MG FF: ~ABHI NAHIN AANA~ THREAD #4 - Page 8

She narrowed her brows but he just leaned closer to her ears, making her gasp with the sudden contact, "well that's what is expected from you right... Miss Geet Handa.. but you need to work harder to come even a bit close to where I stand.."

Before she could even catch her breath, he walked out with his hands in his pocket, greeting people who had been waiting for him. she just kept on watching him... how cold he sounded.. how he spoke with his people with authority... he was cold... he was a very shrewd person when it came to business and thats what she is observing about him now. She shut herself from everything and drove towards the resort... hoping she might get some peace there.

maan walked to his car and drove off. He knew she was walking behind her... he knew Sasha wasn't with her..but it was better this way. He would never let himself get hurt again...more than that..her behaviour with nisha, Ana and her own dad had irked him the most! How can one be so ruthless? she watched him drive away and sighed. She was reminded of the morning... nisha didn't even tell her she wasn't well...but what she didn't know was that there are things about your loved ones that you have to know it of your own..without asking for them. she threw the files on the back seat of her car and drove towards her resort. She was reminded of their encounter in the lift... things had changed so much. she stopped right in front of the resort and closed her eyes. That night in the disc flashed in front of her eyes... she had seen him looking at her and arjun... she knew he hated it...in fact even she hated arjun... he had always protected her but that night..he didn't. He never came forward...but alas...if she knew his heart!! she came to a conclusion that he did it because she broke the engagement...she hated things even more. She hadn't cared about it then... but now things were hitting her...slowly... very slowly that she never realised.

She opened her eyes and got off. The manager was already there to greet her and they walked in. She called Sasha in between asking her to get a new phone for her. there were some problem regarding the management which needed her attention. It was not that serious and she was glad that the meeting was over early. She looked at her watch...8pm it was. She looked around the whole place...things were kept very nicely..not even the tiniest of things was misplaced... she was very particular about it. she went towards the backyard which was beautifully done with bonsais decorating the whole place...filled with soft green grass. For some reasons she didn't want to go back home... she had no one there perhaps.. nisha and Ana were far from her...too far! She walked a little ahead and smiled seeing the cute white fences coming to her view. She opened the gate and walked in. There stood a small cottage...beautifully done and a small pond in front of it. cute round pebbles decorated the pavement. She looked back at the resort which was a little far away. This was their personal place...very very very close to her heart.

The maid who took care of the house came forward greeting her. she smiled and walked further in. She touched the elegant yet simple wooden door and smiled...so many memories flashed in her mind when the maid distracted her.

"ma'am...shall I get the dinner here?"

She suddenly had that innocent look of a child who seemed quite happy at finding something she desired. She cutely nodded a yes and took a tour around the place. A small veranda surrounded the cottage..with wooden pillars holding it high. She came out and looked at the moonlit sky...as beautiful as ever. Gentle cool breeze soothed her senses. She was here after so long... almost two years later! she took off her stilettos and pushed them aside. The soft grass tickled her feet as she put down her purse and sat by the pond, with her knees pulled up to her chest. The moon reflected in the water and she just kept watching it...silently, lost in her memories.

She didn't know how long she sat there quietly... may be an hour or so. She wasn't thinking anything at this point at all...she was just sitting there..blankly. the maid called her to have her dinner. She snapped out of her reverie and looked at her..she smiled.

"its so good to see you back ma'am...its been a long time since someone had visited this place..."

Geet smiled as she munched in her vegetable sandwich...her usual dinner. The maid sat down beside her...she had been taking care of this place since Geet was just a few years old. She had become old...wrinkles adorned her face but she was still there. Geet didn't mind that at all. She kept on eating silently when the maid spoke up, "she had decorated this whole place with her own hands... bade saab was so happy that day... she used to visit this place every evening with you in her arms...but see how times have changed... once frequently visited place now lay deserted and empty..."

Geet stopped eating and sat there still hearing her. she felt a pang of pain in her heart that had been brought alive today. She held herself somehow and finished her dinner. She had forgotten about it... so much about it. she looked at the maid innocently and asked, "mom used to be here every weekend?"

The old lady smiled and caressed Geet's head, "yes... she loved this place. I had never seen her happy anywhere else...if it was possible, she could have stayed here forever."

Geet looked at the white lilies that adorned the pond... sparkling like diamonds under the moon light, recalling so many sweet memories that are now probably locked in the deepest corner of her heart. she heard the maid again after an eloquent pause, "she loved you so much... you made her world..."

"..then why did she leave?", Geet cut in between, lost in her own world, "tell me..why did she leave?"

The woman looked at her so lost... she seemed so innocent today... she knew Geet's personality very well..but who she was seeing today was an innocent heart that had dared to come out after a long time. She had witnessed it all..she had been with her mom although. She sighed and turned to leave, "there are something called relations' and love' other than ego, money and success... your mom felt so lonely... i...I should perhaps not be telling you all this.. but she never felt loved'!"

She saw Geet oddly quiet..and left from there, giving her all the space to herself. Geet sat on the grass...the maid's words echoed in her ears...'being loved.."...what did that mean? Was it something that nisha did for her... or Ana... even her dad said he loved her... and even maan... did they even mean it? she was suddenly so loss of thoughts..there was no answer to these questions... she had never cared about such feelings and now that when she is here... she was being thrown into a deep well with no escape.

They say when loneliness haunts..its make you visualise your whole life in front of your eyes. She stood up and walked inside the cottage. A soothing warmth engulfed her as she looked around. Things were still kept the same... nothing was displaced even by a centimetre. She moved around, switching on the lights... the curtains, the decor, the feel... everything seemed to paint a vague picture of her life right in front of her. she heard the faint giggle of a little girl running around and a beautiful lady following her. the house was filled with squeals of laughter. She walked ahead, caressing the walls.. the paintings she hung had been her favourite. She caressed each one of them as she moved ahead and stopped right in front of the picture of her', holding a little girl in her arms. So many emotions hit her after a long time... she slowly caressed the face of the lady in the portrait... and for the first time in years, a drop of tear rolled down her eyes. She stood there, caressing her face.

"I... I..don't...", her voice cracked, "...don't even know if you are even alive or not..."

She took the portrait out and held her close to her heart, "I feel so lonely today mom..."

She felt on her knees, holding the frame close to her heart. a drop of tear fell on the ground... and another...and yet another... she had probably laid herself bare today. She didn't even realise when she cuddled to a corner on the floor but this time... maan wasn't there to hold her.

maan...'...she smiled whispering her name and recalled the night when he had taken her to his farmhouse for the first time... she had been quite upset that day..he had found his way to her. Her lashes dropped giving into tiredness but her tears didn't seem to stop. She was reminded of nisha running after her for food, medicines... taking care of her... Ana running behind her asking for help in her homework..and that faint image of rano playing with her. she recalled the time when she broke the engagement... nisha's walking away in the hospital.. and then another tear slipped out as she slowly dozed off murmuring, "i... never wanted to be like this..."

He finished with his overseas call late night and fell straight on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He wasn't sleepy at all..and all he could think of was their little encounter in the lift. She had gone so far away from him... wait a minute! She had always been far away from him. it was his desperate self who went after running... like a love sick puppy! He could never forget her coldness.. from the very beginning he had seen that in her. he cursed himself for even thinking of her... she shouldn't... he just shouldn't... he kept on repeating to himself . he had seen girls who could just go to any level to get what they desire but he had mistaken Geet was someone special' perhaps. He smiled remembering their dinner date in Paris... it was birthday and they were complete strangers. She didn't even think twice before going out with a stranger... nor did he. They were happy... oops.. he meant he was happy.. but things probably got complicated when he realized he had been in love with this pretty woman... the times they made love...being with her was perhaps the happiest moment of his life... so passionate yet so endearing! Then how could it never reach her? he shook his head and smirked closing his eyes...it had always been sex with girls.. just that he faltered a bit and mistook their togetherness as love'. he slowly drifted off to sleep, convincing himself that he was done with her...and probably he would never be able to love anyone ever again.

She cried the whole night... thinking of her father... she couldn't even see him for the last time... her mom..she cried in her sleep, dreaming of those past memories. She was in the zenith of her career but she lacked so much. her entire life stood in front of her today... and she can't even turn back. It was not that she realized what her fault was... it was more of her realizing the things that are slipping away from her hands.

Strange as it may sound... the more she felt lonely... the more maan drifted apart, unkowingly. She was lost in her own world... and he was lost in his pain but in all this.. the more she approached towards her heart...the more he drifted away from his heart. she woke up with a heavy head with the streak of sunlight falling on her eyes through the window. She stirred a bit and slowly opened her eyes, adjusting to the light. Her body ached badly.. she had been sleeping on the floor the whole night in the cold. She somehow sat cuddled up to the wall, still holding the frame. She hadn't even changed her clothes since yesterday. She looked at the pic and hugged it back again, "I feel so...lonely mom.."

She heard someone knock the door. She somehow got up and went to open it. it was the maid who had come to see her.

"good morning ma'am.. do you need anything?"

She saw Geet holding a frame close to her. she looked a little lost and then looked at her pale face. Geet shook her head and walked in closing the door. She kept the frame on the table and caressed it lovingly. She called Sasha..first thing to know about the state of things.

Nisha walked down the stairs towards the dining hall. She had been advised to rest as much as she can and not take stress. Ana joined her in a few seconds as the maid served them the food. They ate silently for some time when something struck nisha. she looked around the house and then at Ana who was just getting up to leave for college.

"Geet ko bulao..tell her breakfast is ready..", she ordered the maid. Geet was late?? Usually she is quite strict about her time table. She had last seen Geet in the hospital the previous day and knowing her...she assumed Geet might be in office or attending some party or stuff.

"ma'am..geet baby hasn't come home since yesterday.", the maid informed looking down.

Nisha was shocked... worried..she wasn't home since last night? how come she didn't know? She looked at Ana asking if she knew and Ana just shook her head in denial. Geet, however late, usually comes back.. and if she doesn't, it was always maan. But now she had no idea where could she be. She called up office immediately asking of Geet was there but was disappointed to hear that Geet wasn't in office since last afternoon. She panicked..as far as she knew, Geet would have informed her if she had to travel. She called Geet's number but it came switched off...thanks to her broken phone. She panicked..wondering where could she be. It was already going to 9am now. She suddenly stumbled upon a thought that scared her. in her own misery..she had stopped speaking to Geet..even Ana... and knowing Geet, she must be feeling so lonely. She recalled the day when she had accidentally spoken about her mom while dressing her wound...she had been so numb... her face was grimaced in pain..tears threatened to roll down her eyes... she just knew Geet a little too well. she wont say anything to anyone... well thats what she had been taught by her father... never to show your weakness to anyone and perhaps thats why she had shut herself so tightly from everyone. It was not that she had forgiven Geet for her audacity but her motherly love took over her senses... what if she tried something stupid?? Panicked gripped her heart as she immediately called Sasha but she didn't answer. She got really worried...as she called again and again when she heard a car stopping in front of the mansion. She rushed out, hoping it was Geet and indeed it was her.

Nisha sighed in relief as she saw her walk out along with Sasha. She looked pale and almost worn out. She looked weak. Nisha wiped her tears feeling so much at ease to see her alright. Her heart had stopped beating for a moment. She took a step forward to hold her, "Geet...how.."

She stood numb when Geet just walked past her, not even sparing her a look. She looked quite lost... nisha didn't fail to notice but then that coldness..how can she forget she was the Geet handa?? She felt bad..had Geet gone so far from her? she looked at Sasha who stood there, watching them.

"where were you both since yesterday? Didn't you think it was necessary to inform me at least?", she asked Sasha angrily.

Sahsa looked down, "am sorry ma'am.. but she was in a meeting the whole afternoon and had another one lined up in the resort. She had her phone broken.. it was this morning that she called me up informing me she had stayed in the resort..."

Nisha sighed, "she stayed in the resort the whole night?"

"umm... and she is running high fever as well. she was all okay yesterday. I just realized she was burning only in the car while getting her home. I suggested to go to the doctor but she insisted on coming home..."

Nisha was really getting worried now. She sighed and asked Sasha to have breakfast in the mansion itself while she went to check on Geet. she saw Geet walk towards her room. She ran after her, "Geet...beta ruk ja..."

[Geet..stop beta...]

But all she heard was the door being banged shut. Geet didn't even reply. Nisha sighed..wondering what she was to do now. The more she thought about Geet's strange behaviour... the more she felt herself as the reason for it. it was her who had not spoken a word to her for the past two weeks. She spoke to Sasha for a while and asked her to go ahead without Geet...and also added that she won't be going to office the whole day.

She took some food in a tray and walked towards Geet's room. She was getting worried about her... she shouldn't have behaved like that with her..she just shouldn't. She knocked a couple of times... but was surprised to get no reply. Was she mad at her? she didn't even speak to her even once... she shouldn't have behaved so rudely with her in the hospital. She knocked once again and realised the door wasn't locked from inside. she breathed in relief and walked in. She stood still... watching her lying on the bed lifelessly. She got worried and rushed to her, keeping the tray aside. She sat beside her patted her cheeks, "Geet...uth ja beta...geet.."

[Geet...wake up beta.. Geet..]

Her palms burned with her fever as she stirred a bit letting out a gasp. Life came back to nisha as she realized Geet was asleep. But her temperature was quite high. She tried to wake her up, patting her cheeks, shaking her a bit, but she didn't wake up. Nisha's eyes filled up as she placed her head on her lap. A drop of tear escaped her closed eyes and fell on nisha's lap. Nisha was shocked...all she could think now was of her wellbeing. She called up the doctor immediately and asked the maid to get a cold wipe. She caressed her head and kissed her forehead, "am sorry beta... I was being too mean right... just be okay."

She placed the wet wipe on her forehead and covered her up in the duvet. The doctor arrived shortly and checked her temperature and pulse. She looked at nisha and sighed, "she seems to have fainted due to fever and weakness... she needs to eat well ma'am. she is physically weak right now..she needs rest."

Nisha just sat beside Geet, caressing her forehead till the injection started showing its effects. The temperature was slowly going down as she stirred in her sleep. Nisha sat there the whole time...caressing her... wondering about the reasons that could have brought visible tears in her parkati's eyes.

She saw a little girl sitting on the couch and crying. there was no one who could listen to her. she was holding a beautiful doll in her hands, crying her eyes out. Her mother just stood a few feet away from her...even she had tears in her eyes, "just be happy Geet..."

"mom...don't go...", she cried.

He lady smiled through her tears, "shh don't cry princess... look at the doll I gave you.. she is always smiling.. no matter what. You have to be like her.. smile...be happy... and it wont be long when you would be dressed up as a doll and go with your prince..."

She cried harder when she saw the image of the lady fading away..and the next moment she saw her dad pulling away the doll and throw it away, "you don't need anyone's false assurance to live.. you will live on your own terms... you will be strong... I will make you one...you are my pride Geet..."

She looked at her father..and then towards the fading image of her mother who still seemed to smile through her tears. She tried to run after that illusion...she forwarded her hand to catch it...and then it was gone...

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