here is an attempt ...i tried to keep it short, but couldnt ...😕 hope you enjoy reading it ..
As the early rays of the sun hit her face, turned to the other side of the bed, covering herself with her blanket. She has a smile on her face as she thinks of what happened the earlier night. Maan had carried her to the bed, and made her lie down on it. She didn't want to let go of him, and the warmth his arms provided. He hadn't tried to resist her either. He had come closer to her, almost as close as an inch away from her quivering lips. But he hadn't kissed her as she had expected him to. He had moved away .. only kissing her on her hair. These were little gestures about him she totally loved' but what he had said, after that was what made the smile disappear from her face'
"kya yeh nazdeekiyan tumhare liye jhoot se alag nahi ???"
Geet had moved away from him' and her silence had angered him' and he had walked away ' locking the door from outside lest she tried following him. He knew her too well.. And she knew him well enough as well.. she knew, following him would mean another fight, a little more bitterness and perhaps awkwardness again. And besides she knew, he would need time to himself during which he wouldn't listen to her anyway. She decides to wait for him so that she could talk to him, tell him all that she had longed to. But she doesn't realize when her eyes fail her, she falls asleep. Only to be woken up the next morning with his harsh words ringing in her ears once more.
Comfortable and cuddly in a shirt that's two sizes bigger than hers, she can feel him. His warmth and also a few disjointed flashes here and there of him trying to come close to her. She quickly buttons first three buttons that seem to give away her cleavage.. she feels embarrassed' The first thing is does is look around to see if he had returned. She kicks herself for having fallen asleep like that.
"Maan sir ne mere liye itna kiya' mujhe yahan laaye, pehen ne liye ye shirt dia, aur main so gayi'. Bina unka intezaar kiye 'pata nahi raat bhar Maan sir kahan rahe honge .."
She gets off the bed worried, and realizes that the blanket she had covered herself with actually wasn't on the bed the earlier night. She knew where it came from. The smile reappears slowly on her face. So he had come back in the night. And then another flash, of her standing by the window, him moving closer towards her, trying to dig his face into her hair, caress her neck' she snaps back into reality.. kal raat ko yeh sab 'shayad maine koi sapna dekha hoga ' she is embarrassed ' but just as she turns she notices, Maan fast asleep by the other window, crouched to beat the cold'she is touched.. he didn't have to do this.. he had already given her his shirt and he was already cold, on top of this, now, he had fallen asleep just like that .. she pulls the blanket' taking it to him covering him with it' he holds the blanket and turns the other way' Another flash' of him pushing a wet strand of her hair back' him kissing her hand'oh god she thinks.. I have to stop thinking of this' and then she see's the devil' lying right there .. next to maan'at first she cant believe her eyes' a bottle of Cognac' she picks up the bottle by the edges with two of her fingers bringing it close and smelling it' she doesn't like the way it smells. She throws it away ' but now her heart begins to beat super fast .. was she dreaming after all' had something actually happened 'she is filled with soo many questions .. and those thoughts running through her head don't help her either.. why was everything so disjointed' the best person to answer this would be Maan.. but she didn't want to wake him up ' what would she ask him anyway '
Staring deep at him, she tries to recollect all that happened since she could remember, she had fought with him, and then refused to come back to the room, but he had carried her back, given her his shirt to wear, they had come a little close and then she had moved away, the hounding question and then the only things she could remember between the night before and the morning was all those intimate moments she had shared with him' she cant believe herself.. as far as she could remember she was only pushing him away from her 'had that offended him' had that angered him.. did the fact that, she was embarrassed at expressing herself irked him'
"Maan sir ne mujhe apne zindagi main mere ateet ko jaante hue wapis liya .. aur main toh usne pyar karti hoon na' maan sir mere saath kabhi kuch galat nahi kar sakte.. mere marzi ke bagair 'kuch nahi kar sakte .. toh jo bhi kal hua .. wo humara pyar tha ' par sawal yeh uthta hai .. ke kal .. hua kya tha"
She looks at maan sleeping like a baby ' she comes closer to him, almost touching his face softly, when he slowly opens his eyes and looks at her ' at first he cant believe she is this close to him.. but a frown appears on his face and he gets up and moves away'"
" maan sir main wo '
Maan: jao jaldi se change karlo ' tumhare kapde maine sukha diye hai ' hume Mr. rawal se milne jaana hai '"
He sounds curt and doesn't make eye contact with her. Her heart skips a beat. Before she can ask him another question, he walks away ' this leaves her in a quandary ' why was he behaving this way ' had she said or done something'
After having gotten ready as she adjusts her dupatta, she still cant find answers to her questions. She decides come what may she will ask maan what happened the earlier night, and she would tell him, she did whatever she did only because she loved him'
Maan on the other hand in the shower has exactly opposite thoughts '
"shayad main geet ko apne pyar ka poori tarah se yakeen nahi dila paya ' maine toh apne pyar ka ishaara usey kayin baar kiya par wo pata nahi kyun humesha mujhse door bhagti hai ' aur usey lagta hai main abhi bhi jhooti mangni nibha raha hoon??? Agar Geet nahi chahti main uske kareeb aau' he has flashes of him losing a grip over his emotions the earlier night, and him trying to express his feelings for her, when she kept moving away ' when she hadn't answered his question'. He knows, if she had no answer it only meant there was something else on her mind'
As he turns the shower off, he is determined' "main jaanta hoon Geet kabhi mooh kholke apne problem ke bare main mujhe nahi bolegi .. aur main bhi usey baar baar yeh baat yaad dilakey ke main uske liye kuch mehsoos karta hoon usey dabau main nahi daalna chahta 'ussey door rehna hi theek hai"
As he comes out of the shower, Geet's pretty face, her angelic smile and her wet her once again make his lose track.. He is lost in her .. as she approaches him.. a little shy, a little embarrassed with that shirt in her hand, he has an urge to shake her up and ask her why she cant see what his eyes say .. how much he loves her.. but he steels himself '
"aapki shirt '.
He takes it without looking at her '
Geet: kal raat jo'.
Maan: kal raat ke bare main mujhe koi baat nahi karni ' jo hua usey bhool jao geet' aisa fir kabhi nahi hoga.. aur main tumhe kabhi pareshaan nahi karoonga .. aur main ummeed karta hoon.. tum bhi iss bare main ab aagey koi zikr nahi karogi '
She has no other option left now' how would she ask him.. and the way he had talked to her, she is sure something had gone wrong ' had she gotten drunk? Had she said something she shouldn't have' why was he so bitter' she decides she would win him back' she would tell him, about her feelings'
Sadly for her though, Maan doesn't allow her the chance, through out the day, he is nothing but polite and professional with her. He makes sure she has eaten on time and that she is comfortable, but she can't get thro to him' she tries serving him coffee he has it but doesn't smile, he accompanies her to the stores but doesn't react much'the two times she starts to talk about the earlier night he changes the topic '
So that night, when its almost dinner time and they are to leave early the next morning, she decides she wants this sorted before they leave. She doesn't turn up for dinner. She locks herself inside her room. She doesn't answer phone calls neither does she answer room service. Maan finally gets worried and gets in with the help of the duplicate key. He has concern written all over his face. The moment he see's her sitting by the window, he heaves a sigh of relief.
Geet! He says angrily! Tum theek ho!
Geet: haan!
Maan: par tum phones answer kyun nahi kar rahi thi'.
Geet: kyunki mujhe bhook nahi lag rahi thi '
Maan: chalo neeche ..khaana khaalo '.
Geet: nahi '.
Maan: har baat pe zidd karna zaroori hai?
Geet: shayad'.
Maan: tumhari problem kya hai '.
Geet: aap!
Maan: main?
Geet: haan aap '. Subah se main aapse baat karne ki koshish kar rahi hoon.. aur aap ho ke' main aapse kal raat ke bare main baat karna chahti thi'
Maan: kal raat ke bare main'.main'
Geet: jaanti hoon' bas main aapse yeh kehna chah rahi thi .. ke kal raat job hi hua .. ussey mujhe kuch bura nahi laga ' kyunki ' main jaanti hoon aap kuch galat kar hi nahi sakte'
Maan looks at her confused'.
Geet: agar sharab ki halat main maine aapse kuch keh dia ya kar dia toh aap'
Maan: ek minute ' sharab? Nasha? Geet .. tum yeh kaisi behki behki baatein kar rahi ho'.
Again Geet has a flash of all that happened the earlier night ' and she is embarrassed to say these things to him again'
Geet: wo bottle'.
Maan: Geet .. shayad yeh baat tum baar baar bhool jaati ho ke tum pregnant ho .. par main nahi '. Kal raat ko mujhe thand lag rahi thi .. toh maine yeh thodi si pee lee'.
Geet: (relieved) iska matlab maine kuch nahi piya '
Maan: tum pagal ho gayi ho kya? Tum kyun peeogi? Aur tumhe lagta hai main tumhe peene doonga ' ( into his protective defending mode again)
Geet: nahi aap jhoot bol rahey hai ' kal raat zaroor kuch hua hai .. ( tears swimming in her eyes) issi liye aap subah se mere saath ukhde ukhde se hai .. mujhse baat nahi kar rahey hai .. aap ko lagta hoga ke main .. lekin main aisi ladki nahi hoon' maine toh bas ' ( she starts sobbing)
Maan: geet ' chup ' bilkul chup ' tum meri geet ho .. aur meri geet aisi waisi ladki nahi hai ' samjhi tum?
Geet: toh fir aap mujhse baat kyun nahi kar rahey '
Maan: kyunki ' kuch aise sawaal hai jinkey jawab jaaney bagair hum dono ke beech sab theek nahi ho sakta Geet .. aur main yeh Jhoota rishta nahi nibha sakta '
A thunder bolt strikes geet '
Geet: humara rishta jhoota nahi hai '. Main aapse pyar karti hoon'
Maan cant contain his joy '
Maan: kya kaha tumne? ( as if he cant believe his ears and eyes)
Geet: haan ' main aapse bahut pyar karti hoon'. Lekin agar kal raat jo hua ' uske baad main jaanti hoon aap ko lagta hai 'main'.
Maan wipes her tears off, and holds her face in his palms and kisses her forehead. And without another word envelops her in her arms and hugs her tight as though he would never wanna part again.
Maan: yehi baat sunne ke liye maine najaane kitne din intezaar kiya ' I love you too Geet '
Both of them have tears of joy in their eyes as they cant explain what is going through them at that moment' they just live the moment' making the best of it ' A while later ' while he is still hugging her he askes her'.
Maan is actually amused and confused'. " Kal raat kya hua tha geet ' aur tum kal raat ke aise peeche kyun padi ho'"
Geet is now really embarrassed, as she realizes, what happened the earlier night was just a figment of her imagination and her dream had overlapped with reality messing her head up' in a way she is glad this happened, atleast it gave her the guts to tell him what she had inside her for so long' just a small upheaval brought everything out of her.. she wondered why she had stopped herself all these days ' and decided never to tell him about her dream, cos she was too embarrassed at what she had actually seen in the entire dream!
Well what she saw is for all of you to imagine as well..!!
Happy Weekend!
Love,
niha
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