ARSHI TS - The Thread That Binds COMPLETED - Page 22

soo finally khushi did tell everythng to arnav...it is soo nyc to see d kind of relation arshi share...simplyy beautiful..

thnxx fr pm..

update soon

Brilliant update!!

Lovely actually!!

I dont know which part is so good!!

I liked the whole!!

Please cont soon!!

arnav was finally able to make khusi open and tell him everything...and he already had hint about it

the moment she said it he was in pain which was unbearable for khusi...

she comforted him as no one can do...

she had decided that from now on he wont spend his life like this ever...she will fill his life full of happiness

Chote,

The oldest memory I have of you was when you were just born and was peacefully asleep in Mama's arms.Mama had been so apprehensive before letting me hold you  finally and I could still feel her telling me lovingly as she tenderly placed you in my lap to be hugely careful and cautious since you were my kid brother.

From that moment itself you have always been that.My kid brother but I don't know,how in all these years I forgot what our mother has told me to do.How from being the one to protect you,I become the one to be always looked after for.

Was it the first time you took the blame on yourself to save me from scolding when I broke the pickle jar accidently Or was it when you used to spend your whole pocket money to buy me my favourite dress on my birthday.

From childhood itself you have always been responsible.Never been the one to demand anything you have only given not only to me but everyone else.I realised it today,when I wanted you to come and demand explanation from me ,ask me how could I even think of doing what I had done.But you did nothing of that sort.

You didn't even question that how could I have kept on blatantly lieing with not an ounce of being regretful about it or the way I manipulated you taking benefit of the fact that you never said No to me and my vulnerable condition to bring that man back home.

You did nothing.You neither question my credibilities nor accused me for betraying your trust.But it doesn't change the fact that I have betrayed you.I had committed the biggest mistake of my life by trusting that Shyam Manohar Jha and its something that even if you forgive me for,I won't be able to ever forgive myself.

You know Chote time and again I have always found Nani staring at me with a look in her eyes that was completely indecipherable.But today when she came to know about what I had done ,I knew what it was.It was her apprehensivness of our mother passing the legacy to me.I saw the defeat that clouded her eyes today because her worst fear has come true.

I never told you but deep down I always wished that our mother had been stronger.How she would have looked past the betrayal of our father and ought to have decided to live for her children.I wanted her to be stronger without realising how emotionally weak I had become.

With my broken marriage,the truth of our parents and us being thrown out of Sheesh Mahal,I forgot that I had a younger brother too who needed me to be stronger. so that I could take care of us both. Being the elder one,I should have been the one to take up our responsibility.

But I let you took all the burden when you were a child averse to all the wordly ways.And you never once complained or expressed that you needed someone to look after you too. I was so busy willowing in my own loss that I never looked past it whereas you went on shouldering all the responsibilities wordlessly keeping your grief and loss to yourself.

I always told you that how your anger was because you haven't let go of the past without knowing that I had let these things affect me in the worst way possible.You faced the truth and accepted the fact that our father did cheated on our mother which broke her in a way that she only found death as her salvation whereas I never accepted it fully.

You grew up to the man you have become and I can say it with full conviction that Mama would be so proud of you.For all that you have managed to become inspite of everything and that too all alone.

The happiness I had felt seeing you carefree laugh after years,the happiness that Khushiji bought in your life.Did I ever stopped for a moment and reminisced why you haven't laughed so freely since so many years.

NO,I didn't neither did I ever did anything to do something that will make u smile like before,I never ever gave you the you chance to be carefree again.

And you know why I can say this because today when I desperately you to be angry at me for my actions and you didn't,I came to terms with the fact for all that we have shared,you never really showed your innermost emotions to me.I had been so fragile that you let go of your own happiness for my sake so many times.

The walls that surrounded your heart for which I was partially responsible too.The walls that only Khushiji has managed to break and therefore she is what she is in your life.You are truly yourself only with her.

My insecurities that made me blame you for giving Khushiji more importance in your life when I was the one who had gone on your back.It was always my underlying fear,fear of not being accepted due to my limp,of not accepting the truth even after you threw him out,of losing importance in your life that made me do all those things.

I didn't let you a background check on Shyam when he proposed to marry me.Because I hadn't wanted anything to jeopard it.He made me believe everything with his false words and adorations and I chose to live in that bubble he had created.

An illusion that I deemed was the reality.So much that I blatantly ignored all the signs that screamed at me of something being amiss.His being away for long periods or his avid reluctance whenever I talked about shifting to his home.

In your love and respect for me you never questioned anything,you didn't let the society say a word to me about how a woman even after years of being married was staying in her brother's house.

You considered it your duty to provide for me and after getting married you provided for him as well.I know as a matter of fact that even when you doubted Shyam's actions or his long absences from home suspicious,you never questioned him only for my happiness.

I have so selfishly have taken benefits of your innate goodness.I used to reprimand Shyam when he used to spend on me while I shamelessly let myself and him revel in your hard earned money forgetting how you have bled yourself to possess what you have,the long day and nights you went on working without even thinking of your health and you didn't even asked once for all the long list of bills that he and I indulged in at your expense.

Remember,I used to tell you that when you are in love,it feels that you will stop breathing if you can't be with that person.But it didn't happened with me because it wasn't love in the first place. Shyam Manohar Jha was a distraction that allowed me to live in that imaginary world which I had created around myself where everything was perfect.

The bubble had broken and it has made me accept truths I should have a long ago.You and Khushiji have taught me what true love is all about.Its not about flowers,gifts,loving words and being  romantic all the time which was all that man used to do for me.

I have seen the pride that always mirror yours and Khushiji's eyes whenever you look at each other,the respect that is in your heart and how you both could go to any formidable lengths to ensure the others happiness.

You have  always fulfilled your vow of always protecting me keeping the sancity of the Raakhi I tied on your hands intact.You have been the bestest brother,I could have ever wished for but its time that I become the sister I should have been.

I could have said all these things to you face to face too but the next time I come in front of you will the  time when I can look into your eyes without any guilt.

I don't know myself anymore Chotey and its time I find myself.I know you are always there for me but I  have to stand up for myself.I know what I did was unforgivable but I hope with all my heart that you would find it in yourself to forgive me someday because forgiveness is the virtue of strong and you are very strong Arnav,you always have been.

Khushiji If there is one person whom I have hurted more than anyone else  even more than Chotey then its you.My actions has caused you more pain than him and I am really sorry for all that I did.You are truly an angel that our mama has sent in Chotey's life because she has known how lonely he had been until you came along.

As I end this letter,I have only one request.Don't look for me.Let me fall and learn to rise.I need to do this for myself more than anything else to be able to face myself without any guilt conscious or regrets.

Anjali

 

There is it finally.!!!!!!!

I eagerly wait to hear your thoughts about this update especially.😳.Do let me know how I faired in showcasing her thoughts.I so wanted Anjali to emerge out stronger and finally stand up for herself.

One more update and we are done with this series.

Its already late but its better late than never. I am glad that she decided for once to stand on her two feet and be the sister that Arnav deserved. If not for her, she should do this for her brother to be able to meet his eyes without feeling low about herself. It is the only way she can redeem herself. This update was full of Anjali. I loved the way you have used the mirror to make Anjali realize what she has made of herself. I still can't believe that she had it in her to leave the house for she didn't do it even to be with her husband for whom she betrayed her brother, when Arnav threw him out. It goes on to prove that she has finally truly understood all her faults and its time she corrects every wrong she ever did. Wonderful chapter Anku. I won't say I love this chapter as I don't. The reason I don't love it because it was full of Anjali. She has lost my respect when she back stabbed Arnav. May be with the next update, you will redeem herself in my eyes too. Till then I would say it was a beautifully written chapter which gave Anjali a lifeline to be the Sayani Di of Chote that she once was.