over him got strong. She was not in her senses anymore. He was so close and now wide awake. All she could think was how would it feel to be kissed by him if a slight brush made her go giddy. She eyed his lips and moved closer to him. He was frozen and did not know how things had come this far. He saw her moving closer, subconsciously he moved closer and shut his eyes in anticipation. 

They reached each other and gently pressed their lips together. They broke off, both of their eyes closed. They moved ahead again but this time Raavi smashed her lips on his sucking onto him. Shiva pulled her closer if possible and responded with equal intensity. They moved in sync, their desire for each other clearly evident as their kiss went wild. They broke off in need of a breath and this time Shiva kissed her again biting her lips for dominance. She let him have his way. She enjoyed the attention she was receiving. They pulled apart and stared at each other, desire now every much evident for both of them. 

Raavi climbed on him leaving a trail of kisses from his neck to chest. She pulled off his vest and he let her. She roamed her hand all over naked upper-body making him groan in pleasure. His hands made their way to her waist pulling her closer and touching her. She caught his hand placed them inside her top giving him the permission to pleasure her. She placed opened mouthed kisses on his neck resulting in a hickey, smiling at her work she pressed her lips to his again creating a havoc for him. His hands freely roamed on her bare back and waist inside her top. She moaned in pleasure which she only imagined in her dreams with Shiva. Her hand loosely lying on his chest, she kept on kissing him and he finally rolled over her. He caught her top and looked at her, she raised her hands. He pulled her top till her waist when he heard some chaos outside.

Suddenly, the reality hit them. This wasn’t her plan. He wasn’t supposed to find out this way. He could take it all wrong. He responded to her every action. She hoped he understood she wanted to move on with him from the bottom of her heart.

His eyes grew wet. He was supposed to control. He needed to know why she was doing all this. He did not want her to come closer to him just because he was her husband, he wanted to be her lover and her choice. He got up and wore his vest leaving Raavi on the bed in the dishevelled state. 

“Shiva tu aise kaise muje chod ke jaa rha hai?” Her eyes now full of tears

“Dekh Raavi, muje pata nai tu kya karne ki koshish kar rai hai par tu aag se khel rai hai. Ye sab mazak nai hai. Samji tu?” He said in calm yet firm tone

“Tuje lagta mai aise mazak karungi?”

“Pata nai Raavi. Aaj kal na tera samaj hi nai aata.” He looked back her 

She was a mess. Her hair messy, lips swollen and her top revealing her waist to him. How could she be so attractive to him even now he wondered. He looked beside her where her bra was kept. She saw the direction of his eyes and moved her bra under the pillow which she had removed at night before sleeping. 

“Dekh Raavi, hum dono ke beech kabhi kuch nai hona. Ye bekaar ki koshish mat kar. Shiva aur Raavi kabhi ek nai ho sakte. Yaad kar ye baat tune hi mujse kahi thi.” He left the room 

Tears rolled down her eyes. Finally losing control she cried harder. What can be worse than her husband leaving her in middle of their intimate moments? Wasn’t she attractive for him? Did she get it all wrong. She cried harder gaining Rishita’s attention.

Rishita entered the bedroom and looked at her shocked. She quickly locked the bedroom and ran to her.

“Kya hua Raavi? Ye kya halat bana rakhi hai?”

Raavi just hugged her tightly and started crying harder

“Raavi, Kya Shiva ne tere saath… zabardasti…?”

“Nai Rishita. Jo hua meri marzi se hua. In fact maine hi initiate kiya tha.” She spoke as she broke the hug 

“Toh ro kyu rai hai?”

“Vo muje beech mein chod ke chala gaya.” She cried harder 

“Par kyu Raavi?”

“Usse lagta hai shayad ki mai abhi bhi Dev se pyaar karti hoon. Maine usse bola Rishta ki mere dil mein aisa kuch nai hai Dev ke liye. Phir bhi jabse meri dairy padhi hai aise hi doori ho gai hai.” She continued sobbing 

“Kya tum dono ne baat ki?” 

“Vo sunta kahan hai Rishita. Maine usse shadi ke din kaha tha ki hum kabhi ek nai honge, vo bhi abhi tak pakad ke rakha hai.” She cried

“Raavi, deeraj se kaam le. Maybe vo ye sab issliye kar rha hai kyunki usse lagta hai ki tu usse pasand nai karti par zabardasti aage badhna pad raha hai. Tum dono ko baat karne ki zarurat hai.”

“Tum bikul theek keh rai ho. Par Shiva aaj kal baat hi nai karta.” She finally composed herself 

“Ek baat bata… Tuje kya lagta hai feelings mutual hai?”

“Muje toh laga tha. Vo definitely affected that mujse aur ussne bhi abhi…” she trailed off

“Respond kiya?” 

“Hmm.. Kiya..”

“Please ek durse se baat karo aur apne dil ki baat kehdo.”

“Mai.. kaise?”

“It’s 2021. You can Raavi. In fact, mere paas ek perfect saree hai. Ek min ruko.”

Rishita ran out and came back in 5 mins. 

“Rishita tum kya?”

“Ye le. Shiva ko Deepika badi pasand hai na? YJHD mein Deepika ne ye same saree pehni thi. I mean uski saree ki ye perfect duplicate hai. Ye pehen ke usko propose karna.” She grinned

“Rishita…” her eyes tearful again

“Aur tumhe pata hai.. iska ek magical side bhi hai. Agar Shiva zyada bhav khaye, toh pallu toh sexily bandh dena. Blouse toh ek dum sexy hai.” She giggled 

“Blouse hai ki bra hai?” Raavi looked at the blouse worried

“Two in one hai! Kaunsa tuje sabke saamne peheni hai.” She winked

“RISHITAAA.”

“Chal ab mood theek kar. Breakfast karte hai.” She kissed her forehead 

“Aati hoon.” She smiled back

Rishita saw Shiva outside and went to him. She caught his wrist and took him to the terrace.

“Bhabhi aap ye?”

“Ek ladki ko tum aise chod aye?” 

“Bhabhi aap…. Vo hum… Aisa kuch nai hai…”

“Voh toh Raavi ko dekh ke hi pata chal gaya. Aur kuch nai toh ye kya hai?” She pointed out to the hickey Raavi gave him

“Bhabhi hum dekh lenge.”

“Shiva, mai interfere nai karna chahti par rok nai paa rahi. Tumhe pata hai ek ladki ko kitna bura lag sakta jab uska pati hi usse reject kar ke chala jaye?”

“Aise koi baat nai hai bhabhi.. app.”

“Nai tum meri baat suno… usse baat karo… hum sabne dekha hai tum dono ke ek dusre ke liye badalte hue. Please ek dusre se baat karlo. Tumhe pata hai Raavi abhi kitna roi?” 

“Kya? Raavi ro kyu rahi thi? Vo zaroor regret kar rai hogi issliye mai chala aaya.”

“Again assumptions! Vo wahan assume kar rai hai ki vo tumhe attractive nai lagti aur tum assume kar rahe ho ki vo regret kar rai hogi. Tum dono baat kyu nai kar lete!”

“Bhabhi please… Aapko puri baat pata nai hai.”

“Dekh Shiva, mai janti hoon tu muje Dhara bhabhi ki tarah nai maanta par bhabhi toh hoon teri uss haq se keh rai hoon ke mai nai janti puri baat naahi jaana chahti hoon, par tum dono toh jante ho na? Ek baar baat karke pata toh karlo ki tum tum dono kitaab ke ek hi panne pe ho ya alag alag. Please Shiva.”

“Jee bhabhi koshish karunga.” 

“Thank you meri baat ka maan rakhne ke liye. Chal ab breakfast pe wait kar rahe honge sab.” 

As advised by Rishta, both of them wanted to talk to each other but did not know how to start. They ignored each other the whole day but ended up clashing on the door of their room in the evening. Shiva was about to leave but Raavi caught his hand and pulled him inside. She locked the door, turned around and looked at him. 

“Maine vo dairy jala di. Mera kal mere liye koi mayne nai rakhta.” She said in a no nonsense tone

“Isse ye baat toh nai badal jati na ki tu mujse shadi nai karna chahti thi?”

“Shadi toh tu bhi mujse nai karna chahta tha. First choice toh mai bhi teri kabhi nai thi. Par mai yeh baat pakad ke nai baithi teri tarah.”

“Maasalon ki badbu aati hai mujmein se? Aaj subah nai aayi?” He walked closer 

“Aayi na. Teri mehnat ki khusboo aayi. Shiva, mai tuje bachpan se janti hoon par tuje pehchana maine tere saath reh ke hai. Tu ek bahut acha beta, bhai aur dost hai toh pati kyu nai? Tu apni family pe jaan chidakta hai. Mai teri first family hoon Shiva!”

“Bakwas mat kar.”

“Sach bata rai hoon. Aur….Aurrr…. Mai… tuje itni unattractive lagti hoon ki tu muje subah aise chod ke chala gaya?”

“Raavi, humein doori maintain karni chaiye. Meri baat ko samaj.”

“Kya hum naye sire se shuruwat nai kar sakte? Please Shiva please” she started sobbing

“Raavi… please ro mat.” He went to console her

“Mera apna pati muje apni biwi nai manta, family nai maanta aur to aur attention bhi nai deta. Mai kya karu Shiva tere layak banne ke liye?”

Shiva looked at her shocked. Did she feel she wasn’t good enough for him? And he had been think the other way round all the time. She wanted to move ahead with him. She wanted to give them a chance. He never thought his distance from her would affect her this way. He did not understand what came to him and he said 

“Theek hai. Phir se shuru karte hai.” 

She hugged him tightly as her life depended on it. He responded smiling. It did not matter anymore why she wanted to move ahead with him. He could not see her go through the torture. He would give her all he had after all he loved her from the bottom of his heart.

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Ani🌸