We are sympathetic towards Rocky and feel that he has never been truly happy in life and has suffered a lot. It is indeed true for him from the point he decided to change for the better. But I feel, even Happy hasn't had a blissful life either!
She lost her father as a child, grew up listening to the taunts from her taya-tayi. They considered her family a bojh. Then she wanted a have a job to escape the insults her mother endured everyday but was being forced into a marriage. Rocky misunderstood her intentions and even went to the limits of defaming her and her mother rendering them homeless.
Then out of realization of her responsibility towards Chintu, she gave Rocky another chance and they worked together! That was perhaps the Best Phase of Both their lives! They were successful and even fell for each other! No one of them knew what was that special feeling brewing between them, which had trust, which had care, which had banters and which felt like bliss! They were just losing into a dreamy world whenever their eyes met!
Just when happiness had stepped in, her sister was molested. Though she hesitated considering Rocky a criminal till the end, Smiley's words and pain got her to testify against him. That day, she not only broke Rocky, but herself as well! She lost that chirpy and positive gal in her! She was broken because just when she had started to comprehend her special feeling towards Rocky, she felt betrayed! She subdued that portion in herself which had started to yearn for Rocky! She hid those special feelings and even refused to acknowledge that she ever had them.(when RV makes her close her eyes and she hurtfully answers that it was no one she saw) But somewhere in her heart, she wanted it all back and didn't want to accept what appeared as a reality.
The next three years, all she got were taunts and emotional abuses at the hands of Momsy and Beeji. Even her sister hated her. She lived a heavy life due to the above reason as well!
Then came Shaan aka Rocky who made her realize the biggest mistake of her life which she made when she had misunderstood Rocky and got him three years of suffering for no reason! She craved for his forgiveness and just wanted to restore whatever they shared. She just wanted to take all his pain on herself as she considered herself the only cause of his suffering. Just when she thought that everything was falling into place for good, it only got worse with Anaya's death, attempt on Rocky's life and the disturbing realization about a close friend she blindly trusted, RV.
Now, she has taken a huge decision and a huge risk with her life as well. She is hurting the love of her life to save his life! She is getting hurt seeing his pain and also due to the fact that his pain is all because of her own self. She must be hating the fact that she is giving him more pain in life even after promising to herself of not letting any pain reach him when he returned back into her life!
Honestly, she isn't responsible for the bad luck she is accused of inflicting upon her loved ones. But she gets to hear those taunts despite the fact that she never thought any ill of others. Happy was actually happy in the beginning due to her positive outlook over life, but now, it appears she has lost even that!
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