MG FF: ~ABHI NAHIN AANA~ THREAD #4 - Page 64

Ye hai meri vada mai teri maut tak teri sath avungi
ye vada meri pyar ki kasam pe tuje keh rahi hu
sirf tum ho meri dil ki rani
teri bina meri zindagi hogi ek adhoori kahani
avo meri sath tuje le javung kahi dur
jaha sirf humari pyar ki kubsoorat mai tum sans lejavogi
ye hai vada meri pyar ki

She didn't even think a bit from this point. She didn't know when she changed lanes.. or she heard a loud honk of a lorry in front of her...or anything for that matter. All she could do is just burn in her own anguish of fake pride and self loathe. She didn't even feel the pain when she felt something all around her..hitting her... bruising her...making her bleed..things were flying around but she chose to close her eyes and let go! This was the end of all.

He drove out madly, trying to reach out to her. he still had tears in his eyes. To hell with him damn broken heart. he had to get to her. she was crying...she needed him and he will be with her no matter what. He closed his eyes for a second and suddenly every single moment with her flashed in front of his eyes. He didn't know why it was so... this sudden feel... like how they met for the first time in the disc...her dance, meeting again in the restaurant...their dinner date in Paris...his stealing away her first kiss...their meeting in goa, her not hesitating to follow him in that empty beach..their passionate moments.. how she had smiled when he had tickled her... sweet moans of his name from her lips..every little thing came back and hit him with a force that actually shook his entire being. He snapped open his eyes to get away from that feel when he found himself stuck in traffic. There seemed to be a huge traffic jam ahead. Everything was against him today as he felt. It was like a certain unknown force holding him down...preventing him from meeting with his jaan. He hit the steering angrily and decided to just turn around and take another route. He reverse geared but loud honks distracted him. there were cars and buses and trucks already lined up behind him...and he just didn't even have space to turn back. The divider was not near either. He couldn't take a diversion.

He felt so angry...helpless... anxious..scared and what not. His life was going away from him and he was here, stuck in this damn traffic!! It was like he was in such a position that neither could he move forward...nor backward in life..and so in literal sense. He honked and even screamed at people to move ahead. It was almost 30 minutes since he was stuck but it felt like eons for him... 30 minutes was too much of a long time. He looked around when he heard ambulance sirens, policemen take over the traffic controls.. people moving here and there. he slid down the window and saw a constable blowing whistle and instructing the traffic to align in a line. He called him and asked him what happened.

"saabji...ek bada accident hua hain aage... koi SUV ek lorry se takra gayi hain... time lagega clear hone mein..."

[saabji..theres a major accident ahead. One SUV has collided with a lorry... it will take time to clear up..]

He sighed and fell back on his seat. He cursed his own self... he cursed his fate... his heart was beating frantically...his jaan was in so much worry...she needed him and here he was not even able to go! He took out his phone to call adi and was reminded of her phone call that night. she had called him...she was drunk... she was speaking something... realization dawned and he hated himself even more to have been so rude to her... she had called him up to speak her heart out..and what did he do? When he could have got relevant details about her, he chucked her!! and now he had nothing to do but worry worry and worry till death.

The sun changed position...and slowly moved westwards. The traffic was being allowed to go slowly in one lane and there was a huge rush. They had to wait 15 minutes before moving one meter ahead. He was stuck in one vicious circle of life. he looked around and called up adi to handle things in office and check in Geet's office if she was back. He looked around when he saw the same constable speaking to a person. He called him up and asked, "aur kitna time lagega bhaiyya?"

[how much more time will it take bhaiyya..]

"pata nahin saabji... hum tho one way traffic allow kar rahe hain.. issey clear karne mein bahut time lagega.. pata nahin wo insaan bachega bhi nahin... kaafi nuksaan hua hain Suv ka..."

[don't know saabji... we are just allowing one way traffic now.. it will a lot of time to clear this up.. don't even know if that person is going to survive or not... lot of damage has been caused to the suv...]

Maan sighed and actually felt bad for the person involved in the accident, "kuch pata chala kaun gaadi chala raha tha?"

[do you know who was the driver?]

"mujhe theek se pata nahin saabji..par sab keh rahe they ki shakal pehchaan nahin paa rahe...kaafi chot lagi hain..."

[i don't know well saabji... but everyone was telling that face is unrecognizable... has been hurt a lot..]

"umm..theek hain..ye rakho...", maan extended a 500rs note to the constable for being so patient with people and him. he shied but took it hesitatingly.

[umm..okay..keep it..]

Maan saw the traffic moving and finally breathed easy as he steered through the jammed lane and looked to his right to see the shocking view of the accident. The suv had been damaged beyond repair...it was a head on collision. A few more cars had also hit the lorry..may be because they got pulled into the accident. Glass pieces were shattered on the road and he did see a pool of blood spilled on the road..almost making him barf. Policemen and media surrounded the place, covering the accident, photographers taking pics, people talking...he assumed the body might have already been taken to hospital and after that only, they allowed the traffic to pass. He steered quickly not to feel dizzy seeing so much blood around in that gruesome accident. Almost after 15 minutes of struggle, he managed to steer clear and take a diversion back to the city. He switched off the ac and opened the glass to take in fresh air. He seriously needed that. he sighed when adi called him back to office for some urgent work had cropped up. He cursed himself and drove back. He decided to just go straight to Sasha and make her spill the beans by whichever way she preferred.

It was almost 4pm when he actually got free. Things were getting complicated. He had been so much held up.. that unknown force didn't want him to even work his way out. He packed up his files and shut down the lappy, ready to get to Sasha and sort things out when adi knocked. He sighed and let him in.

"be quick adi...", he spoke irritated. He just wanted to leave all this and rush to his jaan.

He waited for a while but adi didn't speak. He looked up to see adi looking quite nervous and hesitant.

"what is adi...speak out! I don't have time to sit and watch your face all the day long..", he barked. Damn that accident... it ruined his entire plan.

But adi didn't know how to break the news to him. he had known everything about his boss...even his involvement with Geet handa. He was totally unsure about how to break out this news to him.

Maan was getting irritated with his silence. He banged his hands on the table startling adi, "speak it out Adi..."

"s..s..sir ", he looked around and saw the remote of the tv in his cabin,. He leapt forward, took the remote and switched on the tv,, confusing him all the more, "I... I think you should see this..."

He looked at the channel adi had turned on. it was some random news channel which showed some live news. He looked at adi quizzically who just looked down, not speaking a bit.

"can you explain whats all this?? I don't have..."

He stopped when he heard the reporter take that name, "Geet Handa..."

His world seemed to stop right there. he went numb as he looked at the tv as the reporter blabbered away of Geet handa being involved in an accident a few hours back and is in a critical condition. he went numb as the accident site was displayed in front of him. his brain stopped thinking. Flashes of him speaking to the constable, him passing the accident site... and the details of the accident being spoken out in the news just echoed through his ears.

It took him some time to actually realize that it was her who had that accident he was cursing... he had been stuck there... it was her around him all the time!!!

"...It seems evident that Ms handa changed lanes while she had exceeded the speed limit. Police suspect that she might have been drunk which must have led to this rash behaviour of hers. Nevertheless, her condition seems critical... is this an end to a Chapter named Geet handa??..."

"her face is unrecognizable...", rang in his mind. that constable had said that. this was so not happening. The reporter went on and on...as he clutched the glass of water tighter. Adi feared his reaction but was terrified seeing him so angry. He threw away the glass shattering it into pieces. He threw away the files on his table and just ran out. This was so not happening. He didn't even wait for the driver, rather drove towards the hospital like a maniac. He was so near her all this time... that bloodied pieces of glass flashed in front of his mind almost making him cry. His jaan was so close to him... tears rolled out of his eyes..what has she gone and done??

He stopped right in front of the hospital which was crowded with police, media and so many people. He pushed them away and ran inside searching for her. he collided with the ward boy.. he tripped somewhere he knew not of.. but he just ran for his dear life. she should be okay...she should be okay... he kept on mumbling to himself. Every moment flashed in front of his eyes...her laughter.. her anger..her cries echoed in his ears. he took a turn and stood still, seeing nisha, Ana and Sasha sit in front of the Operation theatre. He had the urge to run to nisha and ask her how did it all happen..why did it all happen..if she was fine or not...but his legs felt heavy...too heavy to even walk a few more steps. It took almost all his energy to move those 10 steps and kneel down in front of nisha.

Nisha all this while had her head bowed down and her eyes closed..as if she was in a very deep thought. she felt two warm hands hold hers and squeezed them tightly. She opened her eyes slowly to see his tearful eyes right in front of hers.

"Chachi... Geet ko kya hua?", he asked like a baby.

[Chachi...what happened to Geet?]

Nisha just looked at him quietly...very quietly. She had been thinking so much all this time. But she had to save her daughters..both Geet and Ana.

"Chachi...", he called out again not getting any reply.

"maan.. please leave me alone for some time... "

"but Chachi ye sab..."

Nisha looked down again and closed her eyes, "please beta... I need some time alone."

Maan realized either she was too shaken up or she was thinking something very deeply. He stood up and stood at a corner. Ana had rested her head over nisha's shoulder, crying silently. Sasha stood beside them...looking as shocked as everyone. But his heart was restless... he didn't know what to do..or whom to ask about Geet. all were just waiting for the doctor to come out and tell something.

He just stood there numb... recalling everything about her.. trying to feel her features by his memories... she had to be fine. She called him.. she needs him and she had to come back to him no matter what!!! He held his heart firm... but he couldn't stop his heart from breaking down silently... making no noise.

It was probably after centuries when the deadly silence was broken by the click of the door. The media was dying to get a news but the police stopped them outside. Very few people were allowed to come inside. maan was the first one to realize before everyone else. He was scared that the doctor doesn't say something inauspicious. He ran to him and stood on his way, "doctor..how is she? Can we meet her? she isn't serious, is she? When can we take her home?.."

Nisha., Ana and Sasha got alert seeing maan with the doctor. They also rushed towards the doctor as nisha broke down, "doctor meri bachi kaisi hain? Wo theek tho hain na?"

[doctor hows my baby? Is she alright?]

The doctor didn't look quite happy. He looked at those expectant faces eagerly waiting for his verdict. He sighed and looked straight, "Mrs handa..Please calm down... she had a very severe accident.. she has got multiple fractures, glass pieces have bruised her face badly...internal bleeding..i will very clear to you ma'am...she is in a very critical stage. We have tried our best to stop the internal bleeding... its only after 24 hours that we can tell anything about her.. her brain has been affected the worst...there are some internal injury as well... we are monitoring her..if she doesn't react to our medicines in the next 24 hours...she..she might slip into coma.."

Nisha gasped hearing those as she fell back on the seat. Ana and Sasha rushed to hold her. maan could do nothing but listen to all of it in silence and shock. The doctor was about to away when he stopped her, "what do you mean by brain injury doc?"

"well Mr. Khurana.. she had collided head on with the lorry...she had pieces of iron stuck to her skull...we are afraid she might just slip into coma anytime given her condition..it might also be possible that she might get paralyzed depending upon the intensity.. we can say anything only after 24 hours...it could also be possible that she might die.."

"..can I see her?", he cut in between not wanting to hear anything further.

"no Mr Khurana... no one is allowed to see her. she has been kept on the ventilator for the time being till she reacts... "

The doctor left, leaving all of them in a state of shock and denial. He walked slowly and stood by the OT door, caressing it, "ek baar bhi mere bare mein nahi socha na? Humesha se aisa hi karti aayi ho... fitrat hain tumhari...kisi aur ke bare mein khayal nahin tumhe..", as drops of tears made their way down his cheeks.

[you didn't even think about me even once? you do it always.. it your forte...you never think about others..]

It was post midnight and none seemed to budge from their places. Adi came to visit maan getting food packets for everyone. Nisha just sat quietly...saying nothing. Sasha somehow managed to convince Ana and nisha to have something while adi spoke to maan.

It wasn't 5 minutes when a nurse came out from Geet's chamber and rushed out. Before they could realize anything, a few doctors came running... looking worried..tensed..and rushed towards Geet.

Maan was shocked to see their worried faces... he tried to look out for Geet...but the nurse stopped him on the way and closed the door. He didn't know what to do now. His will to live now seemed to break just like her...how will he survive without her? how will he even breath the air that doesn't have her scent? But time is perhaps your biggest enemy. It went slower and slower and it took forever to the doctor to come out, looking dejected.

They didn't even have to ask anything. The doctor told them on his own, "jiska darr tha wahi hua...her platelet count is going down... she isn't even responding to anything...internal bleeding has increased and we don't think she will survive till morning..."

Maan was so angry..how could he say something like this about his jaan? How dare he? He ran across the hall and held his collar, "how dare you? You don't know anything okay.. I will call the best doctors from all over the world..."

The doctor was scared as others tried to pull him away. But maan held his throat tighter, choking him, "mr Khurana...pl..please calm down... we told you the truth... if you don't believe us..call any doctor and he will say you the same!"

"shut up..just shut the f*** up...", he screamed at the top of his voice.

"maan stop it..."

The entire hall echoed with nisha's voice, reverberating throughout.

"just leave him maan and get back...", she screamed.

Maan was shocked to see nisha react after such a long time. He left the doctor who went away with his team, shooting him glares. He looked at nisha who seemed to come close to him and fold her hands in front of him.

"please maan... chale jaao yahan se...", she cried.

[please maan.. go from here..]

"Chachi...how can...", he couldn't believe nisha was saying that.

"maan please... humare parivaar ko akela chod do kuch der ke liye. We want some privacy...i beg you please..."

[maan please...leave our family alone for sometime. We want some privacy.. I beg you please...]

"but..."

"just leave...", nisha was firm, stern and angry.

He had never felt this defeated in his entire life. The Maan Singh Khurana was actually tasting defeat in real sense today. Unable to hold himself, he thrust a punch on the nearby wall, making his knuckled bleed. Adi held him and tired to pull him away, "sir please...lets go. Ma'am is right. they need some time alone..."

He somehow managed to drag maan away and drove him to KM. Avantika was shocked to see maan in such a state. He just didn't even spare her a look and ran straight up to his room. She looked shocked while adi narrated her the whole issue before leaving. She hated Geet for her arrogance... she didn't even feel anything bad but she was worried about for maan. She rushed to his room and knocked, "maan..tu theek tho hain beta?"

[maan.. are you okay beta?]

There was no reply at all. She knocked a couple of times but got no reply. She sighed and went back to her room leaving him alone. She couldn't sleep whole night thinking about maan's condition. her soon seems so strong to the world but she knows how much he loves his dear ones and Geet was the only one whom he ever loved whole heartedly yet that girl dared to break him like this. For avantika..geet deserved it!

He probably cried the whole night silently for her..praying she was alright. She has to come back to him no matter what. He woke up quite late due to tiredness and this much mental stress. He stretched feeling relaxed.. but how could he when his jaan was fighting for her life?? he rushed to the washroom, changed and looked at the time. It was 10am...ohh how could he have slept like this? He wanted to rush to Geet as soon as possible. He rushed down the stairs, wearing his watch when he found avantika sitting in the living room and watching the morning news. He was about to go away when the headlines killed him right there and then..

"Chairman Of Handa Empires Ms. Geet handa passes away this morning...the end of an era!"

He stood there numb...he was far from registering anything that was real. The reported spoke live in front of the hospital how she succumbed to her injuries..the history and geography of her accident... the shares of her company being auctioned.. her family members refusing to comment... but he didn't have strength to even move a step ahead.

Avantika saw him and realized what he might be feeling. Though Geet had hurt him..he loved her more than anyone else. And who'd know better than her how it feels to lose your loved one? She rushed to him seeing him fall to the ground on his knees, unable to take that intensity. She hugged him as he broke down in his arms, "mom... why? Why did it had to happen with me? Uski kya galti thi mom... Geet ki kya galti thi..."

[what was her fault mom... what was Geet's fault?]

He didn't know what to think now? Was it even true? But hearing something like that.. he probably visualized his whole life ahead of him without her in that one moment. Avantika tried to make him understand but he stood up on his toes and decided to go to Nisha...but how will he face that harsh reality? His jaan was no more... he just couldn't accept it. he rushed towards the hospital and ran inside only to see police surrounding the whole place... nisha and all stood there quietly as her lifeless body was pulled out on the stretcher. He couldn't bear that site. He turned to look away... it wasn't her..he repeated in his mind.. it just wasn't her. he closed his eyes shut when they pulled the stretcher right across him.

"its not my jaan... its not her.. she is alive...she is safe somewhere...I have to find her...", he mumbled under his breath. He felt something brush across him and dared to look up at the moving stretcher. Her hand fell out of the white cover that had just brushed him...as if telling him a final goodbye. He held back his cry...his throat seemed to hurt when he noticed that ring on her middle finger that she always used to wear!!!

His entire world crumbled down.. shattering into pieces as he fell on the nearby chair, trying to forget what he saw.

"its not you..tell me jaan...its not you...it can't be you..", he cried.. seeing that lifeless hand move away from her. nisha walked away not even looking at him..and he didn't even expect that from Adi or Ana either. But whatever happened...happened and he didn't have the power to change it back to normal. She was gone...forever!!!

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He didn't even know when Adi found him in the hospital bench or when he brought him home...or when avantika cried for him... or what happened. He just couldn't forget her going away from him...far far far away and this time he just couldn't reach out to her. there was no GPS which would tell her location or any special team that would find her anywhere in this world. He just looked at his crying mom blankly.. there was no point in living this life...he didn't even have the courage to go to handa mansion and see her leave for her final journey...he was just numb..to every little thing.

It wasn't long when his phone buzzed reminding him of his work. He was the Maan Singh Khurana after all...and he didn't have that privilege to show his vulnerable side to this world either. How many days had passed after that day...no one knew..may be one or two... or five but his passports and visa were ready... his tour well planned... his life scheduled and he just couldn't see his mom worsen her health because of him. she needed him and he'd no way want anything to happen to him. holding the broken pieces of his heart in his fists...he closed his eyes, drifting into a sleep full of her dreams as the flight took off towards its destination.

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