THE DECISION

Dear Bob...

There is a happy news for you from today onwards I won't disturb you ever ... I know I have always troubled you with my boring , useless , unwanted talks but you have always heard me and I know you will do it whenever I come to you but I think you too want some peace so Bear me today for one last time after that I won't be burden to you too as I have always been for others...

I have taken a decision .. yes Bob I have taken a decision which will change everything for everyone and it is good for everyone ... I Don't Wanna Live Anymore , yes you heard that right I am going to commit suicide , I WANT TO DIE , I am fed up of everything I can't carry the burden anymore I should die and let others live in peace , I know I should've taken this decision  long back when that incident happened with me but it's ok will do that now and will remove the burden from everyone's head which they are carrying unwantedly and hurting themselves and also me .. I think this is the best option to correct everything which is messed up now because of me , I failed to recognize the true well wisher and end up with those who ruined my life to the extent that my own family turned against me and is somewhere feeling ashamed that I happened to be their daughter, I am the main cause for everyone's problem so it's good to remove that cause and let everyone live in peace which I failed to give them when I was alive so let's give it to them by being dead..

And one more thing I don't want anyone to know about you so I am sorry Bob but I have to destroy you too.. sorry dear but if you could then forgive me for killing you , I am sorry...

                                                 Good bye !!

                                                               Roli

Roli closes her diary with teary eyes and cried hugging it tightly keeping it close to her chest , it was just a diary for others but for her it consists of her whole life, that every moment of her life which she remembered from her birth ...

Roli was the girl who have always been happy from her birth , dearest to everyone in the family and also was pampered to the fullest , have got everything whatever she wishes for , was very close to her mother than father but was a lucky charm for her father , before starting any new work her father used to take her name and as always it comes out successfully.. Roli have always been the happiest girl since her birth until she went out for studies leaving her home and the Friends she met there turned out to be the dark clouds of her life who turned her life upside down with full of tears , loneliness and also nightmares which haunts her Everytime , they turned out to be so cruel that her own family started doubting at her and at the end she became a burden for everyone , the girl who have always been pampered is now left alone into a corner surrounded by hundreds of negative thoughts which were banging on her head making her to believe that she is nothing but just a burden for everyone who just gives pains to others and this thinking led her to take a decision to kill herself...

Roli wiped her tears and puts the diary on the bed then moved towards door and looked out if anyone is coming or not after checking she closed the door properly and went back to bed , she was looking at the diary with a tear filled eyes she has given the name ' Bob ' to her diary as because the cover page of diary was full of minions and Bob was one of her favorite ...

Bob have always been her audience from last four years .. writing diary was not in her nature but she started it after she got it as a gift in one of her birthday , in excitement she started writing the diary with her beautiful memories which she spent and in no time it became her habit to write each and everything whatever happens in her life ...most of the pages were full of her happy days , her craziness , her mischiefs which she does with her crime partner her mother and papa couldn't do anything of course who can dare to raise his voice against his wife yes like everyone he also fears from his wife a plus point for Roli to be a bit more mischievous but to be honest he too likes it , her life was full of beautiful colors with her beautiful family , Maa Papa , Bhaiya and Di and as she was the youngest one so automatically was pampered by everyone ...

But the things changed when she went out of the house and when she started making new friends and tried to enjoy the new phase of her life , as she was the dearest none was ready to leave Roli alone in the hostel but for her better future it was needed and she left the house with her eyes filled not with tears but dreams , the dreams which she was seeing from her childhood and now it's the time to fullfil it but little did she know that she will be thrown away from that new world in which she was trying to adjust herself but she failed pathetically to make a little space for herself and Bob was the only one who knows every single second struggle of Roli which she did to make herself stable in that atmosphere , those pages of last few months were having a traces of her tears more than words ..her diary has stored every single emotions of her from laughing to crying , from weak to strong , but today she wants  to kill all those emotions of her which is still alive in Bob with herself , she doesn't want anyone to know about what she feels because she thinks none will understand her , if they ever does then she won't have been in such a miserable condition today ...

Roli took a long breath and then went to table present in her room and searched for sometime and there she found a match box , she took it and went back to her bed took the diary then giving it a last look she went inside the washroom and wiping her tears she finally burned the diary from it's one corner , the flame was increasing per minute turning it into black ashes ... Roli was trying hard not to cry but today her eyes too ditched her and started shedding tears uncontrollably she mumbles in between her cry " sorry Bob ... forgive me "

Within few minutes the whole diary turned into ashes which was floating in to the pot , she was looking at it and was crying closing her mouth and somewhere she hardly wishes that she should be here at Bob's place but it's ok she is gonna be there soon , after crying for almost an hour seeing those ashes she flushed it out and went back into the room then fell on her bed grabbing the pillow hiding her face in it she started crying .....

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