Chapter 7 You Are An Unbearable Burden For Love.

                                                                      15. You Are An Unbearable Burden For Love!

 ‘Rishi …I overlooked your trust and love in an attempt to make myself happy-- a revenge free person, only to realize that my happiness is momentary, but here you lost your life. How do I say the words,‘I’m sorry’ when I know that words are not enough? And how can I ask you to forgive me when I know I can’t forgive myself? With a bruised heart and a guilty conscience, with a sad soul and a head hung low, I apologize to you unconditionally my eternal lover.  Now your love is eternal, with love you’ve gone, with revenge I was left here to repent throughout my life. Do I have to curse myself for my sin? I am sorry, please forgive me Rishi… forgive me’ Maya was sitting in a corner of her child’s room like a blundered kid repeatedly pleading for forgiveness.

She couldn't breathe, it felt as if someone was choking her. Her heart was freezing and all she wanted to do was curl up into a ball like a fetus and wait for someone to save her. But no one was there. A choked cry for help forced itself up her throat, and she felt a drop of tear run down her cheek. It seemed as if this was the end of the road for her beliefs.

It is a natural reaction, wants to hurt the person who hurts you.  A human tendency. Love and hate are two sides of the same coin.

But this revenge,  an unforgivable kneejerk reaction can really backfire on you, Maya. Its already started working on your mind and made you an insane person now. It backfiredMadam, realize that! Running far away from the crime spot crying, shivering with guilt, sitting in a corner like hiding from the questioning glares of the world – that is your own world, i.e, your conscience, this whole process shows that you lost your peace, Maya, you lost it forever!

You are not cruel, the circumstances made you a sinner, but at the same time, Rishi did nothing wrong to you, loved you, trusted you, pleaded you, perished for you! See once towards that lovely boy …. Look at him once! Lost his life, laid there by death in that pool of blood. Recollect that innocent smile which he gifted you before hurting himself, you bit your lip and assured him with a nod to murder himself, coolly passed on that knife, that innocent lover pleaded you to save him.... what you did, go on with your despicable crime! Suddenly all you saw is his still body, literally. Everything else falls away. You were stopped midway from your motherhood by a sinner... for that, you murdered a young lover who trusted you most??? 

Curmudgeon MJ  locked him up with authority only to realize that his act provoked Rishi to escape from his clutched to meet his death! 

Anxious Rudra ran in search of his toy brother, reached him to lift his lifeless body to bring back home! A shock and grief there,  the house was inundated with sorrow.

The repentant killer on one side and the seasoned criminal who is there to repeat the same crime to punish his son's killer on the other side.

Maya, you'll be filled with remorse and shame, guilt is something that eats you up inside, that is dangerous,  that hurts you and others in future,  you'll be loveless for your life because you'd be a burden to love now!

People told me that love can heal a person!

But no one told that love can destroy a person, too! Rishi the lover boy perished of love!! R I P Rishi. 

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@Tiaraa ---I am still crying for rishi..i couldn't make myself to watch the episode. I cannot!

Those lines..maya mujhe dard ho raha hai..and she replied that kuch nahi hoga..apni maya pe bharosa haina..

Is still haunting me

Till now..MJ has done nothing compared to Maya..

She had an affair with a married man..and got pregnant there were consequences attached to her action..i won't say she was not wronged but she was not right either...

Now... I am extremely hurt...

Because apart from being controlling and thinking good about his sons...Mj did nothing wrong..but maya did it.

Her explanation to kill rishi was bizzard

How could she even say he died because he was Roy clan...

If that is true .than her unborn child and she too got damaged because they were roy clan too

Cool now..poke your own eyes Maya!!

She doesn't deserve love... I am afraid for Rudra...

Damn!!!

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I can understand the distress and sorrow which engulfed all of us, Tiara

Revenge made her a psychopath. Now she will be unstable and more aggressive because of this murder. 

We do not know, yet to get clarity on the relationship between MJ and Maya, but the flashes are suggesting that they've shared a relationship in the past. 

Murdering an innocent boy who loves you and trusts you so much is never the right thing. With so many dreams and tender feelings he believed her words, for a brighter future with her, he yielded to her unreasonable advice and perished for his too much trust in love. Really feeling sad and sorry for this young boy Rishi. 

That is why she is a burden for love, love will desert her forever. 

I think Ananya will protect Rudra from now onwards despite his refusals.