*The Destiny...* FF*,Complete** thanks*- Page 3

Originally posted by: Indiangirl09

Hmm Very interesting...Its different...I am liking this FF...Can't wait to read the first part..I am really liking Dev's character...Angry young man look really suits him more than a sweet lover boy look..Do send me a pm whenever you post the first part...Although I know that I don't reply back..But that's because I am tied up into a very hectic schedule and I barely get time for myself...But I do read ur other FF whenever I can:)

Part-1

The sun already set down at the horizon. The atmosphere outside is still busy. Radhika in her white long gown, slowly opened her eyes. She took away the green color sheet spread from her body and her shivered hands touched her flat tummy. She felt the light pain over her lower abdomen. She tried to stand on her feet. Her body felt very weak. But she managed to walk up to the window and peeked outside.

Suddenly she heard the knock on the door.

The nurse peeked in: how are you feeling , Ms. Radhika?

Radhika tried to bring a forceful smile on her lips and said: I am alright.

Nurse: how is the pain?

Radhika: that is also fine.

Nurse: I think you still have that medicinal effect, but please let me know if you need something for pain, I know it will hurt...ok.

Radhika: Ok sister.. thanks

Nurse: goodnight

Radhika: Goodnight..

she watched as the nurse left leaving the door ajar.

Radhika back to her thoughts. Am I really feeling pain?. She concentrated hard, but failed. Is it really hurting me? Did I ever felt hurt physically ya mentally.. no.. never.. what is hurt? Why she wants to know whether it is hurting me.. no she asked about my pain, not hurt.. is it painful, painful for me. No, I can feel my lower muscles cramping..but that is usual for me. It cramped long back, almost every month..

MY mom was so happy when she first time heard about my cramps. She had a big smile on her face when she shared that with my aunts. And they all brought new cloths, sweets, everybody was fighting each other to feed me.. they danced around me..the sound of the dholak is still drumming in my ears'... am I the lucky one to be a part of that big family'... she smiled..

They found the best NRI guy for me. He looked at me lovely and made me felt like I am the most beautiful girl in the world. First I objected my family's decision saying.., I want to study more, I want to be someone meaningful.. but the happiness of my family made me to sit on that mandap beside him.. and he put the sindoor over my parted hair.. I felt happy because I smiled through it..

That night was so dark and it brought heavy rain and strong thunder ... I felt the pain of being intimate as he wrapped me under his strong arms, in an attempt to give me the warmth.. I looked at him, as he made his moves and I smiled back blindly as I saw the smile on his face.

But then I missed him from the next morning. The time was slipping from me like that strong thunder and it tried to break my heart... i tried to move on and sat on a corner listening to my family's words, and the darkness engulfed my days... But I felt happy when I realized a little life forming inside me. I felt so happy and looked at my Mom, thinking I am also going to be like you soon, a MOM.

I didn't see the same happiness on my family's face. My own mom advised me to take that pill, so that the family honor can remain intact', so that i can live my life fully for th rest of the life, forgetting my bad fortune...

I reached Delhi.. God was very grateful to me. I joined Purohith construction as the secretery of Dev Purohith. I left my past behind. Things were not easy for me, Everyone thought I am a village cartoon, who doesn't have any feelings , vishaka , Amba all were used to tease me , for my dressing, my way of silliness, my village talks... it was only Gopal das ji, and Berkha who understood me, helped me to survive' but don't know when he became a part of my day, slowly slowly he became a reason for my existence. His unknown hands were supporting me with every fall, he was angry , he was devilish but I saw those strong hands all the time' I realized I was falling for him'. .. But the conscious thought of reality made me to keep a distance from him .

I tried to escape from my past by being myself, sometimes a kid, sometimes as foolish i can, sometimes a cartoon in front of others. But Dev didn't let me move away from him, he gave me the support and I started understanding the meaning of love and life. And I was so happy in this world once again as he proposed to me in front of everyone, knowing everything about me. I was ready to embrace the hope in front of me.

Everything turned upside down the night when Rohan appeared in front of my eyes. I was able to sent him to jail as my love was holding my hand strong with full support. Once again I heard the sound of society questioning my identity'

But I failed to realize the truth of that support and left my love, my Dev humiliating him in front of others.. did Dev felt hurt?.. I don't know, all I wish was not to spoil his name in front of the society because of my past'

I need to move on because somebody else is existing in me and I can't leave my little one aside.. I walked out , may be my inner mind told me that it is good for Dev, for his family..being away from me will bring him back his dignity and his status. How can I see him and his family suffering in front of the media and employees just because of me.. I love him so much that I want to be happy.. I want to hear his success stories and be happy..

I talked to my little one every night as I struggled to get a new job. I felt the relief as I rubbed on my tummy, I felt the warmth as I felt my baby.. and one fine day I got a job, but alas! Dev came back to me as my boss again'... I tried to be myself, but his closeness again brought me the inner happiness.. I didn't realize how happy I felt when I saw him again in front of my eyes' ...but he looked at me with his angry eyes..

May be I hurt him so much for my happiness that I failed to realize how hurt he felt when I left him. He tried to prove that he can live keeping the distance from me, by ignoring me. Did that hurt me. NO, I wanted that, I wanted him to move on his life, I wanted to see him on the top, so that I can admire him from standing on the mud, as he climb each step.. so that I could clap along with others.. but did his avoidance, ever hurt me.. no because I was waiting for the happiness. I touched my tummy and walked away...' and failed to see the winning smile on his lips as he saw me walking away...' he won the battle... I felt Happy for him'.

I was walking alone that night, back home. Little I know thatMohini got the bail. I was in my own world, touching my baby.. did I felt a little kick as I walked.. no I didn't...it was just my imagination. Everybody was talking about my flat tummy, but the doctor reassured me that everything is fine. All react different to same situation.. I thought of going for little baby shopping tomorrow. I am going to make a small world for me and my little one. I need to move out from berkha's house. I need to look for something small, that I can afford for us, just me and my little one.. The thought of US brought the smile on my lips.. my imagination was flying high as I walked through the street.

I dreamed of lovely place, where it is completely covered by greenery.. the wind is blowing smoothly.. my duppatta is flying high..I took my little one in my hand and took the circles.. he laughed with his tender lips ..and I saw his pink teeth less gums'...

I imagined my world, I wanted to run ..but no, I should be careful, she touched her tummy and felt shy'... little I noticed that the hanging sword above my head..

Now I am waking up here.. and the nurse is asking me whether it hurts.. NO I was happy all through this way.. May be I was in that theater for sometimes, so that the DR. could save me. She cleared everything from my womb, so that I can live happily ever after..

But first time I am feeling hurt, it is not my physical pain.. I could feel my filling eyes.. my vision is getting blurred. I loved the world, I dreamed a world for me and my little one... and I was happy with everything.. may be it was my mistake to understand the true feeling..

Is Dev was right, that he never needed me..is he really was not affected by my presence. But I did right with him and he proved that today, he can live without me...'

She touched her tummy tight, a tearful sound came out from her throat .. Ha, mei Radhika , all alone now' left all my fortune behind... then with a wet throat she said inside'. but I never thought anyone can take you apart from me.. and I was wrong.. I am a failure.. you also left me alone..are you wearing that white soft cloth of an angel and flying around the heaven.. you left me alone too...

She wiped off the tears from her big beautiful eyes. She tried to smile. She checked on the cupboard. Found her slightly torn dress. She changed to her red shade dress and opened the door and walked out from that building'... And started walking on the street aimlessly'

Little does she know that an aching anxious heart was beating faster to know about her , who opened her hospital room door with a pale face, with so much guilt feeling and his eyes gone wild as he saw the empty bed. .. ...was searching for her with his mad eyes all through this way.. ...all through the street when he realized what happened to her..

Radhika , kaha chale gayi ho thum?.. thum mujhse door nahi jaa saktha.. thum mere ho, aur mei thumhara bina jee nahi saktha'.

All I could say and pray is " Take care Radhika".. because life is not ending here...

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Hope you will hate it...😲

Originally posted by: thujaa

different and very interesting update.

Originally posted by: priya.radev

Devia di

this is my 1st post...now i couldn't hold anymore,thatz y i creatd my account...i was n am a silent listenr in the forum...i like ur earlier 2 ff...but when i saw ur 3rd ff i became v.happy...but ur characterisation f 3rd ff disapntd me...😭

i just can't beliv that u make radka aohan's wife n made her his baby's mom😡....A COPY OF GEET, u r a creative writer,then wat is need f copyng somethng from geet??????????????????😕😲(i know the writer has full freedom in writing but still this s CB n we all know how we r connect with CB n radev)

in CB1 n CB2 we all feel irritated when someone is associatd wit dev n radhika😡...then how can we accpt someone wit radhika in ff...ie also a copy f a popular serial like geet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there r a ot f diffrnces betwn geet n CB...geet s more sensual but CB s a pure spiritual serial which touches our soul...

u r the 2nd best ff writer in the CB forum after sia...sia's n ur first 2 FFs are unique...they r the best...then how this happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M DISSAPOINTED with the characterization of radhika...😭