Gunjan wished him all the best and he left for his meeting. Gunjan furtively prayed to god, 'He has worked very hard god, and this means the world to him.. please help him today and be with him!' Gunjan sighed. She sat on the bed thinking about the new side of Samrat she had just experienced. She had never even in her wildest dreams imagined THE Samrat Shergill getting so nervous for a meeting! She always thought that she was the immature one among the two.. but even Samrat had a small part of his immature self which he kept subdued inside him. He never let that side of him out.. Gunjan could just sit and keep thinking of Samrat, but there was someone who didn't want that and who had just knocked on the door. Gunjan thought it was Samrat and that maybe he had forgotten something. But to her disappointment it wasn't. Instead Neil stood at the door looking at her with a great smile on his face. "Hey Gunjan!" he said. Gunjan didn't reply. She didn't know why he had come to meet her when she had made it so clear that they couldn't be together. "You won't wish me best of luck?" he asked. "My wished are already with someone else Neil, and as I have already said that I'"You cant forget me Gunjan, not so easily, I just made a small mistake and you totally broke off from me. You know I have no one in this life except for you. You are the only one Gunjan. I have and will always love you and no one else." He said. Gunjan didn't know what to say. She didn't know how to make Neil get the clear cut idea of what she meant. "Neil, I have already told youu that'"you dont love me anymore? And you want me to believe your words when your eyes tell me something else?" he moved towards her as she stepped back. Anger was building in him as he saw her retracing her footsteps backwards, "have you forgotten the time we spent together, how can you forget how close we were.." He said extending his hands to hold Gunjan. "Neil, I would appreciate if you just left." She said pushing his hands away. "Gunjan, how can I leave without your best wishes?" he said. "I dont Understand" Gunjan said exasperated now. She pitied Neil since it wasn't completely his fault what he had become. Gunjan was also as responsible as Neil was. She had lied to him and she had betrayed him.. but now he was getting on her nerves.. "What do you want neil? How many times will I have to tell you that I dont love you and I dont want anything to do with you? How many more times will I have to say it!" she raged in fury. Neil was taken aback. "Until you actually mean it Gunjan.. I know your still angry at me.. and i will win your love back by winning this tender!" he said. Gunjan's eyes widened, "forget it Neil..just forget it." She said disgusted. Neil walked backwards, "I promise Gunjan, I will win you back.. you heart will once again lie in my heart." He said as he left to attend the meeting.
Gunjan sat down on her bed holding her head in her hands. Why did life have to be so complicated at every stage. In the beginning when she wanted to be with Neil, Bui got her married to Samrat. When Samrat agreed to get her married to Neil, Neil acted as if he hated her. And now when she loves Samrat and doesn't want to be with Neil, Neil is after her trying to confess his love for her and Samrat is hiding his love or his feelings from her. It was just incredible. She felt like rewinding the last 25 years of her life.. (now she was 25) and starting again as a kid, then maybe she could make the right choices! She just couldn't figure out what she should do? How should she make Neil understand. On one hand she is trying to take her relationship with Samrat to the next level, trying to make him realise her love, and here Neil was trying to shower his love on Gunjan which made her feel awful to show him down. She just did not understand what she should do. After sometime she diverted her mind from Neil and Samrat to only Samrat! 'My husband is one in a million. He gets so nervous at small things and he acts so calm and cool when things are complicated and difficult. No wonder I love him so much.. He is the World's Best Husband.. No.. Not only husband.. he is the Best Human as well... I wish I could just go up to him and tell him how I felt. That would be the easiest. But my heart and mind both say NO in chorus when I even think of it. Maybe its the fear that Samrat would reject my love, but how could I love him and stay away? How could I hide my feelings while he is always so close to me. Everytime he looks at me I wonder what he is thinking about! But remember what Sameera said? Give him hints and try and make him say it first so you know exactly what he feels so if he doesn't love you then you wont have to confess at all !! But there is one problem in this! My dear husband will not understand the hints I give him! Hmm.. how I wish he would just come up and say it!' She didnt realise for how long she had been sitting there dreaming in broad daylight when there was another knock. "Samrat!" she muttered and ran to open the door. Indeed, it was him. As he looked at her, his lips broadened to give a huge smile that indicated that the meeting was amazing! "Great! The meeting was very nice?" Gunjan asked. Samrat's eyes narrowed, "How do you know? Aren't you supposed to ask me first whether it was good or bad?" he asked. "Samrat, this is you who we are talking about, you are so perfect at everything so obviously the meeting would have gone well naa?!" 'Gunjan.. give hints give hints' she told herself. "And plus your smile speaks more than your words!" she said looking at him. He was just relaxed as he lay down on the bed staring at the ceiling, But that wasn't enough. Gunjan wanted to hear details! "Samraaat!" she said. "Tell me more? What happened?" She loved seeing the sparkle in Samrat's eyes when he was happy and this was one of the happiest moments in his life. She could see it. "Everyone liked my slideshow, the clients were very impressed and they asked in detail about my future ideas and interests. They liked my outlook also, oh and yes they said that my suit suited my alot!" he said. "Thats ofcourse, thanks to youu!" Gunjan was very happy. She sat beside him and said, "See, and you were uselessly getting nervous!" "Gunjaan, its just thanks to you that this meeting went well! Whenever I got nervous I always thought of what you were saying and that gave me much more courage than I thought it would." He said holding her hand. Gunjan's heart skipped a beat and she looked at his hand on hers and Samrat's eyes followed hers. He removed his hands abruptly. Gunjan was shocked, 'Why did Samrat remove his hand so abruptly. What is wrong in holding my hand' She sat still.. He looked away. "I am sorry" he said as if getting into his shell again, Gunjan had worked very hard to get him out of there.. she couldnt let that happen. "What? N'"I should go change" he said as he got up and Gunjan sat there eating up the rest of the sentence. And then the reason struck her. 'I was the one. I was the one who stopped him that day.' She told herself as she remembered their first night. Samrat had come so close to her and she had asked for sometime. How she yearned for that moment again. The sensation that passes through her spin when Samrat touches her is so... extraordinary.. 'After that why would he come close again. Obviously that night he must have felt rejected. Thats why all this time he had kept a distance. All this time he waited. He waited for me to respond to his hints. But I didn't. Maybe he was trying to give me hints too.. Maybe he was trying to realise how I felt.' She told herself. Gunjan knew she had to take the first step now.. because Samrat had taken the first step but she had refused. So now it was her turn. It was her chance to take the first step. But the question that confused her the most was 'HOW?' 'Its very easy to think about all this. But its hell lot a scary when you are in front of the person saying it.. What will I say to him? How will I tell him? What should I do?' all these questions flooded her mind and on the other hand Samrat misinterpreted her silence. He just didnt know how his hand went and held hers. He didnt know why he had held her hand.. Gunjan had asked him for time and he would give her as much time as she needed. He would be there by her side all life.
"Lunch?" he asked. Trying to break the silence. Gunjan smiled and nodded. The walk was silent as they both were in deep thought but it all vanished when Gunjan came out of hers. "So what next?" she said. Samrat looked at her confused because of the sudden question. "I meant, what are we doing the rest of the day?" she asked. "Oh! I dont know. You say? What do you want to do?" "I dont know Samrat.. I want to swim and you dont, We can go cycling in the resort if they have that facility?" she asked. Samrat didn't say anything. "Ohkaay, bunk. Lets just sit in the room and play snatch!" she said. Samrat looked up at her, "Why? You want to go cycling right?" "No no, its fine. I would prefer playing snatch. The scores 1-0 now.. I need to make it equal!" she said. She knew samrat didnt really enjoy swimming , horse-riding , or any sort of sport. Humphh.. he just liked to sit and work!
After lunch the two played for a long time and as they lay in bed Gunjan told Samrat about the Neil incident that took place earlier that day. She thought it was best to let Samrat know everything. "Samrat.. Neil came this morning when you had left for the meeting." She started. Samrat looked at her and his eyebrows narrowed at 'Neil's' name. "He .. he.. came to ..." she didnt know how best to put it. "He actually, didn't.. rather doesn't believe me!" she said. Samrat still looked blank, "Believe you with what?" he asked. "Samrat, he.. he.. still th-inks.. I .. I ... love... him." She said that last few words slowly to see the impact on his face. Samrat went silent. He didnt say anything just looked at Gunjan. Both of them didn't know what to say. Gunjan went on to tell him, "He said that he would.. he.. would.. get me.. get.. me back.. by.. by" she gulped. This would really hurt Samrat. "By what?" he asked, trying to keep his tone normal. "By... getting.. the tender." She said it. She just said it without thinking twice. And the next second she regretted saying it because samrat turned away and was silent again. His silence hurt Gunjan. She didn't know what to say. "Samrat, you still dont think that I have feelings for Neil, do you?" she asked because she thought that he hadn't replied because of that. Samrat was quiet again. "What if he gets the tender?" Samrat muttered. But a little too loudly because Gunjan heard it and she got the shock of her life. Samrat still thought she loved Neil.. after all that happened between them and everything in the past he still thinks she loves neil. This had greatly hurt Gunjan. She turned the other way trying to sleep and stopping her tears. She knew she wouldnt be able to. Samrat still didnt trust her.. She had told him that she had forgotten Neil but still...
After what seemed like forever, he said, "Gunjan.." "Hmm.." she said. "I know you don't have feelings for him anymore." He said. Gunjan turned to face him. Her eyes were moist. "Gunjan?" he said worried. He though of wiping his tears but.. he couldn't. "How can you think that I still have feelings for him?" she asked. This was the first time when she was sharing what she felt. "After all this while Thats how much you have understood about me? Thats how much you know me Samrat? I really thought that even if Neil doesn't know what i feel you do. I thought you could understand and'"Shh.. I do gunjan.. stop crying.. I know you dont have feelings for him. I know you dont love him. I understand." He said in a soft and comforting voice. Gunjan wiped her tears and said, "Then next time you better reply faster!" she said. And Samrat let out a chuckle and then both of them laughed..
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