Sid:
Question is, why are you bothering with all this? What's the point? All you see this as is an obligation, being with me is your compulsion, your duty, it doesn't seem to me that its your choice. This is why I am trying to set you free, I know that kindness will do no good, you will refuse to go if I behave in a gentleman like manner with you, but perhaps if I push you away then you will leave, I am not doing this for me ridzy, there's nothing more that pains me that seeing you distressed. No, I am doing this for you, because you have a right to be happy, to be free, not to be tied down and obligated to me. Ridzy you mean so much to me, what I wouldn't do to hold you close, to feel your heartbeat pound against my own. But I have to accept that maybe it's not meant to be.
Ridzy the thing is, even if I were to believe your attempts, to trust you, then how do I know they are genuine? How do I know that you are doing all this for me? I don't do I? All you have done so far has been due to your farz towards me. I do not want you to do anything as duty, as obligation, I want you to do it, to be there, to care because you want to, because you want me, not because you feel contracted to me. Is that too much to ask? To want? Perhaps it is. Perhaps that is why I haven't yet gained your true feelings. Because maybe they do not exist. And thus ridzy this is exactly why I need to set you free from my obligation. This marriage has become a burden for you, one that you feel you are required to participate in. But no more. Do not get me wrong, the last thing I ever wanted to do was discommode you, it agonizes me to hurt you, to make you sob.
Ridzy I Am Not Doing This Because I Hate You.... I Am Doing This Because I Love You, Every Single One Of My Heart-Beats Is In Your Name And One Thing I Do Know Is That My Love For You Is Not Selfish, That Is Why, My Love, I Have To Set You Free.....
By Tazzy
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