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Hey ppl,
Made this post to express Sid's turmoil at the moment and the so called majboori tht i think he s talking bout....
No matter how much i try, i cannot get the picture out of my head - U in Armaan's arms is like my worst nightmare coming true...My heart wants to believe you but my mind says otherwise...Once i lissened to my heart and decided to marry you...I thought, i will take away all your pain n suffering and give you a life you will look forward to...But you didnt consider me worthy enough! That was a big blow to see that you would rather die than be with me....
And this time, its yet another blow....Again my heart says tht i should trust you but you what they say...Once bitten, Twice Shy! No matter how much i will myself i cannot forget that scene...and how can i? It's Armaan - The guy whom you consider a part of yourself....for whom you risked everything, your life and your relationship with your father....i have seen wat he meant to you...i have seen the love you had for him...the passion tht u shared...the intensity with which you wanted to be Only with him...i have seen it all!
So now when he is back, only a fool would believe that you dont wanna be with him...n i think i am a fool...an emotional fool...everytime i asked you if you love armaan or not, u dint give me an answer, u signed the divorce papers n sent them thru armaan and then the whole lonavala incident...It pierced my soul, disrupted my life and shook the whole foundation of our relationship...Then how can i believe you? Its very difficult! When you try to mend our relationship, my heart wants to reach out to you..to say tht i love you with my whole heart n soul....every heart beat has your name engraved on it....and then my mind starts to play tricks...for a moment i just feel like forgetting everything and embrace you...but the next moment, i feel you've always wanted to be in someone else's arms...
The only option left for me is to be mean to you...to make you hate me...trust me, every word i utter, shreds my soul into a hundred pieces...its like me dying a thousand times over...but am helpless...coz i know u r doing this out of a sense of duty...i know your happiness lies with armaan n by being harsh to you, you will get fed up and leave me for good...i ve not thought bout the consequences...how will i live without u, will tht be a life at all?? but we can deal with tht later...i know u r here today to hold my hand so u can repay wat i did for u...but it was never a debt...n i hope u understand tht one day...i dont want you to be with me just coz we are married....i want you to be with me for the right reasons....Love me for a reason Ridhhima...Let the reason be Love!
- Siddhant Modi (The Silent Lover)
Made this post to express Sid's turmoil at the moment and the so called majboori tht i think he s talking bout....
No matter how much i try, i cannot get the picture out of my head - U in Armaan's arms is like my worst nightmare coming true...My heart wants to believe you but my mind says otherwise...Once i lissened to my heart and decided to marry you...I thought, i will take away all your pain n suffering and give you a life you will look forward to...But you didnt consider me worthy enough! That was a big blow to see that you would rather die than be with me....
And this time, its yet another blow....Again my heart says tht i should trust you but you what they say...Once bitten, Twice Shy! No matter how much i will myself i cannot forget that scene...and how can i? It's Armaan - The guy whom you consider a part of yourself....for whom you risked everything, your life and your relationship with your father....i have seen wat he meant to you...i have seen the love you had for him...the passion tht u shared...the intensity with which you wanted to be Only with him...i have seen it all!
So now when he is back, only a fool would believe that you dont wanna be with him...n i think i am a fool...an emotional fool...everytime i asked you if you love armaan or not, u dint give me an answer, u signed the divorce papers n sent them thru armaan and then the whole lonavala incident...It pierced my soul, disrupted my life and shook the whole foundation of our relationship...Then how can i believe you? Its very difficult! When you try to mend our relationship, my heart wants to reach out to you..to say tht i love you with my whole heart n soul....every heart beat has your name engraved on it....and then my mind starts to play tricks...for a moment i just feel like forgetting everything and embrace you...but the next moment, i feel you've always wanted to be in someone else's arms...
The only option left for me is to be mean to you...to make you hate me...trust me, every word i utter, shreds my soul into a hundred pieces...its like me dying a thousand times over...but am helpless...coz i know u r doing this out of a sense of duty...i know your happiness lies with armaan n by being harsh to you, you will get fed up and leave me for good...i ve not thought bout the consequences...how will i live without u, will tht be a life at all?? but we can deal with tht later...i know u r here today to hold my hand so u can repay wat i did for u...but it was never a debt...n i hope u understand tht one day...i dont want you to be with me just coz we are married....i want you to be with me for the right reasons....Love me for a reason Ridhhima...Let the reason be Love!
- Siddhant Modi (The Silent Lover)
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