He was storming through in anger, when he saw her coming in... He saw her, when she started to speak with a guy, He went straight to her, when she looked at him and apologised him, and he started shouting on her...
Dev woke up with a jerk, by his dream, He checked the watch and it was upto morning.. he wondered to himself why he was getting dreams in which he can't see the faces. But he feel them to be happened already.. He tried to ignore them and got out of his bed.
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At the same time Radhika...
"Kanha jante ho... Main Dev se bahut pyaar karne lagi hoon.. Kya kare Kanha... I don't know if ever I will left crying through out my life, but I feel attracted to him as if I was meant for him. Kuch jyaada hi imagine kar rahi hoon mein, any way chodo kanha,,, I have exam today, please see that I write it well... See u"
Saying that she came out and saw sumithra standing at the door of mandir, for a minute she feared if Sumithra listened every thing, but for gods sake, she didn't and Radhika smiled and went out along with her.
Radhika went to her book and was studying it, Sumithra got the tiffin and feeding her in mouth said "Don't worry darling, Every thing will be fine"
Radhika:Just wish to pass maa, thats enough
Sumithra;Don't worry u will pass for sure
Radhika smiled and left eating two spoons having the book in her hand and taking the cell in other hand
On the way as she got into her bus, she called Dev and Dev who was eating hsi breakfast attended it 'hello"
Radhika:hello! Sir!
Dev:Hmm, tell, so hows ur preparation
Radhika;Not good
Dev;Listen don't panic, though its not the first time I am telling u, don't panic, U will do good
Radhika:Hope I pass
Radhika glared at the other girl sitting beside her who was coughing and winking
Dev;U will pass, any way relax this is just an internal
Radhika: But I must pass, I am not asking for distinction, but I can't bear a failure
Dev smiled and said "Relax, U will get pass for sure. Now forget it and revise those topics which u already read and then turn the pages"
Radhika nodded and Dev continued "How many times shall I say u not to nod in the phone. "
Radhika: Any way u will know na...
Dev:Hmm... see u
Radhika;Thanks and see u
Dev: take care
The girl who was sitting beside Radhika scoffed and asked
"Radhu, tere aur tere boy friend ki beech thoda jyaada hi understanding hain na"
Radhika:Shut up, wo mera dost hain, thats it. and now read
Saying that radhika was again immersed in her book
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As soon as Radhika came off from exam hall, she got a call from Dev and she attended it "hello"
"Hey come near library"
Radhika frowning "Why??"
Dev:Its an order
Radhika: My bus will go off, I need to catch it
Dev: Madam, ur bus won't leave until u get into it, now please come to library.
Radhika obeyed and went to library, but Bharka also accompanied her and Radhika didn't mind though and as they went near library at the door was standing Dev...
Bharka smiled and wished "Gud afternoon sir"
Radhika: Why did u call me?
Dev:Give the question paper
Radhika gave it and as Dev took it, he saw the questions and asked "How did u write"
Radhika:Very bad, but still there was chance for pass, I mean when i estimated it was 26 out of 50
Dev:But the paper, I mean which question did u missed
Radhika:i didn't missed a question
Dev:Then why will u get low marks
Radhika:U know I am poor at diagrams, I drew but still not that good
Dev:Hmm... okay now tell me what diagram did u draw for that question
Radhika:Dr. Now I don't have time to explain that all, I need to go
Radhika was about to leave, when Dev stopped her by hand, Radhika looked back and immediately jerking her hand off said " Dr. This is Library, and if any one sees I will be drop dead"
Dev:Then stand here, i told u that ur bus won;t leave
Radhika:But how can u be so confident
Dev:because, I too must board the same bus and I managed to talk to the Driver not to take the bus off...
Radhika smiled and then explained how she wrote the exam in the briefest detail she can, and then as she left, she motioned Bharka to come, But Bharka insisted that she need to go to Library and stayed back.
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Bharka was glaring at Dev who then asked her "How did u write ur exam"
Bharka:Finally u did remember that I am there...
Dev:Bharka, Radhika was so much tensed in the morning...
Bharka:Of course u will remember her tension, but why did u forget that How tensed I will be during my exam
Dev: But there's a lot of difference with urs and hers, any way leave it off.. Now tell me how did u write
Bharka:Good, expecting distinction
Dev: Thats great..
Bharka continued to look at him smiled and he asked " What"
Bharka: Nothing
Dev smiled and left...
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Radhika came into the bus and saw that the front seat in which she always sit was filled, there for left to back, and then she sat at window.. She was happy doesn't know why??
Then her friend Sanchi came and sitting beside her asked
"What, u are expecting for distinction? U are happy"
Radhika nodded her head in no'
Then she again asked 'then what"
Radhika continued to speak
"U know Sanchi, In my childhood, my mom used to come to school to drop me, and pick me up. And when i have an exam, she always used to ask me as soon as I came out from my class room, how I wrote, and I used to explain her in the most possible detail how I wrote, and after she passed away, i never had that chance. After these many days, I got that chance again"
Sanchi: By the way to whom u said
Radhika: Mere dost
Sanchi:Matlab Bharka
Radhika: hmm...
Sanchi:Jaante ho, Bharka ko na naam se bolne ki jaroorat nahi hain, the whole section knows the only friend u have in our class is Bharka. At least in ur sense
Radhika:Haan, because when I call some one friend. I won't even hide a small matter to them, lying was a distant thing, and even my friendship was difficult to bear
She heard some one laughing from back and her heart skipped a bit, she thought to her self "Ye yaha baite hain, ye kya bakwaas hain. Does he listen every thign I said "
She came off from her thoughts when she heard Sanchi muttering "Why do seniors board our bus now a days "
Radhika:Sanchi! Kya hua...
Sanchi looked at Radhika and said "Nothing, its indeed irritating to see seniors boarding our bus always"
Radhika:Hmmm sahi hain...
After that Radhika kept silent and as she boarded off from her bus she got a message from Dev "On coming sunday I wish to come to ur home. I need to talk with u"
Radhika frowned with the message and replied him
"Its ok... U are always welcome. But on what issue do u wanna speak with me"
She was walking when she got the return message "Nothing... I will tell u that day"
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Next day as Radhika entered the class she saw Bharka in a hurt mode, she doesn't understand what happened, but as she went to her, Bharka was on verge of crying. Thats when Radhika came to know that Dev wasn't speaking to her nor replying to any of her messaged and firmly asked her not to call him. Radhika know Dev was one different guy, but she was un able to comprehend what was happening... she immediately messaged him about the reason but the reply she got was that he didn't wish to speak with Bharka and also asking Radhika not to speak about her to him as he always respect individual relationships than Group relations" Radhika didn't find at least one percent meaning from it, but still decided to respect his decision and waited for him to reply, when there got another reply stating he will explain every thing to her on sunday. Radhika looked at Barka who was feeling very sad and thought to herself why Dev was doing all this?? but that day Radhika got other shock too... the way Bharka responded to all this Made Radhika confirm in her mind that Bharka loves Dev, that made Radhika feel devastated, Not understanding any thing she called gaurav as usual as she went to home.,
"hello Gaurav"
Gaurav:Hello Radhika ! Hey kya hua aaj morning tum aur mera darling donom upset lag rahe hain
Radhika always know Gaurav had some feelings for Bharka, she immediately explained everything happened to him and said him she was not knowing what to do
Gaurav:So, these rumours are true?
Radhika;Lekin, Sir Bharka se pyaar nahi karta
Gaurav:Can u say it for confirm Radhs
Radhika:I know about him, he never love her
Gaurav:If he loves her Radhika
Radhika:I don't think it will happen Gaurav... so I can't say any thing
Gaurav:Listen... I know u won't believe me, but for me I feel that he love her too... If ever that happens please promise me that u won't break down
Radhika:Gauru... i can understand what u are telling to me, but u know that I am one such girl who didn't have any hope in this. If my both friends love one other thats good na.. I will be happy
Gaurav:Hmmm
Radhika:Gauru! do u need to tell me any thing..
Gaurav:nahi yaar.
Radhika:U aren't hurt na
Gaurav: Dekho Radhs... U know I am light minded, I never expect her to love me... so I never have hops and when it comes to sir, he had looks, he's good and he had money too... and to the most of all he's a scholar. so no prob dear
Radhika;Acha then see u
Gaurav"See u.
Radhika felt happy knowing that Gaurav wasn't hurt , but at same time she felt sad for Bharka knowing that her love won't be successful
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Days passed by and the whole week, Radhika felt that Bharka was in a way distancing her self from Radhika, but she tried to ignore herself.. Radhika doesn't understand sudden changes in her life, but she felt that Dev do love her, but she on the other side, started to doubt that, Dev won't love her. and was indeed tensed. Many didn't find it, but Mrinalini was a way to observant to notice it and she understood there was some thing wrong with radhika and she decided to find out whats it...
On the other way, Dev wasn't able to come to Radhika's home because of his new gym programme, and he said that to Radhika.. she got a bit of shock from it, because the very before day Bharka said that Dev won't come. After having a long chat with Gaurav she sat on the bench out side when Mrinalini spotted her and approached her "Radhu"
Radhika jerked and looked at Mrinalini "Aunty"
Mrinalini:Kya hua, u look a bit off
Radhika:thinking of my friend aunty
Mrinalini:Friend??
Radhika;Actually I have a childhood friend, she came to me with a problem yesterday and I don't knwo what shall I do now
Mrinalini thought to her self "Sumithra aunty said me that Radhika will always seek answers to her problems by mentioning it as others problems. So I am sure its Radhika's, I will help her"
Radhika:Aunty, will u help me?
Mrinalini:Haan batao Radhu
Radhika: Aunty, meri dost na, vuska bahut kam dost hain, vusne mujhe kuch din pehle ye bola ki, vusko vunki college mein ek ladki, aur ek ladka dost ban gaye. Vo jaldi kisi se dosti nahi karti hain, aur vo thoda boyish type hain, meri jaise, aur vo abhi ye realise kiya ki vo jis ladke ko apni dost samajh kar baiti hain, actually vo vun se pyaar karti hain
Mrinalini thought to her self "Matlab, Radhika kisi se pyar karti hain. Vo koun"
Radhika continued "Abhi, problem ye hain ki, vuski friend jo ladki hain vo bhi vusi aadmi se pyar kar rahi hain aur , meri dost ko kya karna hain samajh mein nahi aa raha hain"
Mrinalini started to laugh and said "Tum log na, choti choti problems ko bada samajhte hain. Aise koi baat nahi, tell her to go and tell that guy"
Radhika had a lump in her throat " What I must tell him? How can I do that"
Mrinalini:Kya hua
Radhika;Actually aunty, ladki aise jaakar kaise keh sakti hain
Mrinalini: U said she was boyish
Radhika;Aunty, we may be boyish, but we are girls only na..
Mrinalini: I can understand. But she has to tell him some day
Radhika: What is he doesn't lvoe her
Mrinalini: That can't be tell by others Radh, it depend on her mnd prospective. But first she should tell him
Radhika:Thanks aunty for advice, saying that she left in, and Mrinalini thought to her self "Kanha, Radhika should get her love. Please bless it Kanha and also bless it was Dev. That guy loves her for sure"
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Dev was working with some papers in his laptop when he got a mail from Radhika
I know u are very much busy...
If u have free time continue below
Actually i started to write a story, feeling bored, but I am not getting how to end it. I need ur help for it doc. Also don't panic by reading it, I used our characterisations, but thats all not real. But I need ur help
story-heights of obsession...
Krish was doing his work when his phone began to ring... again..
Krish know who it was, but still to check it, he looked at his mobile caller id and then disconnected the call with out attending it. Then his mind drifted towards the person who called him earlier..
"Kavya, a girl whom he met on FB 2.5 years back. Then he was a mere stranger who had 24 mutual friends with her, whose request she added out because he was a medico. For him she was a girl to whom he sent a request by mistake, who added him. But one day his inbox peeped with a hi, from the stranger which ended up in an hour continuous chat. But the one hour chat was less of scrap talk and more of things about service, aim goals etc etc. They used to chat for some days, but one day he came to know that the girl writes stories and he himself a writer, took a look at her stories, which made him doubt her to be someone he knows from his past and kept her at a distance. The girl also became silence, until 6 months back, when she messaged him that she too joined in the same college. Out of interest he went to see her, when he found that she was some other person, and his doubt was wrong. Again the friendship started, but the girl whom he thought to be a brilliant was indeed utmost sensitive, who fears and get tensed for minute things. The initial days went fine, but now recently she was taking him as a mental support for everything, and was behaving like a kid,who pampers to her mom a lot...
Krish can remember her telling him once or twice that he makes her remember her mother, but he never paid any attention to it. but the recent attitude of the girl was making him a bit irritated. "
Sighing to himself he completed his work, and then called her...
Then he heard her voice very happily.. 'Hello"
"Hi"
"Thank god, finally u lifted ur call... U know what happened today,,,,"
Krish knows that this blabbering will not stop, he decided to relax her a bit, so he said "I wish to meet u"
The girl was very happy... "Very good, where and when"
Krish: Now onl, where its ur way to decide.
The girl would always prefer her home, she feels free to talk there, but shocking Krish she said that they will meet at temple.
Krish:What happened to ur home
Kavya:There's none at home, so...
Krish smiled and said "Okay, I will meet u at temple..." saying the he cut his call and went to change him self...
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Krish was reaching the temple, where he can see her, already sitting on steps waiting for him, she had a smile lingered on her face... He doesn't know why but when ever he see her smiling in her self, he can say some thing big is present in her thoughts..
Krish reached there and parking his bike went to her, Kavya stood up smiling to him and said "Finally some one remembered me"
Krish smiled and said "Its nothing like that, I am a bit busy, I can't help"
Kavya :I know ... leave it... so will u go do the darshan and come.
Nodding Krish left into temple...
As he came down he can see Kavya sitting seriously on a near by rock... He can't understand what happened to her all of sudden, as he went to her she looked at him and managed a smile.. Out of concern, he asked her what happened and she said nothign.
Kavya:So, why u wish to meet me.
Krish:Just normally... any way, so hows every thing.
Kavya;Yeah its all fine today.
Krish: So ur mind is also fine na today.
Kavya:Nope...
Krish: So what , now again will u stop talkign to me...
Kavya looked at him and said " Yes, I wanna stop talkign to u"
Krish:Oh... common, yesterday also u said the same but by night u again messaged me saying that u can't stop from talking to me.
He looked at a silent Kavya, who had a tear drop in her face, she pouted a lot, but she never cried like this. He can't understand the reason for her tears. He went to her side and asked her "What happened?"
Kavya looked at him and said " I am not good, don't talk to me'
Krish:What happened Kavya?"
Kavya looked at him and said "I am not at all good, I am deceiving u, and ur friendship. U should not talk to me"
Krish doesn't understand what was happening, what happened Kavvs...
Kavya: U should be my friend, and I alway should treat u as a friend, but I never treated u as a friend.
Krish:Did u treat me as ur enemy or what?
Kavya: I always used to listen to u, I always say every thing to u... why do u ever understand?
Krish; Its because u treat me as a good friend of urs...
Kavya:But sweety is also a good friend of mine na..'
Krish: Then why?
Kavyaa:Its because, I always loved u...
Krish looked at her shocked... She was having fear in all her face... He knows, she said what was in her mind right away, now how should he react how was he suposed to react? does he know... Nope// But he wanted some answers from her "From when do u have this thought in ur mind"
Kavya: From 2 years...
Krish:What??
Kavya: When I chatted with u, I found ur thoughts very mpressive, and later when I came to know of u more, I was always profound of ur behaviour... And eventually has a crush on u; I doesn't even know how u look like then, but stil I once wrote in my diary "it will be very good if I get him as my life partner.." But when I realised that I shouldn't have this on some unknown person... I tried to stay away from u... and doesn't know what happpened but u too stopped to talk with me. Later when I met u after 2 years, I was at edge of forgettign u, when u again re entered my life.. I doesn't know when and how... But I got addicted to u to the core/// that I found it difficult to not to talk from u. But its wrong, U always looked at me as a child, and u treates me as a good friend, and I know it well u have no such thoughts for me, thats why I thought its better for me to go away from u again... and hats why I decided not to talk with u. but I can't...
Krish:Now what made u say all these things to me..
Kavya: Its because, I can never lie to u. and I can never hide any thign n my life from u...
Krish: U know what my answer is...
Kavya:I know what ur answer is... its nope/// so I just wanted to know do u befriend me still...
Krish looked at Kavya and said " U doesn't know ...
I want a good ending here.///
Dev was literally shocked reading it. He never thought of Radhika that way, How can he when she loved Abhay, alot. How can he love her when he was already Loving Bharka. He wanted to say it to her last sunday when he go to her home, but he didn't turn up that day, He can't say it all in phone, he even can't mail to her. He thought to say her directly. But this?? Does Radhika love him reallly.. How can he know of it. Or is it really a story she wrote... But how come she even think like that, does he misbehaved with her in any way to make her think like that. Sighing to him self he wrote a reply, but decided to give it to her a bit later
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At the other end Radhika was feeling a bit relieved and a bit tensed too... but she managed to keep it for her self in the mng at college, yesterday following mrinalini's suggestion she mailed him her feelings but she can't tell it directly so she made into a story seeking for an end. She always knows how Dev gives things, he always gives an end to a story with whats in his mind. She doesn't even feel wonder if he doubt what she said wasn't a stoy and it was true because Dev is the only person who can understand her. She was all in excited to herself as she reached home and onned her computer to check the replies, and as she expected there was a reply from Dev. Feeling all the excitement rushing over her she opened the mail..
very nice story u have Radhs ...
and funny too. but what i write here is the truth. please read it and help me a little.
Krish -'' phewww ... this went like this? hmm.. i would have thought about it far before. the answer is quite complicated. you know something about me. only 'some' thing. i know about myself very well and its obvious. let me say something clearly. liking and loving have very minor differences to me. if somebody likes me, they may love me someday or that day won't be coming in whole life also. these r d only possibilities.
i know it. so ...
i made up something in my mind. i will like everybody who likes me and i have some things those are necessary for me to love some one. and most importantly i can love only one girl at a time. if i'm in love with someone, i wont even think of any other in that way.
so, plz don't think of me like that ever... u know that i'm ur best frnd and u r mine. so now i really need ur help. i know u were joking. if possibly i misbehaved? i'm terribly sorry Kavya.
actually i'm in love with a girl whom u introduced urself to me. i dont know how and why it happened, when i first saw her i connected to her. it happened like this all of a sudden ...
now i'm so much confused as i know i can't marry her, but i can't stop thinking of her. if i continue talking with her i'll open up myself to her someday.
thats why i stopped even talking to her. and thats why i'm not talking to any girl i know like before. my senses won't survive if i dont know an answer?
am i suitable for her? in her thoughts... am i worthy to be her man?
i cant ask these words by myself ... bcz i lost all the guts to face her innocence. even if i face her, i can't talk about this.
can u plz clarify this for me? as my best frnd ... just say her that i have feelings for her and ask her if everything goes well can she accept me.? and don't forget to say her that i can't marry her and this was the reason why i was avoiding her.
even if she can't love me back ... the respect towards me sholdn't brake. ask her what to do for that.
thank u Kavya .. oh its time for my gym... see u have fun.
Radhika have tears in her eyes and she remained in her seat for some time like that only , she never expected this from him. She doesn't know why she was hurt also, because she never wished him to love her, but still she didn't expect him to love Bharka. She can't understand why she was feeling bad, but she was feeling bad she can understand it. She thought of crying, but before even she cry she had a bit work to do, determined to her self she typed a reply to him and stood up from her seat , its time to call some one.
///congratulations Dev... bad luck for Radhika...
hahahaha kidding, just said it as a joke,
sorry for writing a story which involves ur characterisation as my hero, i shouldn't have written that... Any way I would never make ur characterisation as Krish in my story,because the Kavya of my story was always me...
May be I should have expected it, and I understand what u are trying to say,...
No one was at fault,,
Neither u nor her, but I can't tell any thing regarding her now it self, i has some thoughts in my brain, but i can't tell them to u, before she confirm it...
But i always say only one thign to u or to any one of my friends, love means giving never expect any thing in return, just love them as much as u can. and even if she doesn't love u , she will always continue to respect u. At least this is the one thing which i can say with confidence...
And u never misbehaved with me, and its my fault, that such thoughts crossed my mind. they shouldn't have... :-( i am really sorry for thinking like that, but i just tried to imagines how it would be, i shouldn't have done that.
Any way,
u are always my best friend,
my best mentor,
my philosopher,
my inspiration,
and finally my mother
I never said this to u, but truly u make me forget my mother some times...
So don't worry, I will try to tell it to her, but not immediately... I need some time.. ///
She now had another work, to call Bharka, for the first time in her life she had difficulty in calling some one whom she like a lot, but she need to call her. She had a work to finish for both of her friends..
"hello Radh"
Radhika sighed to herself and spoke "Hi Bharka"
Bharka;Kya baat hain bolo
Radhika: Nothing, kya kar rahi ho
Bharka;Just sat in room, listening songs
Radhika:Do u have ur room mate there
Bharka;Nope.
Radhika: Bharka, I need to ask u a thing, I already asked u about it before and I apologised u for asking. But I need to ask it now and I want a truth ful answer form u
Bharka:Hmmm
Radhika:Do u love dev sir
Bharka:Radhika! I already said u the answer, I doesn't love him and can't love him too
Radhika: But he loves u. (She shivered while saying it)
Bharka was silent for a minute and then continued " This went like this? I never thought it will go this way Radhika"
Radhika:Thats why I am asking u, do u love him?
Bharka: Radhu... I said I need to tell u a thing, Its I am already engaged to my brother in law. Who was my paternal aunts son. I like him and I will marry him
Radhika now got other shock of her life but she continued " Bharka, I always said u one thing, do what ur heart say. So now please tell me, the answer for question I asked. "
Bharka; Radhika, I like Dev sir, But If I has to choose I will choose the person whom I am going to marry for my parents"
Radhika:hmm
Bharka: Radhu, can I ask u a thing
Radhika:Haan poocho
Bharka: I always saw a glint in ur eyes when we mention sir's name. Do U love him?
Radhika:Bharka, Kal mein tere saare sawalon ka jawaab doongi. Ab mujhe kuch aur kaam hain.
Saying that she kept the call and then messaged Dev about Bharka's answer.. Dev thanked Radhika for helping him with answer and Radhika spoke of him about Bharka, but Dev also said her not to force Bharka and its better if she was lke that only. Then having time Radhika asked him a question " What if the mail I sent u was true doc?"
She got a reply from Dev "Still I would have said no, because i never thought of u like that. How can I, when u love Abhay"
Radhika remained silent and then having some talk with him she went straight to her bed, not before messaging Gaurav of everything what happened
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