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To love,with love
Hey beautiful!,
Are you having a bad day? Is it becoming too much to take? Have your swollen insides become too damn heavy for you to let out a breath? Do you feel like life is laughing at you with every tomorrow you are so not looking forward to? A tomorrow where I won't be there with you to see , the first ray of sunrise or your wet eyes shedding tears for me?
Are you tired of the slowly crumbling mask you have put up just for my sake, of that heart of yours too big for the broken you? Is the pain bothering you to an extent that you just wish to curl yourself up and let your pillow soak that bleeding soul, drop by drop?
Have you just simply, had enough?
Hold on, my love.
In one sharp breath, just take it all in.Feel that air as it rushes through every nook of your pale body.Now, all at once let it out.
Breathe out every single ounce of melancholy that is tearing your insides. Let your heart float a little, for its been sinking for quite a while in the oceans of misery you have put it into.Am I asking a bit too much?
I know love, its all my fault. I fell asleep. I broke those promises. I let the malignant disease get the better of me. I do hold the guilt of saying a good bye to you, a bit too soon. But you my girl , you made me proud. You could have asked for more but you let me go , you let me sleep to ease my burden. But how do I ease my burden if I see you surrendering yourself to the epitome of darkness?
I have just slipped into another room sweetheart.Everything remains exactly as it was. I am I and you are you.Whatever we were to each other remains still. I am just right there,and when did you feel the need of my sight to feel my presence? Call me by the old familiar name . There , don't you feel me already?
Now get up and grab your favorite drink and gulp it as fast as you can. Did you just manage to swallow that lump in your throat which has been living there for a bit too long now?
Next go to your room and put on the loud music you always loved listening too. No no,I am not shutting my ears :)Wow we are almost there.
Now grab a roll of bubble wrap and cuddle yourself under the blankets and start bursting those bubbles. Already,aren't you?.. With every pop let go of the misery of your soul a little by little. Now that the air has blown off, do the remnants remind you of someone?
No its not you. You, my love are the wind itself. You have the power to blow yourself off your feet only if you breathe a little harder.Only if you live a little stronger.
So stop wearing that forced air of solemnity or sorrow.Laugh a little , smile,dance a little.Engross yourself into the pile of those blueprints and designs that have been your first love.That I have always been jealous of for they got that undivided attention of yours . Go light a lamp of love in our abode just like you do for others. Paint those old walls red and pink and blue and green ,just like you paint the homes of others. Be your designer just like you are for others. Add colour to your interior just like you'd do for others.
Speak of me putting no difference to your tone.Let my name be the household word it was.Let it be spoken without effort,without the shadow of a ghost on it.Life means all it ever meant. There is an absolute and unbreakable continuity. Death is nothing but a negligible accident. I'm just there with you , for you. Just out of your sight, but my love still lasts with its illuminating light.
So,get up and look up at the sky which brings new promises, new beginnings with every new dawn.Look up at your better tomorrow.And when the tomorrow starts without me ,don't feel we are apart, for I'm right there,in your heart.
Forever yours,
Swayam
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