Bepannah ,My thoughts, All for the love of Zoya!

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Bepannah My thoughts, eps 137~ 138.. All for the love of Zoya! 

Ep 137 ,24th Sept: Zoya , is one entity that matters much to three men in the current episode. Waseem  the man who fathers her. Arshad the man selected by her father to be the ideal man. Aditya Hooda, the man who loves Zoya and of recently he grows on her to such an extent that  she begins to get the picture that he does matter to her.. more than a best friend.  The younger men stand by her. the man who rejects her yet again is none other than the  man who brought her into this world.

No matter how honourable Adi and Zoya  act , their bond is misconceived and  grossly and cruelly misjudged! Sad for the daughter, whose father himself spear heads  ruthless opposition to her choices,be it her job or more recently the man she befriends. But the plus point for Zoya is, that one more time Aditya  helps her cross the river of fire! So much so that he lowers himself into the river of fire too.  The dark hour for them to part at the bottom of the stairs approaches! Adi gives her his mothers ring as a wedding present, jests the ring prefers to stay with her.. accept it as his keep sake forever! Zoya is dew-eyed. Yet cruel eyes following their every move, Adi shows reverence, towards both Waseem's honour and  much disciplined he leads Zoya to the place ear marked for the nuptial formalities. Every step they take , takes them away from each other! Arshad's parents, Waseem and Arshad fail to comprehend this pair s actions. For Adi, although he  is much dispirited, yet he  plods on with weighty  steps. As  he has to prove Zoya's happiness, matters much to him. gently he sits her down. Zoya clings to his hand and her puffy eyes s plead silently to him. don't leave me Aditya. But  Adi clenches his jaw and turns to leave.. one more time, he is tugged.. and he freezes in his step, not daring to look back at the visibly shaken Zoya. Once again the whole cosmos shows all present, that these  two lovers are destined to unite! A deadly pause occurs,  he realizes the end of her bridal dupatta gets entangled  with a piece of clothing on his body!  his jacket that makes him decent.. and the dupatta on her  head, protects her decency. Zoya's weeps for him to wait! It's as if by divine intervention her mantle silently begs  him to give her life long protection!

What a pity, wise  seniors misinterpret  the show of nobility,  reverence to elders by these young  souls! Even Adi's brief pause to pointedly release her mantle of grace and dignity, is passed off as a shameless act! Waseem is forced to shout at Adi and spurn him out of his house unceremoniously! Zoya's face suffers agony as Adi is yet again targeted  for public humiliation ! Adi is silent. He  has stoically done his duty by bringing  the bride , his love to the mandap! To be given to Arshad in marriage!  Slowly with delayed steps he  weaves through people , slowly  passes behind the nuptial divan  and once more  lingers  behind her. Adi watches her back figuratively! his snail's pace is geared towards something he had said to Arjun, he will continue to hanker for Zoya, till she say's I do to Arshad! That  will close his limitless, boundless love saga..

Waseem urges the Qazi to get on with the marriage now that Adi has been shown the door! Two solemn words repeated three times to omit doubts and convey clarity and consent to marriage by the man and wife!

Arshad takes Zoya as his wife without delay! But its Zoya's vow that delays Adi's foot steps. The moment arrives .. Zoya freezes at the first attempt!  Adi's steps too freeze! near the threshold of the Siddiqui house! Second time too, Zoya cannot bring herself to utter Qubool hai.. her father intervenes, in panic and patiently pressurises her to say the words he wanted her to say! But tearful, sobbing Zoya.. has visions of times spent with Adi! his repeated reminders that he matter to her! third and final time she opens her closed palm and looks down weeping at Adi's ring in  her clammy palm.. almost breathless she has her revelation that Adi does matter to her.. that's why her lips remain sealed three times , to accept Arshad as her husband!

Adi has heard enough he has to leave! as that's all Zoya will deliver. Her silence speaks of her decision! But Arshad yells Aditya ! and raises his sehra,  goes after Adi to the door!

Waseem delights! mutters Arshad is the right person to kick Adi out of Siddiqui house! Zoya stands up from the mandap and stands much afraid , huddled beside her sister! Arjun watches silently.. he has full faith in his bhai.. why shouldn't he? Like him Adi too is the torch bearer of truth. bhai's intention was only to support Zoya and far from being the disruptive element in the marriage as he brother is made out to be!

The man who becomes the strong link that eventually unites Zoya with Adi! Adi heroically faces Arshad's   wrath stoically  .. his face humbled but if the need arises  to defend himself and above all Zoya! he will have his say. Arshad bids Adi to hold his piece and listen to what he has to say! Arshad in no uncertain ways admits his hatred towards Adi for all his plotting  he carried out against  him. Confused he wants to know what he has done to him to deserve Adi's  conspiracies ? In fury as expected Arshad clenches his fist and  yanks his arm to punch  Adi's jaw! That which all expect! But Zoya shivers in dread! But Arshad stops his fist mid air! Like Adi did .. in the hospital! The tone of the scene revolves and Arshad confesses that three times Zoya was asked to say the two magic words that he too dreamed to hear.. but.. she didn't.

Humility repaid in kind by two noble men to each other. The sehra placed on one's head, the highest point of the body! as opposed to the lowly feet! The lowest point of the human physique !   The beautiful scene corresponds  with  the scene where Adi touches Arshad's feet to show humility. Arshad, removes his sehra and hands his, ego and self respect over to Adi's hands! His  words, "now she will say the two words epitomizes the bare truth!. Arshad's parents think their son has lost the plot! They too see their respectability at stake! Their son publicly rejected and humiliated! But Arshad ,  carries on in his professional  mindset,  how he comes across truth and pain on a daily basis. Meeting  Zoya made him ignore the truth and replaced it with dreams.. Arshad corrects his earlier statement to Adi.. that the love he saw in Zoya's eyes was love meant not for him  but for Aditya . He confesses that when he first met Zoya, she already loved Aditya ! only she was quite unaware of it till just now ! Zoya's silence , when  asked for her consent to qubool hai to the Qazi! Spoke volumes. Arshad convinces the elders, If she belongs to Aditya how then can he make claims on her!  

Waseems prized horse as pulling out of the race! he cannot lose in front of Aditya! In  desperation Waseem  pleads Arshad misunderstands. Zoya herself told him she chose him as opposed to Aditya.  Waseem argues he will prove it  that Zoya does not love Adi! she herself will admit that !hear it from her to believe! He begs Arshad not to take such an emotional decision that he would  regret later, Arshad  argues all of us were blind to their love.. because we refused to accept them as two people who love each other!

The father who literally bullies his daughter in carrying out what  he wants her to do!  Like  repeated torture,  he orders Zoya to tell all! she does not love Aditya! and they can pick up the marriage  from where they left the ceremony! Zoya dreads his wrath.. he glares and frowns at Zoya! his big bold eyes glares at  her forcing her to say the crucial  words!  But  Zoya was not  going too say then now! now that she just found out that Aditya  matters, so much to her ! Zoya remains mum and the more she continues to resist! the more volatile her father gets! In fact Waseem turns stares Zoya down ! intimidates the terrified girl! with  cruel emotional abuse ! Waseem's commands say she  doesn't  love Aditya! Pushes Zoya  at the brink of breakdown! At that point, how helplessly, she looks at Adi, to come to her rescue !!Adi raises his voice from the door , he  shows Waseem  respect and refers to him as sir! , she won't be able to say what lies in heart her! for fear of hurting  him again..  hurting him matters so much to her, that all along she has been lying to herself too! Waseem  growls at Adi and snubs him to stay out of his family's business ! outsiders views  are not welcome! After Adi speaks  up in her defence. Zoya  too gathers her courage and still terrified of her bullying father.. stutters.. apologetically, she failed to understand when? and how it happened?? but she tried to stamp it out!! only she lost at the hands of her hear!  Zoya's words echo what Waseem said to Roshnaq, regards Zoya's friendship with Aditya,  before one knows it  may change into love! Seems, his worst fear now stares him in the face! Such dramatic irony!  In Waseem more loathing rises up within him! but Adi's eyes, well up with tears for her courage, to speak the truth! Nearly all who loved Adi and Zoya, nearly wept  at Zoya's  confession .. Zoya continues, how she cried. when she realized! Waseem mercilessly grabs her arm and literally hurls her towards the door! But then Adi grabs her in his arms and like always.. Zoya may stumble but Adi will never let her fall! The ring of his strong arms are ever present for her! she looks up into his tearful eyes ..and he looks at his ,brave lady's tear stained face. It's not easy to go against  people on loves! How inadvertently it may be! Waseem didn't realize but the deities in heaven! made him give his daughter away to Aditya Hooda! Providence  sure does work in a strange way.. these two were destined for each other! Alas!  no good fighting fate                                                                                                                                                                                                   Ep 138, 25th Sept: : I will honour your family like my very own..  For me, this episode Adi, certainly shows he respects and reveres Zoya's family. He could have   taunted and humiliated Waseem by eloping with his daughter.. but that would not be fulfilling a key vow incorporated in marriage. Adi aspires and fulfils the vow even before  being  married to Waseem's daughter. But one can one do when a father feels  grossly wronged by his daughter? One can only continue to be strong in love and  go through all the trials and tribulations.. with regards to honouring his family? The precap shows.. challenges times for Zoya too!

 Waseem never fails to remind Zoya of her past blunder with Yash. Its cruel the way he never lets her forget. After meeting Adi she gathered all  her spirts and self esteem that both Yash and Waseem robbed her off. the scene is useful   as she gets the chance to point out the key difference between Adi and Yash. This time Zoya as a woman is strengthened by the faith in her unbreakable friendship  and love between her and  Aditya.

Ameena  blowing her top and pulling Zoya to bits along with Waseem.. is really about showing the humiliation and rejection families have to deal with due to children's an unexpected action. Zoya is made to feel guilty about the shocking action she takes. Ameena is a scorned mother whose perfect son is spurned aside! Her curses she sends Zoya's way are chilling and judgemental. Waseem too is made out to be a father who has no control over his daughter. We are reminded through Ameena ,that  it was Waseem who initiated the alliance! The  only positive thing about the scene is that Arshad upholds Zoya,forgives her;  and reminds her to have faith people don't hate her,its only that anger and shock makes them so. In a way he apologizes for his parents abrasiveness too.  With empowering words, thus Arshad  parts  with no hard feelings; hopes to see them again.. to Adi he says the one thing.. that he is sure Adi will  keep Zoya happy. Zoya tenders heartfelt apologies, she never meant to hurt them intentionally.  Arshad, she lauds as a most kind hearted  and merciful person! This for the minute, marks the exit of the kind hearted doctor Arshad Habib.. he exits on a good note!

Forgiveness is not easy to give where one is emotionally involved and expectations are dashed.  Zoya begs, weeps, for forgiveness  from her Abbu, who refuses to dispense easily a pardon.   Waseem hurtfully even snatches from her, the privilege  of being her father. Adi too lets go of Zoya's hand as it will not be seen as a blessing that his daughter is married to a man who loves her bepannah. Instead  their clasped hands will be seen more a curse! Yet  Adi's fights the case on behalf of his Zoya. Once  again Adi  fulfils the vow of shielding  his love against all sorrows.. he kneels in humility but  Adi just may not be there! For Waseem Adi is an outsider! Nonentity. For Waseem  knows the way to wound Zoya is to denounce  her choice! Zoya he accuses  of cheating him twice.She betrayed his love and trust twice!

The mother who supports her daughter is the same woman who slaps Aditya but now wipes his tears! Consoles Adi that a man whose hardened heart refuses to soften at his daughters bitter tears.. best be left alone. Such a potent scene. In the presence of an egotistical father, a mother  bravely blesses her daughter and her love!A mother entrusts the piece of her heart into the hands of the man she loves!  Roshnaq consoles and empowers her daughters choice! When Zoya confesses that she made a mistake against the family honour. Roshnak confirms that in choosing Aditya , Zoya made the one correct decision of her life! As a mother she blesses them both, reminds them that in having love, they will see, how they inherit  all the happiness in the world!

Waseem looks  on disdainfully at how  his wife  Roshnaq  is effortlessly  over powered by the mother of their children. In reaction he  asserts his power, pulls Zoya's arm from Adi's arm and hurls his  daughter out of his house forever. The scene reminds me of how Adam and Eve were banished out of paradise! Waseem as if like the proverbial wicked king expels  his daughter who dares to go against the commands of the king!

With doors shut on her face.. Zoya bangs onto the door to be let  into her fathers house! But behind her ,covering her back as  always !is her best friend who loves her Bepannah! Hamlet53.     

Well congratulations! I don't know whether to cry or jump for joy? The real story has just begun.. mind you  as long as they are together.. they can face any thing.. Harshad  and Jenny are the life and soul of Bepannah..  never a dull moment from them in the role of Adi and  Zoya. Great performance by  Taher Shabbir as Dr. Arshad. Wishing  him luck in his forthcoming ventures!

Thanks for your support.. ep139 to follow  soon.. and than ,me will be on task! much love hammie 

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Posted: 5 years ago
beautiful post❤️
hope you are feeling better❤️

oh damn these two episodes... goose bumps and teary eyes

For Adi, although he  is much dispirited, yet he  plods on with weighty  steps. As  he has to prove Zoya's happiness, matters much to him. gently he sits her down. Zoya clings to his hand and her puffy eyes s plead silently to him. don't leave me Aditya.

he gave his ring to her as a wedding present and he leaves.. loved the adi-noor interaction.. her dupatta gets stuck again and zoya just cries..💔

Arshad takes Zoya as his wife without delay! But its Zoya's vow that delays Adi's foot steps. The moment arrives .. Zoya freezes at the first attempt!  Adi's steps too freeze! near the threshold of the Siddiqui house! Second time too, Zoya cannot bring herself to utter Qubool hai.. her father intervenes, in panic and patiently pressurises her to say the words he wanted her to say!

there was a silence when she zoya freezes.. literally gave me goose bumps.. 'hume bht farak parta hai' and she said it

Arshad corrects his earlier statement to Adi.. that the love he saw in Zoya's eyes was love meant not for him  but for Aditya . He confesses that when he first met Zoya, she already loved Aditya ! only she was quite unaware of it till just now 

and finally arshad backed off hahaha pehli baar kuch sahi bola is bande ne🤣

Zoya continues, how she cried. when she realized! Waseem mercilessly grabs her arm and literally hurls her towards the door! But then Adi grabs her in his arms and like always.. Zoya may stumble but Adi will never let her fall! The ring of his strong arms are ever present for her! 

papa waseem was so cruel.. but finally zoya said it 'hum apne dil k aage haar gaye' oh girl we have waited sooo long for this...and adi holds her..loved the stare he gave to papa waseem😃

Forgiveness is not easy to give where one is emotionally involved and expectations are dashed.  Zoya begs, weeps, for forgiveness  from her Abbu, who refuses to dispense easily a pardon.

how cruel was papa waseem in this episode.. yeah he is concerned for zoya as well but he should have seen the pain in her eyes.. when both adi and zoya went on their knees.. took my heart away💔
when she said humare dil main woh jagah adi ne le li hai and adi's expression.. beautiful❤️

Roshnak confirms that in choosing Aditya , Zoya made the one correct decision of her life! As a mother she blesses them both, reminds them that in having love, they will see, how they inherit  all the happiness in the world!

she was tooo good in this episode.. she understood zoya.. gave them the blessings suck k3g vibes

the song they played when papa waseem kicked her out was so heart touching.. the dau-father relationship was shown beautifully in my point of view..yet heartbreaking💔






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Originally posted by: Maryam2

beautiful post❤️  helloo Maryam.. leaping to grab the heart 

hope you are feeling better❤️   ohhh 😃 thanks for asking.. bit better.. but still  at risk.. keep  prayers on going

oh damn these two episodes... goose bumps and teary eyes   yes they sure were..  heart wrenching.. brilliant performances by Harshad and Jennifer 

For Adi, although he  is much dispirited, yet he  plods on with weighty  steps. As  he has to prove Zoya's happiness, matters much to him. gently he sits her down. Zoya clings to his hand and her puffy eyes s plead silently to him. don't leave me Aditya.

he gave his ring to her as a wedding present and he leaves.. loved the adi-noor interaction.. her dupatta gets stuck again and zoya just cries..💔   loved the way he pauses by her and she looks at him regrettably... all tearful... his smile keeps Zoya strong..

Arshad takes Zoya as his wife without delay! But its Zoya's vow that delays Adi's foot steps. The moment arrives .. Zoya freezes at the first attempt!  Adi's steps too freeze! near the threshold of the Siddiqui house! Second time too, Zoya cannot bring herself to utter Qubool hai.. her father intervenes, in panic and patiently pressurises her to say the words he wanted her to say!

there was a silence when she zoya freezes.. literally gave me goose bumps.. 'hume bht farak parta hai' and she said it
yes... at last she gets the revelation.. but he knows  she will be silent..
Arshad corrects his earlier statement to Adi.. that the love he saw in Zoya's eyes was love meant not for him  but for Aditya . He confesses that when he first met Zoya, she already loved Aditya ! only she was quite unaware of it till just now 

and finally arshad backed off hahaha pehli baar kuch sahi bola is bande ne🤣
well he has to eat his words
Zoya continues, how she cried. when she realized! Waseem mercilessly grabs her arm and literally hurls her towards the door! But then Adi grabs her in his arms and like always.. Zoya may stumble but Adi will never let her fall! The ring of his strong arms are ever present for her! 

papa waseem was so cruel.. but finally zoya said it 'hum apne dil k aage haar gaye' oh girl we have waited sooo long for this...and adi holds her..loved the stare he gave to papa Waseem!
his glares,, terrorizing  looks were the crux of the finale... what a bully!!    zoya sobs,, adi has to bear it all  fanatastic shots

Forgiveness is not easy to give where one is emotionally involved and expectations are dashed.  Zoya begs, weeps, for forgiveness  from her Abbu, who refuses to dispense easily a pardon.

how cruel was papa waseem in this episode.. yeah he is concerned for zoya as well but he should have seen the pain in her eyes.. when both adi and zoya went on their knees.. took my heart away💔      yes adi on his  .. shows how he honours the vow of revering her family like he does his own
when she said humare dil main woh jagah adi ne le li hai and adi's expression.. beautiful❤️
Adi gets to hear her confession before all.. where at one point she withholds her Qubool hai..

Roshnak confirms that in choosing Aditya , Zoya made the one correct decision of her life! As a mother she blesses them both, reminds them that in having love, they will see, how they inherit  all the happiness in the world!
yes... maa maa hi hoti hai...   mother hood over came the role of wife... 
she was tooo good in this episode.. she understood zoya.. gave them the blessings suck k3g vibes

the song they played when papa waseem kicked her out was so heart touching.. the dau-father relationship was shown beautifully in my point of view..yet heartbreaking💔
the next episode was heart breaking as well... Zoya ka status on the line... do read the next  thoughts Maryam.. loved your star studded comment...👏⭐️ can't get enough of these two... 
yours with much love hammie




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Hi Hammie! Hope all is well with you ❤️ A brilliant post! I really liked how you drew comparisons between Aditya, Arshad & Waseem regarding their approach towards Zoya. 

I really enjoyed the mini Aditya-Noor scene, how he stopped beside her. And I think that's why she went to go stand by Zoya right after, he indirectly told her that now that he's leaving Zoya will need Noor's support. 

The last few minutes of Monday's ep were simply amazing. Looking at Aditya's expressions you could see how much it was hurting him to see Zoya be put in such a position where she has to admit her feelings like this. That's why he spoke for her, he understands her so well that he even understands her silence. And ultimately it pushes Zoya into admitting what she's been denying for so long, that she's unknowingly fallen for him. 

Loved the way Aditya came forward to catch her and his glare at Waseem right after. Reminds me of his words to Waseem from before that when Zoya comes to him, then even if the world comes in between nothing will stop him from taking his Zoya with him.  

And it was so lovely to see Aditya taking Zoya's hand once everyone left, he will always stand by her. And Zoya draws strength from him, even on Monday when she was expressing her feelings she kept glancing at Aditya. And in Tuesday's ep he took her hand providing silent support and she in turn silently apologized for putting him through so much pain. 

Also the contrast between Aditya & Yash became even more evident. Yash made Zoya elope and marry him without concern of how things would be at her home as a result of it. But Aditya was literally on his knees begging Waseem to not throw Zoya out cuz he knows how important her father is for Zoya. But I loved the fact that Aditya didn't budge from his stand, he knew he's right so he stood by it. He very correctly questioned Waseem, what has Zoya done wrong? Loving someone who loves her just as much? Wanting to be with someone who will keep her happy & never betray her cuz he knows the pain of betrayal? He said everything that any father would want to hear from his future son in law but unfortunately Waseem's ego didn't let him acknowledge it.

Roshna supporting and blessing AdiYa was so nice to see, her blessings will protect them through their difficult journey together. And I love how she told them BOTH to take care of each other and be happy together, it shows how she really considers Aditya as her own. So happy to see Aditya finally getting true maternal love which he's never gotten before.
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hey sparkle! and sparks again!  nice one mate me already in 7th heaven.. slow snail hammie has bridged the gap! now only to watch Friday 28th episode and then my well earned rest with a smug smile on my face!  yes mate that I can manage to write..   does heal me..
Hi Hammie! Hope all is well with you ❤️ A brilliant post! I really liked how you drew comparisons between Aditya, Arshad & Waseem regarding their approach towards Zoya. 
 well they all   Zoya close to their hearts...
I really enjoyed the mini Aditya-Noor scene, how he stopped beside her. And I think that's why she went to go stand by Zoya right after, he indirectly told her that now that he's leaving Zoya will need Noor's support. 
you may be so right  sparkx... noor face and his brief pause beside her and silence was a tear jerker
The last few minutes of Monday's ep were simply amazing. Looking at Aditya's expressions you could see how much it was hurting him to see Zoya be put in such a position where she has to admit her feelings like this. That's why he spoke for her, he understands her so well that he even understands her silence. And ultimately it pushes Zoya into admitting what she's been denying for so long, that she's unknowingly fallen for him. 
yes so true.. well directed scenes in story content and the expressions of the leads.. must watch episodes.. it came out as confession he had to  make before Waseem and Arshad..
Loved the way Aditya came forward to catch her and his glare at Waseem right after. Reminds me of his words to Waseem from before that when Zoya comes to him, then even if the world comes in between nothing will stop him from taking his Zoya with him.  
well adi's role as her protector come alive! in the latest poignant scenario!  after the father,,  daughters are handed over to groom they are tipped to marry..[ not forgetting those women who survive  on their own.. with father, brother, husband or son!]
And it was so lovely to see Aditya taking Zoya's hand once everyone left, he will always stand by her. And Zoya draws strength from him, even on Monday when she was expressing her feelings she kept glancing at Aditya. And in Tuesday's ep he took her hand providing silent support and she in turn silently apologized for putting him through so much pain. 
yes... she receives reinforcement  from him.. as this time Zoya no surprise was terribly shaken 
Also the contrast between Aditya & Yash became even more evident. Yash made Zoya elope and marry him without concern of how things would be at her home as a result of it. But Aditya was literally on his knees begging Waseem to not throw Zoya out cuz he knows how important her father is for Zoya. But I loved the fact that Aditya didn't budge from his stand, he knew he's right so he stood by it. He very correctly questioned Waseem, what has Zoya done wrong? Loving someone who loves her just as much? Wanting to be with someone who will keep her happy & never betray her cuz he knows the pain of betrayal? He said everything that any father would want to hear from his future son in law but unfortunately Waseem's ego didn't let him acknowledge it.
great comment.. and Adi's  great strength  is his faithfulness,, which Yash was empty of.. never came clean with her.   what Adi  says he does.. Zoya can see his track record  with her... always talking straight and pulling out of messy situations
Roshna supporting and blessing AdiYa was so nice to see, her blessings will protect them through their difficult journey together. And I love how she told them BOTH to take care of each other and be happy together, it shows how she really considers Aditya as her own. So happy to see Aditya finally getting true maternal love which he's never gotten before.
ohhh my eyes welled up... both Adi and Zoya needed a mothers support.. especially as   Adi's mother will withdraw her support from both!  
once more thanks sparkx for giving hammie an interesting read...  much love as always  yours hammie