Always,Only You --(fiction)-- THREAD 2 - Page 78

Originally posted by: goldenmoon

part 24-34

awesome update

feeling bad for yash n all...

all r suffering...specially yash n children...

hope everything wil be fine soon...

add me in ur pm list plzzz

so i was rereading the beginning (what?! there was no update...😈) and couldn't...since i know they're separating 😭

Originally posted by: rutu83

so i was rereading the beginning (what?! there was no update...😈) and couldn't...since i know they're separating 😭

Deepti - i am coming into your FF and getting the poor kids' out!! You killed off Shobha, Sattu is out of commission, so where can these three go and be well looked after and loved? Did you leave Arpita's parents' alive? I don't remember - they weren't important...

But seriously lady, you have me seething at Yash. I get the pain, the anguish, everything - but he is a parent. And how can any parent forget that?? Or is that a mother-thing? I don't know, being a parent myself i know no matter what the grief, what the situation, i would never - no, could never behave the way Yash is to his children. And Pratik was spot on - he is letting Arti down - in the worst way possible. When he stopped at that comment, i thought perhaps ab tubelight chamkegi - but looks like he is going to remain in la-la-land for some more time. High time he got a grip enough to take care of his children - otherwise Yash - beware Kat's fury!!

😆 😆 - lol, i can't believe you got me so worked up on a fictional character 😆.

I liked the whole terrorist introspection - the beginning of the update. That was very well-written. Won't even make a comment on that last bit...

Originally posted by: Deepti1808

Oh the update was ready yesterday itself but then I got busy and did not get time to proof read.

Feeling too tired and sleepy right now to do anything with it right now.

But feels nice to know that you were waiting for it.😃

@Rutu - Deepti is lying you know - she has been waiting for my comment 😉.

Talk about inflated ego 😆 - just kidding.

Oh and Deepti - CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Always (thread 1) is in the top 10 popular topics in the PV Forum 🥳 👏👏 ⭐️.

Originally posted by: kdsubs1

Deepti - i am coming into your FF and getting the poor kids' out!! You killed off Shobha, Sattu is out of commission, so where can these three go and be well looked after and loved? Did you leave Arpita's parents' alive? I don't remember - they weren't important...

I have seriously not dealt with Arpita chapter in Yash's life have I. Let me see what I can come up with

But seriously lady, you have me seething at Yash. I get the pain, the anguish, everything - but he is a parent. And how can any parent forget that?? Or is that a mother-thing? I don't know, being a parent myself i know no matter what the grief, what the situation, i would never - no, could never behave the way Yash is to his children. And Pratik was spot on - he is letting Arti down - in the worst way possible. When he stopped at that comment, i thought perhaps ab tubelight chamkegi - but looks like he is going to remain in la-la-land for some more time. High time he got a grip enough to take care of his children - otherwise Yash - beware Kat's fury!!

I can understand how you must be feeling. Believe me as a parent I find it hard to write all this too. But hey I have known cases where this has known to happen

😆 😆 - lol, i can't believe you got me so worked up on a fictional character 😆.

Happens to me all the time😆

I liked the whole terrorist introspection - the beginning of the update. That was very well-written. Won't even make a comment on that last bit...

Originally posted by: kdsubs1

Oh and Deepti - CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Always (thread 1) is in the top 10 popular topics in the PV Forum 🥳 👏👏 ⭐️.

Chapter 36

Three months after the blast

The scindia household had outwardly come back to a semblance of normality. Yash showed very little signs of improvement. Yash did go to the office but he was not very productive. He did "try" to behave normarlly but it was very forced and half hearted and everyone knew that he was still grieving and putting up an act for their benefit. He interacted with the children but sporadically and was mostly distant with the children and enquired about their well being from his mother or sisters in law. He was there for them yet not there. In short he was emotionally unavailable. He was concerned about them but was afraid to put his gloomy shadow on them. He knew what he was doing was wrong and he knew how miserable his children had become because of it. But he still could not go to them, his guilt of being responsible for Aarti's disappearance, his guilt of not being able to save Aarti and his fear that he would have to face up to the reality of a life without Aarti was making it impossible for him to go to his children. He was also constantly reminded of all happy times he had shared with Aarti and the children and he was unable to find the strength to overcome his fears and weaknesses. So he maintained the status quo.

The children on their part started expecting their father less and less. Their suffering and pain was shared within themselves or with the other members of the family. They mechanically went about their tasks and tried not to "disturb" their father. Everyone else tried to make Yash realize what he was doing was wrong but Yash continued with the same.

Often the children cried themselves to sleep. They longed to have their father back as he was. They missed spending time with him, they missed his smiles and laughter. They missed playing games with him and most importantly because of his distance they missed their mumma who was always around when they were down. Without her their father had become a remote stranger. They missed their mumma all the more as their papa was never around. And then even they started avoiding going near him too.

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"Buaji if you do not mind. Can you please see that Ansh has his breakfast? Everyone has gone out and I was responsible for taking care of it. But I have got this sudden call from the studio about an emergency shoot and have to head out"Pari was getting agitated as she kept looking at the clock. She had to handover the reins before she could step out. And she had to do it fast in order to be there in time.

"Mere bhagwan ki kasam Pari bahu, what better work do I have then to clear up after everyone. Err...I mean to help everyone around. You don't worry...you go to your all important shoot. I will take care of Ansh" Maya responded not at all pleased at prospect of having to baby sit the boy.

"He had complained of stomach pain in the morning and so did not go to school. He had just now got ready and will come over. Please give him this milk and the toast I have kept aside for him" Pari informed Maya and she tried to hurry and make her way out to go to work.

"Mere bhagwan ki kasam Pari bahu...I know how to take care of that boy you know. You need not worry. You better leave else you will get late" Maya said feeling piqued at Pari's lack of confidence in her.

"Thank you buaji...I hate to leave Ansh like this but what to do" with that Pari went on her way ignoring her guilt in the process.

A dull looking Ansh finally made his way towards the dining area. He went and flopped on the chair. And looked at the glass of milk in front of him and later kept the lid aside to have it. But his face cringed distastefully just as Maya came there.

"Chee...I will not have this. This is junior horlicks I only have boost" Ansh said bluntly.

"Beta...you should not say no to food. You better drink up whatever your chachi has made for you" Maya said trying to control her annoyance and being sugary sweet with great effort on her part.

"Never" said Ansh and he tried to place the glass forcefully away from him and in the process spilled the contents of the glass on Maya's saree.

"You brat! Look what you have done. You have ruined my favourite saree" Maya said angrily and went ahead and pulled Ansh's ear while scolding him.

"Owch bua dadi it was an accident. I am sorry" Ansh immediately regretted what he had unintentionally done.

"Accident my foot, you did it deliberately. You are an ill-mannered boy whose mother had never taught him any manners" Maya said acidly.

"NO...don't say anything like that about mumma"cried Ansh.

"Aha...what are you going to do otherwise? There I will say it again she was a very poor parent" taunted Maya.

Ansh turned his face and bit Maya's hand in an attempt to stop her from bad mouthing his beloved mother. And instinctively Maya slapped Ansh hard on the face which made Ansh cry out loudly. On hearing his grandson crying Satya rushed out to find out what the matter was.

"Ansh...what is wrong beta why are you crying?" asked a concerned Satya.

"Buadadi...buadadi" Ansh pointed to Maya but his tears would not let him go on.

"Alright go ahead. Go ahead and complain. I am just fed up of you anyway. But then what can we expect of a boy belonging to such a family" Maya interrupted Ansh and went for the offensive giving a demeaning look to Satyendra.

"Maya...hold your tongue. Do not forget Ansh is now a Scindia and you are insulting your own family with such words" Satya reminded Maya.

"Oh he can never be a Scindia even if he tried. He can never be one of us. We were all tolerating him because of Yash and Yash was tolerating him because of Aarti. Now that Aarti is out of the picture, Yash too has lost interest in him clearly. And it just because as Ansh is always there with his daughters that Yash is distancing himself from them too, he is nothing but a unnecessary baggage to us" Maya said spewing vemon.

"Shut up Maya. You are hurting the little boy with your cruel words" said Satya who was outraged but what Maya was saying. He turned to Ansh and said

"Ansh do not listen to Bua dadi she is just angry right now. She does not mean anything that she said so do not take her seriously. Go inside your room (and he spared a look at the unfinished breakfast on the table). If you have not had your breakfast I will bring it to you. Just go inside right now" Satya urged but realizing that it was already too late.

Ansh meekly complied. but the damage was already done. When Ansh went away Satya spoke up again.

"What is this all about Maya? Why are you pouring such venom on a poor little motherless boy? How can you be so heartless?" Satya demanded unable to believe that anyone could be so cruel.

"I am not heartless. I am speaking the truth. The boy has no place in the house anymore. And if people understand what I am talking about they will take the hint and not outstay the welcome in the house along with him. He is just a kid so he may not know but certain grown ups too are too dense to realize when to say good bye" Maya pointedly threw barbs at Satya.

Dubey knew Maya was talking his long stay at SM.

"Don't worry Maya. I am planning of leaving today itself. But for god sake spare the little boy. He has done nothing to you to deserve such treatment from you. Had it not been for Yash beta I would have moved out long back. But you yourself know how often I have been forced to stay back" Satya said but making up his mind to leave at any cost, and deciding to talk about this incident with Yash.

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"Ansh here have your breakfast" Satya said after going to the children's room.

"Buadadi is correct. No one loves me anymore... Papa does not love me anymore. Mumma has gone away and... Papa does not want me anymore" Ansh said quietly. His face a proof of how hard he must have cried, and it broke Satya's heart to see his grandson like this.

"Oh no Ansh. That is just not true. Papa is hurt beta...he is missing your mumma just as much as you. Just give him some more time. I am sure he...he will come back to you" Satya said feeling anger towards Yash once again for this state of Ansh.

"No Bade Papa. I do not want to stay here anymore. Please let us go back to your house. I promise I will be a good boy. I promise I will not trouble you. Please take me with you" Ansh begged not wanting to stay in this house anymore.

"Oh Ansh I am so sorry... but...but I cannot do that. You are the son of this house. You belong here. I am sorry you had to hear all that you did just now. But that is not true. You father loves you. You yourself know that as you used to keep telling me that too. Now let us not talk about anything else. Just finish off the breakfast and show me what a good boy you are"

Ansh did as he was told. But the doubt in his heart now refused to go away. He had only one option remaining in front of him and he decided to take it up.

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Satya knew that if he informed anyone of his departure he would not be allowed to go away. So he did the cowardly thing and packed his suitcase and went on his way to his house, leaving just a note behind. He did plan to call and inform later however.

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When Yash returned back home he went straight to Satya's room. On finding it empty he was about to go in search of him when he saw the letter placed on the bed side table. Yash already knew what the letter would be about and opened the letter apprehensively.

Yash Beta,

I am better now so I need to be back home. Business does not take care of itself and my convalescence is now complete. Please excuse me of leaving without informing anyone.

I will call and speak to your parents later.

Satyendra Dubey

Yash silently accepted his father in law's decision as he folded the letter again.

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"Papa Papa...Ansh is no where to be seen. We have searched from him every where" Palak and Payal went to inform their father about it.

"Didn't he return from the school with you?" Yash asked puzzled.

"Papa Ansh did not go to school today. He had stomach ache this morning. But when we returned he was not to be seen anywhere" Palak explained.

"Ok... Ok don't worry. I think I know where he might me. Just let me make a phone call" Yash said trying to stay calm.

"Pranam Bauji" Yash said as he called his father in law.

"Beta Yash..woh"Satya was expecting this call but he was feeling awkward about it all the same.

"Bauji I knew you were feeling very uncomfortable at home anyway. My efforts to make you comfortable did not work somehow. I had called to know if Ansh was not giving you any trouble?" Yash indirectly enquired about Ansh's whereabouts.

"Ansh? Why would he be giving me any trouble?" Satya said feeling confused.

"I know he won't... I just wanted to know if he is fine there with you" Yash asked finally.

"Beta...Ansh...Ansh is not with me. I left the house alone" Satya said with growing anxiety.

"What?" Yash uttered feeling shocked.

"Is everything alright. Is Ansh missing or something?" Satya asked feeling scared.

"I don't know Bauji. If you will excuse me, I will call you back shortly" Yash cut the call feeling tensed.

Yash body started tremors. Where could Ansh be?

He knew all the members of his family had gone to visit a Math and were not at home, only Buaji was around. So he went to her room.

"Buaji...buaji...did Ansh tell you where he was going?" Yash questioned straightaway.

"Mere bhagwan ki kasam now what has Ansh done" Maya asked on hearing his name again.

"Just answer me Buaji...do you know where Ansh is?"

"He might have gone away with his grand father. I did see him leave some time back" Maya tried to guess.

"No Bauji did not take Ansh with him" Yash informed her.

"OooK...maybe he is hiding somewhere in the house. That boy is always up to some mischief. He has no concern for the trouble he causes others"

"No buaji.. Ansh is not like that. He is a very well behaved boy. Ok I will search the house once over. He may well be hiding as you say" Yash said left the room.

Yash searched every corner of the house with growning fear and anxiety. Ansh was definitely not in the house.

"Maybe he would have gone to his friends' house" he thought aloud.

Yash called up Ansh's friends whom Ansh visited sometimes. But none of them had seen Ansh or knew where he could be. Yash grew even more worried.

He called up Pankaj and Pratik and informed them of this news. They assured him that he would be somewhere near by and they would help in finding him within no time. But Yash was beside himself with worry.

He took his car out and started to search the nearby areas. He searched the parks, shops and areas which Ansh knew of. He kept showing the photo of Ansh in his mobile to every single person whom he met. But none of them were able to help him out.

Yash's head started to spin.

His unavailability with the kids had finally taken its toll on Ansh. Yash cursed himself. He never hated himself more.

Dear God what have I done. How could I let things become so out of control? Please God please let me have Ansh back. I swear I will change my ways. I swear I will do whatever it takes to win Ansh's faith back again. Please god, do not deny me this one chance. I want my son back. I want my Ansh back. I know I have been a horrible father. I know I do not deserve him. But I need my Ansh. I need my son with me. Oh why why did I let things reach this stage.

"Ansh Ansh..." Yash screamed feeling remorse and fear at the same time.

Just then he saw a boy from behind. Yash could not believe it he thought his search was over that he had finally found his son. But when he reached the boy and turned him around it was someone else altogether.

"I am sorry...I am sorry... I thought you were someone else" Yash took a few steps back from the boy as his hope shattered into pieces.

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It was midnight and Yash had just finished speaking with Pankaj. Pankaj informed Yash that he had gone to the police station on returning and given a complaint about Ansh being missing and that Police was also looking at this case on top priority.

But all the assurances fell on Yash's deaf ears. Yash dejectedly went to the one place, he tought he could get some answers. He went to ask pardon in front of God in the nearby temple. It was deserted at this time of the night. The doors were locked. He still came closer and closer after parking his car. And on the temple steps he found God's miracle. His son Ansh's sleeping form.

Yash approached him slowly. The few toturous hours of the day had taught him a valuable lesson that he as a parent could never ever forget. He came to know that no matter what his grief or anguish was as a parent he had failed in his duty towards his children. He owed his children a big apology and a he prayed that they would be big-hearted enough to forgive their miserable lousy father yet again.

Yash relief was over powering. He looked up and thanked God for everything. He knew that his exile from his children had finally come to an end. He knew that he would have to make up for all the time that he had neglected his duty as a father.

Just then he heard him murmuring something. Yash bent down to listen what he was saying.

"Papa...I love you papa" Ansh mumbled in his sleep, his body shivering slightly because of the chill of the night.

And Yash immediately took Ansh in his arms and said "I love you too Ansh. I love you too" and kissed him till his mind finally accepted that at last he had found his son safe and sound in his arms and that at last he had found the parent in himself as well.

TO BE CONTINUED...

😭 oh no ansh- that just broke my heart