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Armaan
Stupid , Stupid Basket! I mean, can you IMAGINE that she did not hug me back? That she ran away from my arms and she banged the phone on my face with some c-grade dialogue like " Leave me alone".... baah! women! She has not changed a wee bit. Forever a little cuckoo in the head and forever a tantrum child..... sigh! but i love her and today when she was in my arms , i felt life spring into my veins once again. I don't think am even thinking about her insane reaction and her roadrunner act... am still in that moment when i hugged her..... I am back , Riddhima and there is no other feeling than having seen you.....i know you are angry and i know just the right person who will bring you "Armaan se bhaago aandolan" to a stop.... Siddhanth! I like that good-looking dude and am gonna cling to his neck until he forces you to see me! .....Dhan Taney! Sid would know for sure that why basket is so upset with me , after all he is her bestie! Wow! I sure am getting my life back....isn't it? Boy! I so badly need that reassurance. Everything is still exactly as i had left it , right?
Siddhanth
Nothing seems to be making sense to me right now.... It feels as though my brain nerves have been thrown into some deep freeze. Riddhima looked so dazed and yet so bothered when she came back to the house today.... i hoped and i .... to be honest , i dreaded that she would say something about meeting Armaan. But no... nothing ! And this wait, this anxiety is sure gonna send me to the ICU of Sanjivani..... just come out with it, Riddhima! Tell me what happened , please! ......darn! How can i ask her that question when i haven't told her that it's me who arranged the meeting. ......i don't think i can handle all this -.Riddhima's baby steps towards me and the growing love that i feel for this woman who is my wife....my conscience call that binds me to my duty towards Armaan. - is this how you feel when you are being torn into pieces?.......This is insanity! I guess love always is.....i keep clutching my heart to stop that weird pain that has been rising all day long but it doesn't stop.... and i felt my heart would stop beating when Riddhima asked me that why didn't i come to see her.... at that moment.... i just wanted time to stop.....
Riddhima
I can barely write today.... my hands are trembling and I haven't stopped shivering whole day long....i am not even seeing straight right now. I am pinching myself again and again to make myself believe that I went all the way to Poona in the hopes of seeing Sid and the man who took me in his arms was ... was Armaan.... Armaan. I don't remember anything that he said ... or do i? I don't know.... my spine is still chilled.....Looking at Armaan, it seemed as though I was seeing him after a lifetime! He ... he seemed surreal .... a dream....something that i was not ready for. It seemed to me as though Armaan had come to see me from another time, another place. I ran away from him! I ran away from Armaan ....something pulled me back into reality and all my strings drove me away from him. No, it was not my engagement ring.... it is my present , my marriage , my husband. While the sight of Armaan melted my heart - the very thought of Sid and my relationship with him tightened the reins of my soul.....Armaan kept calling out to me .....knocking , knocking but i did not turn back.... i could not turn back. Back home, Sid has been worried sick about me ......the second i realized he was in the same room as me ... i... i wanted to tell him that i had met Armaan ... i wanted to hear some balmy words from him but no... i could not risk that . What would he think of me?....i just want to go to sleep now .....and no, i don't want to wake up....i don't want to look at Sid's worried and loving face and suffocate in this strange guilt of letting him down always....and i don't want to tell Armaan that what he has come looking for was another time , another place and that everything has changed beyond recognition.......
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