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CHAPTER 14
FINALLY I HAVE UPDATED😛😛
Jodha was still standing near the door caged between jalal's arm looking in his eyes from past 5 min waiting for the answer of his sudden announcement in her room. On the other hand jalal was lost looking in her big brown eyes.
There was guilt, love n relief in his eyes bt he didn't find any emotion in her eyes for him which was killing him he was looking at her to just trying find a single glimpse of any emotion for him in her eyes. But he found none not even hate he felt like he more had any place in her heart or life.
He wanted to say so much bt her emotionless eyes were making him feel weak. At that point of time he felt like just take her in his embrace n cry his heart out. But he knows that he can't do that as it might offend her or hurt her n he can't afford to hurt her anymore.
He wanted to tell her that how difficult it was for him to hurt the person whom he loved with all his life, how difficult it was for him to make her cry for whom he asked for all the happiness in the world in his every prayer, how much pain he went through when he came to know that the love of his life his jodha was the one responsible for the death of his dearest brother.
Oh!! How he wished to tell her that even when he hated her for doing so bad with her brother he never stopped loving or caring for her. He wanted to tell her how sorry he was for not straight way coming to her n asked her about all the questions he had reading her identity bcoz if he had asked her than they both didn't hv to suffer so much. He curse that moment when he didn't listen to his heart which was screaming that his jodha can never do such a thing n believed the proves which he got against her.
He wanted to tell her that even when he left her to cry he was always their only the difference was that she was not able to see him. He wanted to tell her that this was not the first time when he enter her room through balcony to see how is she. He wanted her to know that , that past one month when she almost stopped living n stopped talking to anyone every night he use to come in her room to see if she is ok praying that she didn't do any thing stupid or hurt herself. He wanted her to know that in that whole 1 month she cryied in her dreams taking his name he wiped her tears. He only know hw much it hurted him seeing her in that state he felt like killing himself for what he did with her. But not even a singal word was coming out of his mouth.
On the other had jalal's silence was just irritating her. N after another 1 min she decided to break the ice before she goes mad. She waved her fingers in front of his eyes which broke his chain of thought "kya hua ab koi bahana yaad nhi aaraha?" she asked but still he didn't speak a word "I should hv know kit um yaha sirf mujhe irritate karne ayeho?" still no response form him "fine tum yahi kade raho mein abhi uncle ko bulati hun" with she shoved he hand away from door n moved towards to open it "I m sorry" she heard him saying.
At last he said it out loud he know that 1 sorry or even thousands of apologies r not going to make any difference bt he has start from somewhere right!! After hearing what those words she turned towards him n he can clearly see confusion n irritation in her beautiful brown eyes. Then he heard her saying "if u think that u'll just say a sorry for coming to my room like this n get away with it then u r highly mistken"
Jalal "no..no..no...no I m not saying sorry for coming to ur room like that" he saw her looking at him in anger when so he said "I mean I m sorry for this too.. bt..bt that soryy was not for this ...that sorry was for that..know u understand" now she was looking more confuse n shook her head in denial that she was not understanding anything. Jalal looked at her with puppy face "nhi samajh aaya?? (taking a breath) actually jo pahle meine sorry bola who sorry uske liye nhi that jo tumne socha balike uske liye that jo meine kiya tha...par jo bada wala sorry that who uske liye that jo tumne soch aur uske liye nhi jo meine kiya..ab tum samjhe na mein kya kah raha ki jo pahle wala sorry.."
Jodha "wait wait wait...yeh tum kya bol rahe ho jo sorry pahle baad mein...yum kahna kya chahte ho ?"
Jalal "(with clue less expression)pata nhi"
Jodha "what? Tum 11:30 raat mein mere room balcony se ander aate ho aur bolte ho tumhe kuch kahna hai aur jab mein tumse puchti hun ki kya kahna hai toh bolte ho pata nhi!!" she looks at him in disbelief with her hand on her waist.
Jalal "nhi nhi mujhe sach mein kuch kahna hai.." before he can finish she comes near him n starts sniffing "are u drunk?" she asked him "NO!" he answered her
Jodha "don't lie to me" she looked at him with suspicious eyes.
Jalal "stop looking at me like that u know that I don't drink"
Jodha "ohh really!! Use tarah jaise mein yeh janti thi kit um mujhe kabhi nhi kar sakte bolo" she said with the pain in her voice
Jalal "nhi..jo..." she cut him "tum kyun aye ho yaha ab jalal? Yeh dekhne ki ab kaise wapse se mujhe rulo..?" he came towards her n tried to hold her hand bt she moved toward her bedding . "or came here to see if m suffering or not bolo?" jalal moved his face to see her face bt her back was toward him "nhi mein..toh.." she again cutted him "tum toh kabhi mera chra hii nhi dekhna chate the na toh phir kyun ayeho yaha??" "haan par tab mujhe.." before he can complete she turned n came near him "aur waise bhi mein toh aise ladki hoon jo ladko ke saath raatein.." "BAAS! BAHUT BOL CHUKI AB EK DAM CHUP" he said this with a dangerous voice mix with anger . bt even dat didn't made jodha to stop "kyun? Kyun? Chup rahun mein akhir tumhi toh the who jisne yeh sab kaha tha toh aaja kya ho gya? Ohh now I know pahle tum jo bolte the mein chupchap suleti thi aur aaj jab mein tumhe ulta jwab de rhi hun toh tumhara male ego hurt ho raha hai huh"
Jalal's ager was raising with her every word but he was trying to control it but her last sentence broke all his tolerance level. He put his hand on her mouth ,grabbed her from her waist n caged her between him n wall.
She looked angrily in his eyes n saw hurt, pain n guilt in his eyes she can also see something sparkling in the corner of eyes n thought was he crying?
"mein na yaha tumhe rulane ayah un na hi tumhe hurt karne ayah un jodha...mein...mein toh sirf yaha tumse maffi mangene aya hun...maffi meri jodha ke aakho se nikle un har aason ke liye jo uske jalal ne dye hai...maffi meri jodha ko dard den eke liye...maffi meri jodha se kiye wado ko todne ke liye...maffi tumse dur jane ke bare mein soch ke liye..jodha...mujhe..mujhe pata hai ki mein chahey kitni bhi mafi manng lun who kam hii padenge kyuki jo meine kiya who mafi ke kabil nhi hai ... (removing his hand from her mouth) par mein tab tak who har ek cheez karunga jab tak tumhara dil mujhe maaf karne ko tyaara na ho jaye...mein tab tak koshish karta rahunga..."
Jodha can see the determination in his eyes n she can see that he was telling the truth bt her wounds were still green they are filled not even a bit she can still remember how mercilessly he broke her n her heart in million of piece not just for once bt for every single time in these past 3 monts.
Jodha "kyun?? All of sudden tumhe mujhe par itne mahrban kyun ho gye jalal ...ab kya irada hai tumhara???...ab kya meri jaan le kar hii manoge tum meri??"
Jalal "shh..mein tumpe koi mehrbani nhi kar raha...apni kiye hue gunaha ka pachtava kar raha hun ...kyuki mujhe samjh aagya hai ki jodha ke bgair jalal ki koi duniya hii nhi...jodha hai toh jalal hai...tum mera pyaar hii nhi ruh bhi hoo"
Jodha knew what he'll say next but she was not ready to hear it n she cant forgive him not now not ever so she freed herself from his grip n n tried to move away bt again he caught her hand n pulled her near him "I LOVE U JODHA" n here he said it .
Jodha's heart skiped a bit as she heard it n there was just for a sec that same love in her eyes for him which jalal did noticed. Till now jalal was not sure if she'll ever forgive him or not bt after seeing love in her eyes even if it was for just a sec he was sure that soon enough they will be together again all he has to do was to wait n make amends.
Jodha got hold of her emotions n pushed him away "BUT I DON'T LOVE U ANYMORE N NOR I'LL THE SAME MISTAKE OF FALLING IN LOVE WITH A MONSTER LIKE U DO U GET THAT?" she almost shouted those words to which he smiled n moved towards her "lier.." he said n took another step toward her n again came in front of her n said "u r lying" jodha looked into at him n said "I don't lie about my emotions like u" she taunted him. His smile widen "bt this time u r lying jo" saying that he leaned onto her "tum abhi mujhse naraz ho bt u still love me I cn see it ur eyes"
Jodha puch him away with a jerk "then get ur eyes checked...nw just leave"
Jalal "tum bhi janti ho jodha ki sach kya hai aur ek din tum maan bhi jaogi.." he winked at her n turned to leave whe suddenly something came in his mind . jodha sighed as he turned to leave bt suddenly he turns back came near her n gave a kiss on her cheeks n said "gud night love" . It happened so fast that she was not able to even react at first n when finally when she came back to reality he was long gone.
Precap :- collage trip...
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Edited by oshinchaudhary - 11 years ago
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