31st March 2021, Wednesday
1:35 AM
Dear Diary,
So, Siddhanth and I finally filed for divorce today. With mutual agreement, we cited irreconcilable differences. Yes, irreconcilable differences, just the two words. Two mere words to pull the plug on all that we have been through, holding hands. The ups and downs, leaps and bounds, the joys, the jubilance, the sadness here and there and the fury. Two words to put an end to it all. Yet the two words summed up too, all the hurt and pain that we have been constantly giving each other lately.
Ah, 10 years together, that is no joke, is it? Is it really fair to make it a joke then by deciding to withdraw from it, owing to about a year and a half of maddening conflict and chaos? What have the two of us come to really? We have brought ourselves to the ruins of a home we painstakingly built together, a home that once stood tall and proud and beautiful. And just how unfortunate is it that we had no choice but to bring our children along to witness these ruins, this devastation? You know, I feel so bad for the two of them, they will have to go through a lot due to the two of us. Maybe, maybe I am selfish to have not put them first, to have not decided to stay. Yet, I don't think I am capable of enduring any more of this, this rage and this pain. I simply can't.
Trust me, I never wanted me and Siddhanth to just be a chapter in a book that I would have to force myself to forget, the moment the page was turned and the next chapter came in. I wanted us to be all over every chapter, whether the chapter was supposed to be happy or gloomy or trying. Nevertheless, it is here that we are. It is this that we have. I loved him madly and immensely and perhaps I still do but I have to, I have to let it go.
Meghana.
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Gigiri @Gigiri
3 years ago
The divorce will be the immense pain after 10 years of marriage life with two children. The divorce could happen within one and a half year of marriage since two people try to adopt with their practices, qualities, attributes, attitudes, and behaviour. Ten year is more than enough to resolve their differences, understand each other and let the life flow with daily up and down. The challenge of marriage life is balancing all up and down in daily basis preserving the happiness of heart. The phrase you have used in here " We have brought ourselves to the ruins of a home we painstakingly built together, a home that once stood tall, proud and beautiful" really painful as a thought. This will be the thoughtful phrase a couple should think more than hundreds time before filing a divorce. However, your collection of thoughts are really nice and touching the heart.
Madhuri @Viswasruti
+ 15
3 years ago
Ramya dear, another gem in the form of a tear directly from your heart! A breakup can be one of the most stressful and emotional experiences in life. Whatever the reason for the split, if once you've decided to separate, then starts the real challenge in life, coping up with the past recollections and with the future plans without that shadow or lead once predominant in our life. Very interesting subject with an emotional note.
proteeti @wayward
+ 8
3 years ago
It's so very beautiful, I love the honesty in your expression of the story! ❤️
Koeli @Koeli
+ 12
3 years ago
I will send you my comments on WhatsApp... can’t express how much I can relate