Arnav gritted his teeth and clutched his jaw. Today she has brought him to the edge where he never wanted to come. In last two months he had controlled a lot and today he is a changed man. A man who gained lots of patience in him, a man who thinks before he acts. But her one word broke everything.
Holding by her wrist he started dragging her through the stairs. No matter how much she cried in pain, but it seemed like he did not care.
Finally they reached their flat and he shouted on her to open the door.
She got so nervous she started fumbling. In one go he pulled her towards him and slid his hand inside her bag and pulled out the key.
Opening the door he twirled her around and shout the door behind. He ganged his fist in frustration and closed his eyes to calm down his agitated nerves. "I am his mistress, his contracted wife"'it was not much of his help. He opened his eyes and turned around to see his traumatized wife standing right in front of him clutching her lower abdomen.
"WHY" he barked loud.
She flinched seeing his old self, furious will be an understatement to describe his state.
"WHY KHUSHI? WHY? WHY YOU HAVE TO UTTER THAT WORD?"
He narrowed his eyes and continued'"Mistress?" he said in a low voice. "DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THAT WORD?" he said it loud.
He advanced towards her and held her tightly from her shoulder. She flinched in pain "aah!" she cried out.
"WHY THE F*CK DID YOU SAY THAT KHUSHI? WHY DAMN IT?" his pitch rose with every single word.
"Because I am the one", she said in a low, hurtful voice.
"SHUT UP", he barked gripping her more digging his fingers into her skin.
"What wrong did I say?" she added more fuel. "you have used me like a puppet, did not you? when you wanted me you touched me, when you wanted me you threw me out of this house, when you wanted to hug me you hugged me, when you wanted to yell at me you yelled at me. Do you have any idea how I felt?"
Arnav was hell shocked and dumb folded. He never know she have felt like this these days, so was his love forceful? Did he force her all the time? Does she hate him now?
His heart swelled at the very thought "hate". He stood staring at her blankly, trying to read his mind and heart.
But why he always felt that it was mutual? Why he always felt she loved to be touched by him? What was that when she hit her climax, why she never opposed him when he tried to be physical with her? Why it never looked like as if it was forced and one sided?
His series of thoughts broke with her next question.
"Why? Why did you mention about our marriage in front of out siders, when life span is of only 4 months? Why you have to link our name together when there is no future to this contract marriage? Why? She sat on the floor crying bitterly'."why?"'.sobs.
Arnav just couldnot figure out what she was talking about? Was it the effect of alcohol that she is talking non-sense, or is it real?
"What? 4 months?" Arnav was confused to the hell. "what the hell are you talking? Why will I marry you for 4 months? And what contract marriage are you talking about?".
"Shaadi jo aapne mere saath kiye hai".
(the marriage which you have done with me)
"Khushi! Tum kya bol rahi ho?" I think you need rest.
She wiped her tears and stood up clutching her abdomin and said, "I don't need rest I want answer, "wohi contract marriage jo aap karne wale the with roshni ji, I am talking about those contract papers jo maine sign kiya hai".
"WHAT? What are you saying? When did you sign on those papers?" Arnav was all the more confused.
"Aman ji ne mujse sign karwaya tha".
"Aman ne? kab? Kahan? Are you sure?"
"he gave me the papers and I had signed it".
Arnav held his forehead and ran his fingers in between his hair.
"Khushi, I think tumhe koi galat faimi hui hai" (I think there is some confusion, some misunderstanding) "when did aman gave you those papers?" he asked feeling frustrated.
"the day I left for delhi", she said in a firm voice.
"Khushi! Aman aisa kar hi nahi sakta hai kyun ki I have asked him to destroy the contract on the very day when you saved musky from those people. That contract was not meant for you. I have never intended to make you sign on those shitty contract. How could you even think of that? Out of all the people I will bind you in contract? Do I have such a horrible impression on you? and why are you askng this today? Why did not you clarify with me before? God Khushi! How could you think like this? Out of all the people you? you are misunderstanding me and that too big time?
Khushi was shocked. She did not know what to believe. She was blank. Yes to be honest even she wanted not to believe the contract part as he had never mentioned about it ever to her, not before their marriage and not even after their marriage. But then what did she sign?
"you still don't believe me right?" he said in a very hurtful tone.
Arnav took out his cell phone and dialed aman's number.
"Hi! aman, is it a good time to talk to you?...ok'great'aman I am putting you on the loud speaker'I am right now with Khushi".
He connected the loud speaker.
"Aman, did you make Khushi sign those contract papers?"
"what contract papers ASR?"
"My marriage contract papers aman the one which Khushi drafted"
"No, why?"
Arnav looked at Khushi with hurtful eyes.
"Aman! on which papers did Khushi sign?"
"ASR, I have only took her signature on your marriage application paper when she was in Mumbai and I had forwarded her of your marriage certificate after 4 days in delhi to take her signature on it and finally forwarded her, her hard copy through courier".
"thanks aman"
"but ASR did you ask me to destroy those papers?"
"yap that's what I was thinking. Anyways thanks for the clarification".
Arnav disconnected the call and looked at her.
She was looking everywhere but not him. She was ashamed of herself, she was ashamed of thinking so low about this man. How could she not trust her heart? How could she even think that this man will ever leave her? But he did leave her. He has sent her away from him, without even telling her.
She saw him coming towards her and holding her by her shoulder.
"Khushi!"
her tears were not stopping, her breathing was abnormally high.
He sighed and closed his eyes.
He took a deep breath her words still playing in his mind "you have used me like a puppet, did not you? when you wanted me you touched me, when you wanted me you threw me out of this house, when you wanted to hug me you hugged me, when you wanted to yell at me you yelled at me. Do you have any idea what I felt?"
He wiped of her tears with his thumb, "Khushi I have married you forever not for 6 months, I myself know it very well the value of marriage. Don't ever call yourself as mistress, I know the pain which my mom went through. She was nothing but a second woman, a mistress of my father. She had never ever enjoyed her life being someone's wife, a legally wedded wife. Jeete ji she could never use his surname and not even after her death. But as far as you are concerned you are my wife Khushi, my legally wedded wife and you will always remain one. Never ever insult this pious relationship Khushi! Do have no idea what a girl who is someone's mistress goes through. I can never ever ill-treat, coz you can never be one. For me marriage is a sacred bond and it is for life time Khushi! Not for some months. As far as the contract thing was there, it was only meant for the person who agrees to marry me for 6 months but when it was you there was no question of that. Yes Khushi I have always believed you no matter how much hurt I have caused you, but I always had 100% trust on you as far as Musky was concern. I never ever gave a second thought by nominating you as caretaker of Musky's property and also the owner of this house.
But you know what Khushi! Mish was right".
A tear slipped from his eyes. He tucked his lips and bit, "she was absolutely right when she said "I don't deserve you" in the way she said "meye tumhari layak hi nahi hoon" (I don't deserve you).
He smiled feeling hurt "see even on your birthday I have made you cry". I am not worth Khushi!, I am not worth of anyone's love, care, affection.
I only know how to hurt people, how to scream at them, how to humiliate them, how to demean them. I will never learn to love, I will never learn to respect, I will never learn to care others feelings. I am a beast and I will always remain a beast.
Another tear rolled down his cheeks.
He cupped her face and looked at her messed up state. For the first time he was unable to figure out her expression.
"You know Khushi! It hurts, it hurts a lot. I am still dying to listen to my name for once from your mouth. But I guess you have made up your mind that you will not call me by mine name. I know this is crazy, but that's how I am. I love small small things, small small gestures, but the saddest part is I can never express them, demand them, you call it my ego, but that's how it is with me. Maybe because of that I was afraid to love and to be loved. But when I met you I found someone who is ever forgiving, who understood my silence, who took all the pain without uttering a single word from her mouth, who'who loved me unconditionally". His voice chocked and his heart thumped.
"you may hate me today, and you have all the right to hate me, because I haven't done anything because of which you should accept me, love me, admire me".
He leaded further and brushed his lips on her quivering ones.
"I think I have hurt you enough Khushi, and I guess tumhari Khushi isime hai ke meye tumse door rahoon".
Immediately Khushi looked directly in his eyes with that statement.
He just could see in her eyes anymore. He turned to wipe of his tears when he heard, "if you think so, then why don't you just LEAVE ARNAV JI"..she screamed her lungs out, making Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada flich for the first time.
"Leave me and go just like my parents did" he heard her chocked voice.
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She finally broke down in front of him crying her heart out.
"Go Arnav ji, just GO" she screamed while holding his abdomen and was about to collapse when he held her and pulled her in his embrace".
She clutched his back and pressed herself hard on him, "mat jaiye Arnav ji, mera aapke alawa aur koi nahi hai" (I don't have anyone else other than you). hum aapse...aapse bohot pyaar karte hai..I love you damn it.
Suddenly everything stopped around them.
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"Say it again Khushi!" he demanded
"I love you Arnav ji" she said hiding her face in his chest.
He just couldnot believe his luck, when everything looked dark as a moonless sky, this time yet again his Khushi has enlighten his darkness with her everlasting spark.
"you love me?" he asked in a suffocating tone.
Khushi started crying badly, finally she said it, finally put it across to him that she loves him and now there is no looking back. Yes she loves him madly, yes she loves him unconditionally, yes she loves him whole heartedly, yes she loves her Arnav ji the most.
"yes I love you and I love you a lot...a lot. "Pyaar Karta hoon. Bohot bohot pyaar karti hoon, shyad khud se zada, sabse zada"..
He broke the hug and looked at her, this is the second time he was hearing her confession, the same words that she had said before in front of pulkit and now she was telling him. he kissed her on her forehead and started crying in front of him. He just did not want to hold anymore. Just let go of his male ego and submitted himself to her today. She deserves this, she deserves every inch of Arnav.
"then don't ever ask me to leave you Khushi! I cant I cant leave you, because I cant live without you. meri sanse ruk jayegi agar meye tumhe chod dunga (I will stop breathing). I am incomplete without you.
He caressed her hair and kissed her checks; "I am here for you for lifetime babes. You are my existence, my ego, my strength, my weakness, my life, my love".
"shaadi ki hai, haath thama hai, kabna chodne ke liye" (I have married you, I have held your hand, I will never leave you).
"Promise?" she asked him innocently.
"Promise sweetheart"
She sniffed and asked again "Pakka Promise?"
He couldnot hold anymore but to smile "Pakka promise"
With that she jumped on him and claimed him lips. He moved three four steps back to steady himself due to impact, holding her tight in his arms letting her kiss him.
She kissed him madly, tasting each and every part of his mouth, marking him as her forever. She did not even gave him any chance to breath just went on kissing him as if there will be no tomorrow.
In no time he picked her up in his arms and walked towards their bedroom.
Placing her on the bed he went up to lock the door. She looked at him shyly batting her lashes and smiling at him.
He came near her and hover over her to kiss him. She sunk in the bed and he claimed her lips now. It was his time to show his love to her. He licked her lips and kissed her passionately. Just the way she liked to be kissed. Slidding her blouse and exposing her shoulder he caressed her skin over there making her aware of his intentions. She blushed furiously thinking of herself being totally exposed in front of him. He bit her shoulder bone and kissed her breathing strongly over her skin, burning it at the same time. She arched back being pleasured and moved her head other side so that he can devour her fully.
Arnav smiled looking at her state and touched her there. The moment he touched her there,she became conscious and held his hand. He felt the barrier and asked her, "Khushi! You are chumming?"
She immediately turned tomato red and blushed furiously with that statement of his. She once again hid herself but this time placing her head on the crook of his neck and nodded in approval.
"that's ok, no need to feel so shy with me Khushi!"
she pulled back and looked at him, she cupped his face and said "I am sorry Arnav, I am really sorry. That day in the office I said about our first night..."
He immediately placed his finger on her lips and stopped her from talking about it. "Khushi! Don't ever say about that night like that. That night holds a very special place in my heart. That night when we became one. Call it God's wish or our destiny but that night I got you Khushi!"
He leaned on the pillow and pulled her towards him making her rest her head on his chest caressing her bare shoulder. You know Khushi "maine tumhe tabse pyaar kiya jab meine tumhe dekha tak nahi, bus khali sunatha tumhare barein mein from pulkit, I used to feel jealous I don't know why. Everytime he took your name, your name started spreaded like a vemon in my blood intoxicating my blood and heart forever. Then one day I realized I am crazy for this girl named Khushi kumari gupta. And when you stood in front of me that day when you came for interview, I couldnot believe my eyes that I was seeing you, seeing Khushi whose imaginary image I have made in my mind. But you know what tum usse bhi zada khubsoorat (prettier) aur pyaari nikli (loving).
I couldnot stop myself from getting attracted. I was highly smitten with your innocent charm.
I loved you then, I love you now and I will be loving you forever...jab tak hai jaan. (till I survive)
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