Chalte chalte,
Dekho na...
Yeh hum kahan aa gaye?
Upon entering his room, she found him looking intently at his bookshelf. For a second she could've sworn she saw her old Shravan; the bespectacled, timid boy with a heart of gold who was always in some deep thought. He was so still in his observation, she almost didn't want to corrupt the moment.
But this was only the calm before the storm, and she knew it. It didn't take a genius to gather why he'd called her here, but after today...she was in no mood for any conversation herself.
The floor creaked ever so slightly as she took her first step, breaking his concentration. He finally noticed her, standing there in the doorway looking as distraught as he'd hoped.
But like the party, this farce engagement too didn't quench the bloodthirst. If anything, her pain acted like timber, only feeding into the fire he was already trapped in. For all these years.
Trapped. Weighted down by shackles, his own peace of mind burning him at the stake for trying to move past the hurt. Held captive in a prison, surrounded by a thousand mirrors mocking him, each breath he took only fueling the flames...this was "he." This is what he had become. He was out for blood, a homicidal rage facilitated by his trauma, his memories from the prison cell.
And yes he...was still there.
But he was not a victim...no. He asked for this of course! He asked to have his heart ripped out and handed to him, with a tag of nonchalance added in for good measure. As if the hell he'd been living with for the past ten years was nothing. It was laughable, honestly, the way things had turned out. Because today, with the tragic spectacle his life had become, he felt as though he could give even the classic Hamlet a run for his money!
He didn't want a free-pass, he was wrong. But perhaps what he was chasing was acknowledgement. Perhaps he just wanted to have an effect! Perhaps for once he wanted to goddamn matter!
And perhaps that is what he was out for, not her tears. And with that he was still wrong, just in a different way.
Because her tears burned. And despite his best efforts he just couldn't see the logic behind why. Or perhaps he didn't want to.
It was her heart he was trying to trample over, but then why did it become his ache?
Because for the first time in ten years, the trapped child in that prison, finally saw a light. And rather than her broken spirit, it was her smile, her laughter that broke through the insufferable concrete. It crumbled upon touch, as if bowing down to the power she had over him. And where that power came from...it was better left unsaid. It always was.
And coming to think of it, now it all made sense. The antidote could only be derived from the poison itself.
Part 2, scroll down.
-Kriti ❤️
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