"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night...
Very dark, but there were stars, points of light and
reason ... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly
everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When
you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went
black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I
couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason, for anything."
-Stephenie
Meyer, New Moon
This would be how Asad would feel like if Zoya leaves tomorrow and goes away from his life.
Before Zoya came, Asad's life was like a moonless dark
night.. there was no brightness except for a few stars dotted on the dark
skyline..There was his mom, najma, Ayaan and his job... those were the
only few bright spots on the horizon of his dark life.
And they were the few reasons for his existence.. And the few reasons which gave any meaning to his gloomy life.
And then came Zoya.. she is like a meteor, full of fire, light and life..
Initially, Asad tried his best to ignore her.. he tried to close his eyes so that he would not see that brightness and colour which suddenly surrounded his life.. But he could not keep his eyes shut for long.. slowly he had to open his eyes and acknowledge that something has changed in his life.. he saw the brightness around him and he also realized that there is beauty and colours over his horizon...and helplessly he started admiring those colours and that beauty...it gave a meaning to his life which he had never imagined before.
And he actually now wants to hold on to Zoya and the light she brought.. but he is having conflicting emotions... his heart knows that he does not want the brightness of his life to go away... but on the other side, he is also scared... scared and afraid to face a future with Zoya and share his life with Zoya... It's hard for him to believe that life can indeed continue to be bright and beautiful.
So despite wanting to stop Zoya, the demons of Asad's past prompts him to let go of Zoya.
But tomorrow, if Zoya goes away, everything would become black for Asad. On the surface, nothing would have changed for him. His life would go on as smoothly as before Zoya came and invaded it.
But deep down, nothing would remain same.. and even the few
bright stars which used to light his
world, his horizon would not give him any happiness.. because he would be blinded
by and missing the light brought by Zoya.
Once Zoya goes away life will not hold any reason or any meaning to Asad any more.
It is for these reasons that my heart goes out to Asad every time he tries to push Zoya away.
Zoya is the bright light which would always try to shine
regardless of what life offers her.
But Asad will plunge in to a dark abyss from which neither he will try to come out nor anyone can bring him out. Hence, more than zoya I feel sad for Asad for what he may face in future or any time if he is separated from zoya.
It's really Asad's luck that Zoya is ready to grasp at even the slightest hint from Asad which indicates that he wants her in his life. So despite telling today that she will never stay back unless Asad holds her gaze and tells her to stay back, tomorrow hearing him say it with his back facing her, she is still going to stay back.. Asad is really lucky that Zoya has the courage to let go of her ego and be ready to plunge in to an uncertain future with him.
Hope that Zoya would always have the courage and determination to face all the inevitable complications of a life with Asad and be there to colour his world and brighten his horizon.
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