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September 14th 2010 – Personal Journal of Aham Parag Modi
God what a day! I thought it would never end! There was so much work to do but everywhere I looked there were reminders of Janamashtmi and kanaji's birthday…each reminder of kanaji made me think of Gopi. What a devotee she is of him, how much she believes in him. The day after our wedding she sang that bhajan..what a voice she has…hmmm why does she no longer sing that aarti..every morning I wake up hoping that I would wake up to the sound of that melodious voice.
I couldn't wait for this day to end so that maybe I will get a glimpse of her beautiful face. Preferable when she is unaware so that she doesn't hide it before I get my fill. How I hate that ghugat and pallu!
What am I doing? What am I thinking? What am I writing? *slams the mont blanc pen down on the journal and turns away from the journal as if to hide from his own thoughts*
September 14th 2010 – From the recorded diary of Gopi Modi
Kanaji, Today has been a great day so far. Every year it is an honour to prepare for your day. Today I stitched your vastra, made all your favourite mitaiis, other dishes, helped clean and decorate the house. It was a great day…kanaji, do you think Ahamji will like what I made today? Will he get that look on his face, the one he gets when he enjoys what he is eating? He never eats enough, will he today?
Kanaji, today maaji told me not to fast due to my un-wedding vows. But how could I not? Fasting is for the well being of your husband and your family. Even though he may not consider me his wife …in my heart he will always be my one and only and my husband. How could I not fast for his well being?
Kanaji, I heard all the commotion when everyone saw Ahamji…Is it possible for him to be more sundar than normal?…can you please make it possible for me to have a tiny glimpse of him in honour of your birthday? I know he is not mine but seeing him gives me so much pleasure. Just a quick peek?
I better go get ready everyone is ready for the puja but me! *secretly smiles to herself*
God what a day! I thought it would never end! There was so much work to do but everywhere I looked there were reminders of Janamashtmi and kanaji's birthday…each reminder of kanaji made me think of Gopi. What a devotee she is of him, how much she believes in him. The day after our wedding she sang that bhajan..what a voice she has…hmmm why does she no longer sing that aarti..every morning I wake up hoping that I would wake up to the sound of that melodious voice.
I couldn't wait for this day to end so that maybe I will get a glimpse of her beautiful face. Preferable when she is unaware so that she doesn't hide it before I get my fill. How I hate that ghugat and pallu!
What am I doing? What am I thinking? What am I writing? *slams the mont blanc pen down on the journal and turns away from the journal as if to hide from his own thoughts*
September 14th 2010 – From the recorded diary of Gopi Modi
Kanaji, Today has been a great day so far. Every year it is an honour to prepare for your day. Today I stitched your vastra, made all your favourite mitaiis, other dishes, helped clean and decorate the house. It was a great day…kanaji, do you think Ahamji will like what I made today? Will he get that look on his face, the one he gets when he enjoys what he is eating? He never eats enough, will he today?
Kanaji, today maaji told me not to fast due to my un-wedding vows. But how could I not? Fasting is for the well being of your husband and your family. Even though he may not consider me his wife …in my heart he will always be my one and only and my husband. How could I not fast for his well being?
Kanaji, I heard all the commotion when everyone saw Ahamji…Is it possible for him to be more sundar than normal?…can you please make it possible for me to have a tiny glimpse of him in honour of your birthday? I know he is not mine but seeing him gives me so much pleasure. Just a quick peek?
I better go get ready everyone is ready for the puja but me! *secretly smiles to herself*
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