Chapter 5

Moor278

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Part 5 - ‘Use mukammal kar bhi aao’

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Virat wakes up feeling a strange calm within him. As if something that was missing from his life has now returned.

Mohit and Aai have come again

Aai - “Kaisa hai tu Godu?”

Virat (haltingly, with difficulty) - “thik hun Aai”

Looks at Mohit and asks “S … Sai aai thi na?”

“Are nahi Dada.. koi to nai aaya”

“Jh .. Jhoot mat bol”

Dr. Barve enters just then. Virat is searching for those eyes but Sai has avoided being on rounds today.

Dr. Barve - “How are you feeling Mr. Chavan?”

Virat - “Much better ... Doctor”

Dr. Barve - “Any questions? Anything you want to share?”

Virat (with obvious difficulty but with an impatience) - “I felt like…. My wife.. She came to see me. I don't know when but…. I felt her sitting near me, talking to me.”

Dr. Barve (quizzically looking at Aai, Mohit and Aniket) - “Since you are still recovering Mr. Chavan, it is possible that it was a dream.”

“No, … no… Doctor, it was her presence.. I felt her touch”

“Then, I suggest Mr. Chavan, please get her here, if possible”

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Aniket calls Sai, since she has gone home after her shift.

“He wants you back Sai”

“Kya matlab?”

“He spoke today. Dr. Barve ko bataya ki shayad tum aai thi”

“....”

“Dekho Sai… I know you are hurt because of his behaviour, but today he needs you, if not as an ex husband, but as Doctor hi sahi, he will recover faster. I know I shouldn't push you to do this. But I am your friend too. I know you and how you feel about him. I don't want you to regret it later. At least meet him once.”

“.....”

“Pehle bhi jab unhe goli lagi thi, tab bhi sab kuch bhul kar gayi thi na? Aaj ek aur baar sahi”

“.....”

“Aaogi na?”

“I dont know”

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Virat - “Mohit, mere wardrobe … drawer main.. Ek letter hai… Sai ke liye…. Vo leke aa.. Yaha rakh de”

“Lekin dada… agar Vahini nai aai to?”

“Vo aayegi Mohit, zaroor aayegi” 

Mohit has the letter for Sai, She hesitates at first but eventually takes the letter.

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Dear Sai,

Since you are reading this.. That means I have died…

Pata nahi tumhe Dear kehne ka haq bhi hai mujhe ya nahi… shayad kabhi tha hi nahi aur hota bhi to saare haq kho diye jis din tumhe vo papers diye maine.

I didn't want to do it… but just like all my previous mistakes… I tend to stop thinking rationally when it concerns you.

But I have never stopped loving you. Yes, there I said it. 

Something which I could never say to you directly. 

I love you Sai.. always have and I don't know since when…

But I have made mistakes, terrible ones… and you have always forgiven me. Even when I gave you those godforsaken papers… you just looked at me. Had it been someone else, they would have created a mess… but you .. my junglee sherni… looked straight at me… as if looking into my soul and searching for the truth. I couldn't meet your eyes then.. And you still understood.. Signed them without a second thought and left me forever.

You, my dear, taught me that day… that I am not a good friend .. I keep harping about responsibilities and farz… but you.. Tumne dosti ka pura farz nibhaya… aur aisa nibhaya ki mere ek kehne pe khud ko mujhse alag kar diya.

I now realise that I have had terrible friends, Pakhi was always only concerned about her happiness and never bothered about mine. My happiness with you.

Shruti and Sada played me… threatened me that they’ll harm the most precious thing of mine.. You. The bomb that was found near your college? That was a warning for me. I had to pretend that you don't matter to me. On a whim I gave you those papers. I had to separate you from me.. For your safety. But what I should have known is that you are a Policeman's daughter. You are strong and brave. I had always admired that. I should have trusted you.. And I would not have lost you.

I misjudged you, always had and more so then… and now it's too late to do anything.. You deserve better. This too, I have learnt from you. That sometimes it's better to leave rather than bind and clip the free bird such as yourself.

It's not that I dont want you back but I feel I don't deserve you, your love, your strength. 

And since these would be my last words to you… let them be the truth.

I love you Sai.. always will… Hope we meet in some other lifetime!!

Take care my dear Mirchi…

Always 'only' yours

Modak

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Mohit, Shivani and Aniket were just looking at her. 

Sai was clutching the letter tightly as if it was everything she had and crying and shaking as if a dam had burst. The three could only hold her and let her have her way… It was only so much they could do.

When she had calmed down a few minutes later did Mohit speak.

“Dada knows that you came to visit him Vahini”

“He asked me to get this letter for you… Aisa kya hai isme?”

Sai just held it up and the three took turns reading it.

“Since you are reading this.. That means I have died” - broke all three of them.

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Disclaimer - I confess that it looks like a stupid enough reason for divorce. But Virat has always been impulsive and unreasonable when it comes to Sai. He regrets it later as usual. 🙄

So, if you all feel it's not sensible, sorry.. take it with a pinch of salt 😀😀