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Chapter 44 – Madno
Geet lay in her bed with wide open eyes. Sleep was far away from her eyes. Not only the pain in her back but burning in her heart made her restless.
Maan's words echoed in her mind and heart
"I love you Geet…bahut pyaar karta hoon tumse."
She sat up in the bed feeling suffocated and breathed heavily gulping huge amount of air to calm herself. Tears spilled out of her eyes as the words resonated around her
"Yes I love you…I love you lots. Pata nahi kabse par bas bahut pyaar hai tumse"
With dupatta covering her mouth to muffle her voice she cried her heart out.
"Kyon Babaji kyon kar rahe ho aap mere saath aisa. I did not want to feel these emotions but you made me fall for him. I always knew he was not made for me. He is like sky and me a speck of dust. I can never achieve him. I was happy with what I felt and was learning to live with this new feeling of loving him. And now, you made him also fall for me. Made sky bent on earth. But how is it possible Babaji. It is just an illusion.
Bahut Pyaar karti hoon main aapse Maan sir….I love you too.
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Madnooo
Mashukoo
Hai Dil Ko Teri Aarzoo
Par Mein tujhe na pa sakun
Hai Dil Ko Teri Justju
Par Mein tujhe na pa sakun
Main hoon Shab tu Subah
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Main hoon Lab tu dua
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Madnoo
Mashukoo
Dilbaro
Madno re
But I am not right for you. Aapke layak nahi hoon main Maan sir. Aapne to keh diya par mein aapse nahi keh sakti…nahi keh sakti ki I love you too.
Meri phuti kismet ka saya bhi mein aap par nahi padne de sakti. Agar meri wajah se aap ko koi takleef hui toh…..nahi nahi aisa nahi ho sakta.
But Maan sir ne kaha that he will never pressurise me. Aur itna toh jaanti hoon mein ki woh apne asulon ke pakke hain. Lekin phir bhi, how can I meet his eye after knowing what he feels for me? Lekin unse dur…itna dur ki unhein dekh bhi nahi paun….mein yeh kaise karungi…mein kya karoon….mein kya karoon…Babaji koi rah to sujhaiye…mein kya karoon..."
Geet joined back office after two days leave. Her back was healing and now she was able to move without too much pain. Meanwhile Maan had called up Meera to ensure Geet was taking all her medicines. Geet had also asked Meera to call up Maan and find out how he was doing. But even after knowing that he was ok and joined office next day itself, she could not stop the little excitement she felt as she stepped inside KC after two days.
"Pata nahi who akise honge. Apna khyal rakhna toh unhein aata hi nahi."
Geet sat in her cabin waiting for Maan to come. It was 10:00 and he was not in.
"Why is he not here? I hope he is ok."
Finally giving up, she tried to slow down her restless heart by looking at her emails and actually getting some work done. It was then that she noticed his calendar which marked a client appointment at site.
"Dusht kahin ke…site pe jaane ki kya zaroorat thi. Dekha Babaji aapne. He is not well but he has gone to site in this hot weather."
Maan walked back eager to see Geet after two days. He had resisted temptation to meet her or talk to her in last two days and his heart skipped a beat as he saw her pacing and muttering in the cabin.
Just as he entered his cabin, she turned and their eyes met through the glass window. None could force their gaze away but slowly Geet's eyes travelled to the bandage on his forehead. Her concern overpowered her and he saw her hurrying towards his cabin.
"Did you go to the doctor? Bahut dard ho raha hai na….did he give you medicines for pain? Did you have them and have you eaten the breakfast. You didn't come to meet Anu also and I am sure you must be quite sick to miss meeting her. Ab kaisi hai aapki tabiyat?"
Maan just smiled at the barrage of her questions.
"Pagli….apna haq samajhti hai…jatati hai par phir bhi bas accept nahi karegi."
"Geet I am fine. Don't take so much tension. I did not come to meet Anu because I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable. I wanted you to give time to absorb what I said and be ready to continue being my friend without feeling award.
How are you now? Feeling better?"
Geet was unarmed by his frank acceptance of their mutual feelings like this. There was no hiding, no hesitation just a plain acceptance. They loved each other and they both knew it. They were still friends because Geet was not ready for it and they both knew that too. What could she say to such frankness, such expression of love where other person is ready to just wait and be with you selflessly.
Not able to control her emotions, she went away, running to the staircase She sat on a stair muffling her sobs.
"How can I be with him every day and see him waiting for me, caring for me like this knowing fully well that I should not reciprocate this love. How can I Babaji?
No, it is not fair. Maan sir has to forget me. There is nothing more worthwhile in my life other than to love him but there is nothing more worthless in his life to just wait for me. He deserves someone who is his equal. He is not even thinking about Daadima Babaji. If she found out about this then? She saved my life and I have backstabbed her. She will curse the day I came in her life.
I am alone but Maan sir is not. He has family and stature. I cannot let his name or his relations be stained because of me.
I have to go away. This is the only way. If we continue to see each other and be in each other's life then how will he move on? If not today then tomorrow dadimaa will find out. I can't let that happen.
Aapse dur rah kar jeena maut se battar hai Maan sir. Par aapke liye mein seh loongi."
Kai khawaab dil tujhko le kar sajaye
Per khauf yeh bhi kahin per sataye
Gar yeh bhi tutee to phir hoga kya re
Mujhe raas aati hai khushiyan kahan re
Kyun dil ko dukhana bewajah Madno re
Kyun dil ko dukhana bewajah
Phir aansu bahana Ek Dafa
Phir aansu bahana Ek Dafa
Main hoon Shab tu Subah
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Main hoon Lab tu dua
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Madnoo
Mashukoo
Dilbaro
Madnoo re
Wiping her tears and with new determination Geet walked back. She avoided meeting him again unless in presence of others. Her heart bled but she had made herself strong for him.
Maan saw changes in her behaviour but let it pass thinking she needs more time to come to terms with their relationship and feelings.
From that day Geet started actively looking for a new job and house where she could move with Meera and Anu.
10 Days Later
Maan finished his meeting with director of "Sphere Landscapes" signing landscaping contract for next KC project. He shook hands and walked outside to the glass elevator as director followed thanking him again for his time and agreeing for the meeting on such a short notice. As he nodded his head to what director was saying he was stunned to see Geet sitting along with few more girls on one of the floors.
Maan immediately pressed the stop button.
"Mr Aggarwal, what are these girls doing here?"
Mr Aggarwal had no clue who those girls were and why Maan was interested in them. He turned to his PA who told that they were here for interview of some secretary posts to senior staff.
Maan punched the floor number they had passed
"Excuse me Mr Aggarwal; I will go on my own from here."
Mr Aggarwal wanted to protest but just nodded deciding to keep an eye from afar as he noticed Maan's clenched fists and pursed lips.
Geet fidgeted and gulped her saliva in nervousness. After lot of thought, only way to get out of this predicament seemed to be finding another job as first step. So here she was for her interview but she was nervous as hell. Suddenly, her remaining calmness also disappeared as she found Maan sir standing in front of her. If looks could burn, Geet knew she would have turned into ashes.
She stood up and asked in a stuttering voice
"S.i..r…aap yahan"
"What are you doing here?"
"Sir woh…woh"
Geet buckled at the painful look on his face. It almost seemed to say that he was shattered and her own eyes filled up.
"Sir"
But not able to see those tears welling up or control his own emotions, Maan just turned and walked away with Geet running after him. They both reached underground parking with her shouting from behind "Sir...please rukiye…meri baat toh suniye…sir"
Suddenly she tripped as her foot stuck in the crack on the floor. One moment she felt herself falling in front and in other moment being steadied by Maan.
She was already breathing hard due to running and Maan almost melted feeling her rugged breath on his neck. Her knees felt week as she inhaled his spicy masculine aroma. Just for a moment she forgot everything and gave into temptation of leaning into crook of his neck. Maan felt her struggling to keep her control and his own hands tightened around her, assuring her of his presence….his support. World stilled as they bought tried to calm themselves. After what felt like eons she looked up to meet his complaining eyes.
Tu hi to har pal bandha hai
Lamhoo ki in zanjeeron main
Tu hi to har dum raha hai
Khawabo ki har tabeeron mein
Tu hi to har din dikha hai
Dundhli ya ujali tasveeron mein
Teri hi to hai khushboo
Mujhe mein haan madno re
Teri hi to hai khushboo
Mujhe mein haan
Abb tu hi to harsu Har jagah
Abb tu hi to harsu Har jagah
Madnoo
Mashukoo
Dilbaro
Madnoo re
Her eyes filled up again seeing his anguish. With lot of "haq" they were telling her that she was wrong to bring this distance between them. Her heart squeezed in pain – "Har taraf se haar uski hi thi."
Haan tera saaaya to mein hoon
Par sang tere na reh sakhun
Haan Iss safar mein to mein hoon
Par sang tere na ruk sakun
Main hoon Shab tu Subah
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Main hoon Lab tu dua
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Madnoo
Mashukoo
Dilbaro
Madnoo re
Mahiya ve
Mahiya ve
Mahiya ve
Precap - Bichadan
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
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