MG FF- PARINEETA THREAD 11 - Page 37

Awesome update
loved it ❤️

Aish cant wait for next part

am eagerly waiting for the next part!!!!

nice update please kittu ko kuch mat hone dena warna firse geet toot jayegi😭 waiting for the next update

i forget what is happening in my surrounding while reading dis update...too much emotional and painful...
kittu ko ku6 ho gya to she will be shattered again..
maan is realizing d depth of her pain...
awesome...

amazing beautifull update dear...

Ishq ko samjha ibaadat, kya yeh uski saza hai

Zindagi bhi to nahin, phir kya yeh qaza hai

Dil bekas aarzuon ka hai jeeta jaagta mazaar

Pukara tumko aur phir roye hum zaar zaar

(By anu di )

Maan looked at her...his guess was correct. She did see kittu as her own baby. He felt so chocked. He didn't know how to console her at this stage... he didn't know how to hold himself as of now too. Everything was happening too fast...he just prayed nothing happened to kittu...he just hoped kittu was safe..he wouldn't be able to see geet broken again. She had opened her heart to him for the very first time today...she had lowered the barrier for him today...he had seen love in her eyes today...he didn't want it to vanish so easily. Kittu was her life...he just prayed he was fine.

She sat by kittu the entire time, caressing its frail body. Kittu had even stopped moving totally...but what confirmed his survival was the slow rising and falling of his tummy...very slow. Geet cocooned him in her arms...just like the day she had found him for the first time and kept it close to her heart. Maan couldn't have seen her so upset...she had just let herself out... and she was already being pushed away. He went closer and sat beside her.

"geet...", he called out to her softly.

She rested her head on his shoulder and a tear slipped out of her eyes.

"maan... kittu theek ho jayega na?"

[maan...will kittu be okay?]

He didn't know what to answer. Kittu looked so pale and lifeless and he had seen how much she loved kittu...how much she cared for him. he wrapped his hand around her and held her protectively in his embrace. She had somewhere deep down accepted him...its just the matter of time. She completely leaned over him, looking at kittu. Her eyes were teary but she never cried. But she did feel a bit of restlessness...like she had also faced similar kind of situation before. They just sat there like that... in silent and she remained in his arms.

The clock struck 9 when maan finally realized it was night already. He saw her still in his arms, holding kittu in her embrace. He checked on her...and then at kittu... it was strange to see his breathing go even slower. May be it were the antibiotics...because antibiotics do make you weak in their course of action. He gently pulled away his hand that embraced her...it had become numb. She instantly looked at him with a question on her face...as if she didn't like him moving away. He cupped her face, "be here... I will get something to eat..."

He turned to leave when she held his hand. He looked back to see her shaking her head for a no. He leaned forward and kissed her cheek, "you need to eat something geet... I will make hot chocolate for you later okay..."

He gently slid his hand and went to the kitchen and looked at the stuffs. He knew geet would refuse to eat...but then he thought of making something simple. He made simple vegetable sandwiches and kept the milk on the gas and walked to her. he forwarded her the plate but she refused. He sighed and sat beside her again. He took her in his embrace and fed her. she did eat a bite or two but then she couldn't seeing her kittu so lifeless. Maan sighed and had a bite. He brought her hot chocolate...the only thing that she took into her tummy completely.

"geet...let kittu sleep comfortably... and tum bhi thodi der so jao..."

[geet...let kittu sleep comfortably...and even you sleep for a while...]

"No...i don't want to go...", she refused immediately and took kittu to their bedroom. She sat on the bed, holding the baby in her arms... she didn't know why but she was just too restless... like she had felt something like this before...something similar. Maan followed and saw her sit on the bed. He took kittu's basket and placed it in front of her, "geet...sweety please...let him lie down comfortably..."

She looked at him like a kid being asked to let go of his favourite toy. She placed kittu in his basket and covered him, though reluctantly and sat beside it, watching him over.

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The night had been longer than usual... slower than usual and that restlessness within her had no end. It was as if something very precious to her is being snatched away once again and she wasn't able to do anything. Sadly, she wasn't even able to recollect what was that first thing.

Maan woke up late...he didn't even know how long he had stayed up, watching over kittu and geet..and when he had just dozed off, sitting beside her. the first thing he did was to check on her. she had slept off, sitting beside kittu's basket. He sighed...and let her sleep. She had been just too restless the entire night. he checked on kittu... and didn't find anything abnormal, except his slow breathing, which he had noticed the previous night.

He freshened up and went out to see Maria already there, preparing breakfast. He asked her to retire once she was done with the food and the basic household chores. He went and checked on geet...she was still asleep. It was going to be 11 am. He sighed and went to his study to check on some office matters—the only way to keep himself distracted from everything happening right now. He just hoped kittu was fine.

He heard some footsteps in the room and ran to check. Geet was up...and she was so much panicking. She rushed to the washroom and freshened up...how could she sleep like that when her baby was in so much pain? She wan mad at herself... she didn't even bother to look where she was going. She tripped but managed to hold herself and ran to the kitchen. She took out some milk and checked its temperature...it was normal...neither hot, nor cold! She did as per the vet's instructions. She added medicine in the milk and filled it in kittu's bottle and ran back to him. she took him in her arms and kissed its head, "kittu.. open your eyes bacha... see mamma is here na... why are you so angry on her?"

Maan just watched her from afar... if he wanted...could he have stopped her? no.. he just wanted her to unleash every emotion that she had held back till date. He just observed her silently. He saw her getting worried at kittu not sucking milk from the bottle...she tried again, trying to wake him up...but her every try went in vain. Neither kittu moved, nor did it suck in the milk. Geet, seeing no success, rushed and brought some clean cotton. She dipped it in the milk and squeezed it into kittu's mouth. A few drops went in while the rest just flowed out. Her world suddenly seemed to come to an end. She just couldn't think of anything wrong at this moment... she just didn't want to. She tried to check it pulse... it was very very faint. The doctor did say to get kittu after monitoring him 24 hours... but she didn't have it in her to sit back and watch kittu going far away from her.

"Maaannn...", she screamed out in pain. He was right there. His heart bled to hear her painful cry and ran to her.

"maan...dekho na... kittu is not responding to me... lets take it to the doctor please...", she sobbed.

Maan held her shoulders, "geet...geet...relax... just relax..."

"nahi... mera kittu.. maan le chalo na please..."

[no...my kittu... maan please take us na...]

He cupped her face and made her still, "shhh...kittu will be fine. Get ready.. till then I will take out the car..."

She nodded and ran to change. She wrapped kittu in a soft towel and walked out. She just hoped her kittu was fine... she wanted to believe her kittu was fine..but that restlessness within was just too much to bear. She held kittu close to her throughout the drive. She kept on looking at him, calling him out again and again...asking him to wake up or at least respond. After a while she felt a slight movement. She looked at kittu who turned his face towards her. his eyes opened for a nanosecond..but it did...she saw it. she was filled with a certain hope..that her kittu will probably be fine.

"kittu..." she called him softly and all she heard was a slight mew...so low that it were inaudible to maan as well. But geet could never miss it...her baby did respond to her. she kissed him again, "you will be alright bacha...just hold on for a few seconds more..."

But kittu looked away this time that didn't go unnoticed by geet. his eyes dropped close and his body relaxed like it were asleep. She held on to the tiniest of the hope she saw and couldn't wait to reach the vet's clinic. Just a 5 minutes more drive looked like eons to her. the moment the car stopped, she just jumped out and ran inside. Maan ran after her, seeing her so restless. She got to the vet and forwarded kittu to his asking him to check her baby immediately. She narrated the entire events to him since the previous night. the doctor took kittu inside for a check up. Geet fell on the chair nearby, hoping to see her kittu jumping and running like before. Every moment of hers with kittu flashed in front of her eyes and the way he looked at her in the car. It felt all so strange...all so scary but she tried t hold on to hope. Maan came and held her close. She clutched his shirt tightly, expecting the vet coming out all in smiles and telling her kittu will be fine.

It took some time to the vet to come out...but the results geet had expected were completely the opposite. The vet came out and stood in front of geet silently.

"is kittu okay doctor?", geet asked. Her heart was beating so fast...she was so expectant...but her world crashed...when the doctor broke the news of kittu being brought dead!

Dead!!! She froze right there... her kittu was no more? Her kittu left her? she stood there like a statue...while maan felt the detachment. He had somewhere guessed that kittu probably wouldn't survive but he was more scared for geet. he feared the reaction he saw now...no emotions...no expressions on her face...just cold and numb. He didn't know what to tell her now. Silence prevailed for a long time and when he was sure she wouldn't react, he saw her walk to wards the bed where her kittu lay. She looked at him lovingly and stood beside him for a while.

Maan was so scared to see her like that...cold...nnumb!!! he went closer and held her shoulder, "geet..you okay?"

He expected her to shout or cry or even swear ion the vet for not treating kittu properly but what he heard was the most shocking part. She was calm..and she looked composed and she just said only one line, "maan...lets take kittu home..."

He didn't even know what she thought...or what she planned. The best thing for now was to do what she wanted. He was so upset hearing about kittu... he was the sole reason his geet was back...why was god so cruel to take him away? He saw geet carry kittu back to the car, just the way she had brought it. she didn't cry..nor did she speak anything.

She sat in the car and recalled the moment kittu looked at her for the last time... so that was a goodbye eh?? Maan drove her back home and she just walked out like that carrying kittu. He looked at her painfully...she was again going back to her shell perhaps. It had taken him a long time to heal her...but now all his hopes seemed to shatter bit by bit. His heart ached to see her place kittu in his basket lovingly and sit beside it. she sat there the whole day... not eating anything...not even moving away from that place.

He kept an eye on her... he thought it wiser to leave her alone for the time being and come in terms with the reality. He could very well remember the moment she ha opened her eyes in hospital and the first thing she asked was for her baby and how cold she had been after that. their baby...tears rolled down his eyes...their love, their togetherness everything seemed to fade away that particular moment. He looked out of the window and realized how long it had been...the sun had already set and it was probably going to rain.

He walked to their room with heavy steps where she sat with kittu. He went closer and sat beside her. he held her hand and squeezed it gently, "geet..."

She turned to look at him with the same expression as before. Before he could say anything she spoke out, "lets bury him in the backyard..."

He just couldn't believe what he heard. She was okay with it? she was willing to let it go!! He saw her stand up and take kittu in her arms. She walked out slowly, leaving him to ponder about her strange behaviour. He just didn't understand but followed her to the backyard. It was dark because of the heavy clouds and he felt a drop of rain wet his cheek. he looked up and then at her. she stood beside a small jasmine bush and kept kittu beside it.

Like he understood. It was now time to say a final goodbye to kittu. The wind picked up speed and it drizzled...paving way to the rains. He dug a small pit... where she placed kittu. she admired him for a while and slowly sprinkled soil over it. in a few seconds the area just looked as it was before...clean and beautiful. He looked at her again...she was wet but she kept her composure. Least did he know the restlessness she was fighting within.

The sound of rain echoed everywhere...like the skies also mourned the loss. He couldn't have seen her so emotionless. He held his heavy heart and her hand and walked inside. Water droplets were so cold... just like her. he sighed and pulled her as he walked slowly.

She didn't know what she was missing...it was much later the burial that she realized what had happened. Every single moment with kittu flashed in her mind... her love...her baby was gone... she stiffened realizing what she had been missing...the reason of her restlessness. She stopped right there, lost!

Maan felt her stop since he held her hand. He turned back...only to see her stand so still but what shocked him the most were the tears in her eyes... gently being washed away with the rain. He left her hand, trying hard to guess what she could be thinking. The hand that he left involuntarily rested on her stomach. His gaze followed It there and then at her face which had myriad of emotions..pain... helplessness...dejections... and probably he guessed what she realized.

Geet stood still...her baby... she lost it even before she could feel it within her... her baby that she had wished so much for... her baby that made her forget all the sorrows in this world... her baby...her own baby... her maan's baby...she looked down at her hand that rested over her tummy and then at the man standing in front of her...the one to whom she gave away everything that was hers...she fell on her knees, lifeless. Her baby... her dream... everything shattered cruelly by destiny. A drop of tear rolled down and another... and yet another... and she broke down completely.

Maan saw her fall down...she had looked at him so painfully...that killed him. he heard her cry...after a long time. He ran to her and knelt beside her. she cried...louder... and louder... she had always been on the losing side... her father...her love...her friend... her drams...her baby... and now her kittu. those endless tears that she had held within herself finally found their way out... unleashing every emotion that she had suppressed all these years...pain...frustration... dejections... those forceful smiles... those moments of unfathomable pain...those numerous heartbreaks...every single moment flashed in front of her.

Maan hugged her tightly, letting her cry. He didn't know how to soothe her. it was probably right to let out her grief but he just couldn't see her cry like that. she clutched his arms and cried, "my baby...i want my baby back maan..."

Unknown to him were his tears that came out to soothe his aching heart. He dared to cry today...let his tears fall...her pain...anisha's pain... their baby...their loss...every single thing. But in all this, he didn't let her go. He held her in his arms, knowing she needed him the most now. She hit him, scratched him asking him again and again to bring back her most precious thing... but he held on to her...letting her unleash her anger... he is the only one who could absorb her pain..and get her out of all this. He picked her up in his arms and carried her inside. She held him and cried...and cried...and cried..as if there was no end to her pain.

He made her lie down on the bed but she didn't let him go. She held his shirt tightly, not allowing him to leave. He couldn't even have said no. He slipped beside her and hid her in his arms. She cried...wailed...screamed... but she didn't let him go. He just kept on caressing her, trying to calm her down...but the pain was too painful...and tears were endless. He knew it was just not the baby...rather its years of hurt and heartbreak that was unleashed. But even this made him realize how much she cherished him... how much she loved him... how much she loved their baby...how much she respected their togetherness... it only made him shed more tears, silently.

Two wounded souls finally found each other's solace... after years of yearning and craving and longing. True as they say, Love is just not 'loving someone', rather getting to taste different flavours of it in every moment of life. What maan and geet shared was not something dreamy... not something very romantic or all lovey dovey. What they shared was their pain and incompleteness which is yet again another shade of love, which comes with friendship, sacrifice, heartbreaks, broken dreams, pain, hurt, dejection, madness...yet all coming together to encompass the most beautiful feeling in this world.

He woke up in the morning to see her still in his arms. He didn't even know when she had slept off crying or when he had. He checked on her and kissed her eyes softly. Her cheeks still had fresh trail of tears. She might have cried in her sleep as well. He didn't know how she'd react after waking up...but somewhere he was relieved that she had unleashed everything that she had suppressed all these years. he went out and stood right beside the jasmine bush where they had buried kittu. the soil was still wet...but the sun was bright today. The mild fragrance of those jasmine flowers filled the air. He stood there for a while admiring the nature and offered a silent prayer for kittu who probably came to fill the void in their lives...as if it had a purpose to serve. And now that it was done... he was gone!

He went back and prepared his coffee and sat on the couch watching tv. He checked the date...and realized it was time they got back home. He sighed and indulged himself in her thoughts.

She woke up much much later...her eye lids felt heavy but she felt light...her heart felt so much lighter today. It was like she wasn't stuffed with a lot of emotions... or anything that stopped her. she was quiet though, because kittu had really touched her heart...the house felt so lifeless without him. she recalled waking up with kittu caressing her feet. She will miss him. she took a bath and slipped into a simple salwar kameez and walked to the backyard. She stood by the jasmine bush, relishing the mild fragrance of those little white flowers. They looked brighter today... they looked more beautiful than usual! Wasn't it her kittu?

She felt two strong arms grip her from behind. She knew who it was. She sighed and leaned her head back, resting it on his shoulder and held his arms that encircled her waist.

"geet...lets go...", she felt him pull her.

She wondered what was he speaking about and where were they going.

"but..."

"shh...relax...don't ask so many questions and just come with me."

He held her hand and led her towards their car.

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Why u killed kittu
It's so sad to read that part
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But due to this she finally broke the shell
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