Okay guys so as I had told you, this is a surprise for you all from my side. Well, I actually started my journey of writing through poems. Here in the forum, you'll know me as a writer, a story-writer to be more precise but I'm actually more in poems and I have written many poems also. I don't know if you'll would like a poem on praja or not but since this forum is a very good place to discover and explore your talent, I present you all one of my compositions- SEPERATION PAINS- A PRAJA SAGA. It is after pratap kills badshah khan and leaves baijilal and moves towards chittor. This is from pratap's point of view. If you'll like it and want it from ajabde's point of view too, do let me know. Read, like and commentđ
SEPERATION PAINS-A PRAJA SAGA
Wending my way through lone forests, leaving behind all my feelings,
I now have to deviate from her genuine face, focus only one kingly dealings
Her eyes would be aching by the pain of the tears,
No! It would be more of the betrayal she had heard through all those years
Did my heart get constricted on seeing her ache like this?
No! If I had vowed to hate her, I had to restrict my love into a gesture curt
But all those years her apology was genuine, her letters were innocently desperate, her eyes were real,
Then how did I fail in recognizing her innocence ethereal?
Those situations, those conditions forced me to banish her, to punish her,
I had to abide by my elders; it was my beloved maharani who left because of her
Or did she really leave my life due to HER poisonous words?
No no! My love worshipped ranima like her own mother; I should have rethought before taking her whole world
Yes, she is my love, I cannot even pretend to hate her,
All those years I punished myself for not having the stride of her
My elders had no time to think beyond the circles of kingship and royalty,
She was the one made me experience the essence of love and loyalty
And now I failed her, just for the blindness and stupid promises of my elders,
How can I explain her? This separation heaves like boulders!
Anger begets anger as pain begets pain,
But my anger never bore anger; it was a two-edged knife hurting equally both of us only for someone's selfish gains
And now that wound has turned into an agonizing cry,
Soothing only when someone like her looks upon my soul and takes a genuine try
My elders never bore through my tough body and caressed my damaged soul,
They only wanted a protecting soldier who could enslave to them whole and sole
I'm leaving the only one behind who truly loved my and healed me; once again failing miserably at pretending hatred,
Again crumpling my my love, which I had enhanced by taking those vows sacred
This separation pains, cutting right through my heart, soul and mind,
I can no more take this hurting, God please be kind!
Having lone nights and forlorn journeys is just so eerie,
Spending a splendid memory with you is now my only reverie
I lost my support, my trust, my love, my breathe and my life in exchange of Dutiful son-ness' to gain
Leaving my genuine conscience with a foolish permanent stain
Such a cheap and useless barter I did for the one who had my life,
I cannot imagine how I will spend more of those lonely nights without my wife
This separation aches and wounds my heart ajabde
This separation truly pains ajabde!
Udne Ki Aasha
O Humnava Tum Dena Saath Mera
Haven For Her
Anupamaa
