Raghav woke up with a splitting headache to an empty bed, having no recollection of the previous night. The creases on her side of the bed left him wondering if she was truly here or if the feel of her softness under him was yet again another one of his beautiful dreams...her dreams. As he rubbed his eyes, his gaze fell on the unattended dinner table and slowly he took in the sight of the entire room, the sight of which knocked the breath out of him. She was here, he wasn't dreaming!
With a palpitating heart, he got up to look for her, maybe she was in the bathroom. After what seemed like an eternity of searching, he sat down on their bed, dejected, confused and agitated beyond his control. Finding the next best object of his anger, he flung all the pillows from the bed onto the floor...one would wonder if that was going to make him feel better. Gradually, as his anger subsided, he caught sight of an envelope on the empty bed.
"To my dearest Ghamandi Rao", it read. All he could do was stroke the letters his wife wrote, oh so lovingly, because this was an endearment she only spoke out of love. Unable to contain his curiosity, and his fear, he quickly opens the letter inside the neatly sealed envelope.
"To my dearest Ghamandi Rao,
I write this to you, knowing that when when you wake up, I will not be by your side. Before you react, please read through this letter till the end, it's all I plead of you.
Ever since I heard my first love story, my soul has searched for you, and in the process, I've been burnt, wounded and died a thousand times, until you walked into my life one fine night, initially aggravating my pain, but slowly, becoming the only man I've come to love, heart and soul. My words have started to lose meaning when I say I love you, yet I wish to continue whispering this till the end of my life, only to you.
My dearest Ghamandi Rao, you walked into our room last night, drunk and broken. It pained me to see you in such a state and it pained me more to know that I was the reason of your pain. While you slept off, I kept awake, taking in the sight of your beautiful face, occasionally caressing it, hoping to relieve you of the pain you're harboring in your heart. I hope you can still feel the gentle caress of my fingers and kisses across your face.
I looked at you and wondered how it would have felt to cry out in love if things did not deescalate last night. A night meant to be full of loving in surrender, for I have thought of this not once, but every time you bend in to kiss me, or tease me with your eyes full of desire. As you snaked your arms around my waist in your sleep and as your head rested on my chest, I wondered how it would have felt if you were in your senses. Would I see the same love and need in your eyes as mine? While I feel slightly embarrassed of letting you into my wanton thoughts, I hope it assures you that my life, heart and mind has no space for any other person, other than you.
On a parting note, I have already left for Kolhapur, you have the address. I have renounced my responsibilities with the Deshmukh's because whatever pains you will never find its way into our lives again. I don't leave out of anger or pain, but I leave out of the love I hold for you, knowing that I cannot hold sight of a broken man. When you are ready to dive into this marriage, not only as my husband, but as my lover, send me one indication and you shall find me at your doorstep. Till then, I wait to love....and be loved.
Signing off,
Yours, Saree Ka Dukan.
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