Dear friends, its neither a OS nor aSS its Ramans dairy leaf with his pain...for the turmoil he is going through..
Its in the evening Raman cursing his fate how could he not take Ishita with ruhi for picnic... He is full on in his internal war of sirf adi Keliye...and Ishita..
Raman tightening his fist hits the wall rakes hos lock dairyand starts writing his dairy...
thinks to self
JULY 3, 2014
Thursday
wait!!! Adi aur Ishita??? Ek minute Raman adi tumhara khoon hai aur Ishita biwi... Lekin biwi ...mein to sirf Ruhi keliye kiya tha shadi par Ishita Ishita karke kab se ghum ne laga hu par kyun... Kya lagti hai woh mere sirf kaagaz ke tukdo pe patni?? Lekin use lekar tumhara dil kyun itna sensitive hone lage hai??? Pata nahi par uski dard mujhe sa nahi dekha jaata uske dard mere liye bardaash hota kyun?? Sirf shagin ki di hui dokha hi toh hai tu..ek khokla dil aur nasur dil ke armaan hi to hai tumhare zindagi...
lekin zindagi kab khilne lagi pata hi nahi chala aur mud ke Dekhu toh sirf Ishita ke khagde, maasumiyat, nautanki, hasi, khuso, khadar sirf yehi dikhraha hai sirf che mahene aur mein itna badal gayahu aur wh huaa sirf Ishita ki wajah se...
iss raat ke chandrma adha hai
Mere zindagi bhi adhe mein ruk gayi
Pyaar dhoke mein badal ke mujhe adha maardi
Par ek chaudve la chaand mere hath thaam ke mujhe chalna sikhai jeena sikhai zindagi jeene ka nazariya badli rishton pe bharosa dilayi apne aap ae milwayi aur kya aaj woh mere liye itni parayi hogayi ki mere jigar ka tukda adi ke baat chupane laga...uski vishwaas tod ke mein khud toot raha hu eh kya ajeeb ehsaas hai dhoka de bhi raha hu aur toot bhi raha hu kyun eh bechain dil harwaqt tujhe pukaarti hai.. Kyin eh dil chahta hai ki mein jo bhi kahu sirf tu aitbaar kare... Mere jhoot pe bhi??? Itna haq itne sare expectations... Dard ho tumje par aank mere roye eh ehsaas eh apnaapan ko kya naam soon Ishita...
Mohabbat??? Ishq?? Ya ek dosti??lekin eisi dosti jisme apne aap ko ayine mein dekhu toh dusre ke atma cha jaye ?? Nahi yeh dil mein jaage armaan aaur dil ke arzooan ka dere yehi to hai mohobbat jo chamakte galiyon mein aur jhoobsurati ke us shifan sarees meon nahi par andhere raat ki chaand ko dekhte waqt jo sukoon dil ko milta hai tik usi terah apne dil pe dimaag pe apne ap pe chaa jaati hai... Ishita has mujhe eh pal humasha yaadgaar hoga kyun ki is pal mein samajh gaya ki yeh hai mohabbatein jo dard banke hum dono ke dil mein basgayi...
Ab mujhe adi ko sahi raah pe lana hai toh mein shagun ke saath dekar nahi par tere saath paakar karunga...
Lekin aadi ko kaise samjhau Ishita aur tu bhi to naaraaz ho... Yeh wada hai apne aapse ki humare dilon ko ek karke pariwaar ke buniyaad pyar se sametkar zindagi jeeyenge hum lekin iss baar kya adi ke saTh chalu???par Ishita ko chodke??? Kahi zindagi mein eh adi keliye pyaar toofan bankar sare rishton ko dur na kare...
Aaj dil roraha hai dil aur khoon ke beech ...par mein khada hunga subab ke sooraj bankar khadahunga...
Aaj se tu hi hai is dil ke yeh hain mohbbatein Ishita
Raman
Edited by Romanticfreak - 9 years ago
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