CHAPTER 62
~~ yaar ainj (aise) luttna
madhu was unable to sleep tonight. she was thinking where is rishabh as he hadnt returned home yet. or may be she is used to the taunts and all that... without that teasing and taunting session she is unable to get some sleep. she knows he doesnt love her but she does... she is unable to tell him this but will he ever be able to listen to her unsaid words. she knows he wouldnt be able to and she doesnt even expects him too. honestly whats the use now... now when she knows that nothing can be alright. madhu was still lost in her thoughts when the door opened and she knew it was rishabh, so she closed her eyes as if she was sleeping. she saw rishabh going straight to the washroom and thought that now she can sleep peacefully as her husband is back home. after 10 minutes, mashu opened her eyes and saw that rishabh was still in the washroom so she got up.
Jeh main tenu baahar dhoonda
Teh mere andar kaun samaaya?
Jeh main tenu andar dhoonda
Teh baaher kisdi maaya?
Andar tu ein baaher tu ein
Vekhaan har thaan tera saaya
Main vi tu ein teh tu vi tu ein
Ratta farak nazar naa aaya
(ratta: little/small amount)
madhu : rishabh...
rishabh heard madhu calling his name but he chose to ignore her.
madhu : are you ok rishabh...???
rishabh : yeah...
madhu : open the door...
rishabh : go to sleep...
madhu : rishabh open the door please...
rishabh opened the door angrily and was about to step out when madhu held his hand.
madhu : oh gosh... what happened...?? its bleeding...
rishabh : get away you -
madhu : you can abuse me later... come sit...
madhu made him sit on the bed and cleaned the blood.
madhu : dont worry i wont ask you anything...
rishabh : its not like i would have answered you...
madhu : i know...
madhu went to her side of the bed and closed her eyes. rishabh sometimes did feel bad for madhu. he knows he sometimes get very harsh and arrogant towards her but its really not in his control.
Yaar ajj luttna haye luttna
Oh.. dil tuttna tuttna tuttna
Yaar enj lutna haye luttna
Oh.. dil tuttna tuttna tuttna
Yaar enj lutna..
scene shifts
virat was still standing near the main door and manvi went tback to the room. he was happy that manvi agreed and is still ready to stay with him. he is glad that now his baby would be around him but next moment something pinched him hard. she was scared what if manvi never forgives him... the mere thought of being far away from manvi and his unborn killed him... how will he be able to survive knowing that manvi wouldnt let him even touch his own child.. she would not allow him go near his own blood.
Log charaag jalaate ghee ke
Maine dil ka deep jalaaya
Log hain khaate kasam wafa ki
Main zehar hijr ka khaya (hijr: Separation)
virat slowly dragged his feet towards his room and paused when he saw manvi taking out a blanket from the cupboard and a pillow. manvi stood in front of him and was waiting for him to give her a side.
manvi : excuse me...
virat : where are you going...??
manvi : guest room...
virat : manvi...
manvi : get a side please...
virat : you can stay here...
manvi : no...
virat : i will go if you want...
manvi : i dont want to trouble you...
virat : i would get troubled if you go...
manvi gave the blanket and pillow she was holding to virat and he disappointedly made his way to the guest room.
Log gawande (to lose) dil ishqe mein
Log gawande dil ishqe mein
Maine apna aap ganwaya
Phir bhi mera kujh naa haaye
Mere sohne yaar ko bhaaya
manvi closed the door and went to the bed. she was too tired to think anything and crying... crying - it was making her sick... she wasnt a cry baby and she hated whenever she cried in front of others. forget crying in front of others she didnt even like when she cried alone. manvi stopped her silent sobs and dried her cheeks with the back of her hand. these last few days have drained her emotionally, physically and mentally. she cupped her hand against her flat stomach and covered herself with the blanket and soon drifted off to deep sleep, where reality is entirely left behind and forgotten.
Jeh main nadiyaan taa tu paani
Main taan bin tere suk jaana
Main taan bin tere suk jaana
Jeh tu paani taa main pyasi
Jeh tu paani taa main pyasi
Main taan bin tere muk jaana
on the other hand virat was looking at his hands... at his empty hands... he never felt so bad... today he got to know such a good news and he is unable to celebrate it. a bliss, a happiness knocked on their door and they are not in a situation to welcome it. his baby is now a part of her but he is far away from them. he wanted to live every single moment with his child but now destiny wouldnt allow him. virat was shattered now.
virat : kyun...?? why did it happen...??? we were so happy... so happy... so perfect... why did it spoil...??? why did it happen with my own hands...??? why...?? mera sab kuch kho gya mujhse... sab kuch khatam ho gya... sab kuch... i cant live like this... i cant stay away from manvi... i cant see her hating me... i love her... i love her soo much... manviii... manvi i love you...
Dil da lagna agg da lagna
Yaara sab kuch hai jal jaana
Na tu dhuaan naa chingaari
Yahaan kuch bhi nazar naa aana
the night passed and welcomed the rising sun marking the beginning of a new day. a new day which would bring something new for everyone but does that everyone includes virat and manvi... only time will tell.
manvi slowly opened her eyes and lightly grazed the other side of the bed. on feeling nothing, a realisation hit manvi. her world has changed and she will be on her own from now on. she reminded herself of the words she said last night and decided that she would stand by them. she will show the world that she is not a coward to sit back like that. she will get up and gather all her strength and start a fresh. she will be everything foor her kids from now and she will show vir- her husand that she is well off without him also... she doesnt need him and his name... she is not dependent on him any longer and she is capable enough of standing on her own feets... she is not an ordinary house wife from now... she will no longer be the manvi who gave in to every wish of his... she will be the old manvi... the manvi who lived her life on her own terms... the manvi who was practical and realistic.
manvi took a bath and wore a simple salwar kameez and stood in front of the mirror and stared at herself. there were slight bags under her eye and her face looked more plane and pale than it was earlier. she tired smiling but she couldnt and all she saw was the wetness of her eyes. she reminds herself that she has to be strong... if not for her then for this little life growing inside her. she has to face this phase of her life and come out of it as a fighter not as a mere loser. she will be everything for her kids now. manvi combed her hair giving a left parting and put her hair on her shoulder. soon her eyes were fixed on her sindoor box but she settled against it. she knew she was wrong but at that moment was anything right for her... no it wasnt. so manvi left the room and made her a sandwich and a black coffee.
virat didnt had the power to even face manvi but he so eagerly wanted to see her. seeing her face in the morning makes up his day and he is not going to miss this chance. he slowly went back to his room and was expecting to see manvi but she wasnt there. so he got freshened up and went to the hall. and there he saw manvi... on seeing her he realised how much he missed seeing her but her dull and pale face teared his heart into two halves.
Aaja khelein khel wafaa ka
Aaja khelein khel wafa ka
Yeh khel hai bahut purana
Yaa tu mera, yaa main teri
Hai chaukhat par mar jaana
manvi felt his presence but ignoring it continued having her breakfast. virat came and joined her on the breakfast table. there was pin drop silence until virat stopped manvi from having her coffee.
manvi : whats wrong...???
virat : its harmful...
manvi : its not...
virat : manvi coffee garam hoti hai... its harmful for the child...
manvi : thanks but no thanks... i am there for my baby..
manvi got up from the chair to leave when virat held her hand.
virat : okk i am sorry... have your breakfast.
manvi : i m done...
virat : i said i am sorry... please kha lo...
manvi : maine khaa liya...
manvi jerked his hand away and took the car keys walked out of the house.
Yaar ajj luttna haye lutna
Oh.. dil tuttna tuttna tuttna
Yaar enj lutna haye luttna
Oh.. dil tuttna tuttna tuttna
Yaar enj lutna..
manvi reached the hospital and slowly entered kasak's room expecting her to be sleeping but she wasnt. she was running around her bed and the nurse was following her and vanshika vikram enjoying this.
manvi : kasak...
kasak : mumma...
kasak ran to manvi and hugged her legs. manvi picked up kasak in her arms and asked her whats the matter.
kasak : mujhe ye medicine nahi peeni... chii itni gandi hai...
manvi : medicine gandi hi hoti hai...
kasak : par ye gandi se bhi gandi hai mumma...
manvi : aww... give it to me sister...
the sister gave the medicine to manvi and went out smiling. manvi smiled lightly at vanshika and vikram and made kasak sit on the bed.
manvi : cmon now... open your mouth...
kasak : ha ha ha...
manvi : kasu...
kasak : fir mujhe chocolate milegi...???
manvi : hmm... no...
kasak : mumma...
manvi : abhi mera baby hospital mein hai... aur chocolate... no ways...
kasak : par ye sachi mein gandi hai...
manvi : mumma kissey degi baby ko... fir -
kasak : okk par two two...
manvi : okk two two kisseys...
manvi made kasak have her medicine and kissed her cheeks.
manvi : mom why dont you n get fresh... i am here now...
vanshika : hmm... come with me manvi... i want to talk to you first.
kasak : no...
manvi : mumma will be back baby... just 2 mins... daadu hai na tab tak... haina papaji...??
vikram : bilkul...
manvi goes out with vanshika.
vanshika : how are you beta...???
manvi : i am good maa...
vanshika : virat ne sorry bola...??
manvi : hmm... sab kuch bol diya...
vanshika : where is your sindoor and mangalsutr...??
manvi : ohh i forgot them at home...
manvi lied to vanshika because something stopped manvi from telling her the truth... the truth that her son's wedding is almost on the verge of ending and that her daughter- in-law is so disheartened that she cant even think of wearing that mangalsutr and sindoor again.
vanshika : you think i will not understand whats happening... i do understand manvi... but listen to me D.I.L. you are more than a bahu to me... you are like my daughter and i know how much you and virat love each other...
manvi : maa i -
vanshika : its just a phase... a test of your love... aur dekhna sab theek ho jaega...
manvi : kuch theek nahi hoga... kuch nahi... (holding her hand for support)
vanshika : main nahi jaanti ke kya hua ya kya nahi... bas ek baat hai jo main kehna chahti hoon... iss sab mein... sirf ek baat hai jispe kisika dhyaan nahi gaya... mere virat ne ek baar bhi tumpe ilzaam nahi lgaya maya ki maut ka...
manvi looked at vanshika as she realised that vanshika was right. virat didnt blame her for maya's death all this time. he was only concerned about her reason for marrying him. he only wanted to know that she truly loves him.
manvi : haan maa... haan...
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~~~~~~~~~ this one is for aenna, aaru n abi...
Edited by naina927 - 12 years ago
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