Ok, I can't resist. I just had to write something about the "confusion" of Ridz. This poor girl (ok sorta poor girl cause in mean she is to blame for a lot of what is happening...well her silence is) gets blamed for every decision that is made. I mean she is just one person out of three in this chaos that is DMG. I am totally on the side of SidMaans and how they are doing what they are out of love, care, her happiness etc'I don't need to go into detail as there have been plenty of posts on them and I agree with all of that. But once again'the female in me...just felt the need to put on my black robe (no I'm not a lawyer) and play devil's advocate again. (someone needs to lol)
So as I have been wandering through the Main forum I see random posts declaring how Ridz is so confused, or how she really is in love with Armaan and it is "obvious" because she wants him out of her life and can't stand to be near him without remembering the good old days.
Well I'm going to go ahead and put my two cents in on Ridz and what I think she feels. Granted this is simply my view on Ridz and what is going on her life. As I said in my earlier post the question in Ridz's life is not about which guy to pick. She has already chosen. Her choice was Sid. (if you don't kno why, read my earlier post its long but it states all the reasons why I believe she has already made this decision)
My belief was only reaffirmed by
today's episode. Today we saw Ridz
alone, in the stairwell crying herself her own personal Amazon River (and that
my friends is a lot of water) she was not crying because she was angry or hurt
or even confused. She was crying
because she was torn apart, from the
inside out. When she received
those divorce papers from her husband, the world as she knew it came to sudden
halt, and then...it combusted. Those
tears were not shed by a women who believed her marriage was "duty" or an
"institution forced upon her by society" those were tears of a women in love. Now why do I think those were tears of love? Because if this
marriage was truly something she felt she was forced in by family or even if
she only saw it as a duty then the divorce papers would definitely result in a
reaction.The reaction we would have gotten to see would have been a women
angry at the audacity of her husband taking a step in their "contract" without
talking to her first. It would
have been relief at being cut from the ties of this forced union and all its
baggage and headaches. What we got
instead was a women broken into a million pieces.
So you ask why if she is in love with her husband did she finally find her feminist bone and make the statement that she was tired of letting other people (her dad, Armaan and Sid) make decisions for her? Why did she say she was now going to make her own decisions? Because I think in that moment she was not talking about getting a divorce. I think in that moment she was talking about having a confrontation with the man she married. She was going to stop making decisions based on what she thought was expected of her and she was just going to do what her gut was telling her...what her heart had been screaming at her for a while but she simply refused to acknowledge that she is falling in love with her husband (I still don't think she has fully acknowledged it). That her world doesn't make sense without him in it. That instead of waiting for him to grasp her hand and tell her they are united she was going to go and grab his hand and show him that they are already in this together. The woman in me was so proud of Ridz in that moment. She was finally going to do something. (I mean regardless of what that something was'whether it was ripping up the papers or signing them...at least she was taking action and not sitting on the sideline waiting for the emotional garbage to pile up on her)
But of course...I overestimated the
backbone of this broken woman.
Yes, she did have a moment where she realized that there are two parts
to a game, a defense and an offense.
But as she headed out on the offensive, she was once again overwhelmed
with all that doubt that has been accumulating and she started to shrivel. The doubt of whether her husband
actually wants her. I mean as far
as she can see Sid has made no inclination that he does want her, well want her
as a wife at least. I mean the few
times he has made an effort towards her it was always as a friend, or a
shoulder to lean on. He never once
said, "I want this marriage to work. I
want you. I want us." So as I have said in my other post Ridz
never got any confirmation that Sid wants her or this marriage. In fact, once again Sid proved to her
that he in truth doesn't want this marriage. I mean why else would he send divorce papers unless he
wasn't happy with this marriage...with her.
Then the last hit to her armor, the
return of her father. I think in
this conversation between father and daughter we got more truth out of Ridz
than we have in the last month. Finally, we the audience got to hear
first hand what Ridz was thinking, finally she blurted out what lies in her mind...in
her heart. When she broke down in
front of her father, she was no longer a wife, an ex lover, or a confused
woman...she was a little girl seeking comfort in the arms of the one man who regardless of the ups and downs of their
relationship was always there for her.
The one man who always did everything in his power to make decisions
that were the best for her. So
after holding in her true feelings for soooo long she broke down in front of
her saviour...her real knight, her
father. She confessed that the
world has gone crazy. That
no matter what she tries to do to get back onto her feet, this cruel world has
a way of knocking her off them again..and again..and again.
So of course this knight felt the need to comfort his princess..to reassure her that everything would be alright..that he would make it all better. And this..this is where we hear the true desires of Ridz's heart. When she asks her father in a confused matter.."How??? How are you going to make everything alright?? How are you going to make this crazy upside down, combusted world whole again?? Are you going to send Armaan away??? Are you going to stop Sid from giving me a divorce???" To me these two questions said it all. These two questions show the truth of Ridz's heart. This woman who was so crazy in love with a man named Armaan, that she ran away from her family and went in search for him like a mad woman with no regards to her life..was not asking her father to fix her world by bringing this man back into her life..but to fix it by sending him away. This woman who took the steps to the mandap because her parents asked her, because supposedly it was dictated by "society" was not asking her father to accept this divorce as her "true love" is now back in her life. But was in fact, asking him if he could save this marriage for her. If this marriage was simply a contract then she could have easily told her father that this marriage means nothing to her and that her true happiness...lies with Armaan. And as her father he would accept it...it may take time..but for her happiness he would accept it. Any father would fight dragons for the happiness of his little girl..even if those dragons were the beliefs of a rigid society.
So I leave with this..as far as Ridz's is concerned the decision has nothing to do with Armaan vs. Sid. The decision she has to make is Sid vs. No Sid. She has already found closure in her relationship with Armaan. I still maintain that the Ridz that came back from the suicide attempt was a new Ridz'that Ridz was and never will be Armaan's. Armaan's Ridz left this world that night she drank poison and for all intents and purposes she is gone. Oh this new Ridz does love Armaan, I mean he was her first love, he will always portray the innocence of young love...but that chapter has been closed. She is now on a new chapter in life and in this chapter the main lead is Sid...he is the one she is in love with. As far as her asking her father to send Armaan away..its not because she can't stand to be in the same room as him and not keep her hands or her memories to herself, but its because she sees the pain it is causing Sid and she doesn't want him to hurt. She wants to send Armaan away to help soothe Sid, to save him from any pain...cuz when he feels pain...she feels it too. So her confusion really lies in whether to fatak Sid and make him realize he loves her or to fatak Sid and leave him for his happiness cuz he doesn't want her...
Please do comment, but try to be civil'this is simply my view of whts going on and I thought I'd share it'
There is no need to bring in the SR AR wars'.i wrote more about sid cuz I am at heart a sidma fan'but I do feel for Armaan'but this truly was written to maybe get some of you to maybe see another reason behind Ridz's actions (even tho most of the time she's pretty much insane)
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