16 Armed I Am With Love!
Nature connectedness has a soothing effect on an aching heart in various situations. Human emotions have a fundamental, "native" expression, that is the special connectivity humans share with nature!!
The tears of joy at birth and those of grief at death, though interpersonal, same to everyone as nature gives and takes away —
Under the night sky, Rudra was alone, sitting on the swing in the park oscillating between memories and grief. He was searching for Rishi and his innocent smiles in the stars now. 'Rishi, You carved your name on my heart as a memory now and you die at the beginning of your life, as a feeling stopped giving meaning in the middle of a sentence. You left without warning Rishi. Gone so fast. Now all I have are memories of our past. !” With a bleeding heart, he was moving back and forth on that swing.
Death in the family destroyed them, coldly, cruelly, callously. Nature is the bosom whence we all come and go!
The inherent feel of guilt increases our desire to long for a companion to share with … a longing to put his head on a shoulder to cry for.
Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome, those are the struggles of life.
Death never comes at the right time, despite what mortals believe. Death always comes like a thief and rob all the happiness within no time!
Happiness was stolen every time by a sad event in MJ's house. In the beginning, while performing Devi Maa visarjan with gaiety, Rishi was drowned, a happy moment followed by a sad event.
Again, when MJ arranged his annual party, Antara was drugged and drowned. The family was shaken from the roots, brought many emotional feelings out from everyone on that night!
Now Rudra and Ananya's engagement ended with the death of Rishi. Someone is carefully writing the story with twists and turns in such a way that it is beyond everyone's imagination! That writer is Maya.
Sadly enough, the most painful goodbyes are the ones that are left unsaid and never explained.
MJ hammered a nail on the wall to hang Rishi’s photo there while talking with Amir about nailing down that murderer.
His associate left and Diya entered as his other woman!
A mother with a wailing womb drugged to slip into a silent sleep there on the bed near them. A tear of grief in the corner of her eye yet to be dried. But their grief compromised itself in their bodily desires. Love without moral consent is like theft, darkness reigned there as their sin! Here, their emotional pain has a biological purpose.
It hurts to see the one you really love loves someone else! But it hurts even harder when you find out that you were just their bridge to cross over to their loved ones Ananya. Truth is, Rudra is going to hurt you. Why you accepted a person who never loved you? Hope will become a curse at times, remember it. Love is blind and love can be foolish. Sometimes we hurt the ones that love us the most, and sometimes we love the ones that don’t deserve our love at all. It hurts the most when the person that made you feel special yesterday makes you feel so unwanted today. Love as a frozen feeling hurt her heart at that moment when she watched Maya and Rudra consoling each other.
"Rudra, you hurt me more than what I deserve because I loved you more than what you deserve.I didn't mean to fall in love but I did. And you didn’t mean to hurt me but you did. Guarantees are worthless if the guidelines aren't followed in love, my dear man! "
All this conflict can be traced back to someone’s feelings getting hurt, don’t you think?
Her pain started years ago, that she'd accepted it as an inevitable part of her. One by one, the drops fell from her eyes like they were on an assembly line- gather, fall, slide...gather, fall, slide...each one commemorating something she had lost in her past. Hope. Faith. Confidence. Pride. Security. Trust. Independence.Joy. Tender feelings.Freedom. Innocence. Yes, she lost everything, that's why she knows how hurtful the loss will be!
He was struggling to accept life, Maya stood there beside him like a dark death!! In her hug, he regained his strength, but she knows that it is nothing but a farce! She has to kill him one day to give solace to her revenge ravaged heart. Both are going through a difficult emotional outburst. There was something in those tears, an inexplicable pain behind it.
"Rudra, I see your heart bleed. I do. I see the pain in those eyes. You left there as an onlooker in front of fate, I know. So let me join you in that pain, walk with you for a few steps, feel the same torture I know you are in. I need a hug, even if it is just with words. I need a soothing hug like a child at this moment Rudra. I need help now, I'm lonely. I feel so abandoned. Just allow me to pour out my guilt, just help me. Won't you please, please help me? Say 'I can come to see you; we'll just be together.' I need you, need your company. It would help so much for both of us."
She is still thinking 'I'm errant, not quite right, but at least showing a will to fit in the mold. Emotional pain leaves invisible scars, yet they can be traced by the most gentle touch. Sometimes, like a cyst, the "wound" must be opened to be healed soon. Maya was thinking 'I feel so raw today; like there is no skin over my pain and the wind makes it bleed continuously.'
He started moving away from her... And they were strangers again who knew each other's heart, so broken as they drifted apart.
Maya asked him did Ananya know he is here. He said he himself didn’t know that he was coming here! They both have one thing in common at that moment... anguish, two pains cannot love each other but lend a helping hand to sustain in such a sorrowful situation.
Maya understands the pain of losing a brother, she cannot be so ruthless like MJ walking on the path of revenge, so she was showing humanity and supporting Rudra at that moment.
Amir was MJ's accomplice in all his sins and crimes. He assured MJ that definitely they will be able to eliminate Rishi's murderer.
But Rajiv is not like him, he asked for an explanation from Maya for her killing Rishi. Maya narrated the horrendous incidents which gave birth to Maya Jaising, who is punishing her offenders in her own way now! There was a struggle between right and wrong, Rajiv decided to assist her in her quest for justice and decided to be with Maya like her brother. Her intentions are clear, but surprisingly her love for Rudra is also very clear!!
Mother tied the holy thread to Maya's wrist to ward off evil and asked her to give the other for Rudra! Love is there, Divine intervention too is there, but the aching heart needs solace, for that, she wants to kill him blindly to hurt someone else, how far it is justified, Maya????
Of all the weapons in the world, love is the most dangerous weapon to kill someone!! Love has the power to eradicate all forms of darkness! That is the key.
Armed I am in love. Disarmed I am at present because of that!
Edited by Viswasruti - 1 month ago
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Jai Shri Ram @SoniRita
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2 years ago
Wonderful choice of words Madhu di, esp abt Love thats very deep.