Bepannah My thoughts~ ep 183 27. 11.18 The fallen angel...
He once held such aura that made him a guardian angel to one close to his very heart. Now Adi appears like the fallen angel who rebels against the world around him. yet something within him, her memory, her hallucinations ,continues to hold him from becoming a self destroying angel. Is it the hope that he'll get to see this allusive being? The being, who reminds him of the one who constitutes his most fondest and most bitterest of memories.
Behind bars yet again, bothers him not! For he has the likes of his friend Kunal and Mili to bail him out. Money makes the world go around! Even the law is in his pocket. So Kunal is Adi's angel who oils the palms of authorities ,when the need arise. Besides, a smeared reputation bothers Adi the least bit.. he has seen worse. Like betrayal by her who he thought was infallible and unblemished! How wrong he was. Kunal apart from bailing Adi out from an unpleasant spate with the law. Also appears to be a rather worthy replacement of Arjun in Adi's life. He usually goes around sweeping Adi's mess. Like when Adi short fuses at Mili for rescheduling meetings its Kunal who puts in a good word to defend Adi in the infatuated Mili's tearful eyes .
Kunal gives Adi the occasion to purge about his emotional past. In talking to him Adi confesses he thought he saw her..Kunal clearly knows about Zoya.. Is Adi softening towards her? He is dead honest when he tells Kunal , his mind makes him see her everywhere! Kunal clarifies she is in Dehradun.. Does Adi want her to be here? The way he appears agitated, flippantly admits , he wouldn't be surprised if did see her. Nothing seems logical in his life. Does Adi in a way admit that since she walked out of his life. Things lost their purpose for him?? Still those who matter to him, his Ma', demands his attention only.. His mother's logic never agreed with him before.. Only now when there is no cohesion in her life, can Adi find, that she is the only one who needs him like never before! Poor fallen angel, he seems so disaffected ..no wonder he is seeing her everywhere. Her absence , gives vent to his fury upon others!
Strange enough, things seem fairly clement for Adi, his mother takes her medications, finishes her meals. All due to this new psychiatric nurse.. Adi wants to buy her specialist nursing care, but her service he finds out is not up for sale! This being looks for a contrite heart, one that Adi lacks at the moment. This being does witnesses, that in Kunal Adi has a friend who can diffuse fiery situations Adi gets himself into.
Hidden behind the nurse work station, an irate Adi exchanges hot words with Arjun too! Like before Adi reacts to brotherly criticism, especially when his competence is challenged. He yet again smashes his phone and bellows angrily, disturbs the quiet and peace of the hospital.
A being, a good, caring being is about, the events whisper about it. His mother shows improvement in leaps and bounds. Once Anjana , called this being a she devil.. Adi's Ma' had to lose her mind to see the dear angel in this being whom she previously loathed with a vengeance! Today Adi's ma herself gives her judgement upon this pure being, whom the gods themselves have sent from the heavens to give her troubled mind respite and healing. Anjana's hand seeks support, love from this earthly angel. The pure being cups this frightened woman's hand in full support . Adi too receives healing. It's like a domino effect. This ma's so called angel, that he has yet to see, calms his mother and in turn Adi too. A fallen angel, begins to feel the sensation and soar of flight! How this so called angel gives his mother the will to live. Adi vows to bring back her angel to his mother ..
Every thing and anything can be bought by money! Even this home help for his mother. But Adi has to learn that the virtue, of compassion, service and forgiveness cannot be bought by the power of money. It can only be bought by the softening of a hardened heart. That lets go of an enraged spirit and by replaces it with a forgiving spirit.. This angelic home care can be bought by making room and opening doors.. acceptance without questions! Adi has to learn, love cannot be bought.. with all the money he has. Love revives if it survives hardships! By burning it purifies.. like gold!
Arjun and Noor meet again , small world. It's hard ,but Noor keeps it business like. Interesting both are into social work, rehousing, rehabilitation of the vulnerable. But its their bond that is in dire need of Rehab, restoration. Their conversation in the coffee house, just like old times, shows changes in Noor's outlook, she sounds as one says on the side of angels.. doing charitable work to support the needy.. more like living for both own self but more so for the less fortunate. Arjun is pleased to see a positive change in Noor. But a distance remains between both .the approaching cyclone news makes it possible for Noor to accept Arjun's invite to stay at his place till the storm passes.. Noor goes with him, because she trusts Arjun!
But the cyclone out side takes place between them. Suddenly Noor reads a text, it clearly unnerves her and she lashes off at Arjun rather violently. Her push hurls Arjun to the wall! he hits his forehead. I suspect Noor probably receives Zoya's text that she is going back to Hooda house as Anjana's psychiatric nurse. Anjana was never Noor's most favoured personality. Noor probably panics if Abbu finds out what Zoya is planning to do!, Both sisters will be summoned home again. also noticeable is how desperate Arjun is to reverse things back to how they were between them.
Kunal, yet again recognizes that Adi is miffed because the psychiatric nurse declined his offer! to provide home care for his mother. The angelic being watches and hears from a vantage point that he is beginning to lose the plot. In a way its seems unfair, because, Adi is trying to do his utmost in caring for his not quite there mother. Perhaps Anjana's sweet angelic is ready to pick up the fallen angel?
Some being enters Hooda house and tenderly feels the photographs of those who meant family to this being. The time now has come for Anjana's sweet little caring angel to once more assemble the small army of the existing angels. she'll teach them to fly again! The palms of her hands cups the little flame of light, from snuffing out. Anjana's little angel; returns as the goddess who heralds light, and dispels darkness from this tomb which once was Hooda house. She returns and brings back unity, joy and good fortune.. its Zoya! Hamlet53, 28.11.18
Will the cyclone lash out between Zoya and Adi too.. when they stand before each other?
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