PART 20
*Geets POV*
I was awaken by Maans discrete mumbles. His hands were shivering while he was sweating profusely. I called his name again and again but he wasnt responding.
Geet please dont leave me he mumbled.
Is he dreaming about me? Does he think i will leave him? is it part of his insecurity?
Maan... Maan wake up i said
I shook his shoulders bringing him out of his sleep.
Geet you arent leaving me he said
The fear in his eyes were replaced by relief seeing me.
Are you having nightmares ...again? i asked
His face lost it color and he looked at me with horror as he realized i am aware of his nightmares.
Maan i held his shoulders but he shrugged off.
Moving away i knelt before him cupping his face.
Maan look at me i said
His gaze was fixed down as if he was ashamed to face me.
Maan please i said
He was losing stiffness with my each word and before i could utter anything further he hugged me like no tomorrow burying his face in the crook of my neck.
Oh Maan i held him tight.
His hold on me tightened as if he feared that i will vanish if he let me loose. I gripped his hair massaging his scalp helping him sooth. I caressed his back letting him know that i was here.
its okay Maan i said
After few minutes, Maan was hugging me closely and his head was on my shoulder while his hand was on my bump carefully like he was trying to feel both of us. We were lying on the sleeping bag. No words exchanged except i occassionally call his name to assure him everything is fine.
All that mattered to me now is that he is feeling alright. I dont want to bombard him with questions and push him to the edge.
Geet i heard him pronounce my voice so softly.
I looked down at his face. His eyes were closed but he wasnt sleeping, i could say that. I waited patiently for him to talk.
I... am...am sorry he said
Maan please dont say that i said
How can he say he is sorry? Does he think this is bothering me? Well apart from the fact that its troubling him, it doesnt feel a burden to look after him.
I lowered my face such that our noses were touching.
I am always there for you, whatever happens i said
His eyes told me that he believes me, but he needs time to digest the fact that he has someone to care about him. I smiled and placed a peck on his forehead.
Geet he called again
It was as if just my name is giving him some internal peace. I rubbed his arms as if assuring him.
Very unsure Maan neared my lips and his gaze was filled with questions when he looked at me. Closing my eyes, i closed the distance between our lips.
The kiss was gentle. He was registering every minute of our tongues entwining together. It was very slow and when we broke this kiss it felt forever. I looked into his eyes and it was like i was looking into a kids eyes. So much fear, so much insecurities. I cupped his cheeks and smiled.
Maan pulled me into his embrace so tightly.
I want you to be so close to me that even our breath cant separate us he said
That was the first time Maan has said anything like that to me and i know his words are genuine.
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As we packed to go back Maan seemed detached. I know he is guilty for getting nightmares and i didnt know how to tell him that it doesnt bother me. Though i want to know what happens to him, i can wait to get answers. It seem to me as if this or the last time werent one of the few times Maan is getting nightmares. That worries me more. For now my motto is to make him feel safe.
I entwined my hands with him as we got into the bus and smiled at him pleasingly.
Did you enjoy? i asked as if last night didnt happen
yeah he nodded.
Maan dont you like being with me? i asked narrowing my eyebrows.
no he said suddenly not wanting to defend me
why arent you smiling? i asked
He took my hands and placed it near his heart.
i have never been happier he said.
we should come back here with baby i said
I very well know baby is the only topic that makes him happy and divert him easily. Maans eyes glowed when i said baby.
will he like it? he asked
he? i asked
Maan became 100% sure that it will be a boy. I dont know what is it that makes him crazy for a boy child. He is not against girl though, he secretly wishes that we have another child which should be a girl though he has not told me.
okay not he just baby he said
when we have a girl we will gang against you i said sounding serious.
Maan laughed and pulled me closer.
i will lose if i fight with you he said
did you see your muscles? i asked poking his arms
Did you see your eyes? he asked pointing at them
why?
they are so powerful that they can bring any man down on his knees he said
awww Romantic Khuranna huh? i laughed pecking his cheeks.
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When we reached home i was so exhausted.
do you want coffee ? Maan asked noticing my not so good mood.
please i said smiling.
I came back to my room after freshing when Maan was making coffee. I side hugged him as he was adding sugar.
smells good i said
you have become one coffee ghost he said handing me the cup and went to refresh.
When Maan came back fresh after shower drying his hair i was watching TV.
arent you sleepy? he asked
can you shift my red pillows and books to your room i asked
He looked at me as if i told him that he was accused of murder.
Geet? he looked unsure
what? i shrugged
are you sure? he asked
Maan make it fast i am sleepy i said yawning.
Geet i ... he stammered.
Maan i pointed glared at him
He sighed and walked to my room. I realized this is gonna be one of those few times he stayed home at night. Wait a minute, he often works over night. Is it a strategy to run away from nightmares.
How far has he been running from nightmare. This thought made my inners twist.
Geet come in Maan called me.
I shouldnt let anything affect me. I should be his support and help him out. I should know more about his past.
I walked into the room, Maans room always surrounded by his aura that made me feel warm. I climbed on his bed and sat staring at him. he looked happy and worried at the same time. He sat near me and hugged me sideways.
it feels like a dream come true for me to be with you in my room he said
I smiled pulling his cheeks
get used to it i said
He was about to tell something when his phone buzzed with Poojas name.
call you tomorrow Maan said as he picked up the phone.
He frowned as pooja said something and then looked at me.
she is inviting us for lunch he said
we ll go i said quickly.
Maan sighed and accepted the invitation.
we ll come he said
Maan mentioned in his diary/notes that she is his psychiatrist so maybe she is the one who can help me.
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Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
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