Frankly this is not what I was expecting after reading RS's reply to Anju last week and after Friday's wonderful episode.
But after seeing the episode, and calming down a little, I feel there may be a modicum of hope. The episode shows how completely Nivi's life has been taken over by the course of events. Her life has been upended totally. And so suddenly, and without warning or a chance to understand things, least of all prepare for them. As YD says, life did not even given them a chance to grieve for DD, and DS says life happens, it doesn't care who or what gets swept away in its path.
At one level I can understand what Nivi is going through. The guilt and remorse and grief is still there because of the things that happened - and that too so suddenly -- and if she believes, and we know she does, that she is responsible, and that the only reason for her to live now is to give Dwita a mother's love, then it is possible that her mind has become so blinkered that she feels that even if she's away from Dwita for a second means she's abdicating her responsibility and proving that she doesn't really love her...So in that state, which is really not a normal state at all, she can't let herself step away even for a second. (she's so torn even to give Dwita to Sid and VD).
It is such a complex state to be in and everyone else, who is not as affected as she is (because they don't hold themselves personally responsible for DD's death) can't fully understand it. Its like someone who doesn't know the path or the boundaries and in their faith and commitment to doing what they think is the 'right thing' goes toally overboard, over-responds, without knowing any better. She has no benchmarks, no markers, doesn't know where the limits are. And of course has no idea how to deal with a baby, as VD says.
Neha actually did a fantastic job today I thought, of
portraying this obsessive state of someone who has no idea how to calibrate the
new reality in her life...so obviously such a person *will* go to extremes and
will not be able to hold any other thought in her mind but this - the reason
she believes for
her to live. Kinshuk also did a
very good job today of showing what someone who loves Nivi and cares for her
wellbeing so much, but is otherwise reacting "normally" to the recent
loss i.e., with appropriate distance from the situation with dwita (he loves
her, but does not believe she is soley Nivi or his responsibility...) will feel
- exasperated and uncertain and unsure where this is taking them...like when he
sees Sid and Nivi together...minutes after saying never leave me. He makes an
effort to understand – like when he reminds himself to be patient, and tells
his mom that its not like that, Nivi makes tea for him everyday. I liked also how they show him smiling so
gently when he hears Nivi talking to Dwita that she will prove to everyone that
no one can love her more than Nivi. But
things are overtaking his life too and at a pace he can't fully adjust to. And he's not entirely liking where things are
headed.. … clearly somewhere some insecurity is likely to rear its head, especially
given all their complicated pasts.
I hope the CTs handle this well and not try to show that Viren will give up on Nivi or get totally jealous. The saving grace is that Sid and VD have gotten a sense of what Viren is feeling...hopefully they will act as rudders to re-set this boat before things go awry? I don't know if they will or not, but someone must. It can't be Viren because he's in the situation too much and nivi will always see his attempt to maker her see reason as somehow selfish (from the point of view of them both).
It probably as to be someone like NT Dadi or I don't know who, who can shake Nivi out of this extreme state and reassure her that she can fulfill all her commitments to Dwita while still living a more normal life. To show her that while they understand her dilemma, she is allowing herself to become totally taken over by the reasons she has given herself for living, for doing this, and is misinterpreting the substance of what it is in reality that she needs to do to honestly fulfill her commitment and promise. She *can* do it without losing herself or annihilating her relationships with Viren and others, but she doesn't know it yet. The CTs seem to think she'll need a big jhatka to realize it and re-calibrate. Hope they don't take us through hell and highwater to get there!!!
I don't believe this can go the Sid Nivi way. At no point did Nivi show any ambivalence in her feelings for Viren or anything at all towards Sid. She feels nothing for him other than what she would for her sister's husband and her friend. Her focus is only and only Dwita. She is as bereft when VD takes Dwita as she is when Siddharth takes her. By contrast there was so much softness in her eyes for Viren during their ever so brief moment together. (Why couldn't they make that moment longer and at least let them complete the hug??!)
I really don't want them to mess with Nivi and Viren, and if RS is honest about his reply to Anju, they won't.
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