"Kabhi kabhi Kismat Aise Mod Pe Laati Hai,
Ki Aadmi ki Soch Hi Badal Jaati Hai!"
Yes its true, it happened with me as well! We never know what plans destiny has for us.
I used to think no matter what, nothing can affect me as well. Nothing in the world, I was wrong, time proved it.
"Ishq se Ishq thaa mujhe!
Ishq thaa khuda iss Dil ke liye!"
Yes. I loved love. But the world, in fact my own parents showed me what Love actually was.My mother loved my father immensely, but what did she get back ? Pain only pain. She only lost, lost her self-respect lost her individuality, lost her peace, lost herself, in the so called bond of Love. That day, my opinions were about Love were changed. I promised myself never to "Let Love Rule Me."
"Ishq sirf ek sauda hai,
Jiss mein pyaar ke badle sirf aur sirf dard milta hai!"
Yes. Love is just a deal. A deal, of foolish emotions. A deal, where you lose your real self in exchange on nothing but pain.
"Bhaagne lagata main usse,
Ghinn aati thii usske naam se,
Dushmani kar baitha tha main Ishq se,
Wahi jisse ek baar manta maine khuda poore dil se.!"
Time, isn't it a sadist, funny clown? He makes fun of your life. Time makes fun of your thoughts, of your beliefs, of your mere self. Yes. I started running away from Love. Now the world became foolish to me, everyone seemed to be happily in Love, all I could do was pity them, for they dint know Love was a Beautiful Lie. An illusion.
But wait...Life had still another twist to unfold in my life..!
You run away from something to only bang into the same thing. Yes something like that happened.
"Ishq se dhoor baagh raha thaa main,
Yeh ehsaas hi nahi hua ki, ussi ki ore baagh raha thaa main!"
Yes. I banged into Love again!
But this time, there was a war! I wanted to Win. Because If I lost against Love, Pain would be my punishment.
But there was still another twist. Cause it wasn't Love who fought with me, it was its Lawyer "SHE"!
"Ishq Mein Dard Jaroor Hai,
Lekin Jo Sukoon Uss mein hai wo kahi nahi Janab!"
That is exactly what she said.! No, I argued. Tried to tell her stay away from it.
"Love is like the sun, It shines bright
But if you go for it, you will burn yourself"
I warned her.
"If Love is Like the Sun On Fire,
Then This Fire Gives me warmth!"
I warned her, she argued. I concluded she was mad. But also realised she was mad in Love with Me.! I tried to distance myself from her, the more I pushed her away, the closer she came to my soul. I feared losing the battle but my fear of pain gave me the strength to fight against Love.
"Ishq naa karna humse, Sirf dard paaoge!"
I asked her to stay away from me otherwise she will hurt herself.
"Ishq pooch ke nahi hota
Bas ho jaata hai,
Dil ko kisi aur ka hon thaa
So aap hi ho jata hai!"
She said smiling. I was baffled, why do you smile. I said I am not going to fall for you. I m not going to return your love. Why don't you just go? Stop being mad in love I told.
"Har Sapna Khushi Pane Se Pura Nahi Hota
Koi Kisi Ke Bina Adhura Nahi Hota
Jo Chaand Roshan Karta Hai Raat Bhar Sab Ko
Har Raat Wo Bhi Toh Pura Nahi Hota..!"
I was amazed. She was mad. Totally mad. And she agreed, she was mad but in Love. She made me realise, Love isn't what I had called it. She reset my notions about love. I liked the way she changed my opinions, without any effort, without herself knowing. She just loved being around me. She was crazy about me.
But one day, she was tired , she decided to leave. She was broken, I assume. She called me a coward. She said I was scared of failing in Love. That is why I ran.
"Those who run, are scared to face things "
Her words echoed in my ears. I felt what she said. Was I really scared ? Yes I was.I hate Love because I was scared that I would miserably fail, like my parents did. She made me realise, that it was my point of view. Their love had never failed, it was just my way of looking at their love.
Love varies with individual, theirs was of a different colour. A colour I misunderstood. I had terribly failed in understanding Love.
She was leaving that day.
I felt a part of me was going away from me. That day the Ishqbaaz was born in me. I ran but alas I couldn't stop her.
I sat crying over my lose, yes I lost, I lost her..!
She sat beside me, tears in her eyes.
She asked me to stop crying, I was beyond shocked.
"You dint leave me??"
"How could I? You had my heart, I had to be here for my heart!" she said smiling amidst tears.
I hugged her, she hugged me back.
Kuch log kehte hai pyaar nasha hai,
To kuch kehte hai pyaar saza hai,
Magar pyaar agar sache dil se karo toh,
Ye jeene ki khoobsurat wajah hai..!
I smiled.
"Ishq pe phir hua hai yakeen,
Tumhare aajane ke baad,
Dil thaa adhoora saa
Ab Pura Hai Tumhare Dil Se Milne ke Baad.!
Its True, Love is the biggest mystery, it's the most confusing emotion. Love is complicated, you can never understand until you yourself fall in love. Today my life is complete, after I found her.
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